Chapter Nineteen – Shouldn't Be a Good in Goodbye

Lydia and Jenny browsed the isles of the local Food Mart, looking for anything and everything that was bad for them. After the whole camping disaster, Lydia invited Jenny over for a girl's night to try and cheer her up. No sleepover was complete without ice cream, cookie dough and all kinds of other junk food. Lydia grabbed a bag of chocolate chips and tossed them into the cart.

"I really appreciate you doing this." Said Jenny, as she tossed in some popcorn. "I know you're trying to help me out, and it's really nice. Especially considering we were never really that close."

"It's really nothing; I'm going to enjoy this just as much as you are." Lydia replied, holding up two bags of chips. "How are you holding up?"

"Still pretty pissed, at both of them, but especially Johnny. I mean I didn't even know Sawyer so I figure it would be easier for her to screw me over, but Johnny was like my best friend. I loved him."

"It's always harder to forgive the ones that we love. We expect more from them and when they let us down it hurts more than usual."

"I almost wish they had just never said anything. I mean I was on my way to getting over him, but now all I can think about is what Sawyer has that I don't."

"You can't think like that. You have to be glad that this happened when it did, and that you saw Johnny's true colours when you did. You wouldn't want this to happen years from now after you've invested so much of your life in him." Lydia said.

"This sucks." Jenny said, scrunching her face up.

"No, no, no, no, no. We are not going to be sad, not today. Today is about watching stupid movies, eating raw cookie dough and having pillow fights in our underwear."

Jenny smiled and rolled her eyes. "That does sound like a lot of fun."

"Trust me," Lydia said, linking her arm with Jenny's "it will be."

Casey stood at his front, wearing a white lace dress, trying to decide whether to knock or not. She wanted to see him, but she wasn't sure he wanted to see her. She turned on her heels to head back to her car when she heard the door open. She spun around and saw Davis standing in the doorway smiling.

"You've been standing out here for twenty minutes, were you ever going to knock?"

"Honestly, no."

"Why not?" Davis asked.

"I didn't think you would want to see me. We didn't exactly leave things in a very nice place, with you rejecting me and all."

"I probably could have done that in a nicer way huh?"

"I deserved it. You were right, I'm not a good person, but I'm trying to change that. Davis do you think people can change?"

"I think people are who they are, but sometimes they put on a front and don't show themselves as they really are. I think you're one of those people. You have an amazing heart but you're afraid to show it so you act like a total bitch." They both laughed.

"I hope you right. Oh, and for the record I am really glad that you're okay. Life just wouldn't be the same without the one and only Davis Baker."

"So where does this leave us?" Davis asked.

"Friends?" Davis nodded and the two hugged. "I have to get going, but I'll see you at next week's game, will you be playing?"

"Yeah, coach decided to give me a shot, if we win this were going to state, so they can't really afford not to have me play."

"Well, I'm sure you'll do fine, basketball is like breathing for you."

"I hope I can pull this off."

"How do you know?"

"I just do."

Jude rushed into the gym, hoping Whitey wouldn't notice that he was a few minutes late for practice. He snuck in while they were doing their warm ups, but before he joined them he noticed Johnny sitting on the bench with his head between his knees. Jude knew that Johnny wasn't exactly everybody's favourite guy right now, but he was still his friend.

"Are you alright man?" Jude asked, taking a seat next to him.

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"You don't look fine."

"It's just that basketball is like the last thing on my mind right now, and I can't seem to focus on anything but Sawyer and Jenny."

"This weekend was pretty rough huh?"

"Dude, it was a disaster, and I don't know how to fix it. No matter what I do someone is going to hate me."

"Maybe you should stop worrying about how everyone else is going to feel and just do what you want. I know it doesn't sound like the nicest thing, but you can't keep being this upset. Look, what you did sucked, but people are going to get over it. You just need to decide what you want and you need to go for it."

"BAKER, EVANS! If you two are done with your female bonding, get on the court." Whitey yelled from across the gym. Jude stood up and began making his way on the court.

"Hey Jude!" Johnny called.

"Yeah?"

"Thanks man."

