Chapter Three
Jesse St. James

Finn pulled the headphones out of the tape player and got up to open his door. He was ready to bash Blaine's head in. Right when the door was opened, Rachel's voice suddenly filled the room.

"Finn. I know you might not like these stories... But please don't do anything rash." the tape stopped playing then.

Finn swallowed hard as he heard his family and Blaine laughing around the table. Kurt had told them something funny. Finn shook his head and slammed his door. He slid down the door, his head in his hands. Tears spilled out of his eyes. How could I have not known all of this? How did I not figure it out? he thought to himself.

After a minute or so, he sat back on his bed and set Tape 3 in, along with the headphones.

"Finn, I hope you caught my little side note in the last one. I really hope you're not getting to mad about all of this. Remember, I'm dead. No matter you do, or what happens... Nothing can be fixed. Any way, let's get on with this tape. The third reason why I killed myself, was because of Jesse."

Someone suddenly knocked on Finn's door. He pressed pause and opened it. It was Blaine.

"Hey, the Glee club is coming over to play a softball game. It's kind of a good luck thing they started. You're in, right?"

Finn looked Blaine over and let out the breath he front know be was holding. He unclenched his fist and simply shook his head, shutting the door.

"Okay! See ya later then!" Blaine called from behind the door. Finn shook his head and put the headphones back in.

"Do you remember the big party at Brittany's near the end of school? It was the biggest party I had ever been too. You brought me because Brittany insisted that it was a prom. I'm still not so sure what is was to tell you the truth. But anyway, I saw Jesse there and he waved. I smiled, but never talked to him. Finn, you went off with your friends, and I wasn't sure where I should go. By that time, Quinn had everyone hating on me. I sort of just stood in the corner, watching everyone dirty dancing. Suddenly, Jesse came up to me. He asked me to dance, and I said yes. I really didn't feel like I was in a right place at the time. He started to grind up behind me and I turned around and asked him to stop. He nodded and we just danced normally. I kept looking out for you, but I couldn't find you. I later found out where you were."

Finn winced at those harsh words. He remembered what he had been doing that night too... Nothing he was proud off.

"Well, a little later Jesse and I got some drinks. He had more to drink then I did, I noticed. During one dance, I noticed him look over my shoulder and nod twice.

"'What?' I had asked. He didn't answer. Suddenly, I felt two pairs of strong hands grab me. One grabbed my hands and put them behind my back. Another put one hand on my mouth and another below my butt, sweeping me up off my feet. But not in a good way. Jesse nodded and told them to take me upstairs, to the first room on the right. I was screaming and trying to get someones attention. The party was so wild by then, no one could see me, or hear me."

Finn sat back and gripped the tape player.

"The two guys set me down on a bed. I recognized them from Vocal Adrenaline. Once they left and Jesse walked over to me and pushed the hair out of my eyes. That's when the realization of what was going on set it. I screamed and he covered my mouth after slapping me. He told me that if I screamed again, he'd do worse. Finn, I was so scared. I started to cry and ask him not to do anything. He ignored me and lightly laid me down on the bed, kissing me. Before I knew it, our clothes were off and I was silently crying as he took my virginity."

Finn stopped the tape. He picked up the closest thing next to him (which happened to be his Biology book), and threw it across the room. He pulled at his face, so mad at himself. If he had just stayed with her, nothing like that would have happened. He pounded on his wall next to his bed and cursed.

There was a knock at his door and his mom came in. "Finn? What in the..." she looked around and saw the dents in the wall. "What is going on?"

Finn quickly put the tape player under his sheets. "Nothing mom. Just... Biology is confusing. I need a good grade to graduate. Not so sure I'll get it." he mumbled, not meeting her eyes.

"Just work hard honey. And no more punching the walls, okay?" she didn't look like she believed him, but walked out anyway.

Finn swallowed down and then put the headphones back in.

Rachel's voice shook. "A-after he was finished, he got his clothes on and then kissed me before leaving with a 'Dont tell anyone or I will find you.' he pulled back and smiled. I grimaced and curled up into a small ball on the bed. After he left, I got myself dressed. I did not feel good, I actually thought that I was going to throw up. I just felt like a nasty person. I was ready to leave after that, I wanted to find you and just leave. I walked out of the room and Santana was there, kissing on some guy. She looked over at me and raised an eyebrow. I turned around and walked back downstairs. I tried to find you, Finn, but you were no where to be found. I left my phone at home, So I sat off on the side and watched everyone else. Jesse was dancing with other people now, but kept sneaking peeks over at me. I never met his eyes. When you didn't come out for another half hour, I took my shoes off and walked home. I got home, feeling dirty and my feet bloody from walking home. One of my dads were in jail from being framed for something that Blaine did. I had been r-raped by my old boyfriend and I had had enough. I thought of committing suicide that night, but I didn't, I thought that there was more for me here. I was so wrong."

Finn looked over at the clock. It read 9:32. He continued listening.

"Jesse raped me. Jesse St. James is one of thee reasons why I killed myself."

D: that was pretty hard for me to write, actually i did not want to go into detail, but I hope you guys got the same gut-wrenching feeling.

About the last chapter (where Blaine hit Rachel), some people did not get why he would do something like that. Okay, you guys have to remember that at this time, everyone hates Rachel. Anyone that was nice before, is just plain mean to her now. Except for Finn... Well, I mean, he does/did mess up, but you get what I mean.

Shout out to... faithfulyfinchelforever. Your review was amazing. It was short, but it's amazing how my story can have so much impact on you that would wanna punch him. It's cool :)

One more thing... I frickin' love you all. You guys are just so cool! Thanks so much :)
-Gert

P.s. Just so y'all know, I will try to update this story every Tuesday. I have two other stories that I write, and they are updated on other days too.