Hey everyone... Please don't kill me! I have reason WHY this chapter was posted so late!
1) My internet was down for a few days.
2) School is starting soon for me. (Like in 3 weeks) I have been running around buying school supplies and going thought check-up and appointments. I have barely had a chance to sit down and type.
3) My school offers a class to take over the summer to help us learn about our nation's capital. (My school lets a program called BrightSparks-I think that's what it's called- take us to Washingtion DC. (Yes I do live in America. No I will not tell you what state.)
So yeah. :| But Thank you to all the lovelies who reviewed, faved, and followed! :)
Also, Shout Out to Brittana4ever for the idea she gave me! Go visit her page and thank her! (You don't have too, but it would be nice! :))
This is the longest chapter I have written! :)
AnyWho... On to the story!
Allons-y! (Whovians will understand! ;))
Let Me Go and Don't Try to Fix Me
"Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide"
Chapter Seven: Not Who She Was
"If you love me, then let go of me.
I won't be held down by who I used to be.
She's nothing to me."
Air Temple Island
Korra's Room
2 Months Later
8:00 P.M.:
She didn't know when it happened, but it happened. Her life just became this dull, gray blah. Not even with her parents here could it give her the ups and downs of life. Her life was this boring straight line. Nothing seemed to interest her. She on build-in seat in front of the window. Her once bright and cheery eyes were dully fixed on Yue Bay. All the food tasted bland and gritty. Bending even lost its golden appeal. She hardly ate, even when her mother told her she was hurting her child. The Avatar was painfully thin, everything hung awkwardly on her frame. Her baby bump was the only thing that stuck out. Korra could care less about her child at the moment. She was dull to the world. All she wanted was him. She just want to see him, to just hold him one more time. "What did his voice sound like again?" Korra had forgotten.
"Korra?" Her mother's soft voice came out. Korra remembered loving its soothing tone, they way it calmed her and made her feel better. But now it was bland and gray; like everything else.
"Honey, are you alright?" her mother asked again.
"Is 'I'm okay' good enough? But,"Korra paused. Her voice was raspy and dry. "Because... I think we both know that it's a lie." Korra stared out the window. Her eyes fixed on the Pro-bending Arena. It's bright gold color stood out from the city. But to Korra, it was just a memoir of a different life. One with... "No, don't say his name. It will just bring more hurt."
Her mother sat down next to her. Senna placed a hand on Korra's shoulder. She hated seeing Korra like this. It wasn't right. Most others would frown upon her, and look down on Korra for her pregnancy. They would say it was her fault and if she didn't sleep around, Korra would not be in this mess. But Korra was not to blame. She was drunk, Mako was with her. They were teenagers, both had feelings for the other. Korra was naïve about the situation. She was only 17. But no one would really have cared about that.
Senna knew how important it was to have a boyfriend or a husband be with you when you were with a child. Someone to hold your hand and help you through it all. But Korra didn't have anyone to fill that role. Senna rubbed her daughter's back with her palms and told her,
"Sometimes, it gets so hard … and you just want to give up. But no matter how hard it is; you have to stay strong. Not for you but for the baby." Korra dull eyes glazed over to meet her mother. "Do it for her, or for him."
"Why? It's not like the child will have anything to look forward too." Korra's voice is mocking and harsh. Each word raspy and dry. Senna is shocked, a child is joy that is indescribable. Then she sees the fear, the cold fear in Korra's eyes. Korra is scared. Scared that she will fail her child. Scared she will not be able to do it alone.
"You haven't failed yet, you only fail when you give up. Tell me Korra, Have you failed this early in the battle? Did you really let someone best you?"
"Yes" Is Korra's broken response, she would be crying if her eyes had any tears to shed.
An idea forms in Senna's mind. "Did you tell anyone the baby?" Senna looks at Korra and sees her nod slightly.
"The Earthbender, Bolin," The Avatar replied.
"Then..." The last of Senna's sentence was whispered into Korra's ear.
"Why should I do that? How will it help?" Korra stops staring out at Yue Bay and looks to her mother.
"You'll feel better. Talking to a friend will lift your spirits, and won't feel so alone anymore."