Sawyer sat on her bed, the covers pulled up to her chin, with her laptop balanced on her stomach. She was too afraid to go to school today, so she faked sick and her parents let her stay home. She was pretty sure that they knew she wasn't really sick, but they could see she was upset and wanted to give her a break. Right now, she was trying to buy Jimmy Eat World's new album on vinyl off of eBay, but someone kept bidding her up. She gave up, frustrated and slammed her laptop shut.

"Knock, knock." Sawyer looked up and saw Alex standing in her doorway. "You weren't in school today so I came to see how you're doing."

"I'm terrible actually. Jenny hates me, Lydia won't talk to me, I'm afraid to talk to Johnny and the entire school think I'm a slut."

"Yeah, that's pretty bad, but staying locked up in your room isn't going to fix anything."

"Alex, this happened like two days ago, I need time to grieve."

"How much time will it take to grieve?" Alex asked. Sawyer gave him a quick look before averting her eyes from his. "What was that look for?" he asked.

"What if I told you I would be grieving forever?"

"What?" Alex asked, clearly confused.

"I'm leaving Alex."

"Leaving you room?"

"No, leaving Tree Hill. School's almost over and principal Turner said I could take my exams early, and then I'm going to live with my Grandma Karen and Andy."

"For the summer?" Alex asked, hopefully.

"Forever."

"And your parents are okay with this?"

"They think it's just for the summer, but once I tell them I don't want to come home, they'll have to let me stay."

"Sawyer, I think you're jumping the gun a bit here. So you messed up, you don't have to leave town. It's just high school, someone else will do something more exciting on Monday and you'll be old news."

"I don't care about the rest of the school, its Johnny I care about. But every time I look at him all I can think of are the bad things I did and the people I betrayed. I didn't just lie to Jenny, I lied to everyone."

"Just promise me that you'll think about it before you do anything too drastic. Things will get better; I know they will, so just promise me."

"Okay, I promise."

Jude sat on his bed, watching Lydia as she searched through his stereo for a song, stopping on Katy Perry's Wide Awake. Lydia crawled onto the bed and took a seat next to Jude.

"I am so happy that school is almost over, I cannot wait until summer." Lydia said, dreaming about the beach.

"Speaking of school, did you see Sawyer there today?"

"No, but she was probably in the janitors closet having sex with god knows who."

"Whoa! That's kind of harsh don't you think."

"Not really, she hooked up with another girl's boyfriend, that's not cool."

"I know that, but she's also your best friend, maybe you should cut her some slack huh?"

"You're not seriously defending her are you?" Lydia, asked now moving slightly away from Jude.

"No, but you being a bitch about it isn't going to make things any better."

"I cannot believe you just said that." Lydia rose from the bed and grabbed her bag off the floor.

"Look that came out wrong." Jude said, jumping up after her. "I didn't mean that you were a bitch, just that you're kind of, maybe acting like one. I mean it's not like Sawyer hooked up with your boyfriend."

"She lied to my face, all the time!" Lydia exclaimed.

"I know, okay, I know. But she is also your best friend and she probably needs you right now."

"So I'm just supposed to forget that she lied."

"I'm sure she's sorry."

"Being sorry about something doesn't make it okay!"

"Would you just calm down for a second." Lydia shook her head.

"Forget it, I'm done here." She slung her bag over her shoulder and briskly walked away. Jude waited for a moment, and when he heard the front door slam he sat down on his bed and let out a defeated sigh.

"ou've reached Johnny Evans, I'm not here right now but leave a message and I'll get back to you."

BEEP!

"Hey, it's Sawyer. I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for everything I've done, you had a good thing going and I messed it all up. I'm not going to bother you any more, I'm leaving. By the time you get this I'll be gone and I know this isn't the best goodbye, but I just couldn't do it face to face, if I did I probably would never leave. Despite everything bad that has happened I will always care about you. It's just too hard to be in love with you. I hope you have an amazing life and that you get everything you wish for. Goodbye."

Heyy, sorry it's been so long since my last update, I hope this chapter makes up for it. Keep reading because there are only a few chapters left, but I will be writing a squeal. You can think of each story as another season of a show. Please don't forget to REVIEW, and let me know what you think.