Okayy...who watched the Royal Wedding? I had to choose between BBC1 and ITV1...they had two different views, and I was thinking 'what is the point?' I did eenie meenie miney mo :) Kate was actually beautiful, and the wedding went so fast :') Such a fairytale ending :)
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I woke. There is a odd feeling, that you could receive, that everything feels as though it is not reality, and although it is reality, you must still live it, and get out of this bed. I ached all over, and examined my side, where a blotchy dark bruise had formed overnight. Great. I sat up and looked in my wardrobe for something that would cover it completely and hide the other bruise on my hip. I put on a stretchy white top and short shorts, and tied my hair up, and headed downstairs, where Edward was in the kitchen, cooking something up.
"Morning." I mumbled and sat down at the bar. Edward stiffened and turned around, and his eyes raked my body.
"Are you okay?" He stepped forward and put a hand to my cheek. "He hit you." I couldn't hide that one on my cheek. "Where else. Tell me."
Eventually I pulled up the side of my shirt, and his jaw locked into place.
"I can't believe this has happened. All of the people in the world..."
"Edward. I'm fine."
"This doesn't look fine to me."
"Well I am, so what is there to eat?" He dropped his hand.
"We are talking about this, Bella. We can't act as if nothing happened. You went missing for 4 fucking months!"
"I know- I was there! And I went through it all." I slipped out of my chair and went to the fridge. "Can't you accept that all I want to do is wait for my children to arrive home, safe and sound? It's too much." I bit my lip as tears pooled in my eyes. "I don't want to concentrate on myself."
"But I want to, Bella. You're beautiful, and I've missed you for so much. I've been so terrified of you not coming back...please. I want them back as much as you do. They're our children, and I love and miss them so much." He pulled me towards him, careful not to touch my bruise. "I hope these past few months...haven't damaged anything between us...because I want to still marry you. I do."
"I still love you. It's a miracle." I joked and he pouted, and I touched his lips with my finger, and he pulled it into his mouth, sucking slightly. "Ew, Edward." He grinned, my finger in between his teeth. "I want to see what leads the police are on. I can try to help." He let go, and his lips went tight.
"I have their number. I don't want you out of this house just yet. You have a performance tonight." I frowned. I didn't care about that.
That hour, I found that the police were searching through CCTV of the day and were checking airports and so on. I hoped, that they could prove Mark wrong. I would see them again.
...
News that I was here and well was kept quiet, as I waited for my performance to be over and done with.
"We haven't actually told you, who will be performing tonight, because in fact, we want to keep it a secret for a little while longer. But the time has come, and our special guest is ready. Give a warm welcome...Bella Swan!"
I stepped onto the stage, and half of the audience screamed and chatted, and the rest were just motionless. The Bella Swan they thought was dead and gone. Back from the dead. Tears filled my eyes as they raked over the judge's panel. One had a hand over their mouth, and the others had their mouths' open, eyes wide and trained on me.
"...I can't stop the tears from falling
Why did you both have to go
Trying so hard to find you
But I can't seem to get any closer to you
I'm going to prove you all wrong
I've started sorting out all my problems
I've tried and tried but I can try a little harder
I just want to hold you tight
You finally with me again
It's all I ever wanted
We only had such a short time
Was that all I ever will get?..."
The song ended and everyone screamed, and the judges stood up. I needed a hug. The presenter, who had a Texan accent, walked over to me and patted me on the back. "Everybody! Bella Swan!" More yells. "Bella, when did you get back?"
I spoke quietly into my microphone. "Um... yeah about 1 or 2 days ago. Er...I'd rather not go into it."
He nodded. "That's acceptable. Er-"
"Patrick, one moment." One of the judges spoke up. "Bella. I am so glad you're back, and blessing us all with your beautiful music. I really hope everything is well with you, and Edward." He gave me a nod, signalling that he'd probably have his agent, call my agent, to get in touch with me, and all that mess. I nodded.
"Thank you."
"Well, Bella is back, everybody." My time was up, and I went backstage, where I had Phil and two other bodyguards surrounding me, where they'll be from now on. Edward was so protective, and I felt like I was in a prison of all sorts- no air to breathe. I got home that night, and Edward was already in bed, reading a book. He looked up as I wandered in, and smiled tightly.
"You were great tonight."
"Thank you, Edward."
"Come here." I stripped and he enveloped me in his arms.
"I hope they find Luke and Lia." Edward stopped me talking from a kiss, and he leaned over me, towering over me.
"Bella..." He whispered. "If you think so much about it you won't be able to sleep."
"I won't sleep anyway." I mumbled, and winced when his hand met my hip. "Ouch." He retracted his hand immediately, and it went to my cheek.
"Sorry, Bella."
...
