I kept watching the two in horror. A broke away from my twin and started grabbing his papers and books, then raced out of the library. I thought he must have seen me. I dashed out from my hiding place and began chasing the brunette down the hall.

"Just where do you think your going, Alternate?" I hollowed at him.

"Oh, Hi Backup!" he turned and waved.

"Come on!" I grabbed my "boyfriend" by the collar of his red shirt and dragged him to our, whoops my mistake, what used to be OUR bedroom and slammed the door.

"What the hell was that all about?"

"What? W-what are y-you t-tal-talking about?" The books tumbled from his hands as A stuttered.

"You know EXACTLY what I'm talking about Asshole!"

He blinked innocently.

"Snogging my twin of course! WTF?"

"Look..."

"GOD A! HOW COULD YOU?"

"B...I'm really sorry but...but..."

"BUT WHAT?"

"I didn't...I mean..."

"You bastard! You cheater!"

"I'M SORRY NOT EVERYTHING WORKS OUT LIKE IN A SHOJO BB!"

"YOU THINK HE'S SMARTER THAN ME! DON'T YOU? DON'T YOU?

"No...that's...no I can ex-"

"DON'T TRY AND EXPLAIN ANYTHING ASSHOLE!"

"But-" A's eyes were pleading

"Goddamnit just...just…JUST GO KILL YOURSELF!"

A stared and me for a moment. A single tear dripped down his cheek.

"Fine...if that's what you want..." He muttered almost inaudibly, shuffling out of his room, neglecting the books he had left on my floor.

Later that day I was thinking, maybe I should go and try to sort things out with A. Telling him to go kill himself wasn't very nice, though I highly doubted he'd take it seriously.

I got up from my bed and unplugged my headphones from my ears. I had been listening to "Me against the world" by simple plan. It's a very good song you should listen to it.

I walked to A and L's room and pushed open the door.

"Would you do me the courtesy of knocking?" Said L's monotone.

"Not now." I rolled my eyes stepping into the room. "Where's A?"

"I am uncertain...but I believe he went outside."

I ran out, not bothering to shut L's door. Outside it was raining and icky and muddy. I don't see why A would want to be out here for long, but he probably wanted to be alone.

"A?" "Ayyyy!" I called "A! Where are you?" I ambled around the gate of the orphanage and followed it to the back yard, calling my friends name."

"AYYYY!" "WHERE ARE YOU?" I scowled and shook rain out of my dark hair.

"PLEASE ALTERNATE! I'M SORRY I SHOUTED AT YOU EARLIER!" Nobody herd me yelling because they were all inside and no one wanted to hang out or play soccer in this weather.

"Damn, he must have gone into the woods."

I pushed trough the bushes and skidded in the mud a couple times. I was still calling his name.

Sighing I leaned up against a pine tree in the forest. "Ayyyy! Alternate, where are you?"

"Ugh..." I glanced up at the branches above me. I saw a pair of boots. Wait a second..." I got out from under the tree and looked up.

My A. Was. Hanging. From. A. Tree branch.

With a 0 above his head. I stared at the zero. It taunted me. It always taunted me to see those wretched numbers