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"Why...do we bother getting girlfriends...at this...age? I mean...it's not like its lurrvve or whatever..." Felix mumbled drunkenly as I giggled next to him, drinking my drink. We were in New York, and we had finished our concert for the night, and went back to the hotel room. Edward nor Jake have contacted me, and I was feeling very empty... and at the moment...drunk. Well, not completely drunk, just tipsy...I think. It was more of a cocktail I had, so it had less alcohol in it. It was the five of us in Felix's and Garrett's room, and we were playing truth or dare, but it was up to the spinner to decide. I had just asked Felix if he was looking for a girlfriend anytime soon. "...and then they'll all come after me and Gare..., because...we're touring..." Senna cheered again, at the mention of our tour. Maria smirked and flicked through her magazine.
"OK...Felix's turn. Spin the bottle!" Felix reached over, slightly pulling me with him, as his arm was around me, and spun the bottle. It landed on Garrett.
"OK, Garrett...what is the most disgusting thing you have ever done?" He smirked.
"Well I dropped the soap..." We all busted out laughing.
"We all know you enjoyed it, Garrett." Maria winked, and Garrett pulled her into a kiss.
"Well that's a truth and a dare..." Garrett laughed, and spun the bottle. It landed on me. He pointed to me, and then Felix. "OK you two have to fuck each other...no I'm just kidding. Bella. How many times have you had sex?"
"...well I've lost count." I mumbled, and Maria laughed.
"And how old are you? 15? 16? You aren't even legal! Who with? How many guys?" Oh, so did this turn into question Bella time?
I sighed. "3 guys...I think. Two of them were serious." Jake and Edward...ugh I wanted to get out all this...lust...
"And by the end of this tour...you'll have added two more to that total." Senna stuck her thumb out to Garrett and then nodded her head at Felix.
"No pressure." I laughed. "And don't get their egos any bigger, please!" Felix laughed and ruffled my hair.
"Oh Bells you know you want to. You're the only one who hasn't out of us lot."
"And this is an example of peer pressure." I stated, not feeling any pressure at all.
"OK people leave her be." Maria smiled. "She obviously doesn't want to reject you or accept you." I scoffed and shook my head.
"Who's next?" I changed the conversation. Maria smirked and spun the bottle. It landed on Felix.
"Felix, I dare you to drink..." She got up and headed for the fridge, grabbing a bottle of Bailey's Irish Cream and some lime juice. "I've been saving this. This is the...Cement mixer. You swig the Bailey's in your mouth, then add the lime juice." Felix looked at her dubiously, but did so. First went the Bailey's, then the lime juice. And he almost convulsed. I giggled as he swallowed, making a disgusted expression.
"Fuck! What the hell was that, Maria! Ugh ugh ugh! It was like-"
"-Oh you know what it would be like." I laughed, and he looked accusingly at me.
"You knew what it was?" I nodded and high fived Maria. Garrett gave us all a confused look, and Senna whispered in his ear, and he went bright red in the face, to stop from laughing, but it had the wrong effect. He was rolling around on the floor for 10 minutes straight. When we thought he had stopped, he started up again.
"Oh, ouch... Heheh...I got stomach aches!" He tried to stop himself laughing any further, and calmed down. "Geez, Felix, maybe it wasn't a girl you were looking for..." And there we go. The hilarity was soon over and Felix had recovered from his...beverage. I began to get uncomfortable sitting on the floor, fidgeting every few seconds, so Felix picked me up and place me in his lap. Much better.
"Do we really want to continue any further? Or do we want to change someones sexuality? Because Garrett obviously 'dropped' the soap. More like knocked it over of purpose." Felix teased, and I chuckled.
"It was funny, though." Everyone giggled.
"Bella!" Felix whined. "Don't make me do the unthinkable..." I raised an eyebrow.
"Well that sounds interesting. What's the unthinkable?"
"Oh, that's his way of saying he's going to dangle you from the balcony to dry." My eyes widened, and everyone laughed.
"Really?"
"No."
"You're so gullible." Garrett laughed. "It's gonna be fun teasing you." I leaned back against Felix's chest, and smirked.
"You know 'gullible' has been removed from the dictionary?" I joked.
"Oh really?" Senna went on with me. "I think I have heard that somewhere...isn't that because the word was seen as an offense?" Garrett looked at Senna questioningly.
"Really? No way." Senna's eyes danced with silent laughter as my eyes connected with hers.
"Yeah."
"Okay..." I yawned. "I'm off to bed. Let's hope for no hangover in the morn'" I got up and headed for the door.
"I'll walk you back." Felix offered, and before I could object, he was out of the door. We walked down the hall slowly.
"So...how did it feel to be on the girls side?" Felix shuddered, and I laughed. "Well you can always use that on those who you hate." I offered. He looked back at me.
"You saying that Maria hates me?" I shrugged as his lips turned up at the corners.
"Maybe she wanted to get back at you for something." I made up, but I had no idea. Felix cursed and face palmed. "What?"
"I knew I shouldn't have done that!" We reached my door, and I looked up curiously at Felix.
"What did you do?" The air had started to feel a little...tense as I opened my door, and suddenly, I pulled his lips to mine, kissing him softly. He held onto my hips, pushing me backwards and kicking the door shut. "Friends with benefits?" I mumbled against his lips as we fell onto the bed.
"Sure, sure." He said, attacking my neck with kisses.
And my total for how many guys I had slept with...4, and probably soon to be 5.
...
We made it to California, and I couldn't feel more pumped to see Edward! I had arranged to meet him at noon today, and we got stuck in traffic, so I had to bump that to 3pm. I sat in the car seat, legs hanging in the air above Felix's chair, and he slapped them away again, smirking.
