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Chapter 11
(Jasper's POV)

I couldn't blame him for wanting to get out of here. The emotions were making me dizzy enough with Emmett's humor, Carlisle's never ending patience, Lilly's worry and relief, Rosalie's self-righteous disgust, Alice's confidence, my confidence in the confidence, and worst of all for him…Esme's joy.

I can't blame her for being happy that her son has finally found a mate. Our family was finally complete and even though he hasn't given in to Bella Swan yet, he will. It is impossible to stay away from one's mate. I don't know about having a human mate, nor did I know it was possible, but from having Lilly, I know that the pull is just too strong.

"Will he be okay, Alice?" Esme murmured softly.

"He's just going for a run." Alice nodded. "He just needs time to think through everything. With Edward's beliefs, it's a lot for him to take in."

"What beliefs?" Lilly asked.

"Edward believes that vampires don't have souls. That it is the price you pay for immortality. He believes that we are all damned." Carlisle explained gently.

"Damned?" Lilly's eyebrows rose towards her hairline. "As in hell?" Carlisle nodded solemnly. "And you believe this as well?" She asked looking around at all of us. No one answered or made eye contact with her. "No, you guys couldn't be damned. It's impossible."

"What makes you say that?" Emmett snorted.

"What makes you think you are?" She challenged, looking him in the eyes.

"We've killed people. We're monsters," I whispered when Emmett didn't answer. "Me more so than them."

"I kill people. I'm part vampire. Am I damned as well?" She pressed as she shifted her gaze to me.

"No!" I snapped. "You could never be damned…you're my angel." I ended in a whisper.

"Really?" She raised her hand and rested it on my cheek. "You couldn't help what happened to you in the past. You were led astray and manipulated by an evil cunt. But you knew what you were doing wasn't right and you felt horrible about every life you took. Monsters don't feel remorse. As soon as you heard of another way to live, you reached out and took it without thinking about it or looking back. All of you." She looked around the table at everyone as they watched her intently with interest and awe. "Yes, you may slip up, but it's not done on purpose. God is forgiving and he loves us all. If we don't have souls, then how was I born? Me, the hybrid? How could we feel as strongly as we do? We all feel love, happiness, hope, have faith…soulless monsters feel any of that. Jasper got me to change my diet to animals. Yes, I need to hunt at least one criminal a month to keep me strong enough to handle my gift without becoming too weak to even walk, but the bottom line is that when Jasper found out how I fed, he could have given in to temptation, but he didn't. He had me change my ways and still protect the human race with my feeding habits. Even those who feed on humans differently than I did aren't monsters. Are lion's soulless monsters because they eat other animals! It's just the way of life and how God created all of us. How can the lions have souls, but not us? There is no difference!"

There was a moment of silence around the table before Carlisle broke it.

"She's right." He said quietly. "Everything she said, she's right." He looked up at Lilly with venom filled eyes. "Thank you."

"You don't have to thank me." She smiled shyly. "I only pointed out the truth and facts of life. If we were soulless…there is no way I could have been born from my human mother."

Everyone around the table nodded with small smiles gracing their faces.

"If only it were so easy to convince Edward. He's stubborn and set in his beliefs." Alice mused.

"Maybe Bella will change that." Lilly said. "But I know I will help the best I can if it ever comes up."

"We would appreciate that." Carlisle nodded.

I kissed her neck and slowly moved to her ear. "You're amazing." I whispered.

"So, you're switching to the animal diet?" Emmett asked excitedly.

"Yes, but as I said, I still need to hunt at least one human a month as to keep my strength up. My gift takes a lot out of me. I tried to not feed as much and I ended up so weak that I could barely stand. I had to crawl for miles into the city and I took an innocent life that night. Someone who came up to me and tried to help me lost his life because I didn't have a choice in my meal. I pray for that person every night." She looked down ashamed.

"Hey, none of that." I growled. "It's not your fault."

She nodded and looked up at me with a smile that didn't reach her eyes and pecked me on the lips.

"You'll have to hunt with me sometime!" Emmett said trying to break the tension. "I'll teach you how to eat grizzlies!"

"They're his favorite." Rose rolled her eyes, but you could see the smile that she was trying to hide.

"While we're on the topic…" I began nervously.

Lilly knew what I was about to say and she gave me an encouraging nod and sent me her courage. I returned the smile and sent her a burst of gratitude.

"I am going to partake in the same diet Lilly is with hunting one criminal a month."

"What? Why?" Alice gasped.

"Because, my gift is taking a lot out of me and Lilly and I had a talk yesterday and revealed an important piece of information. We discovered the reason why I slip up so much." I took a deep breath. I didn't want them to feel bad about what I was about to disclose, but they needed to know my reasoning behind my choice. "I don't know if you realize it, but blood lust is an emotion." I paused, making eye contact with each member of my family, aside from Lilly and Edward. "Every time I have slipped has been when one or more of you were around. Not only am I feeling my blood lust, but all of yours as well."

Esme gasped, raising a hand to her mouth in shock. Carlisle's eyes were wide, along with everyone else. Shame and self-loathing began to coat their emotions as they took in everything I've said.

