Instead of In New York chapter 4
A/N Hi. I got a strangely positive response to the last chapter, despite the fact that my bored mind created a Klaine fight lol. Thank you to the people that are sticking with this fic and to everyone who is just joining us x I love you all lol x I'm now up to 5 reviews x yay x
They say the first day is always the hardest. They were wrong. Blaine trudged down the obnoxiously bright halls of McKinley even more depressed than the previous day. At least yesterday Blaine still knew he had Kurt. Yesterday he had never lied to his boyfriend.
Lying to Kurt was one of the biggest mistakes of Blaine's life. He may have ruined everything they had and built over the best part of the last 2 years, and over what? A song he had sang in glee club. Over being to stubborn to admit just how much he missed Kurt. How much he needed Kurt in his life.
Blaine had to somehow create a plan in his mind of how he was going to go on without Kurt. He had considered asking his parents about transferring back to Dalton, just to escape the memories that would haunt him everyday in McKinley. But that wouldn't work. Dalton had been where they met. Where they had grown to know each other properly. Where they had shared their first kiss. They beginning of their relationship. If anything, memories from Dalton would haunt him even more so than the ones in McKinley. Also the fact that going back to Dalton would mean having to share a school with Sebastian. The cause of their first problem. Blaine didn't think he could handle seeing him every school day, even if he had apologised eventually.
If he was to transfer, he would had to go somewhere else. But seeing as probably the only option left would mean his first school - The one he had fled because of bullies - the better option would be to stay in McKinley. Even if it did mean re living most of their memories every day.
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Kurt was torn on what to do. He hadn't slept at all last night, and spent the most part of it crying. He wanted to forgive Blaine. If he could take back everything that had happened the previous night, he would. But some small part of his brain wasn't willing to let Blaine get off easy. He had lied to him, and that had hurt Kurt. Blaine had never lied to him over anything before, they were supposed to tell each other everything. Blaine's lie about the song made Kurt question Blaine's explanation of the locker incident earlier in the conversation.
What if this wasn't the first time Blaine had lied to Kurt.
Maybe he lies to you every day when he tells you he loves you.
Maybe he lies to you every time he can't hang out.
Maybe he lies to you every time he tells you you look good.
Maybe he's been lying to you this whole time.
A splash of water landed on Kurt's book as a million accusations and possibilities swirled around in his head. Kurt quickly wiped away the tears with the back of his hand and grabbed his bag. He hastily excused himself from the table he had been sitting at with Rachel and a few of their classmates and half ran towards the nearest bathroom.
He knew what he was going to do. He had to call Blaine.
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Blaine really wanted to skip glee today. He just wanted to go home and sleep as he waited on the promised phone call from Kurt deciding their future. But Mr Schue had him singing lead with Tina on their recruiting number so he kind of needed to show up. He sat in the seat in the back left hand corner of the room, silently reading over his part when his phone began buzzing from his bag. He knew automatically who it would be but he still checked the caller ID just to make sure.
Incoming Call: Kurt
He rose from his seat and raced over to the piano where Mr Schue was going over some things with Rory.
"Mr Schue can I please take this call" He pleaded. Mr Schue looked momentarily confused and looked as if he was about to object but then he seemed to understand the urgency of it, just not the story.
"Go Ahead. Tell Kurt I say hi". He replied with a smile. As Blaine's cheery expression morphed into a sad smile, Mr Schue finally did understand. Blaine's face said it all. This wasn't good.
Blaine darted from the room and ran a little down the hall just enough so that his peers wouldn't hear him.
He took a slowly, shaky breath to calm himself before hitting the answer button.
"Hello". He said quietly and nervously. He heard a sharp breath being taken on the other end of the line.
"Hi". Kurt replied. He didn't waste anymore time. "First of all, I'm really sorry for shouting at you last night". Blaine was about to reply and tell him it was OK but Kurt beat him to it. "Second of all, I never go to say this last night because I was more upset than angry - How dare you lie to me Blaine Anderson ! And third of all, we're not breaking up".
Blaine let out the breath he didn't realise he had been holding. Completely stunned at Kurt's words. "We're not"? Blaine questioned, grin spreading across his face.
Kurt sighed. "No. We're taking a break". He said plainly. Blaine's smile instantly disappeared and tears automatically fell from his eyes. How could they not be breaking up but taking a break ?
"W-what"? Blaine stuttered, completely shocked.
"I don't want to break up but you lied to me Blaine and I'm not going to just let that go. I'm not ready to completely say goodbye to you just now but maybe soon I will be. I need time to think about this and that's something that is going to take time. You really hurt me and I need to figure out if I can trust you again".
"K-Kurt, you c-can". Blaine faltered, it would be a miracle if Kurt didn't notice he was crying. It was pretty obvious, what with the stuttering, the sniffing and the quiet sobbing.