Time passed, and our children were never found. Mine and Edward's relationship fluctuated- one moment I wanted to be as close to him as I could, and the next I wanted a normal life away from him. So I went out into bars, and made friends on the way there, and end up stumbling home, having had a lift off Phil or taxi, and Edward would just stare at me, emotionless. I just collapsed on the couch. I'd wake up in the morning with a hangover, spend the night reading away from Edward, and then the next day have an interview, remembering my pain.
I'd end up on those nights crawling back to Edward, who'd welcome the sober me with open arms. But then the cycle would go around again. And sometimes I'd stay on one of these steps longer than usual. The worst night happened, and I wasn't sure what was actually happening at the time.
I had been to a local club, by myself. I had danced, and met a keen guy who started to dance close to me. Edward had been hesitant for quite a long time, and I had begun to feel the struggle of being away from closeness. So I kissed the guy. I didn't even know his name, but that he was good looking and had a great smile and soft, drug hazed eyes.
"Do you want one?" He held out a pill, and placed it on my tongue. "It'll make it all better."
We had been kissing for a few hours, and I stepped backwards. He kept a hand on my waist as he directed me outside, and hailed a taxi.
"Do you want to come in?" I must have asked, as I found myself walking up the stairs, passing my bedroom and heading for the guest room.
"Bella? Are you home?" I heard Edward's voice, and I turned around, to see him sticking his head out of the bedroom door. And then he notcied the guy behind me. "Bella. Who is this?"
"Why do you care?" I ranted. "What is it to you? It's hardly like we're anything anymore. Come on." I tugged on the drugged up guys hand, and started for the guest bedroom once again. Until his hand was ripped from mine, as Edward pinned him to the wall.
"Get. Out. Of. My. Fucking. House." He spat, sending him on his way, and gave me a painful look. I couldn't feel any guilt.
"Why the hell did you do that? You know what- don't even bother. I'm leaving." I pulled the engagement ring off my finger and dropped it on the floor, and went down the stairs. "Hey!" I called the guy who was at the door, and he looked up and smiled, giving me a kiss.
"You wanna go to my place instead?" He opened the door, and I nodded, looking behind me to see Edward at the top of the stairs, looking down at me with pleading eyes.
"Don't." He mouthed, but I rolled my eyes and went through the door. He expected me to live in a house that all I could think of was my missing children, and he wouldn't touch me. I felt confined to a small space. I wanted freedom.
"Come on. Where's your place?" He took my hand and we wandered out into the main road, where we got another cab and he took me to the edge of California, to a apartment.
"You're so beautiful, Bella." He whispered against my lips as we fell onto his bed.
...
I opened my eyes, and realized that I were in tanned arms, and a different face was asleep. I got out as soon as I could, and got a cab home.
"Edward?" I called and shut the door loudly. No answer. Fuck. "Edward?" I found Alice and Jazz in the kitchen, and they both looked down. "Hey. Where's Edward?"
"Oh Bella. What have you done!" Alice jumped in my arms, crying. "He's gone, Bella. He's left!"
"What? Why?"
"Because you cheated on him!"
"I did not ch-"
"-Yes you did, Bella. We saw the porch lights come on from our place. You left with some guy, Bella. Don't lie to us." Jazz interrupted, and Alice wiped her eyes, going to him, and he wrapped an arm around her. "Edward came to us straight away after you left with him. He's really upset with you, Bella."
I sat on a bar stool. "I...I can't do this. We never talk anymore. I don't think me and Edward should be together anymore. We've been forced apart."
Alice sighed. "We could see something coming. But I think last night did it when you gave him the ring back." My eyes widened and my eyes seemed to zoom in on my left ring finger. Without the ring.
"Oh my God. I hadn't taken it off..."
"Yes, you did. Just last night."
"Oh God. Oh no." I put a hand to my face. "I didn't."
"Bella-"
"-I need to find him. Apologize. Where is he? Did he say where he was going? I need to find him."
"Bella, he's gone to stay with family."
"Family? What...Emmett and Rose? Emmett and Rose? He went next door? No offense or anything, but that's a tad pathetic. But I'm going anyway."
"What are you even going to say, Bella?"
"I don't know. Anything. But I can't live here anymore. My children lived here before. Before they were kidnapped. And I haven't seen them, the police haven't done much either. My kids should be-"
"-Bella. Maybe you should...for the best, until they're found...maybe you should see someone."
"What do you mean, see someone? As in a new guy? Because I don't-"
"-No, Bella. I mean one of those people, to wipe your memory. Be hypnotized. Forget it all. Ever since you've come back, you've been acting...kind of depressed, and you've thrown Edward around like a yo yo. One moment, you love him, the next you don't."
"...I don't know what I feel anymore. I'm just tired. Of everything."
"You need to sort your life out. Magazines everywhere are catching you flashing down below, partying night and day, taking drugs...you aren't Bella anymore. You aren't you. Please, try it out. We can have someone here today. A professional. See how it goes." Alice was nodding along with him, and I frowned.
