Instead of In New York Chapter 6
A/N I started writing this at 3 in the morning lol x I apologize for the delay but I couldn't think what to write in this chapter. I put a little not on my profile but I didn't really expect anyone to see it. Short A/N compared to usual but I don't care x Reminder, Italics are Kurt. Bold italics are thoughts. Bold is emphasis and Normal is Blaine and other thoughts x On with chapter 6.
. . .Kurt reached a shaking hand out to grasp the door handle. He hesitantly pushed it down and then slowly opened the door slightly. He took a deep breath and pushed it all the way open. His breath caught in his throat and a stream of tears started to fall from his eyes. . .
The sight appearing before him shattered his heart as he took in the image of his boyfriend lying alone in the hospital bed. Purple bruises littered his body and there was a bandage wrapped tightly around his head. He looked as if he could be sleeping but the numerous machines that cluttered the small room reminded him that he wasn't. Kurt heard the soft click of the door behind him and turned to see the retreating figure of his dad through the small window. He sighed and ran a shaky hand through his hair (not caring if it messed up the perfectly styled do). He sunk into one of the plastic chairs beside Blaine's bedside and grasped his hand.
Kurt remained in this position by Blaine's bed for what seemed like a long while if the fading light outside the window was anything to go by. Eventually he looked up with sad, wet eyes and glanced briefly at the machinery littering the room and then back to Blaine. Kurt drew in a small shaky breath and found the ability to speak.
"I'm so so sorry Blaine". He choked out. Letting even more tears fall from sore eyes. He didn't care if Blaine couldn't hear him. He still had to say this. It was the truth. "I'm s-sorry about everything. I'm sorry for shouting at you a-and I'm sorry for b-breaking up with you. I never s-should have done it. I didn't m-mean anything that I said. I know you didn't m-mean to l-lie to me and I'm sorry for over reacting. I'm just so scared that something is going to break us apart this year that everything seemed so much bigger in my head. I never s-should have c-called you when I did. I s-should have waited till I knew you were home b-because n-now you're in here, and it's all m-my f-fault". Kurt broke then. He emotionally broke. Powerful sobs over came him and he shook violently. "Please. . .please w-wake up Blaine. I c-can't lose you. I j-just can't". I let myself drift off to a dreamless sleep, resting my head on the edge of Blaine's bed, refusing to release his hand.
. . . (Blaine's POV)
Everything still hurts. Why does everything hurt ? What's going on ? Where am I ? Why is it so dark ? Why can't I open my eyes ?
Someone is there. There is someone holding my hand.
Someone is speaking. Yes. There is definitely someone speaking. Who is it ?
"I'm so so sorry Blaine".
Kurt ? Why is Kurt there ? Why is he sorry ? Why can't I open my eyes ?
. . .
When Kurt woke up it was light again. He was quite surprised that the hospital staff didn't throw him out at the end of visiting hours. His dad had probably talked to them. Kurt looked to his hand, it still held Blaine's tightly as if it was the only thing that kept him from falling apart. He softly untangled their fingers in order to stretch without pulling Blaine out of the bed - which probably wouldn't do any good to his recovery.
Kurt sighed and pulled out his phone to text Rachel. Kurt had told her and Finn that they didn't have to fly out to Lima. Kurt needed someone to collect all of his homework and assignments from his classes and he couldn't do that if Rachel was here too. Rachel had been hesitant at first as she didn't want Kurt to have to fly out there himself but eventually agreed when Kurt reminded her that he would be flying out himself anyway and told her that he wanted some time alone with Blaine. Finn had sided with Kurt so Rachel eventually gave in.
He slowly texted her to make sure she had gotten everything from his classes yesterday then settled back in the chair once again with the magazine he had brought with him on the plane.
Hours must have passed and Kurt still remained in the same position, in the hard seat by Blaine's bed, still grasping his hand. Burt had come and gone during the day, as had Blaine's parents but none of them stayed any longer than an hour, so, Kurt was alone as he sat in the small room, silently willing Blaine to wake up.
Kurt had just pulled out his phone again to check the time when he felt it. He felt a slight twitch coming from Blaine as he still held his hand. Kurt stopped and looked up, not wanting to act or get his hopes up until he knew for sure. Maybe his mind was playing tricks on him. Then he felt it again. He saw it too. Then Blaine slightly began to stir and Kurt leaped into action.
"Nurse!" He shouted through the open door and turned back to Blaine. Happy tears leaked from Kurt's eyes as Blaine's eyes fluttered open. The nurse had slipped into the room but remained standing by the door until she was needed, wanting to give the two some space.
Blaine's eyes searched the room and found Kurt's. A smile found it's way onto his face as he registered the image he was seeing. Kurt mirrored the action.
"Hey". Blaine said quietly after a while. Kurt couldn't help himself. He moved to pull Blaine into a hug, cautious not to cause him ay pain - He was in a car accident. Blaine didn't have the same cares though, he grasped Kurt tighter, trying to show both how happy he was that Kurt was there and how sorry he was for lying to him. They pulled away eventually and the nurse decided that now was the right time to interfere.
Kurt watched as the nurse asked Blaine all sorts of questions. Blaine remembered his accident so that was a good sign. He couldn't have told you what else she asked as Kurt was more focused on Blaine, never taking his eyes off him and offering small smiles whenever he caught his eye. Soon the nurse was leaving and Kurt and Blaine were alone.
Neither of them spoke for a few minutes, letting a bordering uncomfortable silence fill the room. Blaine was now trying to avoid eye contact with Kurt and wore an expression that was somewhere between confused and upset and Kurt understood why. In Blaine's mind, the last conversation of their's, Kurt had ended their relationship. Blaine was not conscious during Kurt's apology last night. He had no idea how Kurt felt. They needed to fix this.
