Wanting, needing, famished,

Feelings you can't imagine.

Wanting and feeling

The feelings that don't make sense

That overpowers even the strongest will

And makes them fall to their knees and cry

Like I cry

Whimpering for passion

Weeping for love

And for the lust that has stolen me.

Confused and alone

Only you can make it right

But you're not here

You're over there

So close

But I can't touch you

Can't you feel me?

Allow me the honour

Standing aside

While you are so close

I'm all alone

But you're here

Blocked by a wall

A wall full of unknown things

I don't understand

I want you here

But you're not.

**

The moment was precious. Hermione, who had been scared and worried, suddenly felt strong. Strong and cold. Her heart felt surrounded by a steel barrier. She laughed out loud, laughed at Malfoy, because his shocked helpless expression was the most hilarious thing in the world.

He deserved it. She wanted to make him pay.

And she knew how.

She would tell him the truth.

"Is it Potter's?" He asked hoarsely.

She grinned at him, her eyes feverishly bright, "Nope. Wrong answer."

"Weasley's?" He asked desperately.

"No, no. Wrong!"

"So, it's my father's, then?"

Her grin grew even wilder. "Nope."

His head snapped up, to look at her. "What?"

"Well, I'm not saying it isn't. It could be. But there's a chance that it's somebody else's too. Isn't that splendid?"

"You mean," He swallowed, "There was somebody else?"

"Yep. Can you guess who?"

"No," He said miserably.

"Go on. Take a guess. It's fun. Okay, I'll go first. Is it yours? Nope."

"The Hufflepuff's?"

She shook her head in an over exaggerated gesture and laughed.

"My turn. Is it Dumbledore's? Nope."

He was looking at her with burning grey eyes. His voice was one of a contained tiger, who had earned the ability to speak, "Is it Snape's?"

She let out a delightful laugh, "Nope."

"Then who's?" He slammed his fist down on the table.

Hermione's face drained. This was her revenge, but she didn't want to tell him. Because she was scared of how he'd react. Scared, and she was a little ashamed. She closed her eyes, trying to will courage to somehow come to her again. He was still looking at her with that burning intensity.

She opened her eyes, and said one name.

*

She opened her eyes, and said one name. A name that Draco hadn't expected but perhaps should have. Hadn't he laughed at it when it had flitted into his mind? Hadn't he been stupid to leave them alone?

The name still echoed in his head. Hermione's voice so flat, yet laced with vengeance. This was her revenge, and it came in the form of a short stubby useless boy.

"Neville Longbottom," She repeated, just in case he had not heard.

"When?" He asked in pure misery. The anger hadn't hit in yet.

"Just Before your father kidnapped me."

"Why?"

She looked at him blankly.

"Why did you do it? You hardly held any feeling for the idiot, did you?"

"No, I didn't."

"Then why?"

"Because I hated you. I still hate you," She told him in a hoarse whisper.

"What's that got to do with anything?" He barked, his anger beginning to stir.

"You really don't hold me in high regard, do you? You really think I'm innocent, and helpless and broken? But I'm not. And I wasn't then. I was going to become you're personal slave. I had seen you looking at me, okay? I knew what could happen."

"You thought I might have raped you?"

"You're a man, aren't you? I knew, it would probably come about. I didn't want you to be my first."

She suddenly let out a laugh, and said, "Funnily enough, you wouldn't have been anyway. When I was leaving, I bumped into your father"

"So you did it to hurt me?"

"I didn't know you loved me then," She said angrily. "I did it, so you wouldn't get there first."

He slammed himself up, in a furious temper, "So, you just let Longbottom fuck you like some common slut?"

His words hung in the air, and he saw them slam into her. She raised one hand and slapped him across the face. His face stung, but it was nothing like the pain in Hermione's eyes.

She did something unexpected then. She pushed her lips onto his and kissed him harshly, painfully. When she let go of him, her mouth was red and raw, but she was smiling. "I will never," She breathed, "Never, love you. I despise you. I loathe you. You make me wish I was never born. I hate you."

She turned and ran.

"Well, you disgust me!" He shouted after her. She did not shout back a response, but he heard her footsteps stomping through the hall at a great speed.