"Will I just forget my whole other life?"
"I don't know. You can stop people from smoking, and so you can probably make some forget things. Stop being scared."
My eyes were getting wet. "Why not just therapy? I could just learn to control it."
"Yes, you could, but you won't fall in love with Edward again. It's too late for therapy. Just go with it."
Jazz called someone, and a woman came in that day, and sat me down.
"What are you afraid of? Why do you need hypnotherapy?"
I bit my lip. "I'm afraid my children won't come back. It's ruined mine and Edward's relationship. I always remember the kidnap, and my pregnancy."
She nodded. "OK...when I count to ten..."
When I re opened my eyes, I had a sense of optimism. "Alice. Let's go to Edward." I laughed and jumped up. Alice gave Jazz an odd look as I ran to the door and headed over for Emmett and Rose's.
"It can't have been that easy?"
"I am, that good." The stranger smirked.
I opened the door to Rose's and looked around the house. "Hello?" I wandered into the living room, where I saw the three of them on the couch, and Edward stood up, red around his eyes. "Oh my God, Edward! What happened?"
He scoffed and stepped further away from me, behind the couch. "Oh, please no, I'm not fucking stupid! I can't believe this. Bella, out of all people-" Jazz and Alice ran in, spluttering.
"-Edward! We can explain!"
"Explain what? How she's been screwing me around from day 1?"
"What? I haven't, Edward. What are you on about?" I started to get worried.
"What is going on?"
"Edward- can we talk to you for a second? Outside?" Edward gave me a questioning look and followed Alice and Jazz outside. I stood there awkwardly.
"What did I do?"
Emmett stood up. "What is wrong with you, Bella? You fucking cheated on him!"
"Why are you accusing me of cheating on him! I did not!"
"Bella! I can't believe you! You throw Edward around like he doesn't matter or have feelings! God, Bella. What is it with you? You're a proper bitch, you know that?" Rose accused.
My eyes narrowed. "You can call me a bitch? How dare you! I'm getting Alice." I stormed to the front door, where I heard raised voices, muffled by the wood.
"What were you thinking? Please, tell me what on Earth made you try this!"
"It was the only way! Bella wasn't herself after those 4 months. She's been traumatized and it split the both of you up! Don't you want her to stop living in the past? We have no idea if they'll come back. But until then, you can live life like normal."
"...This is...unbelievable. I can't believe this...and she doesn't know anything?"
"No. We paid the woman. She was the most recommended."
"And what happens if someone asks her about it?"
"I don't know." I put my hand on the handle and opened the door, teary eyed.
"What going on?" Jazz gave me a guilty look. "Seriously." The tears were threatening to spill over, and Edward pulled me to him, and I sobbed. "What's going on? They say I cheated? How do I not remember? I didn't cheat!"
He shushed me. "We're sorry, sweetie. You didn't cheat. It's okay. We were mistaken. It's alright."
EPOV
When Bella had shut that door behind her, I blinked back a few tears. What had we succumb to? Was this what I wanted?
Years, had I spent loving her, missing her, knowing her, waiting for her. It felt as if my life meant nothing without her. I packed an overnight bag, and I waited for them to disappear around the corner, and then I headed for next door. It was late, so I hoped they didn't mind.
I knocked on their door, letting myself in. "Alice? Jazz?" Alice was in the living room, and she saw the expression on my face, and knew instantly what was wrong.
"Oh Edward. I'm so sorry." She came to give me a hug, and I shook in her arms. "Are you okay, Edward?"
"Um...no, I'm not exactly." Jazz came down the stairs.
"We saw her leaving. How could it end up like this? Did she understand what she's just done?" I nodded.
"She threw the ring on the floor." I opened up my hand, and inside was the small silver banded ring. "How on Earth had it gone so wrong?"
"Oh honey, did you want to sleep in the guest bedroom?"
"Thank you for the offer, but I think I need some brotherly support, you know? I'll only be next door. I just wanted to let you guys know." Jazz nodded.
"We understand. What shall we do if she comes over?"
"That's your decision." I muttered, heading out of the door again. Emmett opened the door, and noticed my facial expression. Did I really give so much away?
"What's up, brother?"
"It's Bella. Again."
"Come in. You staying the night?"
"Please."
Rose looked at me, and shook her head. "What has she done."
A tear slipped down my cheek as the door shut and I dropped my bag to the floor. "She brought some guy home."
They sat me down, and both of them were super in encouraging me not to stand for such treatment.
"She doesn't deserve you."
But then there was that voice, in the back of my mind, that told me this was her way of dealing with the situation.
"Maybe it's like before. She always runs away from everything. Maybe this is her running."
"How can we stop it, though. Maybe she needs...therapy?"
"But she'll never be the same Bella."
"No. How about a knock to her head to forget it all?"
I slept on their couch, too exhausted to go upstairs, and when I woke up, Rose was making herself some food. She had gotten big during the last few months, and was soon to be due.