"Blaine". Kurt said softly breaking the silence in the room. Blaine finally looked up to meet Kurt's eyes but his expression did not change. He looked broken and Kurt wished that he could just embrace him and pretend that nine of this had ever happened. That wasn't to be. It did happen. The fact that Blaine was in this place was a constant reminder. Kurt continued. "I'm so so sorry. I over reacted. I never should have broken up with you because now you're in here. And its all my f-fault". Kurt broke down crying again. He was truly sorry about everything that had happened. Everything had just had a domino effect since their fight on Monday - which, was all Kurt's fault too.
Kurt expected Blaine to be angry with him. Why shouldn't he be. He expected him to tell him to leave and that he never wanted to see him again. Instead, Blaine done something completely unexpected. He grasped Kurt's hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze and smiled widely at him.
. . .
Blaine sat and watched as Kurt began to break down. Blaine had been avoiding eye contact with Kurt because he was unsure as to where they stood. Kurt might only be there because he felt he should check in on Blaine. He might still want no relationship with him. Now seeing Kurt in floods of tears Blaine thought differently. Could he be possibly getting a second chance ? Blaine took Kurt's hand a squeezed, offering him a reassuring smile to try help him calm down.
"Kurt, this is not your fault. This happened because I thought it would be smart to drive while crying and speed in the rain. You had your reasons for breaking up with me. I hurt you and I'm really, really sorry. I messed up and I don't blame you for ending things". Blaine said with a small smile. Kurt looked confused and shocked at Blaine's statement but did not take very much time to reply.
"Blaine, how can you say that this is not my fault. I made you cry and I should have known that you wouldn't stay until the end of glee. It was my fault you were driving in that rain so its my fault that you crashed.
How can you say that you don't blame me for ending things. All you done was not tell me about a song that you sang in glee because you didn't want me to feel guilty for leaving and miss out a few details of something that happened in school because you didn't want me to worry. You were only thinking of me and then I went and broke up with you. Over the phone ! How can you not hate me ?" Kurt finished the last part quietly, looking directly into Blaine's eyes with a disbelieving expression. Blaine couldn't believe that Kurt thought he would hate him. Blaine could never hate him. He loved him.
"Kurt, I could never hate you. I love you". Blaine explained. Kurt seemed to relax a little at Blaine's statement but still didn't look totally convinced. Kurt sighed and then asked Blaine a question that had been plaguing his mind since Blaine woke up.
"Do you. . .do you still want to. . .break up?" He asked, hesitating many times. It was Blaine's turn to look shocked.
"What ? No. No Kurt. I never wanted one in the beginning and I certainly don't want one now". He almost shouted. Kurt looked relieved and a wide smile spread across his face.
"Me neither". He admitted and smiled even wider. Blaine mirrored him and they subconsciously pulled each other close for a long over due kiss.
. . .
Blaine had been let out of the hospital a couple of days later. Kurt had stayed for a while but Rachel couldn't collect his work forever and Blaine didn't want him falling behind when he didn't need to so, with much persuasion from Blaine, Burt, Rachel and Finn - as well as some input from Blaine's parents - Kurt had reluctantly agreed to return to New York. This goodbye had not been as hard as their last. They had agreed to forget this whole ordeal had ever happened. They had came out the other end of it stronger than ever so neither wished to ponder over it. Now almost a week after Kurt had returned to New York, Blaine was preparing himself for his first day back at Mckinley.
The day had passed without a hitch. No one pushed him into a locker. No one had called him any disgusting names. No one had slushied him. People had actually spoken to him, showing concern for his well being and wishig to know more about his accident. He even caught a jock giving him a small, but real smile! It was perfect.
Now it was time for glee and Blaine walked slowly to the choir room, enjoying the way he was being treated in the hallways because he knew that it would not last. As he approached the choir room, he was aware that he could not hear any sounds coming from within the doors.
Maybe glee is off today and they forgot to tell me He thought as he took the final steps to the door. He walked through the small entrance into complete darkness. He was about to turn around and go home - concluding that he did infact miss the message - when a quiet giggle emerged from the utter silence in the room. Blaine stood completely still for a few moments before fumbling around for the lightswitch in the darkness. He flipped it softly and took in the sight before him.
A 'Welcome back Blaine' banner was suspended from the window above the seats and there were balloons everywhere. Blaine stood in the doorway completely speachless and watched breathlessly as all of the New Directions and Mr Schue emerged from the corners of the room. Tina was first to reach him and she enveloped him in a large hug. Tears of joy threatened to spill from his eyes as each member came and hugged him. Blaine stood there, silently with a huge smile spreading across his face as the first few tears began to drop down his cheeks. He was so lucky to have found a group of people that cared so much for him.
He realised that, even though he had to go this year without Kurt, he wasn't alone. He had eight people in this room that loved him and cared about him to help him through it. And that was everything to him.
Finally after all of the commotion had died down, Mr Schue spoke up.
"Lets get us some new members" He exclaimed. The statement was met with cheers of agreement from the teenagers that really were a family.
The End.
A/N I cant believe I just finished that. I wasn't planning on but it seemed like the right time to do it. Writing this fan fiction has been so fuun and I want to thank everyone who read/reviewed/favourited it. I love yous was my first shot at writing a fic andd it certainly is not going to be my last.I am going start another fic this week but that wont be published for a while as I am going on holiday tomorrow so stay tuned. Thank you again for reading this and I hope you all enjoyed it. Tell me what you thought of it and if anyone has any ideas for another fic I would gladly accept your suggestions :D Thank you x follow me on twitter Clo_CrissColfer x I love you all x Stay Tuned
If you were here beside me instead of in New York. . .