"Bella, keep doing that and I'll claim these legs." I laughed. Garrett raised his hand. He was sitting next to me.
"I'll take one, you take the other- maybe everyone can get a glimpse at whether she's commando or not." I giggled and put my legs down.
"I am not commando, Garrett." I put my hands in my lap. Senna was next to Garrett, and Maria was on my other side. "But I bet you are."
"Very mature, Bella." Maria joked, and I leaned back in my chair.
"I'm so uncomfortable! When are we stopping?"
"5 minutes short of the answer that was given 5 minutes ago." Felix muttered. "What's the plan for today?"
"Well..." I was excited to tell them. And in fact, this friends with benefits thing was perfect for me, for us, as I don't think I could have coped otherwise, as I was be to agitated to stand the paps, the fans. "I'm meeting my ex today" Senna turned around and grinned at me.
"Really? Edward?" I of course had told them all about it, and they all swore to promise that the friends with benefits would never leave the group. Especially not about me. I couldn't have Edward finding out. I saw Garrett, Felix, Senna and Maria as really close friends of mine, and I hoped that Edward could eventually meet them. But not today, Today he's all mine. I was so excited to meet him again, but this was my only day to see him, since I am technically still on tour. We reached the hotel at 2, and I spent that lucky hour getting showered and dressed.
"Wow Bella you're pretty hyped. Who's the guy?" Felix commented as I strolled past him.
"Oh nobody nobody, just my favorite guy in the world." I smirked happily, spinning around to face Felix. He dramatically put a hand to his heart.
"Wait...I'm not you favourite guy?" I let out a laugh.
"Sorry sweetums, mommas gotta go meet her favorite guy. Toodles!" I turned back around and went to find Phil.
"Phil! Phil!" I called throughout the hallway. He said he'd meet me in the lounge. I waited, and a few minutes later he came rushing in.
"Sorry Bella I was talking to Kim and forgot." I nodded and we headed for the car out front, and sped off to my old building. I told him I'll meet him here because I wasn't sure when I'd make it there. I literally skipped down the hall and knocked on the door, and waited. The door didn't open. Was he out? I couldn't bear it anymore. I had sent Phil on his break around the city, so I couldn't go back. Was this right floor? I knocked again. My heart was pounding as the lock turned and the door opened.
And there he was. Beauty.
"Bella." Came from his lips, and he reached out, taking a lock of hair and wrapping it behind my ear.
"Edward." I choked, and rushed forward to hug him. "I've missed you."
"Me too." he whispered, just loud for me to hear.
"How have you been?"
"Distance makes the heart go fonder." He stated, squeezing me.
"Uhuh."
"Come inside." It was slightly on the awkward side, but I was still with Edward, and I was happy.
"Where's Rose and Em?" I wondered as I walked inside.
He yawned, stretching. "They're on set. I've gotta go in later."
Disappointment flooded through me. "Oh." Edward pulled me to him, and kissed my lips softly. Just a peck.
"Aren't you staying in California for a few days?" I nodded.
"But I have a job too you know! Maybe this was a bad idea..." I sighed, and Edward immediately backtracked.
"No no no...we're here...we're okay...it's fine. A few hours is more than enough." He rested his cheek on my head.
"Can we just...talk? I feel like I still don't know you..." Edward pulled me to sit on his lap on the sofa, and scooped me up.
"What do you want to talk about?" Edward asked, cuddling me.
"Well...what have you been doing since I went on tour? You know where I've been." Edward chuckled.
"Well our production has gone a little overtime, but we'll survive. As long as it's a good film, right?" I nodded. My phone beeped, and I ignored it. "Bella, your phone went." I sighed, checking my phone.
Bella EMERGENCY get to hotel NOW Felix x
I sat up, surprised. What was wrong?
"Hold on Edward." I got up and pressed call.
"Bella?" I shooed Edward away, and waited for Felix to pick up.
"Bella! Oh god, we're so sorry for calling on you like this, but...do we have to talk on the phone?" I heard in the background someone scream at Felix. "Fuck. Bella, you're close to Senna, right? She needs her friends with her."
"What's wrong?"
"She's pregnant. And...we have no idea who's it is. We were all careful, we used condoms and all...shit. This wasn't part of the plan..." Fuck.
"See? This is why I was wary at first- this friends with benefits thing won't work in the long run, and now look? One of us..."I trailed off and grabbed my bag. "I'll be there in a few, I need to find Phil." I hung up, and Edward was in my face.
"What's wrong?" He asked politely, leaning close to me.
"Um...I have to go, I'm sorry." I backed away, and Edward grabbed my arm.
"I couldn't help but hear...Bella please be honest with me." I gulped. What had I done? I thought back, and I couldn't think of anything.
"S-s-sure." I stammered, panicking.
"Are...are you with anyone? You said about friends with benefits..." Oh shit. Oh shit.
"Um...nu-"
"-because you also said 'us', so you must be one of them, right? You can tell me." He stepped back and went to stand next to his sofa, and sat down.
"I...yes..." I confessed. "I don't see them in any other way...I just found it as...something that would calm me down...stop me...from getting so frustrated. You may think i can handle myself, but really...when I'm thinking of you...I get...all..." Edward stood up as I trailed off, and cupped my face in his hands. He breathed out, blowing his breath all over my face.
"I can understand...I have it easy...and I've been having a little trouble myself, if I'm honest" I smirked at the thought of him jerking off, waiting for me to get home. "But you love me, don't you? Please...I can't think of you being with anyone else. It's the exact same as letting your love go sleep with their friends for the meantime! I don't like it at all." He ran his nose down my jaw, and I shivered in lust.
