WOW. It has been WAY TO LONG since I updated, but I found my password, found my story, read the reviews, and decided to continue. I plan on a chapter a day! It's good to be back, I hope you enjoy!

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Remus's POV

I knew it, I couldn't say how but I knew. Valentina was a werewolf as well. The unstable and random emotions, blacking out, and what Isabel had said about her running off had really tipped me off. It has to be it, I know it is. Maybe she could help me; I wondered all sorts of things. How long has she been a werewolf? Did she let herself change or did she take some sort of potion? I paused and thought; would she even want to help me? These thoughts were filling my head and I kept losing the conversation Sirius and James were having. I was consumed with wondering how she handled the…unique situation.

When I was younger and I still lived at home, the process was easy. I would take my potion, and go to sleep. When I woke up, I'd be in my bed, safe and no memory of the monster. My mother told me it was a heavy sleeping draught she gave me, yes, I changed, but I was asleep and completely unaware of it; I much preferred it that way. When I'd first come to Hogwarts, it'd been a very similar process. I'd be taken outside the school, "As a precaution" Dumbledore had said, then they'd put me in a cabin, I'd take my potion, and when I woke up the next morning, I'd be back in my bed in the Gryffindor dormitories. I'd realized in my third year that the potion wasn't working as well.

Dumbledore had said it would happen; that the potion would stop working as well as I got older. I was waking up while I was still…it and not me. I started waking up before sunrise; before I was no longer a monster and I'd see. I was there, trapped. The cabin walls were clawed and I would have scratches all over my body. Last year, Dumbledore quadrupled the potion but even then, there were still a few hours of total chaos; a few hours that I'd remember being that monster. In my letter to return to Hogwarts this year, there'd been a note at the bottom written in Dumbledore's handwriting that said, "P.S. You'll need to come to my office after the feast." There had been no signature.

I don't know why I've never told Sirius and James about my condition. I just never have, they asked me where I went to, things like that, but they'd only noticed my disappearing twice, out of almost four years of school, and four years of full moons. Dumbledore was very good at hiding what I truly was, and I will never be able to thank him enough for that. I decided that this year though, I was done hiding from my friends. They deserve the truth. Even more so now that Valentina is here, besides, I know I can't hide for much longer. The potion isn't working, the headaches are worse, along with the mood swings.

I wondered if Dumbledore knew about Valentina. There were lots of things, I had lots of questions, and pretty soon I decided I was going to make a list of everything before I drove myself mad with all of this. Eventually, I was drawn out of my tumult of questions whirring in my mind, and the memories beating in my skull.

I looked up when I heard my name, Sirius and James asked what I thought of it all as we walked to go change, "I think she's just crazy." James said very complacently, Sirius glared at him. "I'm not sure," I lied, it felt awful but I wouldn't say anything until to either one of them until I was absolutely sure; but especially Sirius.

He was already so interested in her; I could see it in his eyes. Yes, we were all wary of this strange newcomer, but there was something about her that he couldn't escape; something that made him protective rather than an ass. I hadn't seen it in him for so long, last year he'd been so…bad, so low. James and I had honestly thought we'd lose him, either to anger or agony. He'd been so miserable that last term, and so angry. I didn't even say goodbye, and as far as I knew, neither had James. By the time school was out, we hadn't talked to Sirius for a few months.

When I crossed the platform today, I wasn't sure I would see my best friend again. If lying now kept him happy, so be it. I would tell him eventually, but I only when I knew for sure. Only when I knew everything for sure. "Maybe she's just overwhelmed." I said, hoping that neither would hear the false note in my voice. Sirius was silent as I pondered, watching me intently. He knew I was lying, but he wouldn't dare call me on it.

"Why'd she even move from Russia to here anyways?" James asked. "Seems suspicious, she probably went on a killing spree and murdered loads of people, so they're just sending her over here." Sirius rolled his eyes, "Yeah, because Dumbledore would let a murderer into the school, James. Maybe her parents just decided to send her here." I looked at both of them, "I'm pretty sure that Sirius's claims are far more likely than yours, James. Maybe she just needed…a change of scenery." Sirius nodded, and James rolled his eyes, "My theory is much more interesting, Remus."

That was a question I hadn't answered yet; why here and why now? I was sure of my werewolf theory, but there were still a lot of things about Valentina that were unanswered. Sirius and I really wanted to figure her out, figure everything out, but James was only slightly intrigued. "Maybe it's just her time of the month." James suggested, shrugging it off.

I almost laughed, because it was sort of true. It was a couple of days from the full moon and I could feel it. I could feel the instability coming on, my skin itching as if something were lurking underneath. I rolled my neck, trying to get rid of the feeling. "What is it, Remus? I know you know something." Sirius asked, grabbing hold of my wrist. He was so desperate to know, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't give up someone else's secret. Hell, I hadn't told my own friends that I was a werewolf yet after almost five years or friendship, I just couldn't. I was afraid they'd turn away from me. I had always handled my condition, but as I got older, it all got harder.

I looked at my friends, my brothers; we'd stopped, about to go into the bathroom to change. James looked curious, but Sirius had that longing in his eyes. I hadn't seen him interested in a girl since Ray; he'd snogged plenty of girls, but there'd never been any real interest in any of them. I tried to play it off, "Well Sirius, she's just right for you. Unstable, pretty, likes quidditch." I joked. James guffawed and then asked, "So, do you like her, or like her?" Sirius turned a little red, "Will you guys lay off? It's my love life." I paused in my laughter at the 'love life' comment, James smirked, and I outright laughed. "Oh, you want me to lay off the way you lay off of me and Lily getting together?" James said. Sirius muttered something under his breath and we came into the bathroom. We all changed into our robes quickly, as we were walking back, I stopped both of them. "I need to talk to both of you. Tonight, after the feast, the usual place." We reentered the compartment to find it empty.

Isabel's POV

"Remus is a werewolf, and he knows I'm one." Valentina said, in her word vomit style. "Okay. Well, okay. That's that. There's nothing we can do, and we'll figure it out. Val, you have to start staying calm. We may not be together all the time. And I love you, you're my sister, but please. Let me help you." I asked. She looked down, and wouldn't make eye contact.

We entered into the girl's bathroom and changed into the simple black robes. I got out of the stall and waited for Val, and waited. "Val?" I asked to the feet in the stall, but another girl came out, "No, my name's Lily, you're friend left as soon as you were in the stall." I closed my eyes and put my head in my hand. "Well, shit." The train slowed to a stop, and I knew I was screwed. If she'd run off, and got herself lost, or killed, or she started up again, I would never forgive myself in all my life.

I had made it my mission as her best friend, as her sister to always take care of her. Dammit, I would take care of her. I would find her. She didn't have a broom, and she couldn't stay on the train, so she couldn't be to far. "Thanks." I said to the girl, and nodded me head, then sprinted off to find Val.