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"Hello, I'm Carmen. So lovely to meet you." the one that is Carmen shook my hand as I got rushed into makeup. I gave a little wave as I lost sight of her, and then people messed with my face as I remembered the lyrics to my song. I tried to pick up a conversation with the make up artist, but she was a no go. I ended up sitting there in silence for half an hour, watching the Carmen show from the small television in the corner.
"We have our special guest, Bella Swan, who will also be performing for us!" The audience cheered, and the first person came on to sit in the chair next to Carmen. Some Maggie girl. I ignored the rest of the interview as I admired the rows of makeup and bits and bobs on the large counter infront of me, and saw how much progress the make up artist had done on my face.
"You're up." SOmeone said, and I was rushed to a spot and soon Carmen called my name. Someone checked my appearance for any eye gunk or makeup mess, and then I walked on stage and smiled as I made my way to Carmen. She gave me a hug, and I sat down.
"Well, Bella, how are you? You doin' good?" Carmen smiled at me.
I smirked. "Yeah yeah I'm doing good. It's so weird, being here." Carmen nodded.
"Isn't the first time someone has said that to me. You're around the 200th person." We laughed.
"So is it really good to be here? I mean, I bet you know more celebrities than...anyone." Carmen laughed and nodded.
"Okay okay, so tell me, how long have you been in America? We didn't fly you out from England, did we?" I shook my head.
"Yeah I was with Jake and the rest of the band, actually." I smiled, remembering to not give out a location.
"And how long have you been into music?" Carmen crossed her legs and leaned forward slightly, smiling.
"Well, I'm not sure entirely, maybe a couple of years ago? I've always been interested into music, but I've never done much about it until I was 12 or 13." Carmen nodded.
"So you're 15 now?" I nodded. "I had no idea. You look at least 16, 17." I smirked.
"Why thank you!"
"and may I ask? We had the well known Jenks come to the studio yesterday, and he seemed intrigued with you. What do you think of him?"
I put on my thinking expression. "Well, as you all know, I am dating Jacob Black, so...but I haven't actually met Jenks before, so I wouldn't know..." I shrugged.
"Have you heard his newest song, I'd Do Anything?" I nodded.
"Yeah it's a great song, I love his music."
Carmen then turned to the audience. "And speaking of music, Bella is now going to perform her single The Look." I then went to the stage and the music started playing.
"...Young girl, starting high school,
She doesn't know who she is
Cause her book is still being written
Hopin' that her life isn't like the movies
A cheer world, dating the captain
Full of gossip and the ones that mess with your head
She don't have to worry, just she don't have the look.
But when you change your style everything changes
Soon guys hang onto your every word
Girls who've brought you down now are your besties
Just because now she has the look..."
Once I'd finished the audience cheered as the lights dimmed and I made my way backstage again. I greeted and talked to a few people before I followed Phil into the car to be taken to the hotel. I sent Jake a text.
It went really well! XX B
WELL DONE I love you :) xx J
I love you too XX B
I decided to go on my laptop, and I searched yesterdays show with Jenks. I clicked on the video, and plugged my earphones in. The audience screamed as Jenks came on, and I felt as if some girls were going to jump on him. He greeted Carmen and sat down in the same chair I had today.
"Hello, Jenks. Lovely to meet you again."
"You too, Carmen, how have you been?"
"I'm great, how are you doin'?"
"Awesome, Carmen. Just awesome."
"Sounds awesome." She grinned and sat forward. "So tell me, you're going on tour soon?"
Jenks nodded. "Yes. Next week it begins in Washington, and we're going from state to state by road." He crossed his legs in a manly fashion. I leaned forward.
"And we established last time you came here that you're UK tour went well?" He nodded.
"Yes, the fans were so awesome, I just love them."
"And tomorrow we'll be having a brand new guest- have you heard of Bella Swan?" Jenks leaned forward, and uncrossed his legs.
"Yeah I've heard of her. I wish I could stick around longer to offically meet her. Her music is so inspiring." He nodded, interested, and Carmen smiled.
"A little going on there, eh?" She raised her eyebrow and he laughed, rubbing his neck.
"Well..." he trailed off and screams erupted. I scoffed, shaking my head. Don't even go there, mister.
Carmen laughed a high pitch noise. "Well looks like you are Jacob Black's next competition, from what we hear." Jenks raised his eyebrows.
"She's dating him?" Was all he said. "Really?" He asked more inquisitively. Carmen nodded.
"Well, thank you for coming, you're going to perform I'd Do Anything, right?" She winked and Jenks relaxed, laughing, and made his way to the stage.
"...Girl why are your tears falling,
Did I do something wrong?
Did I not love enough?
Did I not sing the right song?
Was I on the right key?
Had I spoken too much?
I can't help myself,
I feel myself when I'm with you
Just please tell me what to do
To make me see that smile again
I'd do anything to remove that pain..."
I shut my laptop on once the show finished, and shook my head incredulously. I hope Jake didn't see that, otherwise I can't go to his concert. I pouted at the thought. I did enjoy his music, and he wasn't terrible looking, and Jake will be there, so he should feel more secure with me.
Phil knocked on my door, and I pulling my earphones out.
"Hey, Phil. What's up?"
"Umm, well Jake suggested that I have you take a self defense class while you're waiting for you flight. You can carry them on back at La Push." I nodded. That's a great idea! Now I can properly kick someones ass! I spent a few hours being taught the basic points of self defense, and then I worked out at the gym for a while. Soon I was showered and dressed in a hoody as I went through the airport, and I hid behind my sunglasses at the entrance, as camera flashes and shouts of my name and questions came my way. I soon got onto my plane, and decided to make a video for my fans to upload onto the Internet. I turned my camera on on my laptop and pressed record.
"Hey everyone! I'm on my way back home after going onto Carmen, and I hope you all watch it. I'm going to...be singing one of my songs that isn't on my album, Direction. Hope y'all likes!"
"...is there a certain way to be famous?
I want my map that points fame to me
You all know you start at the bottom
And follow the direction up the ladder
'give it a few years' they say 'and you'll be a hit'
Never give up, don't try to quit..."
I finished and then spoke a bit about my album and hope that everyone gets it or downloads it, and then I said my goodbyes and ended the video and uploaded it for everyone to see. I wonder how many view's I'll get...
...