"Edward...you're not helping...I have to go to my friend. She needs me." I groaned as he placed a kiss at my jaw, pulling me towards him. "Edward...the more you tease me the more I can't help myself with my friend with benefits..." He stopped.
"Why can't you stay here? What's so important that you have to leave? We only have a few hours together..."
"One is pregnant."
Edward froze. "You are definitely not having friends with benefits, Bella. End of."
I scoffed. "Edward, I'm on the pill. Chillax. But I really need to find her. I'm sorry. Maybe we can find another time..." Edward sighed and hugged me.
"I don't want to leave you. I've missed you for so long, so much. I...I've never slept with anyone before you...and I don't intend to sleep with anyone else." I sighed. "Maybe you should try that."
"Edward now isn't the time for declaring our love for each other. I have to go. Love you." I grinned, as pecked his lips softly before turning around. "If I have time off I'll let you know." I left Edward standing in his apartment, with a shocked look on his face. I gave Phil a call, and he would pick me up in a few. I apologised, but he stopped me.
"It's ok Bella. Emergencies happen." We headed back to the hotel and I ran up to our room and banged on the door. Garrett opened it and rushed back inside, where I heard wailing. I slowly crept inside and shut the door closed. I crept around to the bedroom, and peeked around the door, where I saw Senna, covered in tissues, weeping into Maria's shoulder.
"This can't happen...t-t-to me now!" She cried, and I rushed forward, moving a space of tissues so I could sit on. She grabbed a hold of me, and I saw the positive pregnancy test on the bed. "Our band's just got st-t-tarted! I can't have a baby!" My eyes connected with Maria's, and she looked sadly at me.
"It'll be okay Senna...you have a ton of options. It's early days. You can-" Felix shook his head fiercely at me, and I shut my mouth. "It'll be okay..."
"No." She shook her head. "I only have one option. I know I can't give up the baby when I can't even give up anything! I can't kill the baby...I'd have to either have a spontaneous miscarriage or keep it..." She sobbed, shaking.
"You have to pick yourself up, honey. Like it or not, but it will happen and you're in a band. Your career may have only just begun, but you can manage a baby too. You're on tour, that will end soon. You can even fit a UK tour while you're at it and still have the baby. It'll all be fine."
"You think?" Hope was in her voice.
"Of course." I assured her.
"I'm sorry Bella. You were meant to see Edward. Ugh I'm so stupid!" Uh oh. First level: crying your eyes out. And onto second level: Self loathing. Hopefully it'll go onto level three very soon: acceptance.
"It's okay."
"You all are such good friends." She sniffled, squeezing us. And we spent the day soothing her until we had to go rehearse and perform. The night was spectacular. California loved us, and I felt tears fall as I sung the last song. I couldn't believe how far I had come. Now millions wanted to see me, to know me. I couldn't believe it. I went to bed that night...alone...and feeling happy.
...
"Have they told you how long far you were?" I asked Senna. Third level got here quickly, thank god. We were in Tennessee, and we were driving to Kentucky for our next concert. Senna wasn't sure whose it was, but she had her scan in Tennessee, and she had told us all about the 'cold jelly' they put on her. Haha. And if you're wondering...I did try not to sleep with Felix or Garrett. I really did, and it helped that both were so freaked about Senna's pregnancy that they wouldn't anyway. But then things calmed down, and I believe it was affecting my performance. Okay that's a lie. It wasn't, but...Ugh I feel terrible. OK, this is it. I won't sleep with anyone else. Edward's the one for me. Thinking of that...I wonder how Jake is? I'll give Heidi a call.
"Hello? Heidi?"
"Yes?"
"Um...It's Bella."
"...Oh right. What do you need?" She sounded off, but I think she wanted me to be with Jake, not someone else.
"Just checking on Jake. Hows he doing?"
"He's fine. Better. Not on the drugs or alcohol, but it's hard for him to quit smoking. He doesn't want to."
"Er...well...give him some time. Tell him I said 'hi'."
"Sure. See ya." She hung up, and my mood dropped by ten tonnes. I needed someone to talk to. Edward.
"Hello?"
"Bella? Heyy..." Edward whispered awkwardly.
"Hey is this a good time?"
"Um...I'm so sorry Bella but I'm just about to do my scene. Can I call you later?"
Disappointment. "Sure, sure. Bye."
"Bye honey." I pulled the phone from my face, and borrowed one of Maria's magazines that was in the little basket under the seat. I started flicking through, where nothing really caught my eye. Until I saw a small section about me. Wait...stop reading Bella! But I couldn't help myself. As a bored teenager, I had to look.
Bella Swan. Friend or foe?
On our website, there is a video showing Bella Swan lashing out at another girl her age, having to be held back by her muscled bodyguard. So what we'd like to know, is if her bodyguard is to protect Bella, or protect others from Bella? The video was recorded in Washington, and most likely when she was there on tour. So, what made Bella Swan snap? That's what we want to find out.
Keeping you posted.
WHAT? Why did I have to look like the bad guy here? I scoffed, chucking the magazine on the seat.
"I need to get out of this car!" I shouted, and everyone turned to look at me curiously.
"Are you okay, Bella?" Senna asked.
"No I'm not. I'm tired, fed up, and I want to have a break from this whole freaking tour! I want to see Edward!" I whined. Senna put a hand on my shoulder in a soothing matter.
"Hormones." Felix muttered and turned around.
"Shut up" I argued, grabbing the magazine and chucking it at his head.