"I want to believe you. I really, really do. I need to ask you something and you have to be completely honest with me".
"O-o k-k" Actually getting words out was beginning to be extremely hard for Blaine. Kurt may say they weren't breaking up but Blaine knew that going 'on a break' was technically a temporary break up. So in Blaine's mind, Kurt was technically breaking up with him over the phone. Something Blaine had been dreading since the moment they began seeing each other.
"Have you ever lied to me before"?
"NO"! Blaine almost shouted into the phone
"OK, OK calm down. Next question. Was the story you told me about the lockers, completely true? And by that I mean, nothing left out at all" Blaine knew automatically that he couldn't make the same mistake that he had previously. That meant he had to admit to his crying. Something he usually wouldn't do. He had to. A rather loud sigh could be heard from Blaine's side of the phone and he took a deep breath.
"T-the part about the jocks and me being f-fine is true. I left out the part where the l-locker they pushed me into was y-your old one. I cried in the bathroom for about the next t-twenty minutes before eventually showing up at glee. I s-sang 'New York' for you after Mr Schue had to change his lesson plan when we questioned h-him about wanting to r-replace all of you who g-graduated last y-year". Surely Kurt had to know he was crying by now. If he did he wasn't showing any signs of caring.
Kurt's heart was breaking. Blaine was practically in hysterics on the other end of the phone. But Kurt needed to do this. They both needed this. This was right. So Kurt took a breath and continued with what he was going to say.
"So, you havelied to me before then"? Kurt questioned after he had controlled himself. Blaine didn't answer, he just cried harder, unable to form any words. "So I guess that means you just lied to me again then, huh"? Blaine didn't have a response. He could only think of one thing to say.
"K-Kurt" He pleaded into the speaker, sinking to the floor against the wall behind him.
"What do you want me to say Blaine ? Do you want me to tell you that it's alright ? You've gone from supposedly never lying to me before to lying to me three times in two days! You know what, scratch what I said before Blaine. That's us done. It's over!" Kurt yelled down the phone. Blaine's jaw dropped to the floor, as did his phone. Over ? No. No it couldn't be over. He remained on the floor for a number of long seconds before some what controlling himself. He slowly crawled towards his phone, ignoring Kurt's screams of his name and held it to his ear.
"Bye Kurt". He said plainly and hung up on his boyfriend. His ex-boyfriend. Blaine He hugged his knees to his chest and cried fully on the floor. Not caring who saw him.
After a good ten minutes of sobbing, Blaine rose from the floor, using all of his remaining energy and walked quickly back to the choir room. Eight pairs of eyes turned to him as he appeared in the door. He ran through the middle of the group, grabbed his bag and ran straight back out the way he had come in and straight out the front door. Tears still painfully rolling down his cheeks.
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As soon as Blaine had left, Tina spoke up.
"Oh my gosh, Kurt just broke up with him didn't he." She said, bringing a hand up to cover her mouth in shock. The students just stood there looking at each other in utter disbelief. Kurt and Blaine were one of the strongest and longest going couples that they club had had. Them breaking up just didn't make sense. Finally it was Mr Schue who spoke up.
"I think so". He said sadly then stared at the door Blaine had ran out of.
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Blaine ran straight to his car and slammed the door loudly. His whole body shaking with sobs. He roughly started the car and quickly pulled out of the school. Looking for something to distract him, Blaine hit the button on his dashboard, playing the CD he had last been playing.
If you were here beside me instead of in New York. . .
Really? Blaine thought to himself. If it wasn't for this song, none of this would have happened. If it wasn't for this song, he still would never have lied to Kurt. If it wasn't for this song, Kurt wouldn't have broken up with him.
. . .I miss it all, from the love to the lightning. . .
More tears rolled down his cheeks, joining the others, leaving a feeling of warmth and distorting his vision. He continued along the road much too fast, only partially able to see due to his tears. He didn't care. He just wanted to get home. Rain poured heavily from the sky, making his driving conditions all the more treacherous. Suddenly he felt the car skid violently and spin as it met a wide puddle. Blaine tried frantically to regain control but the car was spinning uncontrollably and heading towards a nearby tree. He heard an almighty crash and felt his head collide with the window. Suddenly everything hurt. Blaine felt himself slipping from consciousness but managed to form one sentence
"Kurt, I love you". He whispered and everything went black.
. . .And the fire that is starting to go out.
A/N DUNDUNDUN ! Please don't kill me x I'm sorry x I felt that the break-up had to happen x that was pre planned. However, apparently when I'm bored, my mind decides it is going to further depress Blaine and then make him crash his car. lol x School finishes on Wednesday so I'll be able to write this more often x I'll try update tomorrow, if not definitely the day after so you don't have to wait forever to find out what happened x Reviews ? Follow me on twitter Clo_CrissColfer x