"Bella!" Jake pulled me into a hug and kissed me with as much force he could. He forced his tongue in my mouth as we bit and nibbled and moaned. He leaned me backward slightly and I pulled his face closer to mine, attacking him with a vengeance. We pulled away for breath and he helped me with my bag.
"How did it go? I have a suprise for you!"
"A surprise?" I frowned. He nodded and put the bag down on the bottom of the stairs.
"Two VIP tickets, to see Jenks, on the first night of his tour here in WA!" He smiled down at me as I jumped on him. "I keep my promises." He sighed. I whined.
"Don't worry. You can flaunt me off in his face and everything, just keep your cool around him. What do we wear?"
Jake smirked at my enthusiasm. "Well we have a reserved part that's protected from screaming fans. I'm sure they'll notice us if we go in the crowd." I nodded.
"When is it?" I asked excitedly. Jake smiled and answered me.
"Next Tuesday."
"Ooh I'm so excited!" I screamed happily, and when Jake pouted, I added. "But I was sooo much more pleased to go to your concert." Billy then came into the hallway and greeted me.
"How's it goin', Bella?" He smiled at me.
"It's all good, paps." Jake answered for me, and I slapped his chest lightly.
"Everything is perfect, you?" I then had a half an hour conversation with Billy, and Jake got so fed up that he went to his bedroom.
"You go of to Jake now." Billy winked. "Jake sure is one needy kid. I'm heading off the Sue's. See ya." I laughed out loud.
"I'll see you later, Billy." He nodded and wheeled his way out the door and started on his way out. I ran up the stairs and opened Jake's door. He was under the covers, and his eyes were shut. I wondered whether he was asleep and dreaming, but he cracked one eye open and smirked at me.
"You took your time." He said as I hung around next to the door. He held his arms out and I walked through the threshold into his room. He pulled me to him as he kissed my neck once and cuddled me, and my own eyes started to slip.
"I missed you." He mumbled.
"I missed you too. So much." I yawned. "Gosh I'm so tired. Anything happen while I was away?" I whispered.
"Go to sleep Bells. Love you." I couldn't argue, my lids were like weights on my eyes as I drifted into unconsciousness.
...
I woke up and instantly needed to pee. I climbed out of bed and dashed to the bathroom and after decided to brush my teeth. That soon led onto me deciding to shower and I ended up doing the usual routine. Figures, I thought. The shower running must have woken Jake as he came in to brush his teeth and shave.
"Have you ever tried growing a beard or moustache?" I wondered out loud. He looked to me and raised his eyebrow.
"Did you want me to?" He asked, uncertain. I shook my head.
"No. It's probably too inconvenient. Plus, I don't fancy them." He nodded, relieved.
"Well, I haven't tried to grow it before. I'm not in the right place to grow one." He shrugged and washed his face. "Can I come in?" I grinned and nodded, as I stepped aside for Jake. I let him go under the water and he put shampoo in as I made soap duds onto his chest. He smirked as he ran his foamy head under the shower, and I ran my arms over his shoulders then neck, and pulled his mouth to mine, inviting him to touch me and feel me close to him...
We dried off and got changed, then we headed out to the local diner for some breakfast before school.
"So, what's happened while I've been away?" I asked casually. Jake looked away, and mumbled to answer me.
"Nothing much." It sounded too straight.
"Nothin'? Nothin' at all?" I wondered. "I could easily ask someone-"
"-don't you trust me, Bells?" Jake whined, looking into my wide eyes. "I mean, our relationship is based on trust and honesty..."
"Spill."
"There's only one thing that's changed." Jake sighed.
"I knew it. Spill." I repeated.
"Well, James is back, and he's being saying some stuff, and he's been gaining a bit of attention for apparently 'slipping you the finger'" He scoffed and shook his head. "I can't hit him without a reason to." He sighed. "A good reason." I looked down.
"Should I cause a scene?" Jake shook his head, objecting straight away. "Phil taught me self defense."
"I doubt you'll be Joe Defense yet." Jake mentioned. "We don't need to start on anyone, just stick to our friendship circles and ignore him. But keep taking those self defense classes- I don't want James to do that again." He tighten his hand into a fist. "I won't let it happen."
I nodded. "Don't worry- a clear head and full knowledge on pressure points will do me good, as well as a bit of training."
"By the way, there's a party going on next week Saturday night, wanna go?" I nodded. "Let's go to Seattle to get you something nice, yeah?" I grinned.
"You know me so well." I laughed and he agreed with me.
"Yeah." He took my hand and put the money on the counter as we headed for school. I got used to ignoring the comments and points as I walked through the halls and went to my locker.
"I'll see you in a sec." Jake said as he went to his own locker further down. Almost immediately was I pushed by the hips into the locker, and I turned around.
"Get off me, James. Jake will be here in any moment and I think we've already broken your nose, do you want something else broken too?" I slapped him hard across the face and shoved him back forcefully, and he winced at the contact, then managed to put on a blank face.
"You and your friends will pay for what you did." He threatened, lowering his voice. I gulped and then strong arms came to save me.
"Get the fuck away from us. We can easily get people against you." Embry threatened. "Stay away. Or else." James scoffed.
"Huh. And you think that I'm scared of you? I can bet that I can get her-" he pointed straight at me. " On her knees and giving me head soon. Or even better..." He made a motion as if he were fucking me and I stiffened.
"I wouldn't go that far, your ego is a big as America. You need it to shrink down." I made a motion with my hands. "It about this big. Just measure it against what you call a cock." I measured in my head that my fingers were a inch apart, and he scoffed.
"Baby, my cock is just waiting for that sexy tight pussy of yours. I'll make your world rock." He turned and left, and I rested my head on my locker.
"You okay?" Embry asked.
I shook my head. "Would you be okay if you got threatened like that?" I put my needed books in my bag and shut it, locking the locker. Jake was behind the locker, face a picture of danger.
"What?" He asked, his voice in pain. "that's it." he stomped forward to where James had departed and Embry had to pull him back and shove him against the locker. "No, get the hell off me, Embry!"
"Dude, cool down." He waited until Jake's breathing slowed, and he let go of him. "Cool off. James isn't worth it. Bella's okay." Jake turned his attention to me.
"What did he say to you?"
"Nothing." I muttered. Jake grab my arm tightly, so I couldn't make my escape.
"Bella." he said in a strict voice. "What happened?"
I sighed. "He cornered me, and said some stuff. It means nothing. He's an asshole."
"What did he say?" He eyed me cautiously, throwing glances at James' direction.