He turned, suddenly emotionally drained, and found himself facing a mirror. Inside he saw his profile. His slightly upturned nose, his lips slightly swollen, his lithe and compact figure, ready to be admired in his black tee shirt and jeans. He was very red, his cheeks were flushing, and his blonde hair was tousled. But what really caught his attention was the tear trickling down his cheek. He couldn't remember the last time he had felt so much emotion as he felt right now.

He was looking in the mirror, and seeing a monster that was himself.

He turned away from the mirror because he could not bear to watch himself cry.

***

"I hate him! I hate him! I hate him!" She was in Pansy's arms, spilling tears all over the girl's robes.

Pansy patted Hermione's back awkwardly.

"What happened?"

"He showed me what a cold hearted, evil snake he is!" Then she told Pansy the whole story.

"Hermione, could you do me a favour?"

She sniffed in reply to Pansy's outrageous question.

"Could you come with me, just for a minute?" Pansy stood and practically dragged Hermione up from the bed. When Hermione made no other protest, she guided Hermione out of the room.

"Where are we going?" She whispered weakly.

Pansy was leading her towards Malfoy's room.

"No, Pansy no wa-" Hermione's complaint was cut short when she heard a strange sound, coming from Malfoy's room.

Pansy slowly opened the door quietly, and Hermione inched forward curiously. Inside, she saw a strange thing. Malfoy's knees were drawn to his chest, and his arm's wrested on his knees. His head was in his arms. Hermione could see clearly his shoulders shaking, and immediately knew what those strange noises were.

Malfoy was crying.

***

A girl stepped out of the shadows towards Ron. Two other's followed. Their eyes were gleaming strangely. The girl, who looked young, sighed. "Oh, we thought you were some evil creature."

The two other's followed suit and sighed.

"Hi," Ron said, "Er, excuse me, but why are you're eyes so strange and shiny?"

"Oh," The girl laughed, "It's a spell. Lumkis. It's sort of a variation of the Lumus spell. It lets us see in the dark through our eyes, instead of our wands. The do look a bit funny, don't they? I'm Laura, by the way. And that's Joanne," She gestured to the girl on her right, "And Roger."

"You were slaves at the Malfoy Manor?" Ron asked, looking pointedly at their rages they were wearing.

"Yes."

"Did you know Hermione?"

Laura bowed her head, and Ron saw a trace of a tear in her eye, "Poor Hermione. That bastard Lucius Malfoy! How could he kill her?"

"Kill her? Hermione's not dead!"

"She's not?"

"But I thought, since Malfoy's father, and then she didn't come back, and I was so scared, she was gone, you know?" Laura's sentence made no sense but Ron understood the relief in her eyes.

"Did she get free, like the rest of us?" Asked Laura.

"No. She's still with Malfoy. She had a chance to get free, but I blew it."

Laura asked no more questions because she saw the inner battle going in Ron.

"Where are we?" Ron asked, changing subject. He was sure he was in the Forbidden Forest, but he was positive.

"The Forbidden Forest."

"Do you know where Hogwarts is?" He questioned.

"Yes," Laura said regretfully, "It was the first place us slaves went. To look for Dumbledore, you know. But when we came, we found Hogwarts overrun by Slytherins and Death Eaters."

"Yes, Voldemort's in charge there," Ron said solemnly, "Did nobody tell you?"

"No, nobody told us. We just knocked on the door, to get in, and then Slytherins started attacking us. It was horrible. I'm not sure how many of us got away. I ran into the Forbidden Forest, and then, I got lost. I met up with these two, having a serious kiss," She gestured at Roger and Joanne who blushed, "and we've been stuck in here ever since."

"But you know the way back to Hogwarts?"

"I'm sure we could find it if we try. Marie, my friend, is stuck in there. They captured her. It was one of Malfoy's friends, Goyle I think his name is, who captured her. I saw it with my own eyes."

"We can't just keep wondering around the forest," Roger said. Ron noted how he held onto Joanne's hand protectively.

"We're not going to," Ron said.

Laura met his eyes and nodded. Ron knew she understood.

"What?" Joanne asked confused.

"He means we have to go into Hogwarts and save Marie and the others," Laura said.

