Just a little bit more abi told her as she stood on the scales that told her that she was 120 pounds. It had been three weeks since she started eating less. throughout those weeks she pretended to her family that she already ate when she came home and wasn't hungry or that she was sick and to make sure that they wouldn't get suspicious , she would eat at the dinner table and then later while they were occupied she would through it all back up . Her parents didn't suspect a thing.
Sometimes abi would lay there thinking how did I get like this? And then the image that she created in her head of Lola and jay kissing would then tell her why. She wanted to be perfect. Sometimes her friends at school would say to her ' oh abi you're so skinny ' and it would make her feel better, but then when she looked at herself she only thought ' they must be lying '.
The worst part of all this is that she knew deep down inside herself that she couldn't keep it a secret for much longer. But she paid no mind to it.
'Abz, you've lost quite a bit of weight ' Lauren told her sister that day.
'Yeah dieting pills, I made sure they were safe though ' she lied to her sister.
'Oh right cool ' Lauren said.
Sometimes abi wanted them to know her secret. After 5 weeks she was now 95 pounds and the only thing making sure that no one knew about her body was her baggy jumpers. But even then it doesn't stop the hunger she felt.
But abi knew that even though she could lose wait she still wouldn't be good enough for jay Mitchell.