"He just threatened us. That we would pay. And I would pay a little extra..." Jake let go of my arm and tightened his fists.
"I need to go to the gym." he muttered and headed for the school gym. I sank down the lockers and sighed. Let him cool off, I thought. I noticed Embry following Jake, and so I got up and headed for class alone. Jake hadn't returned until lunchtime, and he had a new change of clothes and looked fresher. He motioned for me to follow him, and we headed for an empty class room. We sat on a table and I swung my legs.
"Bella...I have to say, going to the gym really helpd me think..."
"I can handle myself, Jacob." I said in a hard voice. Jake shook his head.
"No. You can't." I opened my mouth to protest. "Not yet." I shut my mouth.
"W-what?" I questioned.
"I'm going to get you into self defense classes, so I can ensure that you can handle yourself against an opponent. Maybe more than one." I smiled and hugged him. "Starting now. I have booked you your first class in Port Angeles. You want to come with me? I need to...ahem...sharpen my skills." I laughed and got off the table and took his hand, pulling him with me and out of the school. a car was there to pick us up, and I bounced excitedly in my chair as we pulled up to a secluded building. I frowned, looking at Jake. He pushed open the door and led me upstairs, and then there was a long hallway, with glass doors on the sides. He showed me into the first room, which had an open space with windows showing the town before me. There was a smooth wooden flooring, and a mirror on the one side. A white man with blond short hair came over to greet me. He wore a white tank and grey sweats. I smiled and shook his hand.
"Hello Isabella Swan, I'm your self defense teacher, Peter." I nodded, and he went to shake Jake's hand also.
"It's Bella." I confirmed, and Jake went to sit at a chair inside as we went to the centre of the room.
"For your first lesson, the basics."
"Oh, I know a few bits and bobs from a previous lesson with my bodyguard." I nodded, switching my weight to my other foot.
"Okay, so so me the techniques you are already accustomed with." The lesson flew by quickly, and soon we were back in the car heading home.
"I really learnt something today." I told Jake, "I just need practice and more lessons."
"We can have them daily, or every other day, if you like." He looked pleased, and a little smug with himself.
"Every other day is good." I nodded. We spent the day practicing in his room, jumping on the bed and play fighting. It was hilarious.
"Jake! I screeched as he jumped on top of me. "Stop it! HA!" I managed to climb out of his arms and sit on top of him. Jake laughed and pulled me down to rest on his chest. We were breathing heavily and I laughed a little every few seconds from my hype.
"Nope." He said simply. He wrapped both of his legs around my legs and held me there, trapped under his muscles.
"Can I take you out tonight?" He asked randomly. "A date."
I thought for a moment. "Where will we go?" I wondered.
Jake tightened his arms around me. "A classic movie at the cinema like high school sweethearts?"
"Sounds perfect to me." I smirked. "Don't forget we have tickets for Tuesday." I chuckled as he frowned, looking down at me.
"you still want to go?" He asked, unsure, and I nodded.
"We don't have to stay for long..." I offered. Jake sighed.
"No, we do. I've agreed to have you sing with him." He sighed dramatically again.
"What?" Jake looked in my eyes.
"To score the tickets my agent told me he made a deal for us to perform with him that night." he let out a shaky breath as he waited for my response.
"...you didn't have to do that, for me." I mumbled, looking down as I closed my eyes.
"Well if it means that much to you then-"
"-not that much." I cut him off. We lay in silence as we relaxed into one another. Jake's eyes danced with humour as he picked me up and kissed my lips lightly.
"I love you so much." He whispered, and kissed me again. He brushed his lips against mine and smirked. I took his face between my hands and pressed my body to his as we slowly made out, enjoying the taste of each other.
"Love you too." I mumbled as I straddled him and he pushed me backward, so my legs were wrapped around his waist as my back was against the mattress. He tugged on my bottoms and soon our clothes were off and we were in a rhythmic movement, until we both found the pleasure that we had hoped for one another.
That night, he did indeed take me out, and we watched a romantic film about a guy and a girl who fell for each other, and yet they came from different countries, and the guy was just visiting her country, to attend his cousin's 16th birthday party. We often kissed during the film, but it never turned into full make out sessions, as I really wanted to see this film. We got home late, as he took me to dinner after that in Port Angeles. I was so tired that I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow, and I woke up with Jake's arms wrapped around my own. The weekend soon passed, then Monday, and we headed together down to the arena in Seattle to do sound check. It was late afternoon, a few hours before the concert, and we were only doing the one song together.
"You okay?" I asked jake, squeezing his hand as we were brought through certain corridors.
"Just peachy." He muttered, obviously regretting his decision to do this. We then found ourselves on the audience end of the arena, looking towards the stage where I noticed Jenks standing, concentrating on his guitar, and talking to some girl. I walked with Jake down the row and then we climbed up these stairs to greet Jenks.
"Hello?" I called out, cautiously. Jenks immediately looked up and his eyes brightened at our entrance. He stood up and put his guitar down, ignoring the pout from the girl as he made his way forward to us, meeting our strides so we reached him in a shorter time.
"Bella! Jacob." He greeted us loudly, "What a nice surprise! Someone mentioned to me that you were coming!" He reached over to give Jake a manly hug, then gave me a squeeze as he kissed my cheek. Jake cleared his throat protectively.
"Well, seeing as you were on tour, I fancied checking out the first performance, right Jake?" I leaned closer to Jake, looking into his hard eyes. They softened slightly, as I conversed with him mentally to remember that I am his. To not forget that. I then turned to Jenks, making eye contact and beaming brightly at him. "It's a pleasure to meet you."
"the pleasures all mine." He waved me off and slowly took a step back. "What are you going to perform? We have a soundcheck in two hours with me and some of my fans, you can come if you want..." He trailed off and cleared his throat, picking up his guitar. The girl that was once there had disappeared, and he didn't seem bothered about it. He thrummed the strings a little, mumbling to himself. He smirked and looked back up at us.
"Did you want to perform your song?" He offered me the guitar, and I took it confidently. he stood up from his chair and directed me into the seat, touching the small of my back slowly as he did so. I shuddered slightly, an unknown contact testing his works on me. I rolled my eyes and faced the audience seats, finding my voice as I played the first notes of the guitar.
"...can you yell at me one more time, please?
the pain has gone now so I don't care if you do
Does it feel good to make me want to leave
Make me want to slam the door in your face?
Does it?