"Why don't we organise a holiday for us when the tours over? It'll only be for a short amount of time. 1 or 2 weeks. Something to look forward to." Garrett offered.
"Sounds great." Maria smiled. "Where to?"
"Hawaii?" Felix smirked. "We have the dosh...its a state?"
"Ok..." I said. "I need to clear my head for a while, yeah?"
"It'll do you good Bella." Senna told me honestly. During the drive we planned it out. We'll go as soon as the tour is up, and we'll get a flight to Hawaii, and spend a few days there. Not too long. Catch some sun.
"Can it be done?" I asked Senna, and she nodded.
...
"Okay folks this is our last performance on our last date. You ready for it? GMSF! Come on out! The four walked, ran and skipped out, and joined me on stage. The beginning chords came on, and the fans screamed.
"...Woah
Woah
Just tell me once
And I'll believe you
Woah
Woah
Stay strong for us
Always stay with me
And I was thinking
About me and you
You hadn't called in a while
Did you think of me?
Cause I've been thinking about you
And I wanna make this work
But girl if you don't call
We're both gonna fall
I wanna show you off
Spoil you senseless
Drive you in my car
With you I'd give up my car
I need something to hold onto
I just need you to tell me
Its three words but
The sentiment behind it
Like a giant hiding behind
Someone as small as me
Because Senna loves you
Do you like her?
If you do, then go and tell her..."
It was done. We'd made it. The tour was over and I could soon see Edward. I was buzzing.
We were on a flight the next morning, and it was a rough morning, since we-besides Senna, who stuck to squash- spent the night drinking, and I had passed out. I was asleep most of the flight, and Senna woke me up when we arrived. I groggily told her to 'go away'.
Hawaii was a beautiful place. We took a cab to our hotel, and the rooms were all separate across the beach, about 10m away from the sand. The sun shone, and people played in the sea and also in the hotel pool as we went to get some drinks.
"Look at this place. I want to absorb as much sun and fun as I can." I grinned, sipping on my cocktail that Senna bought me.
"I can't believe I can't drink. It's soft drinks for me then!" Senna laughed as we went to find a sun bed. Most of the people were around 13 to 40s, but I saw a few older people relaxing on a sun bed. I saw two boys chucking a ball at each other as we passed by.
"Ugh!" The one boy who was going to receive the ball groaned as he jumped for the ball to the side, and the ball scattered across the water and skipped out of the water. Feeling perky, I went the same distance for it and picked it up, turning around and threw it back to the boy, who had turned around. He had dark black hair, or wet brown hair, which went across his face.
"Thanks!" He called as we carried on walking.
"No problemo." I replied back over behind my shoulder. We took our seats and I applied some more sun creme to my legs.
"Hey Senna I think that one's checking you out!" I smirked and nodded to the dark haired boy's friend, who was blond and had a gorgeous grin and he caught the ball. "He's not bad, right?"
Senna thought it over. "Yeah, he is really hot." She smiled, and the blond boy glanced at her, and she waved at him. And he did this really cute thing- he looked down slightly, dimples showing, and then looked back up at Senna, and gave her a toothy smile. I looked at Senna, who was blushing profusely, and I cooed.
"N'awh! Seems someone's got a little crush!" I giggled and Senna gave me a little push. That's when Felix and Garrett arrived, and sat down on the ends of our sun beds.
"What's up, ladies?" Felix greeted us.
"Shoo boys. We're finding Senna's perfect man." I pushed them away with my foot, and they left, laughing. "We're going to the beach. See ya laters."
I looked at the blond, he wasn't looing at us anymore. "Senna, we will get you that guy. How old do you think he is?"
She pondered for a moment. "Maybe 18? Both look around that age, to be fair..." I nodded.
"We should talk to them." I said, and set out a plan. I saw the dark haired boy raise his hands at his sides above the water, an act of challenge, and the blond threw the ball harder at him, and it bounced in front of him, splashing him with water. I giggled, and the ball headed in our direction, I sat up to pick it up, but the dark haired boy was already climbing out of the water to fetch it. He smirked at me as he came and retrieved his ball.
"Sorry ladies." He turned back, his back shining from the sun, and then turned back around. "A-are you new? I don't think I've seen you around here before." He lent over and stuck out a hand, and I shook it, dry against wet. "I'm Austin."
"Bella." I replied, smiling. "And this is Senna." He shook her hand, and gestured to the boy in the water.
"My friend, Levi. I think he likes you." He grinned. "But those guys who just left- are they your boyfriends?" We shook our heads.
"Nope. Definitely not." Senna assured him. "They're our band mates. That's all." He nodded. Levi got out of the water and rushed after him.
"Sorry about him." He laughed nervously, pulling Austin to stand up, and they towered over us. "Hey, you're Bella Swan, right?" I nodded, pursing my lips.
"Yep, that's me." I muttered.
"You just finished tour?" I nodded.
"Yeah, with Senna and her band." Levi gave Senna a small wave.
"Hi Senna." Awkward silence fell over us, and Austin changed the subject.
"Did you want to go get some early lunch? There is an outdoor restaurant buffet that's on until 3." I nodded and sat up, putting on my flip flops.
"Sure, I'm starving." Senna did the same and we started walking.
"So...okay to break that weird ice because you're famous..." I laughed at Austin's no-nonsense attitude. "I'm from America, living in California, but I'm not the sort of guy you'd see on 90210 or anything. No drama about me or Levio." I smirked. I usually put 'o's on my 'problem' and some other words too.
"How old are you both?"
"18. Best mates in Hawaii- yes!" He sapped Levi's shoulder and they both grinned.
"Ha, sounds like a holiday!" Senna smirked.