Korra's lips twitch and she almost, almost grins, "Is this the part where you tell me everything is alright then we both start crying and hug each other?"
"If you want it to be." Senna says. Korra hugs her mother and thanks her. Suddenly, life slowly gains its color back; not by much, but though the gray and black she can see a little sliver of gold and blue.
...The Next Day...
...Noon...
"Korra are you sure you want to go?" Tenzin was reluctant to her go, even if it was for a bit. But Korra's mother deemed it okay and her father agreed to it. Still, Tenzin was worried.
"Yes Tenzin. No one will recognize me, and I'll be back in an hour or two." Korra answered; Her voice was still raspy from her dehydration, but it sounded better. She looked much more healthier than she did in weeks. Korra was starting to look like her old self again. But not at the moment. She wore a thin, red cotton Air Acolyte dress and a heavy, dark orange jacket that reached her knees over it. A maroon sash was placed over everything and held in place with a red-brown strip of cloth tied under her bust. The sash came over her belly, it sat atop her shoulder and tied in the back. It was placed in a way that made her baby bump hidden. Her hair was pulled in a tight bun and a wig of shoulder-length black hair that was secured to her head. Senna and Pema applied make-up to make Korra's face look a bit different. If he hadn't known her as well as he did, Tenzin might not have recognized her.
"Bye Mom and Dad." Korra said as she hugged her parents, she whispered "I love you" to each of them. Next she hugged the Airbender children, and then Pema. Korra thanked her and then, she made her way to Tenzin.
"Thank you, Tenzin." She spoke as she hugged him, .he smiled lightly and as she pulled away the Airbending Master said "Just stay safe."
"Sure." Then she was up on the Ferry, toward Republic City.
12:14P.M.
Republic City
Central Park:
Bolin was nervous. Nervous, anxious, and confused. Mainly nervous. He was seated on a bench overlooking the stream. Gold and silver fish darted trough the water, flitting in and a round water lilies and algae. The brightness of the spring sun brought out the green in everything. Flowers in shades of pinks and magenta-reds swayed in the light breeze. His eyes flicked down, to his hand. In his hand was letter sent by Korra. She explained that she never went back to her home, she just pretended to so the people would think she was gone. Korra said that she was feeling so alone and cold that she wanted someone to talk to. She wanted a friend to confide in. And who was Bolin to deny her?
"Korra said that she would be here at 12:10 but has to about 12:15. Where is she? Is she okay?" Bolin's eyebrows furled in worry, his mind came up with dozens of horrible situations. Each one worst then the previous.
"Bolin?" A somewhat raspy voice says. It snatches him from his trance and makes him bolt up right. He turns backward and says,
"Korra?" She nods. Bolin looks at her, it is Korra, but it isn't. She has black hair with bangs the pulled back into a bun, (Bolin assumes it's a wig.) her skin looks a tad lighter and he can see make-up had been used to bring out her cheekbones and eyes. She is wearing an Air Acolyte dress and a jacket. She looks thinner than he remembered her, a lot thinner. She walks over and then both sit down.
"Kor, are you alright? You look too thin." Bolin asks, concern in his voice.
Korra opens her mouth to say something, then she stops. Korra breaths out an says, "I am … now. For the past two months I was really depressed. Like..." She pauses and looks at Bolin. Bolin's expression beckons her to go on. "like I was done with the world. I didn't care at all what would happen to me or to the baby. I stopped bending and eating. I didn't meditate at all. I passed out one time, just because I wasn't drinking enough water." Her speech becomes choked and words grow shaky. Bolin pulls her into a hug.
"Hey, it's alright." Bolin rubs her back in an attempt to comfort her.
After a while Korra pulls away from Bolin. Rubbing her eyes she says, "I'm sorry for all the crying," she takes the sleeve of her jacket in her hand and uses it to rub her eyes. Huffing, Korra says "It must the hormones."
"It's okay, no prob." Bolin smiles lightly. "And I'm guessing that you want to know what's happening out here?" he asks.
"Yep, tell me what's going on Bo."
"Okay, who to start with..." He looks around for a minute, thinking. Then his face lights up with a happy, almost comical look. "I know... ME. Because I'm the most interesting" Bolin says jokingly, Korra smiles and lets out a little 'Ha ha'.