Because I don't want this anymore
I'm fed up, of being screwed around
There's nothing more that can keep me here!
Fed up, lonely, need someone to comfort me
And you ain't the one that I thought was him
The one that can keep me standin'..."
I slammed my hand on the strings in an angry movement, putting my emotions and trust into that guitar and song. Once I finished the song, I beamed at Jake as he went to hug me, but Jenks made it there first, and if looks could kill, I honestly believe that Jake would have sent Jenks past the grave. I gave Jenks a light hearted one armed hug and jumped for Jake, who decided to kiss me instead, which I wasn't too bothered about. I heard a throat clearing and looked innocently apologetic for getting too carried away to Jenks. He sent me a tight smile and offered Jake to try, which I think was an attempt to get him out of my reach. It didn't work, as I put my hand on Jake's shoulders as he showed off his awesome skills, and I thought he had more skills than Jenks any day.
"Hey, Jenks, what your first name?" I wondered as we ate lunch. I sat next to Jake and Jenks was opposite me. He smirked and shook his head.
"No-one shall know. Heck, I don't barely remember. But a clue, it begins with a J." I pouted. "Nope. I shall keep it to the grave." He joked.
"We'll find out." I assured him. He was then called to do soundtrack with the fans and I leaned my head on Jake's shoulder.
"How're you doin'?" I asked in the very 'Joey from Friends' way. He smirked and shook his head.
"I think I've successfully proven to him that you are mine. Did you see his face when I was hugging you earlier?" During lunch he had put his arm over my shoulders, and Jenk's obviously frowned slightly, but I caught I hint of a challenge in his eyes, to which I frowned at a bit, but tried to cover it as soon as I realised it had come.
"Jenks can never have me." I swore. "He can't handle me. You can. My face comes with the whole package, including female hormones and an attitude." I crossed my legs. "Admit it, it's sometimes annoying to have me around all the time." Jake shook his head.
"I've grown used to it. I ignore whatever flaws those are." He kissed my cheek sweetly. "And I bet he's not little miss perfect either." He smirked as he said 'miss', and I laughed, nodding my head.
"No, I bet he likes to have little tea parties, yes?" I asked in a innocent voice, as Jake laughed and pulled me onto his lap, causing me to squeak.
"Mmm." He nuzzled his face into my neck, placing hot open mouthed kisses there, and I leaned my head back, giving him extra room. I tried to turn closer to him, but I couldn't budge with this table in the way, I sighed and giggled as I tried to move the table, giving weak throws at it.
"Later Honey." he mumbled as he sucked on my neck lightly.
"If you mark my neck the audience will see and assume Jenks did it." He froze, and kissed it better.
"I'll be there."
"I know, but they'll still think it."
"No they won't"
"Can you be so sure?"
"Mmm."
We spent the hour sitting there, my legs thrown over his lap, and my head tucked into his shoulder as I read a magazine, sometimes pointing out to Jake about certain topics, like one describing Jenk's tour and that he'll be posting on-tour videos onto his site for the fans, or about The Voice final this week. It is between the band that I met before, a guy, and a girl. Jake had his arm casually over my shoulders as he pulled me into him, kissing my head softly. My eyes started to fall and the next thing I remembered was waking up to see Jenks playing soft music on another table across the room. I took in my surroundings and noticed Jake had dozed off next to me too. Wow, maybe we were drugged. Jenks looked up from his guitar as I shuffled to sit upright, and he walked over to me, sitting opposite me again.
"How long was I out?" I wondered.
"Not for long. An hour or so? I was going to wake you soon anyway, make-up wants you.." I nodded and he looked at me expectantly.
"What?"
"Um..." Jenks scratched the back of his neck insecurely. "Well... I was just wondering...if...would you go to the movies with me tomorrow? Or out, anywhere?" I sighed.
"Jenks...I have a boyfriend. Jake? You know, the one next to me right now?" Jenks looked down, frowning.
"Oh, right, yeah. I um...have to get ready. See ya." He quickly moved away and I groaned, deciding to wake Jake up as well.
"Jake." I mumbled in his ear, kissing it softly. He stirred and his eyes slowly opened.
"Woah. Did I fall asleep?" he questioned, and I laughed, nodding.
"Uhuh. Me too." He grinned and pulled me to him, rubbing his cheek with mine sleepily.
"We have to get ready now, baby." I said, pecking the corner of his lips. He smiled at me lazily and tried to kiss me deeper. I pushed him back.
"Love, we've been sleeping. WE need to brush our teeth." I smirked and shuffled out of the booth and looked around for someone to notice and push me in the right direction. Thankfully some girl saw me, or more so Jake, and then me, and ushered us into separate rooms, where I got ready and had my makeup and hair done. This gay guy was messing with my hair, complimenting it, and I smiled at him politely.
"I just LOVE your songs, and this hair!" He grinned happily. I laughed and nodded.
"Er...thanks." I said awkwardly.
"Honey, I'd swing both ways for you." He added, and I laughed. Swing both ways...
"Hey, that'll make a good song, right? You wanna help me with the lyrics?" He looked at me shocked and nodded as he back combed my hair.
"Okay, right...um...
Do you know the saying,
'there's plenty more fish in the sea'?
That ain't the same for me
Because I swing both ways baby
So it's double the fish for me lady
I'm single and ready to mingle!.." I laughed in my seat and the guy smiled.
"I'm Charles, Jenk's hairdresser." Ahh so that explains it...
"Bella." I smiled and watched as he fiddled with my hair.
"I just did Jenks before you. He seemed very upset..." He mentioned casually. I winced and cursed in my mind.
"Oh, really?" I asked just as casually as him. He nodded.
"Oh yeah, he was all over the place." he shook his head. "He's sometimes so moody."
"Maybe his on his man period." We laughed, but mine was more forced. He finished, and I got into my outfit and knocked on Jake's door as Charles went to do his hair. Not much to do, as he already had amazing hair. He was already dressed to impress and captured his my lips with a kiss when he opened the door for me. I smirked as his fresh breath blew over my face, and I greeted him.
"Mmm...hi Jake."
"Hi to you." He pulled me in his room quickly, and I squealed. I sat in the chair next to him as Charles gave him a once over.
"Hey, I think I am gonna try something with that swinging ways thing. Could be a seductive hit." I grinned, and Charles winked at me.
"Don't forget to send the cheque in the post, honey. Actually, I just want a dedication to the song. That's all." I nodded.