We sat down at the beach bar with our meals and began a regular chat with each other. Once we finished, Levi sparked up a conversation with Senna and they split together.
"Fancy a trip to the beach?"
"Sure." He made movement to get up, and we walked down the extra few steps to the golden beach.
"What water sports do they have?" I wondered out loud.
"Do you want to row?"
I shrugged in response as I headed over to a double seated canoe. "Let's do this thing." I smiled up at Austin, and he did the same.
The afternoon went brilliantly, besides the fact that we got stuck in the middle of the ocean and had fell in the water multiple times, and then had the lifeguard get us back. I ran forward in front of Austin as he caught up, laughing as we scampered away from the irritated lifeguard.
"Gosh, that was hilarious!" I giggled, trying to hold myself together. Austin let out a laugh, just as we bumped into Garrett and Felix, who had a plate of fries and tomato sauce each. I snagged a chip and dipped it in the sauce, smiling.
"Hey boys. How was your day?"
"The question is...how was yours? Got some candy there?" He looked over behind me, and I shrugged it off.
"Shut up. I still love Edward." I gave him a light shove. "When are you going back up?" Meaning to the hotel.
"Um...in about half an hour. We have to get ready for dinner. Senna's already gone up. She told me to tell you be there in...now it would probably be now a good time." I nodded, then went to Austin at the bar.
"Hey Austin I'm gonna get back to the room now. I'll see you tonight?" He nodded and gave me a small hug.
"See ya Bella." I waved as I collected my things from my sun bed, and headed back upstairs. I shut the door behind me, chucking the items onto the chair and sat on the bed.
"Don't get the bed wet." Senna mumbled as she laid out her clothes. I stood up.
"Where's Maria?"
"I figured she'll take the less time to get ready so you're second. She'll be up within half an hour." I stripped as I headed for the bathroom and took a cool shower, singing my favorite song.
It soon became dinnertime, and we were seated in the international restaurant, about to get our food. I spotted Austin and Levi grabbing food and pointed them out to Senna, who got up and headed straight for them. Maria raised her eyebrows.
"So this is where you were all day? I wondered where my girlies were."
"Well, yeah." I admitted, and went to get some food. When I got back, two seats had been added on the one end of the table, and Garrett and Felix were talking to them constantly throughout dinner. Once we finished eating, we decided to go to the beach for their performance, and I walked alongside Levi and Senna as we made our way to the beach. Garrett was too busy chatting to Austin. Senna and Levi seemed to be getting quite comfortable, so I edged my way out of conversation to leave them be, walking alone.
"Bella!" I heard Maria call out, and I waited for her to catch up. "Hey. How's it going?"
"It's good."
"You seeing Austin then-?" I quickly covered her mouth before anything more could come out.
"!" I silently screamed. "No I am not!" Maria's eyes went wide, and pulled my hand off her face. Lipstick covered my hand.
"Why so protective, Bella?" Maria snapped, stepping forward.
"I don't want him to get any ideas."
"Do you like him?"
"Not in that way."
"You shouldn't lead him on like that."
I sighed. "I should set him in his place. We're only here a week."
I sat next to Maria, as far as I could from Austin. However my plan didn't work when he came over to sit next to me.
"Hey." He said. "You alright?"
"Yeah." I mumbled, just as the performance began. There were many dancers, who danced to the music, dresses flowing in the wind. When the song was over, there were some men who practiced with fire and juggled and such. It was distracting me from the real issue, so I was shocked when Austin nudged me.
"Hey...Bella. You seem tense." Did I?
"Um...no I'm fine."
"Don't lie to me."
I didn't answer him.
"Alright, alright. Don't tell me."
Screw him.
"hey...I need to get something in the air." I turned to look at him. What is he going to say?
"What?"
"We can't be friends." I turned to look at him incredulously.
"What?" I uttered.
"I'm sorry. If people know that I know you...I can never have a proper life. Seriously- I have no idea who I want to be...and I know its really soon to be saying anything, but I didn't want to...lead you on. If someone publicly sees me as your friend, then I will never have a normal life. I don't want that, okay? Not yet. I'm sorry."
I was gobsmacked. "But-"
"-No, Bella. Don't make this any harder." He turned back around to face the dancers.
"Austin. I don't like you in that way. We have just met." I quietly stated.
"O...yeah I really am quite embarrassed now..." He shook his head, smiling then turning back to face me. "I guess...I guess I felt something that obviously wasn't there, and it felt like we'd known each other longer, yeah? I'm just thinking in the long run. I'm like that."
I wasn't sure what to say. I'm sure I had hurt him, but he was planning on dumping me anyway, so I didn't see what I could have done to help the matter. I tried to go for a simple apology.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't say that." He balled his hands into fists, and I fidgeted as I waited for him to let go of his breath. He did. "It's my fault. You obviously have someone..."
"I do." I looked down at my hands.
"Do you love him? May I ask who is it?"
So he has no trouble asking if I love him, but is weary of who in the world it could be. Brilliant.
"Yes I do love him. And he loves me back." He waited for my other answer. "You know the guy."
"Is it Jacob Black?"
"No... not him." I shuddered. "We split ages ago."
It was silent between us, besides the loud music in front of us. I looked to Maria, and she seemed to not notice anything. Or she pretended to not be listening.
"I..." Austin stood up, and stepped over the bench, walking away. I didn't move, because I felt he needed...whatever time it was he needed. He's acting as if he liked me. And yet he still wanted to call it quits. So he expected that I would be the only one to hurt. Well he can forget that. Stupid moron, never asked me whether I was in a relationship or not. Stupid boy.
I couldn't help but feel annoyed throughout the performance, and soon enough, Maria noticed the waves of anger from me.
