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(In the previous chapter)
-Spencer's POV-
However, when I looked at her today, she seemed to remind me of someone. I can't seem to put a finger on who though. It's at the tip of my tongue but a name can't seem to roll off. I guess that's a thought for another day. I opened the door of my room, and fell on my bed dramatically. I need to talk to Alex now that I found her.
Chapter 19: Who's To Say?
-Spencer's POV-
Alright. Let's do this. I'm on a roll today. I'm facing up to my fears. I've faced one. It has gone relatively well. Now I need to face the one fear I desire. All I need to do is pluck up the courage to knock on that door. Okay breathe Spencer breathe. In. Out. In. Out. *knock knock* Oh crap. That was me right? I knocked on the door! Now I can't run! Oh gosh. The door is moving. I think i'm gonna faint. Spencer! Pull yourself together Spencer. Pull yourself together. Maybe I should go on a holiday after all these. Talking to myself in my head doesn't seem very promising for my mental health.
The door is finally fully open, and I see those gorgeous brown eyes. The perfectly sculpted angelic face. Her expression is of shock and disbelief. Alright. I should say something now.
"Hi" I say. Nice start Spencer. Nice start. She looks at me skeptically. Okay maybe it wasn't that nice of a start. I should continue... At least she hasn't chased me away with a broom. Yet.
"Well, uh, I needed to talk to you," well duh Spencer Carlin! I mentally slapped myself for stating the obvious.
"Alright...shoot," she says. She sounds so good even though she's not the most friendly person right now. And she's not inviting me in.
"I talked to Alex and I came by to offer you an explanation. Maybe you don't wanna hear it, or don't need it, but I think I owe you at least that..." I ramble on for awhile before plucking the courage to look at her in the eyes. She motions for me to come into her house with her a tilt of her head. Now i'm nervous.
We walk into her house and headed for the living room. I trailed slightly behind her like a mouse. I've been here before and nothing has changed, the setting is still as cosy as it was the as it was the first time round. Yet, it all feels so unfamiliar. She motioned for me to sit beside her on the couch, but there was a considerable amount of space between us. I let out a soft sigh after a minute of silence. Then I explained to her my whole day so far. My meeting with Alex, our disagreements. Our compromise. I explained to her my past. Everything in detail. Not missing a single thing out. Then as though a surge of super courage hit me. I confessed to her that she intrigued me. That I feel comfortable with her, that i'd love to get to know her. That Aurora is the sweetest little girl I met, and i'd love to be a part of her life. I took a step back and made it clear that I know I have a lot to prove. That I have a lot to show for. And I want to do it, because i'm not ready to let this possibility go without finding out what could happen.
The gorgeous brown eyes looked at me with what I think is a mix of surprise, happiness and doubt. She shared with me her past. I got a better picture, a better understanding of the angel before me. I could understand her reaction toward me given her past. I can understand her hesitation. So, in the spirit of my new found courage. I made a proposal.
"Give me a chance. Give me 2 weeks. 2 weeks to show you a part of me I found when I got to know you. Let me prove to you that I won't let you down. You'll decide if we go out with Aurora, or just the two of us, or with any of your friends. But please give me these 2 weeks, before you decide to shut me out..." I say with as much conviction as I could muster. And the answer I got from her was the sweetest "mmm" I have ever ever heard.
I planned the next 2 weeks with detail. We didn't spend every waking moment together, but for the most part of the day. There was outings with Aurora. I got to meet her friends. I enjoyed them all. But the days I loved most, was when we spent the time we spent together just the two of us. There'd be picnics, bowling outings, movies, just sitting down and talking while sharing ice cream. The whole 2 weeks she has been a sweetheart, and she didn't make it all about her. She gave in to me at times those 2 weeks too. When it came to ice cream flavors, movie choices. She wasn't hesitant to let me take the lead but she wasn't a follower either. The gorgeous girl with brown eyes, was someone I was falling fast for.
The great 2 weeks passed by in a flash and thank my lucky stars that she said that she's not gonna shut me out. Ashley wasn't going to shut me out and we spent the better part of the next month together. We were dating. She was holding my hand, she was giving me longer hugs, she was giving me pecks on my cheeks and I was in pure bliss. I found the greatest joy in being the reason why a smile creeps up to her lips, the reason why her eyes shine with happiness because I was telling a joke or because I made her day. I also found joy in being the person she calls up over the most mundane things, because it was heartening to know that of the many people in her life, it was me that came to mind.