"Sure thing." I replied as Charles left the room, not before adding something.
"You're on in 20."
20 minutes past by quickly, and soon we were on the stage, walking down the aisle as we greeted the fans, and I smiled and waved. Jenks held a video camera in my face, and I pushed it away, shocked.
"What's that?" I asked loudly.
"I'm videoing my tour! Some girl gave it me about half and hour ago." he replied in my ear. I nodded and waved at the camera, then spoke into the microphone.
"Well hello, people. Y'all ready for the tour of the century?" I yelled and the audience screamed in reply. I smirked and nodded my head confidentally. "Well, be prepared, because Jenks here is going to be on his feet almost 24/7, so make sure you're there to see it." We then sung along to one of his songs, and then me and Jake performed our solos, and we were done! I felt victorious, like I was standing on the edge of a cliff, having just climbed right up it. Success! I beamed at the audience and took a step back, and another, and I managed to crash into Jenks, tripping. I tried to steady myself but Jenks caught my waist before I fell, and I thanked him as I rushed off stage, grabbing Jake's hand as we waved to the crowd.
"Wow, that was...a lot of...people." I shouted, ears ringing.
"Love quieten down. You're as loud as the crowd."
"I'm as loud as the crowd
And I'm dancing as I fancin'
Loud as the crowd
And prancin' cause I'm dancin'" I giggled in his arms as we got our stuff and got into the car to take us back home. I didn't bother wait to say goodbye to Jenks. Best go while I could. I told Charles to tell Jenks that we had to leave early and hopefully would speak soon, so hopefully Jenks'll accept that as a goodbye.
"What else is there to look forward to?" I asked Jake as we cuddled up in his bed the night after.
"Um...I'm taking you shopping. For the party on Saturday, remember?"
I thought back. "Er...yeah. I guess when your schedule is so busy it is difficult to remember so much all at once."
"Well you're album is out now so after the party you'll be away from home a lot, promoting it and singing and doing at the radio shizzle."
"Music makes me jizz." I muttered, not wanting to think about leaving Jake again.
"You make me jizz." Jake replied, and I smirked.
"I know I do. LOL."
"Don't say that again."
"that I know you jizz because of me?"
"No, the El Oh El." He tried to spell it, and I shook my head.
"Too IM for you?"
"No. I just don't want you saying it."
"You're too wierd."
"You love me for it."
"I do."
The next day we had our lesson rota changed to accommodate a sex education class that would last half of the day. We had a teacher who went around Seattle and other states to teach, so here we were, half of our year in a small classroom, me sitting with our friendship circle, watching the teacher.
"I can see it now- immature giggles at the word 'sex'" I mumbled to Jake, and his laughed, putting his arm around my shoulder. The woman began.
"Hello, students. My name is Mrs. Makenna. So, what is sex? Yes?" She pointed to a girl who had her arms crossed and her head down.
"Erm...I don't know..." She mumbled, and the class snickered.
"No? Well that is why I am here, to tell you the meaning of sex, when, where, and why?"
"What about who?" Jared called out, earning some pats and laughs. Mrs. Makenna smiled and nodded.
"And who. Now, I can't control what goes on in your sex lives, and if you've already had sex, but I can direct you on how to be protected, STDs, and explain to you what goes on, and when you get pregnant. So, what do you already know about sex?" She looked around expectantly.
"Bet Jake knows a lot about sex, right Jake?" Embry whispered to Jake and he shoved him, causing him to yelp.
"Yes?" Mrs. Makenna picked on Embry. Embry cussed under his breath and answered. Serves him right, I thought.
"Um...well when a girl and a guy, or a guy and a guy, or ahem, a girl and girl..." The class snickered at Embry's response. "Um...love each other very much and bang each other." Mrs. Makenna rolled her eyes.
"So, would you only have sex because you love them? What else is sex used for? Recreation, reproduction and relationship. If you want a baby, sex is the way to get that, unless you want to adopt..." I sighed as she showed us slide shows of pregnant women and men's parts and she then passed along a few fake babies that respond to temperature and noise and such. It was passed to Jake and he looked at me wide eyed as he tried to rock the crying baby to sleep.
"Jake! Support the head!" I whispered loudly at him, and he did so. Mrs. Mekenna picked up on that.
"And why would you support the head of a baby?" She asked me, and I sat back in my chair.
"Because...the baby can't hold its own up as muscles haven't developed, and it's dangerous." Own knowledge.
"That's right, pass the babies along so everyone can have a chance to care for it!" She called out to the class. Some guys were pretending to forceful stop the crying baby, from crying anymore, by pretending to cover it's mouth, causing laughs. Jake passed the fake baby to me, and I held my arms out to support the head, and dramatically rocked the baby, which soon stopped crying. I smirked at Jake.
"See? I would be a better parent." I muttered as I passed the baby to Jared, who accidentally caused the baby to cry. I groaned, covering my ears.
"Thanks Jared." I said sarcastically. Jared frowned at the baby and immediately passed it along. I felt my phone vibrate from my pocket, and sneaked a glance.
Big meeting Sunday. Port Angeles. Usual place. 5pm Kim xx
I'll be there ;) B xx
I hummed. Jake peered over my shoulder as he read my message.
"What's that?" He wondered as I put the phone back in my pocket.
"Work stuff." Jake nodded once and laughed as someone grew frustrated with the baby, imitating it's crying.
Saturday night arrived, and I had brought a dark metallic blue dress and matching heels, as Jake called a cab to take us to the party.
"Ooh I'm so excited! Did you see everyone's faces when they heard I was singing with Jenks on Tuesday?"
"You only just noticed?" Jake scoffed, rolling his eyes. Course, the rock star cared when someone less amazing gets attention. However, I heard from Heidi that the magazines are gossiping about the chance that me and Jenks would get together, as when he helped me up, it seemed rather initmate.
"Love, you don't need to worry about anything. I love you and always will. Everyone is used to you being there, so it doesn't seem like you are a celebrity in their eyes, which is very good, as you can live a normal life here, rather than if you went to Jenk's school, you'll be crowded my girls screaming your name."
"Hmm...well I don't mind if you're the only one screaming my name."
"Save it for later. We have a party to attend." I walked downstairs, popping a mint in my mouth then placing the packet in my clutch as we waited for the cab. We got to the house party ten minutes later, and boy, was it packed, and boy, was it HUGE! The house was freaking double Jake's house!