"Morning. How are you doing?"
"Honestly? I'm heart broken." I mumbled, emotion not setting in yet, because I was so tired. Rose came over and sat down next to me, and I looked at her bump. You'd think that Rose and Em would want to know the gender. But nope. They want the surprise. I guess me and Bella don't like surprises.
"Edward, we'll sort this out. She can't argue with a severely hormonal pregnant lady. It never settles well."
"You know...I had been so overcome with grief..it hadn't actually settled that I'm a Dad without his children." I felt my eyes start to sting from not blinking, and as I blinked, the tears fell. "And you are going to be one too, and it'll be so difficult to look at them, when my children..." Emmett came downstairs, yawning and patted me on the back.
"It's alright, dude. We'll sort Bella out." Speak of the devil, and the devil shall appear. Bella made her way into the house, and she gave us a bright smile. I couldn't believe her. She expected me to forgive her...just like that? Hell no. I was forced outside with Jazz and Alice. Jazz shut the door as I fumed on the spot.
"Explain."
"Okay. Bella...doesn't know about the pregnancy, the cheating, those 4 months, Luke or Lia. We had her hypnotized."
Okay...what? Where's the film crew? Pranking Edward Cullen, LIVE? I looked around. "Huh?"
"We hired this woman to make her forget her pain. And she was doing all this weird stuff, and Bella was knocked out. And she opened her eyes, and I'm guessing it worked. We weren't sure whether we'd need more than one session. But she's definitely...better, don't you think?"
I laughed. "You have got to be kidding me. You had her memory wiped, without my notification? You didn't even ask! You can't jut change someone like that! It's morally wrong! And what does she think happened for the past few year or more? She got stretch marks randomly? The news? The press? There is evidence on the Internet of what happened! We can't act as if it's not there!"
Jazz put up his hands. "It's the only way to get you both back together. You love her, and she was running, but she she loves you."
"What were you thinking? Please, tell me what on Earth made you try this!" Emmett was thinking something similar, with knocking all the memories out.
"It was the only way! Bella wasn't herself after those 4 months. She's been traumatized and it split the both of you up! Don't you want her to stop living in the past? We have no idea if they'll come back. But until then, you can live life like normal."
"...This is...unbelievable. I can't believe this...and she doesn't know anything?"
"No. We paid the woman. She was the most recommended."
"And what happens if someone asks her about it?" The magazines, if she sees them...I don't know. We can't wrap her in cotton wool.
"I don't know." Jazz sighed, and the door opened, and Bella stepped out, crying.
"What going on? Seriously." She looked so innocent. Like a child. I gave her a hug as she cried into my now soaking shirt. "What's going on? They say I cheated? How do I not remember? I didn't cheat!"
Er...what do I say? "We're sorry, sweetie. You didn't cheat. It's okay. We were mistaken. It's alright." Jazz mouthed to me from behind Bella's back.
"It's for the best." I ignored him and stroked her head.
"We're sorry Bella. Em and Rose, Jazz and Alice, and myself didn't mean anything of it."
"And Edward...I lost my ring! I'm so stupid!"
"No honey, it's right here." I felt around in my pocket, and found the ring. "You gave it to me earlier." I slipped it back on her finger, and she wiped her eyes.
"Why?"
"Er..." This isn't going to work out if we had to keep lying. It'll be like a web of lies that she'll eventually figure out. "I don't know. But here it is." I gave Jazz a panicked expression, and he went inside. Douche bag. I huffed and led Bella back inside, and Jazz went to push Emmett off the sofa, causing Bella to giggle.
"Em, Rose? A word as well?" Jazz went alone this time, thankfully, since I wasn't sure what to do with just Bella. We hadn't done anything in a long time together, happy. Alice sat her backside on the coffee table and switched the TV on. The Carmen show was on, and she immediately switched channel.
"Oh, God. Carmen. I hate that girl. She's such a bitch." Bella mumbled. "I remember she was eying you the whole time we had that interview with her."
Alice turned to look at her, then at me. "Er...right." I knew why Alice was so confused. The one time that we were interviewed together, was to tell the world she was pregnant. What had she remembered?
Bella cuddled up to me and I wrapped her in my arms. To be truthful, I was uncomfortable, but tried not to let it on, as Em and Rose entered, followed by Jazz.
Em shuffled on his feet. "We're sorry, Bella."
"It's okay. I have no idea what you're on about anyway."
"OK then." He sat down and raised his eyebrows at me.
"One mo, Bella." I stood up and she flopped onto the couch, and I nodded for Em to follow me upstairs.
"What' up, Cowboy?"
"Cowboy?"
"Go with it."
"Er...ok. Is it wrong, that I want everything back to normal, after what has happened?"
"No, Edward. That's perfectly normal. It's just...weird, to see you acting so casually around Bella after what has happened. Do you still feel the same?"
