Instead of In New York Chapter 2
A/N Thank you so much to everyone who added this/me to favourite stories, story alert and author alert. I honestly didn't think anyone would read it J x Anyway on with chapter 2. I felt bad because Kurt wasn't in the last chapter so here you go x I own nothing that looks/sounds familiar.
They say the first day is always the hardest. Kurt wished this to be true more than anything. Using all remaining strength he had, Kurt dragged his feet painfully up the stairs to the third floor apartment he shared with Rachel and Finn. Today had been torture. He cried. Only just survived the gruelling vocal master class with Carmen Tibbideux. Cried again. Almost thrown a spoon at Rachel during lunch as she ranted on and on about how for once she was actually getting the same amount of attention as everyone else in the room. About time. Kurt thought. Then he cried some more before almost passing out in their dance class. Then, when he finally got to go home, Finn called and made him go to the store as he couldn't on the way home.
When Kurt finally made it to their door, he roughly shoved in the key and almost fell through the door. Thankfully both Rachel and Finn weren't home yet so Kurt went straight to his room, collapsed on his bed and cried. He knew it was going to be hard without Blaine but the thought didn't make it any easier. He wondered if Blaine felt the same way? Even if he did, he probably wouldn't be crying about it. Blaine hardly ever cried properly. Usually if he was upset he just looked like a little kicked puppy and didn't really talk.
Kurt checked the time on his phone...5pm. He wasn't scheduled to skype Blaine till 8pm. He sighed heavily and buried his face in his pillow. He hated the fact that he couldn't just drive round to Blaine's to see him. Sure he could call and skype him but it just wasn't the same. Kurt had left Lima two weeks ago but the pain and realisation of how hard this was really going to be only sunk in today.
Suddenly his phone buzzed beside him. He excitedly picked it up, hoping for a text from Blaine.
One new Message : Tina
Sighing, he opened it. It wasn't that he wasn't happy to hear from Tina, it was just that he was really wanting a text from Blaine. One of the ones that always made him smile and automatically feel better.
Opening the message he paused when he saw it's content. There was no message, just a video file that read 'Blaine-New York'. With a shaky hand, Kurt tapped the screen and the opening chords of an unfamiliar song filled the air.
Blaine was stood in front of the New Directions, head bowed, preparing himself to sing. Kurt bit his lip, waiting for Blaine to start. Suddenly, his ears were filled with Blaine's voice and Kurt's heart practically stopped.
If you were here beside me instead of in New York
The first line really got Kurt. He knew automatically why Tina had sent him this. This song was for him. This was Blaine openly standing in front of the glee club, singing his feelings without a care - something Kurt had always admired he could do.
If the curve of you was curved on me
I'd tell you that I loved you before I ever knew you
'Cause I loved the simple thought of you
If our hearts are never broken and there's no joy in the mending
There's so much this hurt can teach us both
There's distance and there's silence, your words have never left me
They're the prayer that I say every day
Kurt wiped a stray tear from his cheek as he watched the video completely still, his breathing slow.
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Kurt watched in awe as the tears began to escape from Blaine's eyes. His own beginning to fall more rapidly, leaving streaks down his porcelain cheeks.
The lone neon nights and the ache of the ocean
And the fire that was starting to spark
I miss it all, from the love to the lightning
And the lack of it snaps me in two
This song was scarily true for them. It completely described everything that they were going through and everything that they were felling.
If you were here beside me instead of in New York
In the arms you said you'd never leave
How Blaine had managed to find this song was a complete mystery to Kurt. The lyrics. Kurt remembered his promise after Blaine and the Warblers sang him Somewhere Only We Know as a goodbye, back in his junior year. The words "Ill never say goodbye to you" rang in his ears.
Kurt, now full on crying and completely engrossed in the video didn't hear Rachel come in. He didn't hear her come and stand at his door, listening closely to the song and watching Kurt with sad eyes. He didn't hear her soft cries that mixed with his own. He only noticed her presence when he heard her walk forward and lightly sit beside him on his large bed. They continued to watch the video together in silence in silence.
I'd tell you that it's simple and it was only ever thus
There is nowhere else that I belong
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
Come on, come out, come here, come here
The lone neon nights and the ache of the ocean
And the fire that was starting to spark
I miss it all from the love to the lightning
And the lack of it snaps me in two
Just give me a sign, there's an end and not beginning
To the quiet chaos driving me mad
The lone neon nights and the walls of the ocean
And the fire that is starting to go out
Kurt watched silently as the music faded out into the silence that fell over the room of McKinley students. Blaine was still stood in front of his peers, tears streaming down his face and he didn't even care. Possibly many of the New Directions had never really seen him cry and yet, there he was, publicly displaying his emotions through a perfectly picked song. Suddenly, the camera was turned to the floor and they watched as Tina's feet moved forward to - as they presumed - comfort Blaine, but seeing as the video finished then, they couldn't be sure.
Kurt looked to Rachel with sad, bloodshot, tear-filled eyes who was silently crying to herself. As if on cue, she turned to him and upon seeing his expression, pulled him close into a hug and remained there peacefully until Kurt cried himself to sleep.
Rachel felt bad for Kurt. It was obvious how much he and Blaine loved each other. Kurt seemed to always have some sort of sadness in his life. It wasn't fair. She knew what love was like. She had it with Finn. It was why she was so happy that they didn't have to go through all of this too. She checked the time on the small clock on Kurt's wall. 5:45pm. She would let Kurt sleep for a little while and then wake him around 7:15pm as she knew he was set to skype Blaine at 8pm - She knew Kurt would kill her if he couldn't fix his hair before hand and she knew he would also kill her if she let him sleep through it. They needed this today. They needed each other.
It was then she heard the door open, signalling that Finn was home
"It'll be OK Kurt" she said quietly before sliding off of the bed and going to greet Finn. As she walked into their small living room, she walked quickly to Finn and hugged him tightly. He tried to pull away after a few seconds but Rachel just held on tighter.
"Rach?" He asked worriedly.
"I'm just so happy you're here" She replied softly, smiling up at him. He looked confused for a moment before he smiled back.
"Always."
A/N I apologise for the Finchel at the end. I hate them but I had to put it in for the fic to make sense. I also apologise for featuring the same song but I felt that I should include Kurt's reaction to the video. What do you think about the first line ? I'm thinking I might start every if not most chapters like that. Let me know what you think. Next up, I'm not sure if I should write the Klaine skype call or just skip to the next day, which, I promise, will be easier on both of them lol. Reviews ? Follow me on twitter Clo_CrissColfer x