"Who OWNS this THING!" I asked, my mouth agape. "Seriously, this is crazy. Jake?"
"It's...definitely something." Jake muttered. "Must be real quiet in the day though." He added. I nodded as we paid the driver and got out of the cab. We were greeted by drunken people, and I instantly felt like I didn't belong. I felt someone slap my ass, and Jake's hand immediately took a hold on the foreign arm, and I instantly remember the guy as Marcus, some twat who was hooking up with Zafrina and another three girls. He then smirked and shook Jake off, not before winking at me then beginning to make out with some dark skinned girl, and hitched her leg up and over his waist, so she was rocking against him as they kissed. Okay, make that four girls.
"How late are we?" I wondered to Jake as he kept me against his waist as I caught guys and girls going up and down the stairs in couples, some with a thin layer of sweat on their faces, as if they had just been going at it in one of the possible bedrooms in this house.
"You've never been to a party like this house before, then. It's usually a monthly thing, and all of the Forks high student body and La push student body are invited, even some of the graduates." He grunted as a tall guy with tattoos down his arms passed by me, moving his hand so it brushed against my breast. "Are you sure you want to be here? I didn't remember it like this."
"So you've never had a one night stand at this before?" I raised my eyebrows as we went over to the bar, where some nerdy looking guy was practically fucking some girl with a bright pink mini skirt, shoving her into the fridge door and wavering his hands at the bottom of her skirt.
"Who's that?" I pointed him out, disgusted.
"Eric Yorkie, from Forks High." He muttered as he poured us some punch. "Here." I chugged it back. "Wait, Bella, you're going to get drunk!" We were then hugged from behind by Embry and Heidi, and Heidi pecked my kiss and poured herself and Embry some punch, and then me another cup. The punch tasted fruity, but there was something off with the flavour, like they tried to mess with it as little as possible, but they failed completely. Oh well, I thought, as I knocked that one back as well.
"Bella, it's gonna kick in about 10 minutes, don't drink too much. I don't want you to get a hang over." Jake persisted, but I waved him off.
"I'm fine, now drink up, baby." Heidi grabbed my hand and we went over to dance with a bunch of other people. 10 minutes in, and Heidi had disappeared upstairs with Embry, and I had foreign hands roaming my body as I ground into his crotch, which had a prominent erection digging into my ass. I didn't bother to look behind me as I didn't really care if it was Jake or not, unless drunk Jake was more forceful. I turned around, and saw Jake's eyes coated with desire.
"Hi baby." I whispered as I kissed his lips.
"Bella." Jake groaned and pushed his hips into mine. "You're teasing me too much..." He dipped one hand under my dress and cupped my heat, and I pulled his collar to me as I crashed my lips to his. I took a breath as Jake lead me up the staircase, and I went into a room and heard moans and smacks coming form inside the pitch black room.
"Sorry, wrong room." I muttered, making my way to close the door.
"You can join us, if you like..." A rough breathy voice called. I thought it around in my head a little and shrugged.
"Okay then." I took a step forward, but then arms pulled me back.
"Sorry, um...whoever you are..." Jake slurred. "She's mine tonight." The smacking resumed as we shut the door behind us, and I grinned at Jake.
"Where were you?" I wondered as I gazed into his glazed over eyes. He sent me a lazy smile as he pulled me down the hallway.
"I found us a room. It's pretty dark though."
"Oh well." I muttered as I went into a empty room. I didn't hear Jake come from behind me as I tried to find my way to the bed. I landed on something soft and assumed it to be the bed. I heard the door shut and the lights flickered on, then were toned down to what some would call a more romantic lighting, and all I saw was blond hair, and a devilish smile.
"Bella Swan. We meet again." He came over to me and I rested my back against the mattress, feeling dizzy from the alcohol. "Do I finally get my wish?"
"What wish is that?" I wondered out loud innocently. He smirked and pulled off his shirt, dropping it to the floor. I bit my lip as he walked over to the bed and bent over me, hovering so I was only about a centimetre away from his chest.
"I want to be inside of you, Bella. Can I, please?" He blinked at me, and I nodded as he smiled gently at me, before pulling the zip from the side of my dress, then pushing it down my legs. I undid his jeans button and pulled down the zipper, and he kicked his jeans to the floor, his erection throbbing through his boxers. He quickly removed my underwear and his last remaining piece of material before plunging inside of me, groaning as if he had wanted this for a long time. He thrusted hard into me and it wasn't long before we came simultaneously, and he collapsed on top of me, riding his orgasm out.
"Thank you very much, Bella. You're amazing in bed, even as you are now." He muttered a few minutes later before forcing his tongue inside of my mouth, kissing me deeply until we ran out of breath, and he got changed and left. I felt a little uncomfortable lying there, so I got changed as well alone, and headed out of the door as I grabbed my clutch from the floor. I wondered around for a few minutes, smiling as some people, and I was soon pushed into a wall by frenzied hands. Jake sucked on my neck and trailed drunken kisses up to my lips. I could taste the punch on him, which made me want another drink as well. He thrust a red cup in front of me, and I gladly drank it down, sighing as I sipped up the last drop, and I dropped the cup to the floor.
"Where had you got to?" he mumbled. "You were there one second, gone the next. I wanted to fuck you!" He pushed his hips into mine, and my ass hit the back of the wall.
"I thought we had already?" I questioned. He frowned and shook his head.
"No honey. Not yet. We are now though." He took my hand and pulled me into a bathroom, and he put the toilet seat down, and tugged down his trousers and then my knickers.
"Hop on honey." He winked and pulled me on top of him, as supported me as he jerked his hips up with every one of mine. Once we had found the pleasure that sent us screaming, we cleaned up and I put my underwear back on and headed out with Jake, bumping into Jared.
"HEYY! BELLAA JAKEE!" Jared shouted over the music, and then went to a nearby plant pot to heave. I laughed and went downstairs to dance. Hands planted on my waist again and we danced for a few seconds, before the hands let go of my waist and I saw Jake pounding a guy on the floor.
"Get the fuck of my girl, you hear?" He shouted loudly and I screamed for him to stop, pulling weakly at his shirt. He looked at me with fierce eyes, and my bottom lip quivered, tears springing at my eyes. He stormed out and I tried to chase after him, but I tripped on the guy's leg. I went to see if he was okay, but some guys helped him up.
"Sorry about him." I mumbled as I went to find Heidi or someone. Instead, I found Leah, who's lips were attached to some dude.
