Ever since abi came back jay hadn't spoken to her once and it hurt. Ben took jay's side and forgot about his best friend and Lola just looked at her. But one day when abi went to the playground and sat on the swings, unknown to her the three of them walked by and all looked at her. Abi was lost in her thoughts. When all of a sudden she found that she couldn't breathe and the world around her started to spin. As abi tried to catch her breath ben came rushing over asking what was wrong. Jay and Lola just walked away not looking back.

'I'm fine ' abi told ben

'Are you sure ' ben asked worry laced in his voice?

'Yeah go back to them ben ' abi told him and with that ben left

As abi looked back on that day she remembered how jay stared at her the way he used to. Like she was some sort of freak. She then dropped to 80 pounds that week later but even that wasn't enough for her.

'I have to lose more scratch that I need to ' abi told herself

Fat ... ugly... worthless...

All of them are the right words abi used to describe herself even the voice in her head that abi later named mia said them to her to encourage her to loss more weight.

Later on that day abi went on her baby blue laptop and searched for ways to help keep her anorexia a secret as she was running out of ideas. She then noticed a chat room and clicked onto it and created the nickname secrets can kill you. Ironic wasn't it. She then spoke to different people who all had one thing in common. They all had an eating disorder. But one person got abi's eye with the nickname ' needing to find a way to survive ' and then abi started to talk to that person. She later found out that it was a girl named rose who was 16 years old. The same age as abi. They talked and found that both shared the same likes such as taste in music, clothes, etc . . . . after a few weeks of talking abi asked rose why she developed an eating disorder and it turns out that she caught her boyfriend cheating on her with her ex-best friend . Abi later told her that the boy she loved and still loves kissed the person who tried breaking them up and that before she went away they were engaged and how he said he couldn't live without her when it only took him a few weeks to move on. Rose and abi started to become close friends even though they hadn't met. But they later talked over webcams and saw each other's faces which were almost as if they had met each other.

Then after five weeks they both met up and later became best friends who did everything together. When rose came to Albert square to see abi, people just looked at them and guessed that they were only having fun which they were but what these people didn't know is that these two best friends shared the same dark secret which could later kill them.

Abi went back on the scales that night and found that she lost another 8 pounds and even though she didn't know it, she was slowly dying.

Her parents had noticed the change in their daughter and were concerned. But Lauren was the only one who knew that her sister was unwell and tried to tell her parents to which they just ignored. It was only then that it in a few weeks' time the secret that abi was hiding would later come to an end.

I'd just like to thank jabifan4ever for the reviews she has given me and the support in the writing of my stories, so thank you x