I gave him a look. "Of course I do...how else would I have been able to stand her when she was drinking almost every night?"
"I don't know how they did it, anyway. Bella must have really wanted this. She must have not been able to stand herself."
"In a way, she's still running. She just doesn't know it yet." I sighed, resting my head against the door. "It's so...frustrating. I need to teach her to not be so afraid of things. But obviously I can't now. How are we going to deal with the press and everything else? We can't act as if Luke and Lia didn't exist. It's a web of lies if we say they don't, and I don't want to forget them. They're my kids, Emmett." He put a hand on my shoulder in a comforting way.
"Do you think we should talk to Bella about them?"
"If it turns out badly?"
"We can only try, Edward."
"Huh. You addressed me by my proper name."
"Shut up, Eddie." He smirked and opened the door, and we strolled back to the living room, where I saw Rose and Alice having the uncontrollable fit of giggles at something Bella must have said. Bella was smiling and carrying on her speech, and Jazz high fived her.
"I so get that!" He laughed, and I couldn't help the smile that was brought to my face. She was happy. Making other people happy. Rather than filled with guilt and pain. I whispered to Emmett.
"I can't do it." He nodded.
"I know how you feel, man. We haven't seen something like this in ages." Bella looked up at me, eyes shining, and waved us over, as the music channel switched songs.
"...This was totally more than just a fling
Wanted it over and over again
You really was too keen
When you walked into my life
Lip lock, fingers touching, the connection
More than just physical
So don't expect me to believe
That this was just a fling..."
"I love this song." Bella grinned and started dancing randomly, whipping her hair back and forth. I ran up to her and picked her up, and he wrapped her legs around my waist, and I kissed her with more than just passion. She wrapped her arms around my neck and squeezed her legs together. I grinned up at her. My oh my, how I missed the real her. She had lost all that regret and irritable pain that came after those terrible 4 months. I looked to my friends. Most of them had a questioning look on their faces, besides Em, who had a grin etched on his face. Soon the face expressions were replaced by happiness, and I headed out of the door, Bella still in my arms.
"What are you up to?" She smirked, cupping my cheek with her hand.
"You'll see." I grinned, squeezing her ass playfully.
BPOV
I wasn't sure what had happened in the past few weeks, but I couldn't be happier when I saw the positive pregnancy stick in my hands. I had to tell Edward. I hope he'd be happy. I was in my bathroom, and told everyone I had the flu. They were so busy with visiting the new baby to notice my constant throwing ups and such and such. Sarah is...a beauty. I couldn't wait to have a baby for myself.
"Edward!" I shouted through the house. If he was here, he'd come. Mostly everyone was at Rose's with the baby. It was so cute- Alice personalized Sarah's outfits! I could cry at that. Sarah was so cute with her little hands and little feet. And her gorgeous dimpled smile! Emmett was such a proud father. He wore dark circles, and still had a smile plastered on his face.
"Yeah? Bella, I'm going round to Em's."
"One sec!" I ran down the stair and jumped on him, and he picked me up like normal.
"You okay Love?" I nodded and smiled, pecking him on the lips.
"I'm perfectly fine." He loosened his hold on my ass, and I slipped down him, and took his hand.
"You know we can't walk outside like that. You don't want to spoil your reputation." He grinned, cupping my jaw and kissing me again. "I love you."
"I love you too, but my reputation? Ever since you announced you were going to be in that movie, everyone has been wishing you were single."
"Well..." We began the walk to Emmett's. "I forgot to tell you- Paul and Rachel have set a date." Oh, that was a mess. They had a fight and called off the wedding, and then made up, but hadn't set a date...long story. "It's going to be next month. We have to get you a nice dress." I put my head on his shoulder.
"OK. I was wondering when they'll get back to normal. I know Paul loves her, even though he was completely in the wrong that time. His expression when he invited us to the wedding. Even though it had a bit of weirdness caused by Jake not wanting us to go, but there was love there."
"What do you remember of that day?" Edward sounded weird.
"Why?"
"Just wondering. What else happened that day?"
"Er...I can't remember much. It was ages ago." Was my reply.
"Hm." He reached out to open the door, and we both walked in.
"Bella- can you come here for a second?" Alice called her upstairs, and we split, me heading up the stairs, and I followed Alice into Rose's bedroom.
"What's up?" I asked and Alice pushed me inside, shutting the door. "Er...okay?" Rose didn't have Sarah with her, she must be with Emmett.
"We know, Bella. Don't think we're so stupid as the miss something important like this! I know the signs as much as Rose does.."
"How did you find out?"
"Come on! We're not stupid! You can see it from a mile off!"
"Is it that obvious?"
"YES!" Both yelled. "Why didn't you tell us you had set the date to your wedding? When is it?"
"W-what?"