"Leah!" I shouted against the music. "Leah?" She pulled back and smiled at me.
"Hey Bells! What's up?" She glanced at the dude, probably wanting me to hurry up so she can continue.
I sighed. "Jake went all psycho." Leah rolled his eyes.
"He does that a lot when he's drunk. Believe me." She then turned back to the dude and I went off, sluggish. I poured myself another drink, wanting the irritation from Jake's mood to disappear so I could have fun. I went upstairs to use the toilet, then walked around the large house, careful not to go into any occupied rooms. I heard someone call my name, and I turned around.
"Bella! There you are. Where's Jacob?" Jared asked me, wobbling slightly. I shrugged.
"Hey went all fucking psycho on a guy for dancing with me." I shook my head. "He took off. He's such a dick!" I hit the wall and my hand burned for a moment, but I shook it off.
"That sucks. Wanna go back downstairs?" Jared grabbed my hand and I followed.
"Huh, did Jake want you to keep an eye on me?" I stumbled down the stairs. Jared didn't reply, he acted as if I hadn't spoken. "Jared? He did, didn't he?" I stood on the second last step, shocked. Jared looked at me pleadingly.
"Bella I'm just trying to make sure you're safe. Jake said nothing." I frowned.
"I can take care of myself, Jared." I shook off his hand and went to the dance floor to find someone to dance with. Soon I had locked lips with a complete stranger, and when I came up for breath I saw Jared glaring at me. He came forward and shouted in my ear, then looked at me pleadingly.
"What are you DOING? Don't you realise Jake is your boyfriend? You love him!" I shook my head.
"H-he should t-t-trust me." I mumbled, holding onto the stranger for support. Jared looked hurt, and I petted his head. "Don't worry. Jake's fault. Not yours." I let go of the guy and stumbled to the kitchen to find more punch. I felt a pair of hand settle at my hips and I turned around, cup in my hand.
"Hello." I said, chipper. I smiled politely at James, who immediately dipped his head to my lips, then my neck, peppering kisses and sucking strongly on the skin there. I gulped down my drink and set it on the table before James pulled me upstairs. I noticed Embry looking at me with a panicked expression on his face, and he pulled out his phone. I let it go and followed James upstairs and he directed me by a hand around my waist to a empty room. I knew what he wanted. But I couldn't find it in myself to care. I was getting slightly drowsy, but I could sleep later. It must have been about midnight or more, I wasn't sure. He locked the door behind him and pulled me to the bed, stripping me of my dress.
"Keep the shoes on, sexy." I smirked at him as he pulled his shirt off, and then the bottoms. "I can't wait to taste you, baby." He tugged down my knickers and thrust a finger inside me, then removing it to suck on his finger. I gasped then I looked into his eyes, coated with desire and want for me, and I felt that he appreciated me more so than Jake. Jake..., I thought as he picked me up and placed me on the bed, hovering over me as he nudged my legs to part with one of his hands, the other holding him up. He lined himself at my entrance and stole another kiss before we had sex for the second time that night...
...
I woke up in a foreign bed, only in my bra, and I tried to think back to last night, but my memory was all fuzzy. What happened? I couldn't see my underwear bottoms anywhere, but my dress was on the floor, so I put that on and tried to make it longer by pulling down on it. It felt weird to go commando, but it was exciting to be so exposed. I had a killer headache, and ran straight for the en suite bathroom to get rid of any traces of alcohol left in my system. I rested my head on the toilet bowl as I felt it was all gone, and made an attempt to get up, and I brushed my teeth, then leaving the confines of the bedroom and looking around at inventory. There were a few people sleeping on the floor, or their backs to the wall, knocked out. One couple looked like they hadn't had time to fuck in a bed, they just did it right there, and fell asleep afterwards, as the zipper was down, but cock was back in his pants. I wondered around and went downstairs, noticing some people awake and making some coffee. I poured myself a cup and took a long drink, feeling more awake instantaneously. I recognised some from La Push, and some from only last night, but besides that, I couldn't recall much. I tried to think back, but it hurt my head.
Fuck.
Some parts came rushing back. Jake going all psycho on that guy, me and Jake having sex on the toilet...drinking a lot. Jared all panicked and Embry...I frowned. Where was Jake? Was that guy okay? I should apologise, but I couldn't remember who that guy was. I guess the one who has the darkest black eyes would do. I tried to relax my facial muscles as I looked around. I saw Embry collapsed on the chair with Heidi in his arms, and I saw a guy stumble down the stairs. He had a blue bruise across his cheek, and I gasped. He noticed me and looked away immediately as I moved forward.
"Um...hello?" I whispered, as to not wake anyone else.
"Er...is Jacob still here?" He asked wearily, eying me cautiously. I shook my head.
"I don't think so. Think he left last night. Did he do this to you?"
"Then why are you still here?" He ignored my other question.
"I'm sorry. For Jake's actions." I apologised profusely.
"Nah, it's okay. We were drunk." He clutched his head as he swayed a little, and I handed him some of my coffee. "Thanks." He took a sip. "Why are yous till here then?" I shrugged.
"Just got up. Um...did I happen to be with anyone last night? Besides Jake?" He frowned and looked deep in thought.
"I honestly can't remember. Why?"
"Um...well I don't know. I can't remember anything either...?" I hinted for him to give me his name.
"Oh! Right, yeah, my name's Max." I nodded and shook his hand.
"Bella." I replied. He nodded, smirking like he already knew that. Of course he did. I'm a freaking superstar, I grumbled to myself.
"Um, well Max, I have to find Jake, sort some shit out, I'll see you another time?" Max nodded, and waved as I walked out of the house and called a taxi. I didn't know where to go, so I ended up back at home, or rather, Jake's home. I wasn't sure if he was there, but either way I had no where else to go. I went up to the guest bedroom and found myself something better to wear, and then went to Jake's room. Jake wasn't there, so I took a refreshing shower. I had a meeting in Port Angeles, so I hired a taxi to take me there, and Kim explained to me with the company how they wanted me to start a tour here in the USA soon, and they were going to start advertising in a month. I was iffy of it, and asked for some time to think, which they gave me a few days. A USA tour meant I would have to leave Jake, and be on the road for months! And what else would I do? Radio interviews? Award appearances? TV show appearances and interviews? Performances? I left the meeting feeling on the edge, unsure what to do. The hours passed and I got more worried for Jake. Was Jake okay? Where was he? Sunday came, and I checked Jake's room again, to see if he was there, but he was a no show, again. I frowned. Billy hadn't been here either. I wondered where the whole family was at. Rachel? Rebecca? Was I in the right house? I tried Jake's cell and got straight to voice mail. This was dangerous waters here. Rebecca came back that evening, and hadn't had a clue where the rest of the Blacks were, but left just as quickly, ready to visit her boyfriend in Seattle. Monday arrived and I was late for school as Embry didn't pick me up. I got into class late and everyones eyes froze n me, and I took my seat next to an empty chair. Embry was in my class, so I sent him a text. Usually he replied in a second, but he looked into his coat jacket, and then left me with no answer, going back to looking at the teacher. My mouth fell open. What the fuck was going on?