"Well, I still am doing Pro-bending. Mako quit it though... Umm, I starting learning how to metalbend!"
"That's great Bo! How's it going?"
"Well it was hard to do at first, but then it just... I dunno; clicked! Chief Beifong is an awesome teacher. I have learned so much!" His arms spread to wide length; emphasizing the amount of things he has learned.
Korra lightly punches his shoulder, "Well you better teach me how to do it!" Korra realized just how much she missed her friends. Being back with Bolin was like a fresh breath of air. He brought happiness and color back into her life. She listened on as he explanied how he just wanted to find out who he was, what he wanted to become. Bolin used many gestures and expressions, Korra could see each scene he described in her head. She couldn't remember the last time she just felt so happy. Korra found her new hope. Color came flooding back into her world.
...Two weeks later...
It was her fifth meeting with Bolin. They met two times a week. Mostly they met in the Park, other days they met in various places over Republic City. Today they were in the Red Panda Lilly. Bolin assured Korra that Mako was busy with his police duties,(Korra was still shocked that he join the Police, but she was happy for him non the less.) Asami had board meetings to attend to, (She was having a hard time gaining people to trust her company, but Asami was almost done in wining the people over with her words.) and Verick (Bolin's friend) was busy for the day. She still her disguise, air acolyte outfit and all.
"So what can I get you two?" A waitress asked. She was pretty, with short caramel hair pulled into a braid and big gray eyes. She smiled happily while saying, "I can get a candle to make it more romantic."
"Oh, we're not, we aren't..." Korra and Bolin say at the same time, bouncing off each others words.
"Oh... Sorry about that here are your menus." She hands both of them heavy card stock menus. Korra swore that she saw the waitress wink at Bolin. "Do you want any drinks?," She pauses, " Oh course you want drinks, sorry. First day here. I meant: What do you want to drink?"She blushes as she says this. "Oh, I'm Alonsa by the way."
"I'll have the Lychee juice" Korra says looking through the menu.
"Same for me Alonsa." Bolin returns her wink. Alonsa pale face was turning pinker by the second.
"I'll be back in a bit with your drinks." Alonsa states before heading off to deliver her order.
"So what are you going to have Bo?"
"I don't know, it all looks so good!" They back to looking at the menus, after a bit, Alonsa comes back with their drinks.
"So do you guys know what you are going to order?"
They both order and in the wait for their food, Korra and Bolin make idle chat in the wait for their food. It comes in after what seems like five minutes. Bolin ordered beef dumplings coated with a sticky sauce of shallots and soy sauce, underneath the dumplings is a bowl of fried white rice with fried chicken and vegetables. Korra had the same bowl of rice, but on top of hers she had cooked mushrooms covered in a thick cherry sauce. Two rolls of chicken with grilled vegetables were wrapred with delicate rice paper. Spicy sauce was poured over it. A smaller bowl put to side was filled with spiced noodles. Two sets of chopsticks were placed on the table. Just before they were about to eat Korra asked Bolin a question:
"Bolin what was your mother's name?"
"Anica, why?"
"I just want to name my child after her."
Bolin was touched. He felt very honored and he almost felt like crying.
So there it is! I hope that you guys liked it!
And the end of the sentence was {The Dream is not just a dream it is not just a long forgotten memory it is a sign to move forward or stay stuck in the past} Sara got it! Good job Sara! :)
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Mako's Eyebrows: Mako will connect the dots soon! Also, I read some of your stories... your are an awesome writer. I am glad that you like my story! :)
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Ophelia Darkmoon: Mako will talk to Korra... soon. (That's all I am going to say.) And the reason Korra's dreams are happier than Mako's is because Korra need the promise of Hope and it is a foreshadow for the future.
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Kiara: Mako kind of knows what happen, but he is just lying to himself out of guilt. I am so sorry about the late update, I hope that this chapter makes up for it! I don't know where I find the energy to write, I just do it when I can.
Faye: I am so, so sorry about the late update. But I have been super busy. Sorry. :(
IMP: I'll try. Although, with school starting soon, that will be hard. But I will still keep writing!
Katherine: Asami and the Krew will pop up in the next chapter! I'll explain why she broke up with Mako.
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