Instead of In New York chapter 3
A/N Hi. I'm sorry I haven't updated all week but I've had a ton of school stuff to do and writer's block on top of that. I also had to learn how to work skype before I posted this lol. I got my first review ! YAY ! x thank you x thank you also to everyone who is still adding to favourite stories and story alert x This is the first chapter that they will both be in x I'm sorry if anyone gets confused but I'm pretty sure you will be able to work it out x Bold italics are thoughts x Italics are Kurt although I'm pretty sure you can tell lol x enjoy x J
After getting home from glee, Blaine busied himself with homework until around 7:30pm. By then he had just had enough.
Half an hour to go.
He thought about just texting Kurt and asking if they could just skype now but decided against it, wanting their first contact of the day to be when they could actually see each other (even if it was just through a small window on their computers). He also didn't want to sound desperate - even though he technically was - he didn't want Kurt to think he was being ridiculous and childish, giving him a reason to leave.
Blaine sighed heavily before slowly making his way downstairs to grab a quick snack, just to pass the remaining time.
. . .
Kurt quickly re did his hair into it's signature style after falling asleep after his mini break down earlier. He couldn't believe he fell asleep. He almost missed the one thing that had been getting him through his god awful day. Sighing, he picked up the can of hairspray that sat near him and sprayed his re-styled do, watching entranced at the swirls of the fumes in the light as they engulfed him. He checked the small clock on his bedside.
7:45pm
Fifteen minutes to go.
His original plan had been to text Blaine, asking if they could make their call time earlier, but, seeing as his need for a 'power nap' took over, that idea was out the window.
He slipped his phone into his pocked and quickly slid out the room and into their small kitchen. Finn was sitting there reading the paper and, eating. As usual. He opened his mouth to speak but the look Kurt shot him before he did silenced him and urged him to go back to his paper. Kurt quickly grabbed a glass, filled it with water and walked quickly back to his room without a word.
He checked the time again.
Five minutes to go.
. . .
After only just escaping what was sure to be a long, painful conversation with his mom, Blaine reached his room, clutching the plate with the half-eaten sandwich as tightly as he could with his now shaking hands.
He ditched the plate on his desk and grabbed is laptop, practically running back to his bed. He dropped it lightly onto the sheets and plopped down - not so lightly - behind it. Hands not moving at all fast enough for him, he logged in, then, once the screen had settled, went straight to skype and logged on, typing his username and password with such a great speed he had no idea how he got it right first try.
Now all he had to do was wait one more minute.
. . .
Kurt's laptop was being obnoxiously slow. He checked the small clock in the corner of his screen.
8:01pm.
He mildly started to panic. What if Blaine thought he forgot ? Some more minutes rolled by and Kurt still wasn't able to log on. By the time it got to 8:05 he was ready to cry. He threw himself off of his bed and raced out of his room and into the small living area where Rachel and Finn were curled up on one of the couches watching some movie. They both heard him approach and turned to him, Rachel's face wore a confused expression.
Kurt? Aren't you supposed to be skyping Blaine?" Rachel quizzed him.
"Rachel I need to borrow your laptop NOW" He said far too quickly, baffled by the fact that she understood him.
"Um…OK, it's on my desk. Just go in and grab it" Kurt took off down the small hall, heart pounding and breathing heavily. He threw open the door to Finn and Rachel's room and ran straight to her desk. He grabbed the pink object he was looking for and sprinted back into his own room.
He just hoped Blaine was still waiting on him.
. . .
Blaine was worried now. Their skype call was scheduled for 8 but it was now almost ten past and there was still no sign of Kurt. A million and one thoughts began to race threw his mind, fighting for dominance.
Things ranged from:
Maybe his laptop died
Maybe he just lost track of time
To:
Maybe he doesn't want to talk to you
Maybe he found someone better than you
Blaine felt a warm tear roll down his cheek and splash onto his hand. He mentally scolded himself for allowing even a single tear when Kurt could sign on any minute. He didn't want to look a mess for his boyfriend.
He dried his eyes on the back of his hand and pulled his phone from it's location under his pillow. Unlocking it, he felt more tears threaten to spill at any moment.
8:15pm
He quickly shut his eyes tightly to prevent the oncoming flood. Sighing, he quickly scrolled through his contacts until he reached Kurt. His past promise to make their first contact of the day their skype call forgotten as he pressed the green call button. Blaine turned back to his laptop, just in case as the phone rang three times. Then Blaine saw what he had been waiting on for the past fifteen minutes. Kurt had logged on.
Hanging up quickly and grinning like the Cheshire cat, Blaine hit the video call button and waited for Kurt to answer.
He didn't have to wait long. Soon each of their screens were filled with the image of the other and both of them felt automatically better seeing the other's face
"Hey" came Kurt's voice through the speaker on Blaine's laptop. The older boy was smiling hugely at the camera and Blaine was sure he could see tears in his eyes. Blaine was so focused on Kurt's image that he almost forgot to answer.