"Yeah- the shining in your eyes, your closeness with Edward. Both of you leaving a little too early to go back home...you glancing at your ring every 2 seconds...before I over heard the exact word 'date' from the window...Edward smirking a lot. It's all there. When are you getting married?"
"Er...we haven't set a date yet. We were planning it...but nothing official yet."
Alice frowned. "So what are you on about?"
I smirked, caught out. "Nothing."
"Tell me?" Alice gave me her cute puppy dog eyes and pout. "And Rose?"
"Fine. I think I'm pregnant." Their smiles faded, and they glanced at each other. "Um...hello?" Alice put on a smiled and jumped up and down.
"Really? Can I name the baby? Oh have you told Edward? Go and tell him!" She shoved me back out and I looked behind me, confused.
I shook my head as I wandered downstairs and sat on the couch next to Em and Jazz, who were cooing at a giggling Sarah. Edward had a camera out and was filming us. I stroked her cheek with my finger.
"Awh, how cute is she? Emmett, if you're the only Cullen to get cute babies out of, I'm having your babies instead." I looked up at Edward, smiling, but he wasn't. "Er..it was a joke, right? You'll make glorious babies, honey." I got up and headed for the kitchen, and found some short breads, to which I munched on with delight, until a pair of arms snaked around my waist. "Go away. I have a gun."
"I don't see one." Edward murmured and kissed the skin between my neck and shoulder softly.
"What was that all about before? I was only kidding."
"I know love."
"Wasn't funny, right?"
"Not incredibly."
"Sorry."
"S'OK."
"I have some news though, which will probably force you to forgive me."
"Oh yeah, and what is that?" I turned around in his arms and smiled up at him, and he smirked at me.
"I'm pregnant." I stated, and his smirk seemed frozen. "I've done the home pregnancy test, and it's most definitely positive. Are you okay?"
"Yeah. Um...yay." He was freaking out. I rolled my eyes.
"You can run if you want to. I'll still be here, expecting a better response."
"Okay, his arms loosened and he took a step back, running his hand through his hair. "Um...I...I don't know how to feel. Do you want to keep it?"
"Of course."
"Then I am thrilled." He kissed my lips hard and forceful, and I found myself being pushed into the wall, legs wrapped around him again...ooer.
"Love, maybe we should carry on back home." I licked my lips, and he smirked.
"That's a great idea, sweetie."
"Can I get a piggy back there?"
He nodded, laughing, and let me drop, and picked me up from behind.
"Yay."
...
Boy, I couldn't get out of bed. But Edward obviously could, after half an hour, he went back round to Em's, and I fell asleep! But I didn't care because I was having Edward Cullen's babies! Oh yeah. Woop. Hola! I couldn't think of anything else that represented my mood.
Found one- Bliss. My life was utter bliss.
Eventually I had to get out of bed, and hung around the house for the day, not really wanting to talk to anyone in particular. I switched the TV on, and fancied to catch up in the world.
News.
Sport.
Gossip.
Kid's channels!
I sat down excitedly, and then my mood decreased, and I went back to gossip.
Some supermodel got surgery, some celebs had got an award...Paul and Rachel?
"Paul and his long term girlfriend have finally confirmed a date on their wedding. A source tells us that 'they are incredibly happy and cannot wait to be man and wife.'"
Nawh...that was so cute. I wonder if me and Edward are going to set a date? I gave him a call.
"Hello?"
"Edward, when can we set a date to our wedding? I don't want a bump in the pictures." He spluttered and choked on whatever he was drinking or eating.
"Um...honey can we talk about this later...and in person?"
"Well come on over then, I can't wait forever. We've been engaged for ages now."
"I know honey, but things have been happening..."
"Oh wait, hold on." I saw my face on the screen and turned up the volume.
"What are you doing, Bella?"
"This show is talking about me. I wanna see what they're saying."
"What? Bella. Turn it off now." I heard a slam and I saw Edward sprinting over here from the window, and he barged in. "Bella." I could hear his voice in person and on the phone. "What have I told you?"
I groaned. "What is it, Dad? I only turned on the channel. What is up with you and everyone else? I can't watch TV alone, I can't talk to fans like I used to...I haven't been to an interview in a while now..." Edward had a guilty expression on his face. "What's up?" He sat down next to me.
"OK. Fine, I've had enough of these lies." I bit my lip. What was wrong here? "Well...everything I say...blame Jazz and Al, okay?" I nodded.
"Go on." I encouraged.
"We don't let you do some stuff...because you've forgotten a lot of things. Things that the public do know, and might tell you without us knowing."
"I've forgotten? What?"
"You...you were pregnant. At 16.-"
"-Are you kidding me?"