"Whats up, Bella? Where'd Austin get to?" Ugh.
"I don't know, don't care."
Maria let slip a chuckle. "Fighting already are we?"
"I don't want to talk about it." I tensed up.
"Don't be such a prude."
The show ended, and I wanted an early night, but I went with Senna to get a seat while the boys got us drinks. Levi sat next to Senna and made conversation.
"So...what did you order?" I smiled.
"A sex on the beach. You know what you should get Austin to try?" Senna grinned as we told him about the Irish cream and lime shot. Yum. Levi nodded along, humoured, and told us he'll record it for us if we weren't there to see it. Just imagining it made me laugh.
"Where is he anyway? Has he gone to get drinks too?" Senna glanced over to the bar, but there was no sight of him, from what I could see.
"Er, he found me just a minute ago- told me he's going to the lobby."
The alcohol arrived and I knocked back a few until I was very tipsy bordering onto drunk. I found myself a few hours later, staggering into my room, with Felix and Garrett, and both of their hands were roaming across my body, their kisses tasting of alcohol and even more alcohol.
"Oh.." One of them pushed me into the wall, and another pulled me to the bed...
...
I groaned, and rubbed my eyes as the bright light shone through the windows. What happened last night? I turned and immediately came in contact with some warm skin. I forced my eyes open. No, no no...no. I had been doing so well! Garrett was asleep next to me, and I edged my way backwards, so I could make my escape. And I hit another warm muscle, and the person went crashing out of the bed. I put a hand to my mouth in shock, turning so I saw Felix's messy hair and Felix muttering to himself.
"Ouch." he picked himself up and shook his head. "Ergh...what happened?" He turned to me and his eyes considerably widened. "Bella?" He then looked behind me. "Garrett?" I pulled up the covers to cover myself, embarrassed.
"Go away Felix." He snapped, and waved us away. "Shut up." I looked back to Felix.
"Did we?"
He nodded. "I think so. Is he naked too?" I face palmed. Why had I gotten so drunk? Stupid, stupid, stupid...
"Yeah he is." He was on his back, but his ass was there. "Fucking hell."
"I think I remember most of it. But I have to concentrate to..." He stood up, and went over to the mirror, rubbing his face. "I look a mess." He ran his hand through his hair, and looked at me through the mirror. "Get Garrett up?" I nodded, facing the sluggish man next to me, and I gave him a little shove.
"Garrett, wake up." Another shove. I then thought to myself, it got Felix up, so why not? I used my feet, and pushed him off the bed, and he went flying.
"Bella! What was that for?" He remained motionless on the floor for a few seconds. Three, two...one and a half...one..."Uh oh." He got up, and sat on the bed. "Did we both fuck you?" I slapped his shoulder.
"Hey I'm not just some fuck here."
"Well?"
"Yeah I'm guessing so. Can you piece the night together?"
Felix came to sit on the bed. "You were smashed- drinking almost the whole bar...no I'm kidding. You did have a lot to drink. Me and Garrett had quite a bit too. Senna disappeared off with Levi, and Maria with Austin...-"
"-Austin? When was this?" Felix nodded.
"Yeah, and then it was just us three." He shrugged as if that was the only reason why this occurred.
"Ugh! I was so close! We have 6 days left." Garrett rubbed my bare back, and I shut my eyes.
"Sorry Bella-"
"-it's ok. I'll try sort Edward out. Hopefully it'l be okay as long as I don't end up pregnant." Just then the door banged, and we all jumped.
"Bella! Let me in!" Senna. I rushed to find my dress and pulled it on.
"Guys!" I urged them to get decent and I opened the door, opening it to a teary Senna.
"I'm so stupid, Bella!" She stepped in and I shut the door, and pulled her into a hug, where she blubbed out her story. " I told Levi I was pregnant, and he just freaked. I really like him, and then we had to sleep with each other. We were being all honest and all- I told him about my tour, he told me he went to it, he said he was a virgin, and I told him I was pregnant! Stupid stupid stupid!"
"Honey...you're not stupid. I'm stupid." She looked up, confused.
"What...what happened?" I looked to Garrett and Felix, and she followed my eyes. "Oh. Well that isn't too bad. It isn't like you haven't slept with each of them separately before. It's like two nights in one."
"But I promised Edward I wouldn't-"
"-and you said he was okay with it as long as-"
"-Senna, shush." I sat her down and the boys pulled on their boxers.
"I want to go back home." Senna mumbled. "I'm over it. There's always plenty more fish in the sea."
"Honey..." I sighed. I should talk to him. "Let me do this for you- what is his room number?" She tensed.
"Don't."
"Tell me."
Before she could, the door knocked again. This time Felix went to go and get it, and Maria came in, looking sheepish.
"Sorry Bella. You probably heard already. To be honest, it wasn't that good. He was...inexperienced." She paused. "Senna, what's wrong?"
Senna looked up at Maria, "Can we leave early? I know we wanted a break, but this is no break where we sleep with the guys on the first day, and end up regretting everything." She sighed, and leaned her head against me. I looked up to Garrett, and he put a hand to his face.
"Okay then. Fine. We can leave if you really want." It was silent for a few minutes, and Felix fidgeted with his hands throughout that time period. Maria broke the silence.
"Lets pack."
"I'll sort out the flights."
"I'll..." I looked down at Senna. "Be here." Senna shook her head. "Or not."
"No, I need to do something to get him off of my mind." She got up and sniffled before walking out of the room, Maria on her tail. I glanced at the boys. One was on his mobile, the other still fidgeting.
"Are you going to pack?"
