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Chapter 4

Harry looked into her eyes and he could feel the tension building in the air and in his body. He lifted his hand to move some hair away from her cheek and then she ducked under his arm and bolted towards the bathroom.

"I've got the bathroom first!" she yelled as she laughed down the hallway. It took Harry a few seconds to realise what she had done.

"You little minx, I'll get you back." Harry was about to apparate but thought better of it so he ran after her and even though she beat him to the bathroom he still pounded on the door.

He could hear her laughing from inside and the sound of it filled a part in his heart that had been empty for years. He knew he had missed her, but this just showed him how much.

He waited for her to come out and when he heard the shower start he again banged on the door, "Come on Hermione I'm busting!" his request was met with more laughter.

"You do know I could get in there if I wanted to?" Harry said cheekily.

"Don't you dare Potter or you're dead!" Hermione yelled out, secretly hoping he was joking or maybe not joking, she wasn't sure.

When she woke up and felt him next to her all her body tingled. She wanted him so much but she would never be enough for him, she didn't kid herself to know that he was doing all of this because he felt guilty and not because of any emotional attachment. Her resolve was starting to break when she asked him not to leave, he was standing in the door way looking at her with that lazy sexy look and she almost came undone at the sight of him. Hermione thought she had better lighten to tension that she could feel in the air so she made a run for the bathroom. Once she closed the door she leant against it and stifled a moan at being so close to him. She could hear him through the door and hoped he didn't hear her moans. Hermione looked in the mirror and her face was flushed and her breathing was heavy, Oh my God Harry being this close to you is going to kill me, I'm sure of it. She decided a cold shower was needed.

Harry figured he had about ten minutes to apparate home and get some clothes and even have his own quick shower. He landed in his room and looked at his bed all neatly laid down, still waiting for its occupants to arrive.

"Great looks like Jules spent the night away...again!" He didn't want to dwell on it so he grabbed a change of clothes and hit the shower himself.

He apparated straight back to her unit and was pleased she was still in the bathroom. Harry went to the room and laid out some new clothes for her and then went to the kitchen to start making some breakfast.

Hermione opened the door and peaked out, she didn't think of needing a change of clothes when she made a run for the bathroom earlier. She couldn't see him but she could smell some food cooking and thought she could creep into the bedroom and get changed. Hermione walked in and saw new clothes on the bed and he had left the top drawer on the dresser open with new underwear in there. She pulled out the first pair of undies and they were a black lacy pair with a matching bra, she looked through the drawer to see about ten pairs all with matching bras. She was touched he was so caring and it caused her heart to break a little more.

Maybe they could have something, maybe just something on the side...

What are you thinking Hermione you idiot, he has a wife, a wife who was instrumental in banishing you from the Wizarding world and the ONLY way you are going to show Harry what she really is, is to be here so you can uncover the truth. Get a grip woman and keep those damn hormones under control.

After her little self talk she put on the black bra with the matching undies,

"Well it doesn't mean I can't play a little with his emotions, I mean he is a hot-blooded man..." Hermione thought even though she knew he didn't feel that way about her. She just wanted to see him look at her like he did this morning, for some reason he made her feel like a woman. It was just the way he looked at her, it made her feel sexy it was just a shame he didn't feel any romantic feelings towards her.

Hermione walked out to the kitchen and saw Harry sitting at the dining table with two coffees and some eggs, bacon and toast on the table. He was reading the paper and it looked like the most natural image in the world. She took it in and smiled. He looked gorgeous as per usual, he was wearing a pair of black pants with a white fitted shirt that hugged his muscular body well. His hair was everywhere and she laughed. Harry was watching her and when she laughed he questioned it,

"I just love your hair Harry, it looks so free!" Harry stared at her and couldn't help remembering what his wife said last night about his hair , ridiculous hair she had said and here was Hermione saying she loved it.