***

"Hello Harry," A silky voice called from the shadows.

Harry turned sharply, and after a second look at the person, called out, "Ginny!"

***

So, he does have feelings. Hermione was stuck on this new piece of information. It was so puzzling that it made her head spin.

Pansy gave her a long meaningful look, and Hermione understood.

She had upset Malfoy. And maybe he deserved it, but now Hermione regretted it. That wasn't the kind of person she was. She was a Gryffindor. She was the one with the bushy hair, and the big brown eyes, who said what she thought of people but didn't bitch like the other girls and be nasty to the so called "Losers". She was the one who tried not to judge the people who others judged. She did not go out of her way to cause people pain.

And whatever else, Malfoy did love her.

She wouldn't apologise to him. No, she would never do such a thing to somebody like him.

But she knew what she would do.

She gently knocked on his door. Through the opened crack, she could see him wiping his face quickly, and standing up tiredly. When he pushed open the door, he faced her with a blank expressionless face.

"I'm going down to dinner. The house elves said it was ready. Would you like me to bring something up for you?" Her voice was clipped but polite.

He seemed astounded. He shook his head in the negative, still looking at her like she was about to bite him.

She gave him a quick smile, with no real feelings behind it, and turned to leave.

"Thanks, Hermione," His voice held her back.

It was probably one of the first times he had treated her with proper respect. She turned to face him, and said, "No problem." She added in a quiet voice, that she knew he could hear, "Draco."

It was the first time she had ever used his name willingly. She strode down the hall then. If she had looked back at him a moment later, she would have seen his blank pale face break into a blinding bright smile.

Behind Draco, Pansy stood, unnoticed, but delighted.

*

A/N - My God, I'm nearly up to twenty chapters. How scary is that? I've never kept a story up this long! I've never got so many reviews for a story before. Sometimes some of the reviews are so lovely, I just want to cry. Sometimes some of the reviews are so hilarious, I can be chuckling about them for days!

I realise this story is getting more adult but I'm not going to move it up to R. Why? Because I'm only fifteen so it'd be stupid to make it an over seventeen's story, don't you think? I'm sorry if this, like, offends anybody. If anybody wants to flame me to make themselves feel better, I do not mind. But I'd much prefer a nice lovely, even funny, review!

Yay! I didn't leave a cliff-hanger at the end. You gotta reward me (Cough, review, cough) for that!

Demon Of Fear – Hi! Thanks! I was well pleased with the A. I still have to check out your story! I haven't forgot, Hun, I just have to get the time!

Tanith Devika – Well that'd be sorta freaky, wouldn't it? Thanks for the review!

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AnitaBlake414 – She got even more revenge this time! Ha ha! Thanks!

Couch-Potato – I like honest reviewers. Yeah, I know it was dragging, but I thought Hermione couldn't just forget about the rape, she has to heal from it, and having someone to talk to helps. I had to introduce a couple of new little plots too! Pain, I know, but it'll all come together at the end! Okay, you saw it coming that she was pregnant (Even though I did) but did you see Neville being the father?

Squorpianlady - Sorry you can't remember! I have that problem too! Just skim through the latest two chapters or something! Nothing really happens at the start! Cheers for the lovely review!

Miss Potter – Hm, what would Hermione's and Neville's baby be like? Bushy haired fat little girl with no magical talent but a liking for books? Thanks

Malfoyelf – Well, there'll be much more Draco/Hermione interaction for a while anyway! Potter's going to be off doing different stuff! Thanks for the neat review! U Rock!

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Draco-Malfoy-Severus-Snape – Yep, I hate Ginny too! This story she might get a little evilness put into her, so she doesn't bore us all to death! Gr, she drives me up the well. How pathetic and non- insignificant can you be? I love your story!

BluePhoenix – It's not his father, so that's better, right? Just a little bit? Thanks for the review!

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OceanGuardian – Hey, sorry I left it there. To be honest, On that day, I couldn't really come up with any more, so I just posted it up. I don't like to keep reviewers waiting! Thanks for the review and sorry the cliffie bothered ya so much! I didn't leave it on a cliffie this time, does that count? *Smiles sheepishly* Thanks!

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