Chapter Five

Sam Evans

Finn looked over at his alarm clock. It read 12:34. He looked over at the tapes and contemplated on whether or not to play the rest of them. The sounds of Blaine and Kurt talking together in the room next to him for some reason pained him. As mad as he was at the two for what they did, they were happy. Happier then he said he'd ever be after Rachel killed herself. Finn shook himself from the pre-sleep he was feeling that came over him. He pulled Tape 4 out and switched it with tape 5.

"Tape number five is about Sam Evans. Now, Finn, let me get this straight. Sam never hurt me. But, I felt the urge to add him to these tapes."

"The day I saw you and Santana… m-making out, I ran home. As I was running home, I heard someone call out my name. It was Sam. I stopped, wiped a few tears away, and then turned to see him."

"'Hey,' he said. 'What's the matter?' Finn, those simple little words meant everything to me. It made me think that someone cared. Someone cared about how I felt. He walked up to me and put his arm around my shoulder. I cried silent tears, but never told him anything. He just awkwardly stood there, rubbing my shoulder with his hand that was draped over it.

"'Rachel, What's going on?' he asked, utterly confused.

"'Everybody hates me.' I said quietly.

"' What? Nuh-uh, sure you're annoying, but everyone loves you deep down. I know it; you're one of the reasons why we win all those glee club competitions.'

"'Sam, I don't think you've noticed what going on lately with glee club.'

"'Well, even if they think you've weird or whatever, I think you're cool. You have a great voice Rachel. Hey, maybe you could sing a song, ya know, in glee club? Singing is you're thing, right? Well just sing your heart out.'"

"Finn, those words meant everything to me. He was being the nicest person to me at that time. So, that next day, I had prepared a song to sing in front of the glee club.

"'Mr. Shue, if I may, I have a song prepared to sing in front of you guys.' I had raised my hand and said that next day. "But, if it would be okay, I would like to perform in the auditorium.' Mr. Shue nodded and we made our way over there.

"I walked up to that stage, and sang a song I had sung before, at prom."

Finn remembered that song, her voice had been haunting and beautiful, even more so the second time she sung it.

"No, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars"

Rachel started to sing, and then paused. "Finn, I remember that's all you heard. Because right at that part…. Santana took you by the arm, and you two went off into the backstage of the stage. Possibly, a closet? I don't know. I would sing this song for you now, but I highly do not think that you deserve it."

Finn's hands trembled.

"After I was finished, I nodded sadly, noticing that you still weren't there. I stopped caring at that point. I started to walk off that stage, when something hit me across the head. I turned and saw that Quinn had thrown a tomato at me. It was a little odd, as I think of it now, I never thought of how she got it, but I do now. I guess she had given everyone tomatoes, and I was suddenly bombarded with them as I ran out of the room. I heard Mr. Shue yelling, and I even heard Sam's voice, telling them to stop. But I just kept running. I ran straight to the bathroom and washed off what tomatoes I could. They were old tomatoes, and that been sitting out in the sun for what smelled like ages. I reeked."

"When I had finally finished cleaning off, I walked out, only for Karofskey and Puck to suddenly slushy me. Apparently now, the slushies weren't for the glee kids now… they were only for me. Quinn had started it.

"I looked for you, Finn. But after a while, I stopped caring where you were. We were still together, but everyone knew you were fooling around with Santana. Everyone thought was hilarious, and they egged it on. I was miserable.

"So even though he never did anything to hurt me, Sam, I dedicate this tape to you. Finn, I wished for you to go to hell that day."

"One more thing before I go, Finn, you had my heart, and you crushed it. I learned to live, half alive, Finn. I did."

The tape stopped playing and Finn cried.

So, so so so so so so soooo sorry for not updating in like….. 2 months? -.- I'm so sorry. School has gotten the better of me, and the fact that I'm failing Algebra….. well, that's not helping with the stress, either. So, hopefully you enjoyed this short chapter, and will review it? :) I love you guys, and hopefully no one will kill me in my sleep. :)