"Hey babe" He replied once he came back to earth. Then he remembered something. "Why did it take so long for you to sign on ?" Kurt bit his lip before answering.
"Erm… my laptop was being really slow and wouldn't load so I had to borrow Rachel's" He eventually said, adding a small smile at the end. Blaine didn't seem convinced. Maybe he was just being paranoid, but something didn't seem right. Surely that couldn't have taken a whole fifteen minutes to sort out. He could have called. Blaine just simply nodded to the camera and avoided eye contact.
Kurt didn't understand. Blaine was being really quiet and when he had told him about his laptop, he didn't look as if he believed him. Did Blaine not trust him ? No. He was just imagining things. Of course Blaine trusted him. After a few minutes of saying nothing, Kurt decided to break the silence.
"So… how is Senior Year so far?" He asked, trying to sound enthusiastic. Blaine looked up slightly and finally made eye contact. Should he tell Kurt about the days events ? About the locker ? About the crying ? About the song ? No. Definitely not the song. He took a breath before answering.
"It was OK. I got pushed into the lockers once but that's nothing new" He brushed off the last part with a small, hopefully unnoticeably fake smile. Kurt, however was not letting it go.
"Oh my gosh, are you OK ? Did they hurt you ? Who was it ?" He rambled quickly, barely taking a breath. Blaine tried to catch his attention to stop his rant, but Kurt was determined to get this out. "I thought this was supposed to have stopped. We won Nationals last year, why does the school still hate us ? Did you tell anyo-"
"Kurt, calm down. I'm fine. It's the first day of school, the jocks have had to survive the whole summer without shoving anyone into a locker or trash can or throwing slushies. It was bound to happen at some point" Blaine cut him off. Kurt looked unsure but accepted Blaine's explanation.
"Ok. Are you sure you're OK ?" He asked looking concerned.
"Yes Kurt, I'm fine. You don't need to worry about me."
"OK" Kurt replied slowly.
"OK" Blaine confirmed with a sharp nod of his head.
"What about glee ? Did you sing anything today ?" Blaine didn't know what to do. He didn't want to tell Kurt about 'New York'. If he did, it would make Kurt feel guilty about leaving and he certainly didn't want Kurt to regret NYADA. Regret his dream. So, he did something he had never done before. He lied to Kurt.
"No. No one sang today. Mr Schue was just telling us about a new recruiting number we are going to do on Friday". He blurted quickly. Blaine watched in confusion as Kurt's face twisted to show an unrecognisable emotion. Blaine automatically felt guilty. He was about to open his mouth to speak but Kurt beat him to it.
"Really ?" Kurt asked, but it was not a question that was meant to be answered. "Because I know for a fact Blaine, that you did". Blaine was stunned into silence, how could Kurt possibly know ? He couldn't think of something logical to say to his boyfriend so he just sat there, Staring at the keypad on his laptop. Refusing to look at Kurt and see the look of disappointment that he was sure Kurt was bearing.
"W-why are you lying to me ?" Kurt said with a sniff, tears evidently forming in the older boy's eyes. Voice breaking, wearing an expression of utter hurt. Blaine looked up, warm tears forming in his own eyes. Hazel orbs met blue ones and a single tear escaped and rolled down Kurt's pale cheek. The sight made Blaine's heart break and he wished he could reach out to reassure Kurt. Like they always had.
"Kurt, I'm so s-sorry" Blaine whispered, trying and failing to blink away his own tears that had sprung a steady stream from his eyes.
"I think it might be a bit late for sorry here, Blaine. Tina sent me a video of you performing in glee today. I cried myself to sleep over it. All I've done all day is cry. Even Rachel was crying at the video. I've been missing you like crazy since I left. This skype call is all that has gotten me through today, but now…" Kurt let out a small humourless laugh" Now I wish we hadn't had it. Now I feel like I can't trust you, considering you would lie to me over something as small as a song. What do we have if we don't have trust"? Blaine mumbled something Kurt was unable to understand.
"I'm sorry, what ?" Kurt quizzed. Blaine took a deep breath and looked at the camera.
"Love." He said again and then looked away. Kurt laughed again.
"Hmm, but that's just it Blaine, what is love without trust"? Blaine didn't have an answer to that. "I'll call you tomorrow. I need to think about all of this". Kurt sighed. Blaine finally found his voice.
"What about, u-us"? He asked in a small voice. Kurt sighed again.
"I don't know. I really don't know". Kurt looked at Blaine one more time and then turned off his camera.
Blaine, logged off of his computer quickly and collapsed into his pillows. He couldn't believe this. Kurt might break up with him. How was he supposed to survive the rest of the year without him ? Not even bothering to change his clothes, Blaine got under his covers and let loud sobs fill the silence in the room. Finally, he cried himself to sleep, dreams filled with memories of their beautiful relationship that was quite possibly coming to a close.
A/N please don't kill me. I haven't decided Klaine's future yet. You'll just have to keep reading lol x Review ? Follow me on twitter Clo_CrissColfer x