"Er...yeah." Felix got up, and walked out, and Garrett started sorting as I pulled clothes out of the closet. Before we kind of shoved everything together, but now that I'm splitting, I have to separate my stuff from theirs now, and I wasn't sure which was which. Garrett was pacing as he hung up the mobile, then he sat on the bed, causing it to shake slightly.
"I got us a flight for 6pm. Our taxi picks us up at 4."
"So soon?" I pulled out more clothes from the wardrobe. We had barely finished unloading our stuff.
"Yeah." He mumbled, looking at my suitcase. "Look, Bella...I'm sorry for putting you in a situation that could hurt you and Edward."
"I can deal with Edward. But I can't deal with the fact that...I'm kind of..." I shook my head. I'm so stupid. "Lets be honest, I'm kind of scared of seeing him right now. I thought I was excited to see him again...but now its come so fast...I don't know." I wandered towards him and he pulled me to sit next to him. I hope I never lose him, or any one of the others as friends. Friends with benefits didn't exactly work out, but it could have been a lot worse if I fell for one of them, or vice versa.
"Maybe a break to your home town for the next few days will do you good? I could sort it out for you. You haven't been home since you got in the business, right? Maybe this is what you need. You can get back home for the same time you would have. For half a week?" What a brilliant idea.
"That's a really good idea, Garrett!" I'm starting to feel more and more homesick. I hadn't called my family for ages. "Could you? I'd hate to lose time with you all...but I haven't seen them in so long..." Garrett nodded, and looked at his phone again.
"I can do that. You know that we know what's best for you." I smirked at him, and he pecked me on my cheek. "We love you, Bella." I squeezed him into a hug.
"Love you too." I mumbled and shut my eyes. It was silent for a while, and Garrett sighed.
"I need to sort out your separate flight Bella..." I reluctantly let my arms go loose, and he dialed a few numbers and stood up as I went back to packing. An hour later it was set. I would leave at 5pm and my flight was for 7:30pm. Tomorrow. Ugh. A whole day to myself. This didn't help at all... I had packed and Senna and Maria came to help soon after, looking better. Garrett went to pack himself with Felix and since the room was still ours for a few more days, we left our bags in the room and went to spend a few hours in the welcoming sun. So out came the bikinis and swimming trunks, and we went to the beach to sunbathe. There really was no emotional attachment, seeing as we had only been here for one day, so it felt odd to be here. I sighed as I shut my eyes, feeling the sun rays warming my skin. If I was going to England, there is a small chance that I would see much sun for a while. It was late August, and they would begin school soon, so I could see those who I chose to before the crowd came in. That meant my best friends, my friends, family...I could ignore the likes of Vicky and Alec. Success!
The time came when my friends who seemed like family had to depart. I waited with them while they showered and got changed into their 'airport' clothes, and waited alongside them as they waited for the taxi. It was due in 5 minutes.
"Bella- I'm sorry I couldn't get you a time close to ours!" Garrett exclaimed, glancing at his watch.
"S'ok." I mumbled. I was pretty annoyed that I have to wait here doing nothing for a day and a bit.
"Uh oh." Senna whispered as the taxi drove up the long road to our hotel. We picked ourselves off the floor and hung around the entrance to the hotel. They all put me in the center of a group hug.
"We'll miss you!" Maria shouted. "We have your number, email and...er...that's it. Bye Bells!"
"Bye you guys! I'll see you soon." They climbed into the taxi and waved me goodbye as they drove off with their luggage. I turned around and headed back. Well this is a downer. All alone for the next good many hours until I get back to England. Yippee. Note the sarcasm. I decided to hang around the pool, maybe swim a bit, before going in and getting ready for a dinner by myself.
The first idea was the worst idea, or so I thought. Levi was sitting on the edge of the pool, and waved me over. I looked behind me, before turning to face him and just going for it. I only had a day- I could live.
"Hey." I called and sat down after he gestured for me to do so.
"Hey, you ok?" I nodded. "How's Senna doing?" My mouth fell open.
"Where have you been all day?" I tried to ignore the question. Levi looked out to the water.
"We went on a boat trip for the day. We booked it in advance. Why?"
"Just wondering. I heard about last night and this morning."
"I guessed. Is she okay?"
"Do you want me to lie?"
"Of course not."
I paused. "She bailed, Levi. I think she really liked you and when you freaked out, she freaked out." He leaned closer to me, alert.
"Where is she, Bella?"
"She's gone back to America, with the band, and I'm leaving for England tomorrow afternoon."
Levi was quiet for a minute, but I could feel waves of rage, uncertain and worry from him. I felt the same way.
"I didn't want her to go. I didn't want that-"
"-So what did you want? Her to suffer in silence? She didn't intend to get pregnant, you know. But when she did, she didn't let that stop her. She doesn't have it in her to kill it, and then your reaction didn't help that."
"I gave her-"
"-oh I know what you gave her. That means nothing. I lost mine ages ago."
"I don't care. I was planning on giving it to my girlfriend."
"You're not single?"
"I am, but Senna...I'd known her one day."
"Tell that to Austin, he seemed to be pretty annoyed with me last night."
"He wouldn't talk about it."
"And then he goes ahead and fucks Maria-"
"-wait- what? He told me he didn't do anything with her."
"Well he did."
"Ugh. I'm so annoyed with everyone today it's unbelievable."
"You and me both."
I swayed my legs in the water, waiting for Levi to talk again. I gave up. "Sorry that you lost your v card to the wrong girl."
No answer, I looked up at him, and he had a face of concentration.
"I shouldn't have had that drink. It's my fault. I got drunk."
"Again...you and me both."