"I'm so sorry, son. I had no idea!" Carlisle apologized. "How it never crossed my mind, I have no idea and I'm so sorry that I couldn't come to the conclusion faster."

"No one did. Lilly was the first to point it out after the incident in the canteen with Bella." I explained. "When the breeze blew her scent towards us, I was feeling Edward's blood lust for his singer on top of my own. If it wasn't for Lilly getting me out of there, she would have been killed along with anyone who got in my way."

"How will drinking human blood help this problem?" Rose asked genuinely curious.

"Like Lilly, human blood strengthens not only me, but my gift. Animal blood doesn't let me reach my full potential and doesn't allow me full control over my gift. If I drink human blood once a month, I will be able to control my gift to the point where I can dull the emotions around me so that they don't affect me so much. I won't feel your blood lust as fiercely anymore." I concluded.

Understanding and acceptance coated everyone's emotions and pride and love radiated from my Lilly. Even without my gift, I could see it in her eyes.

"If this is what needs to be done, then I can keep donated blood in the house for the both of you, if it would make it any easier on the two of you? Would that make it any easier?" Carlisle suggested.

I know Carlisle didn't like the thought of us killing humans, even criminals. But he was going to stand behind us no matter what we decided. That is something I respected about him.

"That would be fine by me." Lilly nodded.

"I agree. It might be the best course of action for as long as we are in Forks at the least, considering we have the treaty with the wolves." I reminded him.

"Yes, that's right." Esme agreed. "We don't want to cause any problems with them."

"Then it's settled." Carlisle concluded.

Silence filled the room once again before Carlisle dismissed everyone from the meeting.

"One more thing, Lilly." He called her over.

We both approached him and looked at him questioningly.

"I would like to let you know that I have found out some information on you from my research."

"Really? What did you find out?" She asked excitedly.

"Well, from the tests we have done, the results concluded that you are ¾ vampire and ¼ human. It is possible to change you the rest of the way if you ever wished it. They call a human/vampire hybrid a Dhampir. There are legends about them down in Brazil and the Amazon. You are indeed immortal and will stop aging at the age of 21 when you reach full adulthood, so you will still be younger than Jasper since he is 23 and the oldest of my sons. It is possible for you to bear a child with Jasper, so I suggest that until you want to try for a child, you us protection during sexual intercourse." He acknowledged.

I gasped. Me? A father? I can have a child with my mate? A wide smile stretched over my face as I looked down excitedly at Lilly.

"I can be a father!" I picked her smiling form up off the ground, spinning her around happily as she giggled. "We can have children together! I can't believe it!"

I set her down and began to kiss her all over her face, then moved to her lips and stayed there, immediately deepening the kiss. I couldn't help it, I was so thrilled. For about a century and a half, I never thought that I could be a father like I had always wanted to be. It secretly killed me that I was never going to be able to hold my son or daughter in my arms and teach them things about the world and make them strong. I had always thought that it was my punishment for everything I had done with Maria in the Southern Wars. I don't know what I did that God gave me someone like Lilly who was capable of giving me things that I had always dreamed of.

I pulled back and smiled widely at her. She returned my smile, knowing how much I had always wanted kids, but thought that I couldn't conceive. Now, because of her having ¼ human in her, I have the chance.

"I love you." I murmured, tucking a stray piece of hair behind her ear.

"As I love you, mon cher. (My dear)" She replied.

(Lilly's POV)

That night, as Alice predicted, I received a call on my cell phone from Bella. It was about 11pm, so it was obvious that this was keeping her up as she thought about what she saw today.

"I know he was across the parking lot before Tyler's van almost killed us. I saw him and Jasper both there." Bella insisted. "The next second they were both there and he stopped the van with his hand! You saw it too, didn't you?"

"Yeah, I saw it." I confirmed.

"Good, I know I'm not going crazy." Bella sighed in relief and paused. "Have you…have you noticed anything weird about them? I mean, you are with them all the time and practically living with them."

"No, I haven't noticed anything weird, aside from what you've seen." I lied.

"Oh." She said disappointed. "Well, if you find out anything…you'd tell me, right?"

"Of course." I lied again.

If she was going to learn our secret, then she needed to either figure it out herself, or have her mate tell her after everyone agreed to let her in on our secret. As much as I hate lying to my best friend, it's not my place to tell her. It's not only my secret that I would be revealing. Not to mention, I'm so scared that she will be afraid of me and not want to be my friend anymore. No, that's silly. Bella isn't the type of person to judge people like that. I refuse to believe she would act like that.

"Anyway, I know it's late, but I just needed to talk to you about this. It's been driving me crazy." She grumbled, sounding like she was stretching.

"You can call me anytime you need to talk. It doesn't matter what time it is. I'll always be there for you, no matter what." I vowed.

"Thanks, Lilly. I'm so lucky to have a best friend like you." She said and I could tell she was smiling over the phone.

"Me too." I grinned.

"Well, I'll see you at school tomorrow. Good Night, Lil." She said yawning.

"Alright, sweet dreams, Bella." I said and hung up the phone.

A/N: This was more of a filler chapter, but an important chapter none the less since Lilly finds out more about herself and what she is. If you have any questions or comments, post them in my reviews and I will answer them in my next Author's Note!

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