After class I went straight to my locker and opened it furiously, annoyed at everything that had happened. When I looked in my locker, there was a note. Fearful, I slowly opened the letter.
Bella.
I can't do this. You mean so much to me, and yet you go and fuck that dick like as if I wouldn't give a damn. But I do. I love you, and you've ruined everything. I'm not returning home until I know you won't be there anymore, I won't be at school until I can get a hold of myself, and I know that you can afford somewhere to stay, you're famous. And you mean nothing to James. You're like a medal, a prize for show. He doesn't care about you. And you've destroyed any care that I had for you. Blame yourself, Bitch.
Jacob
My body shook with sobs as the remaining pieces put themselves together to make the whole puzzle picture. Twice. I slept with him twice. And it meant fuck all to me. I felt so overcome with grief that I hadn't realised my knees give way and I was on the floor, clutching that letter.
"Bella?" I heard a familar voice speak. I looked up and saw Paul's kind eyes. "I'm sorry." He tried to help m up but I shook my head.
"No. I deserve this. I'm a fucking slut. A whore. A bitch that screws everyone around and may as well suffer for what shes done." I squirmed against the bottom lockers and Paul tried to cover me from other student's view.
"I'm not taking sides here, but I know that both of you had drunk a lot that night, and Jake wrote that in a anger fuelled time, and he's heartbroken, Bella. Do you want me to call a cab for you to meet him? He's staying at mine." I nodded and grabbed his hand so I could be pulled up, and I sniffled as I shoved the letter back int he locker and went outside with Paul. I noticed James on the side of the wall, looking pretty smug, but his face fell as he caught my tearful expression.
"BELLA!" He ran up to me, and I couldnt stop myself. I swung my arm back and hit him across his face.
"Never come near me again." I threatened and went to the gate to wait for the taxi. I went straight to Paul's and knocked on the door.
"Jacob. JACOB!" I bashed on the door, and I felt my phone buzz.
Leave me the fuck alone.
No. We need to talk about this.
No we don't. We're over.
Man up bitch.
I got no reply for a minute, and suddenly I felt something hard hit my head, and I collapsed on the floor, black everywhere.
...
"Fuck. Great, Jake. Go ahead and throw something at her! Because that'll help!" Jake muttered harshly to himself as the darkness was filled with bright lights.
"What?" I slowly let my eyes adjust, and came face to face with Jake. Only he seemed, very un-Jake. His face was harder, set in stone, and his eyes grew cold as he saw me wake.
"I...thought you'll go away if I dropped something near you." He muttered, moving backwards.
"Well...you missed." I rubbed the soft spot on my head. "What did you throw? A rock?" I then noticed a blob of red on my shirt. "Shit. Am I bleeding?"
Jake scratched the back of his neck. "Er...no. The ketchup was in my hand..." He then gestured to the plastic bottle of ketchup on his counter, next to a plate of fries.
"Jake. You know why I came here." Best get there as quick as possible. Like a band aid Bella, just rip it off.
Jake clenched his jaw and stood up. "There's nothing to talk about. You cheated on me. I'm out." I scoffed.
"Er, hello? I couldn't remember anything that happened, besides you punching Max a ton-"
"-Max?" Jake interrupted me, his face worried.
"Yes, Max. I didn't catch a last name." I muttered. "See? You did shit too, and I was pissed. And drunk."
"Yeah, but that wasn't the first time, was it, after I had left?"
"Did you come straight here?"
"No. Don't change the subject. Was that the first time you fucked that night?" I frowned, looking down.
"No. It wasn't."
"Tell me."
I sighed. "I don't know. But I remember. We were about to have sex, and I went into a room. You didn't come after me, you had disappeared. James then came in and I felt so confused and...drunk." I shook my head, rubbing my eyes with my finger and thumb.
"And then I found you and we did have sex..." Jake followed on.
"Yes! See?" I slapped the floor. "You remember. Why can't you forgive me? It as a mistake. Obviously I wouldn't do that again, and I would rewind time if I could, but-"
"-but you can't. That's it. I can't trust you anymore. It's pointless even trying. You had me. I loved you." I winced at the term 'loved'. "But I can't feel that when I can't trust you to not fuck other people! You're supposed to be mine! My girl. My Bella. My love." He stepped forward and lent down on one knee, looking at me eye to eye. "I can't trust you. I'm sorry." Tears pooled in my eyes, and a tear slipped from his eye as well. "I c-c-can't live with you like this. In our situation. It's impossible." I shook my head and got up, wobbling slightly. I dashed out of the door and started to run through the drizzle, tears falling over our break up. I couldn't even try to fix this relationship, when he wouldn't even try himself. I didn't bother with a taxi as I dialled a number.
"Bella?"
"Kim. I want to go through with it. I'll go on tour. When can I leave here?"
"You want to leave now? We can get you accommodation in California if you wish, so it is easier for you to go on shows or while we're waiting to advertise tickets, we can hook you up as a guest star. Fancy acting?"
"Sure." I mumbled as I reached Jacob's. "Just get me out of here by tonight. I'll have my stuff packed."
"Okay. Bye." I hung up and shook some of the rain droplets on the floor, being careful to not slip as I shoved my clothes in the washing machine and took a shower, then got out some packing boxes and put all of what was my belongings and possessions into the boxes, and at 5 on the dot, a car pulled up and Phil helped me put the boxes in the boot, and I left Jacob a note.
Jacob
I'm sorry. And I love you. Sorry we weren't worth enough for you to try fix this. It can't be one sided. Go fuck yourself.
Bella.
I wiped the teardrop that fell on the paper, and it stained the paper slightly, but it'll dry off. I climbed into the car and Phil took of, ready for California.
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