For the first time in months abi felt alive. She and rose were going out to a party in the b&b. everyone in the square was going to be there.

'Omg I'm so excited!' rose squealed

Abi just laughed at her and nodded. The other reason why both were happy was because they had lost another 6 pounds.

'Alright ladies ' Kim said to them as she let them through.

'Yeah ' abi said.

They walked through into the lounge where people were up and dancing. Abi looked around and noticed jay staring at her across the room. Well not exactly staring at her but her body which he looked at with worry.

'I'm going to go get us some drinks ' abi said to rose who nodded and went over to Lauren whom she met the other day.

After abi grabbed the drinks, she turned around to see jay in front of her.

'What have you done to yourself ' jay asked her his voice full of concern and worry.

'I don't know what you're taking about ' abi said trying to get past him but was failing.

' well for starters look at you , your all skin and bones ' jay told her looking directly into her eyes as he spoke .

' no I'm not I'm full of fat ' abi told him with that walked past him only to get grabbed by the arm and pulled into a room that nobody else was in .

'No you're not and you certainly weren't before, your perfect abi. Your perfect the way you were' jay told her.

Abi looked anywhere but him.

If only that was true she thought to herself.

'I used to think that. I didn't think that I was beautiful or anything, I just felt comfortable in my own body that was until - ' abi stopped speaking.

'until what?' jay asked her

'Until I found out about you and Lola ' abi said still not looking at him.

Jay looked at abi in shock.

Does she think that because me and Lola kissed we're going out?

'abz we're not going out together and that kiss, it was a mistake nothing else.' jay said

Abi looked at jay for the first time and found it hard not cry. As she held in her tears she finally said to him.

'Yeah well I was right, I never was perfect for you and I never will be'

after that abi ran out of the room and grabbed rose telling her that they needed to leave and when rose saw her best friend's face and saw the tears that were finally falling she nodded .

once they got into the house abi ran into the bathroom and made herself sick , when she looked into the mirror she saw a girl who was broken as she stared at herself she failed to notice that not only did she cough up puke , she coughed up blood too which only meant one thing . Her body would soon give up on her.