"What happened to you?"
"Do you want to know?"
"Yeah. Spill." His lips turned up at the corners.
"Won't tell anyone?" I looked around to make sure nobody was in hearing distance.
"Promise." He gave me the pinky finger, and I smiled.
"I...I think I had a threesome."
His eyes widened. "You kidding? No way!" I laughed.
"Yes way. I can't remember any of it though, which sucks." I joked.
"Dude, that's sick."
"Well..." I shrugged.
"Do you know if it was good or not?"
"No idea, but I'm kind of guessing if someone went through the back door it would be uncomfortable today, which it isn't, if you know what I mean." It took a minute, but he nodded slowly.
"Wow, you're like a couple years younger than me and yet you have a bigger sex life than me. That's whack." I smirked.
"Better believe it, you inexperienced fool." I grinned, and bumped shoulders with him. "According to Maria, Austin's pretty inexperienced too. And hey- I'm about to turn 16- it's not as if it's illegal."
"But it is."
"I have less than a month for it to be legal. It's legal."
"But it isn't."
"So you're saying, if I were to come onto you, and you knew my real age, you won't want to get some?" He pretended to think it through, then smiled.
"So you're 16?"
I beamed. "That's the spirit. Too bad I'm in something complicated." My thoughts drifted back to Edward." Otherwise we'd be in my bedroom right now."
"Too bad. Is that complicated meaning the threesome you had just had?"
"It's part of it."
"And who's the lucky guy?" I gave him a look, then blurted it out.
"Edward Cullen."
Levi leaned back. "I'm impressed. He's like...famous, you know?" I shook my head.
"I've known him much longer, when I was a teenager."
"You still are a teenager."
"Well when I was younger, and he was getting his first lead role in a movie."
"Which movie is it?"
"Can't remember. Had that Maggie girl in it."
"Doesn't ring a bell."
"Nahh..." I drawled out the word. "It's pretty old now. Good few years."
"And he likes you too?"
I nodded. "I tried to promise that I wouldn't sleep around with anyone when I was away...but it became really hard. I'm full of hormones and...lust..." Levi covered my mouth.
"And you are not really helping the situation when you talk like that." He gestured to his swimming trunks as he let go of me, and I bit my lip.
"Sorry." I giggled. "Thought those hormones weren't raging since you hadn't yet had some until last night."
"The box is open and they're flying everywhere." He stated, and I laughed.
"No more threesomes for me."
"No more." He repeated, smiling.
"Well I couldn't keep that promise. Edward understands, though. We couldn't keep our hands off each other when we first started to do it. But I had work and everything..." I sighed, and sighed again. "It didn't mean much with everyone else, just...I need to find that place, you know? Being away from Edward is difficult, but I have to learn to be away from him without falling off the wagon. Without him I drink, and have sex, meaningless, but great-" My words became muffled as a hand covered my mouth again, and I glared at a smirking Levi.
"Nff mmf nh.." I tried to say, pulling at his hand.
"Will you promise to not talk about the topic if I let go?" He grinned, and I nodded.
"Thank you." He let go and I breathed a sigh of relief.
"You do that too often." I accused.
"You need sex counselling." He shot back, and I smirked.
"So what, if I have good sex life? I'm protected." I thought back to the morning, when I took the little pill I always took. Check.
"Change the topic before you drive me crazy."
I laughed lightly and joked with him. "What? You don't like me talking about sex?"
"No, I-"
"-and you've had sex, so you have a story to tell as well. Care to share?"
Levi groaned. "Do I have to? I can barely remember it." I frowned.
"You don't remember?" He shook his head, and a slightly awkward silence settled around us. "So...where's Austin?"
"He went surfing about an hour before you got here."
"And you've been here, sitting here, by yourself?"
"Uhuh, why?"
"Nothing, just thought that maybe you'd like to do something?"
"Like what? I'm interested."
"Good. It involves a basketball and basket."
"You play?"
"Er...yeah I do. Wanna play?"
"Sure." We got up, and I put my flip flops back on. "How do we get there?"
"I read in the brochure that there was an outdoor tennis, basketball and mini golf grounds around here. We can always ask."
"Actually I think I know where abouts. Austin talked about it. We have to go to the reception and put our names down to say we have the ball, and they can point us in the right direction."
We headed for the entrance of the hotel and scored us a basketball and they told us to go out of the hotel grounds, to the far left, would be a path that would get us there. Five minutes later, and we found ourselves on an empty basketball court, with the sun shining gladly down on us, it was perfect. I had the ball, so I ran up to the basket and jumped, scoring.
"Wheyy!" I drawled out the 'y', until Levi caught me and picked me up. "Ahh! Leviii!" We both laughed as he tried to get the ball before I did. I let him win, and he paused to shoot himself.
"Wheyy!" He copied me and pulled a face, and I shoved my hand in his face, pushing him backwards.
"Show off." I mumbled, and he grinned, laughing.
"Whatever, Bella." He went to fetch the basketball, and I ran up behind him and jumped on his back.
"Whatever indeed." I pecked his neck as he stretched to pick up the ball from the ground, and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He let the ball drop and used his hands to adjust me on his back, and bounced lightly. "My legs got tired."
"Sure they did." He bounced again before running quickly to the fence, and before he made contact, he turned around and my back crashed into the soft wires.
"Hey!" My voice weakened as he twisted around and pushed his lips onto mine. "W-w-" I pushed him backwards so our lips disconnected. "Levi."
"What?" He asked casually.
"Nothing." I replied and pulled him towards me again, attacking his lips with a vengeance. I was in deep shit.
Wow...Bella can't seem to control herself, can she? :P
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