"Bella. Wait." He waited until my mouth was shut, and continued. "You had twins...and then 2 months after, you were all kidnapped. You were missing for 4 whole months, until you randomly found your way back here. The twins are still missing, and you...you were distraught. Nobody knew what was going on, and what to do in this situation. Then Jazz and Alice, without my permission, and with your consent, had you hypnotized into forgetting the pain, the day after you...cheated on me. Do you remember anyone accusing you of cheating on me? Well...yeah. And I think that's it. I wasn't happy about it, but you had wanted to live as if they didn't exist."
"All of that seemed long winded and completely...mad. Drama much?" I stopped. "I hadn't wanted to not know they existed, Edward. I just didn't want the feeling to go with it."
"You know?"
"Well...now I do. But I still can't feel anything, because there's no attachment anymore. And I'm happy this way. I don't want it to control my life. And...I'm sorry for cheating on you. But I don't really remember it..."
"I forgave you a while back."
"And I don't need to forgive or blame anyone. I make odd decisions sometimes...a lot. But they tend to turn out for the best. What would have happened if I forgave Alec and you came to school, and I was still with him? What would have happened if I went back to England, not California, to finally find that you were living downstairs? What would-" He covered my mouth, smirking.
"I think I got it." He laughed, and gave me a proper passionate kiss, what was missing from the kiss earlier, and the sex earlier. It felt as if he were just humoring me before. But now that everything was all out in the open, he could do as he please, without worrying about me switching on the TV...
The next minute we were laughing as we went up the stairs.
"So do you want to set a date?"
"Please." Edward grinned.
"We'll have to book a place. Where do you want it? A church? Beach? Meadow?"
"We can check it out later."
"Alrighty."
...
"You're pregnant? Again?" I question Rose incredulously. She had barely had baby number 1...she wants that pain all over again?
"I know." She breathed. "It wasn't planned like the first one, but it's still good. Not really trying to think of the pain..." She held Sarah in her arms, and hugged her to her body. "I'm looking forward to it. How about you?"
"On the baby? Not very much. Pain, pain, and more pain."
"Well at least you won't have a bump on your big day, which I am so excited for, by the way." Rose was to be my maid of honour, Alice and Ang my bridesmaids. Edward had Em for best man, which was awesome. "Have you got a dress for Paul's yet?" I nodded.
"I'm wearing a light blue dress and a sort of flower hair piece." Rose nodded.
"It's only a week away. Have you prepared yourself?"
"Prepared myself for what?"
"Um...Jacob Black? You haven't seen him since he dumped you and he is bound to be there."
I groaned. "And? He has probably moved on by now. It's not worth worrying about, you know? I've moved on. it's been years."
"What if you feel something for him again?"
"I won't."
"Are you positive?"
"Yes!"
"How do you know? He's very good looking."
"I don't care. I have Edward."
"Okay then."
"Good. I don't want any ideas in this crazy head of mine. We've had too much drama. I can't take any more, unless I want to be hypnotised into forgetting everything again." Okay, I was a tiny bit mad that they let me pretend they never existed.
"that's not funny, Bella."
"Who said it was?"
"You smiled."
"No I didn't." Okay shut up now...
The day was soon here, and I slipped into the blue dress, and did my own make up. Edward wore dark trousers and a white button up shirt. His hand snaked around my waist and I grinned, before grabbing some high heels.
"You look beautiful, Bella."
"Merci beaucoup."
"Huh? I got the 'merci'."
"Thank you very much?"
"Oh. Your welcome. Come on, we'll be late otherwise." Edward drove us to the 'secret' location, where one fourth of the famous band The Blacks, were getting married. Plus, Rachel was Jake's sister, which may be a good or bad thing in someone else's perspective, as it may be awkward to know that your band mate is fucking your sister. But I knew that Jake knew that Paul and Rachel were perfect for each other. It was slightly depressing, to think of Jake. I guess it...I don't know for certain. I can't even think properly about him. Hmm...
I got out of the car and took Edward's hand as we made our way onto the private beach, which was lined with security. This one bloke nodded at me as we passed, and I smiled oddly, laughing lightly. The setting was beautiful. It was morning, and the sun shone brightly. Paul hadn't arrived just yet, but I saw Embry and Jared sitting down on two chairs, and I went over to them.
"hey boys!" They grinned and gave us hugs.
"What's up?"
"All is good, all is good. I brought Edward!"
Embry smirked. "Yeah. We just greeted him, Bella."
I gave him a small shove. "Whatever. When is the wedding beginning?"
"Um.." Jared looked at his watch. "In about half an hour. We saved you two seats over there." He pointed to the second row. "Jake's best man, so he's with Paul, who should be arriving any minute, so everyone should get seated." I nodded and pulled Edward with me to sit, and a car pulled up in the back.
And there he was. Oh my God. Edward wrapped an arm around me as I gazed at my ex.
"Wow. He's gotten muscular." Edward commented.
"You'll win any day." I smirked and kissed his lips.
"Mmm...I love weddings." He murmured. "And I love you."
I grinned against his lips. "I haven't gotten too boring for you yet?"
