Chapter Four
Santana Lopez

"Finn, please do not do anything rash, like I've said before. You know that whatever you could do to Jesse, it would not bring any justice. Or to anyone for that matter. I love you Finn, and you could get hurt. Please do not go looking for anyone."

Finn bit down in his lip and took the tape out. He set in tape Four.

"I hope that as you are listening to this, you have not done something you now regret. I do love you Finn and I hope that you are not hearing this tape from Juvie or six weeks from the time these tapes got to your house. Okay. So on with tape four. Santana Lopez is one of the reasons why I killed myself.

"After… after what happened with Jesse, he got up and pulled his clothes on. He left the room, leaving me to myself. I curled up and then suddenly got up, it became all real just then. What he had done, that is. I do not want to say the ugly word. Anyway, I got up off from the bed and pulled my clothes close to me. There was a bathroom and I cleaned myself up in there. Tears streamed down my face when I saw the blood trickling down my leg."

Finn clenched his fist together so that his nails dug deep into his palms.

"After I got dressed, I walked out of the room. I looked to my right of the hallway and saw Santana. She was kissing on a football player, but her eyes were on me. Do remember Finn? She and Jesse were dating at that time. I know, it was crazy when I heard it, but they were."

Finn remembered.

"She gave me the evil eye, but then turned back and continued kissing the guy. That next day at school, I walked down the main hallway to my locker, where she was waiting for me.

"'Hi.' I had said to her. She got right to business. She demanded to know why I had gone around and 'screwed' with her boyfriend. She said that she had seen him coming out of that room last night, and that I had followed suit minutes late. I told her that it was not my fault at all, that he had forced me. She said that that's not the story that Jesse had told her. She told me that he had said that I was trying to seduce him. I just shook my head, I did not need that. I still felt sick from the other night, my dad had made me come to school that day, and I didn't tell him what had happened. In fact, I didn't tell anyone. I scooted past Santana and opened my locker. She walked off.

"Once I had gotten to my 2nd period class that day, everyone was staring and whispering even more now. I sat down and two girls that I didn't know had come up to me and demanded to know how I became such a slut overnight. I had no idea what they were talking about. They reminded me about Jesse, and I said that it wasn't my choice what had happened between the both of us. It was completely his doing. They didn't believe me. After second period, people threw paper wads and me, yelling out, "SLUT!" and its diversities. I ran to the bathroom, crying. I sat on the toilet and cried, not coming out until third period was over. As I stood up, I saw that the words, "Rachel Berry is an upper class SLUT," were already written on the stall. I wondered how this story had gotten around so fast. Then I remembered the little confutation I had with Santana earlier.

I walked out of the bathroom and "Slut" was still being thrown at me. I tried to ignore them. People asked questions like, "How was it to screw Jesse?" I ignored them. It took all that I had to just ignore and not run out of school and straight home. I remembered that you, Finn, were in my next class and so I stayed, hoping that you would… well, I know this sounds lame, but… Protect me."

Finn could hear the smile in her voice. He knew that it probably wasn't big at all, but it might have been the only smile that she had ever smiled in a long time.

"I walked to class… and Finn, what I saw will never leave me until the day I die. You and Santana. Making out. In the corner of the classroom. Her leg on yours and… I'm sorry to say that you looked like you were enjoying it. I almost passed out from everything that had happened that day. The taunts, worse then anything that I had ever dealt with. The comments, and then, you making out with Santana Lopez. As I ran out of that room I saw her looked over at me and smile. I know that it was payback or whatever, but what I hated was that you looked like you enjoyed it. I ran home that day."

Finn did remember that. And he was so sorry for remembering how much he had enjoyed it. It pained him to admit that in his head.

"The next two weeks, that's all that it was. You and I were still together, and I was too embarrassed to bring up whatever had happened to you and Santana. The rumours still went around and people still yelled out "Slut" and other words at me. I tried to ignore them..." she paused and then took a deep breath. "And it seemed that you did too, Finn.

"Santana Lopez is one of the reasons why I killed myself. She spread a rumour that I had seduced Jesse St. James in to having sex with me."

The tape ended with a click.

Alright. Are you guys ready for hours long string of excuses on why I'm like… three weeks late on this? No, I'll only give you guys like… three, lol, one for each week . Okay, so I started school on Tuesday, I am officially a High Schooler! Whoo-hoo! I'm a Freshie :D. Okay, so last week I went to Gatlinburg (Great place btw, if you live in the South, I highly recommend it), with no wi-fi or computer service. And then last, last week, I had a HUGE writer's block. AND… I am no longer writing this and my other stories on my iPod! Yay! A real computer now :P. My dad is going off to Law School this Sunday and so he won't be on this computer anymore, I can officially write like a real person now :P.

Okay, I know that the beginning of the chapter is a little out of place with the other. But no, the beginning is just an add on to the last chapter. I hope that no one was confused :D

Also, just in case any of you haven't noticed…. I didn't make Santana gay in this story.

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