Then one day, courageous Spencer came out to play. In a spur of the moment. I ran down to a florist that was about to close, managed to convince the shopkeeper to sell to me a stalk of apple blossom and a red tulip. I drove down to Ashley's and knocked on her door once again. I stood at the doorway full of hope and the most enchanting sight graced me. Ashley was dressed like she was going to sleep, in her boxers and tank top, her hair in a loose bun. I knew right then I was doing the right thing. I gave her the red tulip first and then the apple blossom.
"Red tulips are a declaration of love. In these short weeks we've spent together, in this short time i've gotten to know you, i've fallen hopelessly in love with you. I've fallen for the amazing person you are, for your smiles, your laugh, everything you. Apple blossoms signify promise. I promise that I won't let you down, that I can be the person you can lean on, and I promise that you are the only one person i'll ever feel for this way..." I end my little speech with a slight hick of my breath.
Brown eyes were gleaming with unshed tears, as a beautiful smile graced her face and she tilted her head slightly to the side, giving me the final push I needed.
"Ash? Be my girlfriend?" I ask timidly. In seconds, I was engulfed in the tightest most sweetest hug i've ever experienced. We stayed like that for a while.
She gently pulled back, and I immediately felt a sense of loss. I wasn't ready to let go. Then I saw tears running down a soft cheeks and I felt a pang of pain. I made her cry. I looked down and felt my heart constrict, I was at a loss. She seemed to sense this and she whispered the softest yes that I almost missed it. I looked up quickly at her wide eyed, and she confirmed it for me with a nod, and I hugged her tighter than I did before causing her to let out a giggle. I finally let her go and suddenly I didn't know what to do. Ashley was my girlfriend! She was my girlfriend! I just gazed at the beautiful being in front of me.
She came closer to me, cupped my cheeks in her hands and so slowly she leaned in to kiss me so softly on my lips. The feeling when our lips touched. It's indescribable. I feel my hair stand, goosebumps form, my spine tingle and fireworks. There was fireworks when she kissed me! We spent that night in her room, snuggled up, light kisses in between, just talking and I loved it.
Then I heard an unfamiliar laugh, it was the laugh of a girl. Laughing heartily. And then Ashley wasn't there anymore. The laughing got louder and i'm trying to find it. I slammed my eyes shut and opened it quickly...
I find myself wrapped in my blanket, the sun shining bright through the window, almost mockingly. I hear the laugh again, and I had to pinch myself. I shook my head and searched my phone and my room anything to show me that everything I felt that I saw was real. But nothing showed me that. I checked the date and it hasn't been months, it's only the day after meeting Kyla. That amazing feeling came from a dream. It was all a dream. Just a dream Spencer. It was only a dream. I've never felt so disappointed in my life. I should have known. Things don't happen so perfectly. After moping around the next few minutes, I forced myself out of bed and freshened up. I was determined to find the source of the hearty laugh who ended my dream prematurely. Granted that it wasn't real anyway, but I wanted to stay in that dream longer.
I made my way to the living room to find an unfamiliar back facing me, and Clay laughing. It's been so long since I saw my brother laugh. In fact I haven't seen him smile in so long, well not those smiles that reach your eyes. Then again, i've been so caught up with my own problems that maybe I haven't noticed. I mentally kicked myself for having neglected my brother for so long.
"Oh hey Spence, you're up! Mom, Dad and Glen have gone to do grocery shopping. Well actually Mom and Dad wanted to go grocery shopping and dragged Glen with them," Clay said and laughed again. I could get used to this happy brother of mine. I kind of like it. He deserves to be happy.
"By the way, this is a new friend I met at the bookstore, this is Chelsea. Chelsea, my sister, Spencer," Clay introduced. Then the unfamiliar back turned to show me the face of Clay's new friend. Chelsea smiled at me sweetly.
Chelsea was gorgeous, big eyes, great smile and sweet features. I loved how she made my brother smile and laugh like I haven't seen him in awhile. Chelsea invited me to join them and I did. At least maybe this could get my mind off Ashley...
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Sorry if I gave you guys a shock there!
To clarify, yes Spencer had a dream! (:
Spashley hasn't happened :o
And I thought i've neglected the other characters for awhile(: Hence why Clay came in(:
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