"Are you still sulking about the bathroom Harry?" Hermione stood with her hand on her hip obviously mistaking the look on his face for annoyance with her.

"Lets just say I won't be so easily tricked next time Miss Granger," Harry said as he raised his eyebrow and plastered a crooked smile on his face. Hermione laughed and decided not to broach the subject of there being a repeat performance of last night. They ate breakfast and the conversation was light but underneath there was a conversation Harry really wanted to start but he didn't quite know how to.

After they ate Hermione collected the plates and washed them in the sink and Harry had to stop himself from telling her to use magic. The feeling of guilt was eating him alive but he wouldn't change his decision if it happened again, there is no world where he could exist knowing she was dead. Harry walked out into the lounge room and as the day was quite miserable and cold, he lit the fire and settled into the arm chair and stared into the fire. Hermione walked out and sat quietly on the lounge opposite him.

"Harry can I ask you a question?" Harry turned to look at her and then nodded.

"Why, again I have to ask you why are you doing this? You don't need to look after me, you don't owe me anything Harry?" Harry looked at her and huffed out a breath, if only she knew how much he owed her.

"Hermione I told you I need a secretary and you needed somewhere to live, so I killed two birds with one stone." Hermione curled her legs under her body and waited, she sensed he had more to say.

"Can I ask you a question now?" Hermione nodded, "Why?" she looked down and started to pick off some invisible balls of fluff on her pants. Harry tried to wait patiently but when she wouldn't answer he pushed.

"Answer me Hermione, why were you at that lighthouse last night, what were you going to do?" Hermione looked at him and her stare was piercing.

"What do you think Harry?" Her tone was full of sarcasm and Harry lost it.

"Why Hermione, are you completely stupid, what were you thinking?" Harry stood up and walked over to the fireplace and was trying to reign in his emotions. Hermione watched him and said something she probably shouldn't have.

"Yes maybe I am completely stupid Harry, as if anyone would care anyway?" she said it quietly but considering Harry exploded, obviously he heard her.

Harry turned around and swiped his hand across the mantel piece and the small candle decorations went flying across the room and they smashed on the floor. Hermione looked at the pile of broken glass and then looked back at Harry. It was funny that she wasn't scared of him, she knew he was angry so she stood up and walked into the kitchen to get the small broom she had used earlier.

"Where the fuck are you going?" Harry was absolutely furious.

Hermione stopped, took a deep breath and keep walking knowing full well Harry would never hurt her. Harry ran his hands through his hair extremely frustrated. She walked back out with the broom and started to clean up, Harry grabbed her arms and then waved his hand and cleaned up the mess instantly. The use of magic pained her yet again bringing it to the fore front of her mind that she was so useless in this world.

"Why are you here, why do you even give a shit Harry, I just don't understand?" Hermione yelled at him tears running down her face. Harry grunted in frustration and he lightly shook her shoulders, "Hermione don't ever, ever, EVER do anything like that again. Do you hear me?" Hermione wouldn't look away but she also wouldn't answer him. He put his hands on his head and then sat down heavily in the armchair. Harry tried to get his thoughts in order but it was proving very difficult.

Hermione watched him as she sat down and wondered why on earth she agreed to stay here, maybe it would be better if she found her own place (yeah with no money and no job). She knew she didn't want to leave, she would never get to the bottom of things if she was away again, but staying here was proving far too difficult. Hermione stood up and quietly walked into the bedroom, she collected a few pieces of clothing deciding she would owe them back to Harry. She walked back outside and stood near the door.

"Harry I'm going I'll be in tou..."

"NO you're not Hermione, I'm not losing you again." Hermione gasped and whatever she was going to say was gone. Harry stood up and walked over to her and he took the small bag she had out of her hand and placed it on the floor.

"Hermione I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lose it, I'll come by tomorrow and check in on you." Harry leant in to her, hugged her and then he kissed her forehead. She didn't reciprocate the hug but she closed her eyes and relished in the touch of his lips on her skin.