"Not quite." He laughed, and pulled back. "Give it a few more years." He joked. Someone cleared their throat, and I looked up, beaming.
"Hey Paul! Got any nerves yet?" I jumped up and hugged him, then sat back down.
He laughed. "Nope. I'm completely in love." I grinned.
"N'awh. That's too cute. Well...me and Edward have set a date. We're going to be sending our invites, so if you don't get yours, give me a call." I winked.
He put a hand to his heart. "Oh, I'm so touched. I'll make sure there's no tour dates on the day then. Can Rachel come?"
I nodded. "Of course! It's going to be a huge wedding, since my friend is overenthusiastic and is the organiser. Trust me, it'll be a big wedding. I may not even have time to dance with everyone!" I looked to Edward. "Control her for me?"
Edward nodded. "Anything for you, m'dear."
Paul laughed. "I'm guessing once you're married that'll go pretty fast."
"Hey- this guy is the real deal."
"Yes, I am the real deal." Edward mocked.
"Er...Paul? You need to get in place..." I looked to the side, and saw Jake standing there awkwardly. Edward stood up, sticking his hand out for Jake to shake.
"Hello, Jacob. Nice to meet you." They shook hands and Paul nodded, patting Jake on the back and waving bye to us, heading up the aisle to the top. Jake didn't even look at me. I glared at his retreating form, and he stood next to Paul.
His eyes met mine, and I blinked.
"Does he look angry to you?" I leaned towards Edward, and he let out a shaky breath.
"Well if he didn't, he does now." He smirked. "I don't see why. It's not as if he owns you or whatever." He pulled my face to his for a few minutes, until the chimes began, and I pulled away, turning behind me to see the bride.
She was beautiful. She noticed me and smirked, and I grinned.
"You look amazing" I mouthed. We hadn't been the closest of friends, but I had grown to like her during my stay at La Push. She smiled, nodding and made her way down the aisle after the bridesmaids. She joined Paul, and he whispered something in her ear, and she grinned widely. I couldn't stop myself from smiling either, and I looked at Edward longingly. I couldn't wait until it was us.
The ceremony was quick, and they soon kissed. Edward squeezed my hand as tears sprung to my eyes. Did it have to be so romantic?
The ceremony soon developed into the reception, and we watched the first dance between husband and wife.
"I can't wait for that to be us. Can you dance?"
Edward chuckled. "Of course I can. Have you seen me do the Soulja Boy Crank That dance? Uhuh!" I giggled, bowing my head.
"Of course, but we're not making our first dance to be that."
"Why not?" He pretended to look offended.
"Because...did you want to?"
"Not really."
"There you go. I couldn't think of an excuse. Soulja Boy is amazing."
Edward laughed as more people began to join them on the dance floor. "Do you want to dance?" I nodded and he led me to the edge of the dance floor, putting his hands on my waist, and I wrapped my arms around his neck, kissing him.
The song was soon over and I moved on to dance with Jared. "Hey J, hows the handling the women going?"
He shrugged, smiling. "You know how I love the fans..." I laughed. "How are you and Edward?"
"Well I've set a date to the wedding. Wanna come? You can bring someone, as long as you know they won't be...crazy."
"Really? Cool." The next dance was with Embry. I was really catching up from these dances.
"How are you and your Missus?"
"We're very well thank you very much. Are you going to dance with Jake?" He was blunt again, and I looked down.
"I don't think it's the best idea."
"No? I think he wants to. You know...catch up?"
"It's probably not a good idea. You know what happened, right?"
"Who said you were getting back together? It's just a dance. You're with Edward anyway, aren't you?" I nodded.
"Well...yeah..." I shook my head. "It's never just a dance with Jake. I haven't spoke to him in almost forever."
"Bella. It hasn't been that long. Plus, Jake's with...Leah now. He's over you."
"Really? Leah?" I hadn't expected that. She didn't seem to like me that much. Maybe that was the reason why.
"Yep." His lips tightened.
"What?"
"Just thinking, that maybe you shouldn't tell Jake much about you and Edward. He still-"
"-isn't over me? If he's with Leah, then yeah he should be. I can't do that." Embry groaned.
"Just forget I said anything, okay?"
"I hate that Jake has kind of ruined things between us. We were friends."
Embry pouted and pulled me into a hug. "You know I love you...as a friend, of course." I laughed weakly. "I'm sorry. Jake drives me nuts sometimes."
"I remember that." He pulled back and frowned.
"You know him too much. Think of what he would be like now, and that would be what it is." I smirked, then the smile slipped.
"If it were him...he wouldn't really want to be around me. Or he would, but doesn't want to really." I contradicted myself. "It doesn't matter what I think- he's changed. I've changed. I've moved on." When would this dance end? I wish it hadn't, as the rough voice behind me made me cringe.
"Bella, can I have a turn?"
Jake.
Ra da da ra da da da...
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