"Just promise me you won't go anywhere, please?" Harry's desperation was clearly evident in his voice so Hermione nodded.

Harry apparated back home and heard Julia talking in the office. He walked past, saw Thomas busily writing notes and saw that she was on the phone. He waved at her then continued down the hallway. As he walked down to his office, he heard Julia call out to him.

"Harry, did you see Weasley?" Harry turned around and saw she was leaning out of her office with the phone still in her hand.

"No why?" She mumbled something into the phone and then looked back at Harry irritated.

"He's been over here about 4 times, sort it out will you, I'm busy!" Julia stepped back into her office and continued her conversation. Harry rolled his eyes and walked into his bedroom. He walked over to his clothes cupboard and pulled out a jacket and swung it around his shoulders. As he did this he swiped a few things off the dresser and he turned around to pick up the few bottles of perfume that fell over. He also noticed that Julia's wand fell on the ground and he bent down to pick it up and Harry rolled it around in his hands.

"What are you doing?" Julia was starring at Harry while he was holding her wand.

"What?" Harry was shocked that she would react like that. Julia walked over and started to look for something else.

"You lost my diamond earrings Harry, how could you be so reckless?" Julia pushed him out of the way and knelt down on the ground, she ran her hands around the carpet feeling for her earrings and then she found them. She stood up and slammed them down on the bench.

"God dammit Harry why do you always annoy me?" she turned around and stomped out of the room leaving Harry fuming.

"I hate that woman." Harry slammed down her wand and then apparated straight over to Ron's.

Harry apparated to the front of Ron's house and walked up to the front door and he knocked. The door opened and Harry looked down to the little person who opened the door.

"Hi Uncle Harry, come in dad is out the back doing the gnomes, its really funny!" Harry laughed at Ron's oldest son Scottie and held his hand as he led him out the back to his dad. As Harry walked through the lounge room he said hi to Luna and kissed the twin girls on the head. Lara and Angie were born 6 months ago and were now crawling around everywhere. Scottie laughed at his little sisters and as he was five now, he relished his role of big brother.

"Harry you look different I'm glad to see your soul is smiling," Luna looked deep into Harry's eyes and he found it unnerving. Scottie continued to drag his uncle Harry out the back and when he saw the state of his friend he couldn't help the laugh that escaped. Ron turned on his friend and glared at him.

"No wonder you're so good at your job Ron, that's a breeze compared to de-gnoming this garden." Harry laughed and after Ron tackled the last gnome he sat down with some cool drinks to talk to his friend.

"So Ron what was up, you called by home today?" Ron raised his eyebrows ever so slightly but Harry caught it.

"Was Julia rude to you?"

"Oh it's nothing I can't handle Harry don't worry, I came by to go over some case details but it wasn't urgent just wanted to catch up." Harry laughed.

"What Ron, three weeks sleeping in mud with me and now after one night you miss me?" Ron laughed too. Ron and Harry chatted for quite a while and then Luna called them in for dinner. They ate together and the kids stole the show, Harry loved watching the interaction between the kids and Ron and that secret longing started to burn its way to the surface again.

"So tell me Harry what have you been up to lately?" Luna asked as she fed Angie while Lara drank her drink then she swapped.

"Just work Luna, nothing too much." Luna glanced over at him like she knew something but she wasn't telling. Dinner finished and then Luna took the twins to put them to bed and also to give Scottie a bath. It left Ron and Harry alone and Harry took the opportunity to ask what Ron needed earlier that day.

"I was just going over some details Harry and I have a gut feeling we haven't really cut off the snakes head so to speak." This term brought another time to the forefront of his mind and he looked at Ron and his gaze startled Ron.

"Harry what is it mate? What's wrong?"

Harry stood up and walked over to the window and looked outside into the dark, cold night.

"I've found her Ron."

Hope you like it, Hermione is here for now!

Sirius xox