Hey guys! Sorry for the long wait. I hope I still have loyal followers still reading this story. I've been on vacation in Puerto Rico and just got back but while on vacation. Finally I finished this chapter and I love it so I hope you all love it. I'll come back and fix errors because I was rushing a little to finish the chapter by tonight and if you catch any just tell me. The songs used are Without you sung by Cataleya/Charlie from Rent and Without you sung by Rachel by Usher ft. David.
Disclaimer: I do not own Fox or Glee, just my made up characters.
Santana POV:
I passed a brush softly into Cataleya's hair as she blankly stared into the mirror. "You have such beautiful hair," I said, keeping the mood light despite feeling like shit inside. Even though she couldn't see me, I tried my best not to frown every time her unfocused eyes and mine's met. She whispered a thank you and gave a small smile. "After we can go shopping. I have to find something for Britt-Britt for Valentine's Day," I suggested.
She sighed. "What's the point?"
"What do you mean?" I asked before mentally slapping myself for asking when I knew exactly what she meant.
She slammed a fist on her table, making me jump in shock. "Stop with the whole avoiding game San. I'm blind and I've gotten over that fact."
I shook my head. She's such a stubborn brat sometimes but I doubt I would've dealt with something like this so lightly either. "I hardly think two weeks is a long enough period of time to get over something like this. If you want me to stop avoiding this then you have to stop avoiding how you really feel and start dealing," I snapped as I walked in front of her and knelt in front of her. My face softened when I saw she was on the verge of crying. "Listen you're blind. It happened. If you don't start coming to terms with this and continue to mop then no one's going to want to be around you."
She looked in the direction I was speaking and nodded. "You're right. I…I'm just really depressed. Everything is dark and I feel alone."
I patted her lap as I got back up, going back to fixing her hair. "Wells good news. You're not alone," I whispered in her ear, leaning both hands on her shoulders.
She broke out in a bright smile that I haven't seen in a long time. "Thanks."
"For what?"
"For not treating me like some charity case." She softly chuckled. "I missed you being a bitch." I devilishly grinned at her remark.
"Whatever slut," I said, lightly pushing her. I grabbed my bag, pulling out a pair of silver aviator sunglasses that I bought the day Cataleya got out of the hospital then carefully placed them on her. "Perfect. Now let's teach you how to move around your room first then we can try other rooms in your house."
Cataleya POV:
I didn't look in the direction as I heard the heavy footsteps coming up the wooden bleachers and knew instantly who it was.
"Just when I thought no one could find me," I sighed, crossing one leg over the other, leaning my head on my hand then onto my lap for support. "Hey Finn."
I heard a pause in his steps, suggesting that he stopped walking. "H…how did you know it was me?" Finn asked flabbergasted.
I shrugged my shoulders. "I can't explain it. I've been taking notes ever since I woke up from my coma. I just remember what people smell like, hear how they walk and Rachel is the only one I know by touch so far."
"How did you get up here?" he asked, avoiding my sarcastic comment.
"I paid someone to bring me here," I casually stated.
"Hopefully that person didn't take advantage of you and take more than you promised." He sounded worried.
I shook my head. "Rachel folded my money in ways that I could tell which bills I'm using." I lifted up the little whistle that was cold against my chest. "She even gave me her rape whistle just in case I fall and needed assistance," I mocked.
I heard him chuckle. "That's my Rachel," he mused. "How was this morning?" he asked a little more seriously.
I frowned then shrugged. "Good…I really can't go anywhere without someone helping me or staying one step behind me, making sure I don't break."
"Sorry about that," he said sincerely.
I heavily sighed. "And I hate everyone saying sorry."
"Sor…" he caught himself before finishing the rest of the word.
After that I instantly felt like a jerk. Finn has been nothing but kind and loyal to me. He didn't deserve my anger; really no one did. I playfully nudged him, making him move a little. "It's ok I know you and everyone is just trying to look after me." We sat there silent as I heard the freshman cheerios practicing a few dance routines. "I heard there might be wedding bells in the not so future," I spoke up.
"So you heard," he said nervously of what I could sense.
"Rachel." We said at the same time then bursted into laughter.
After we calmed down, I felt for his hand then shoulder and softly squeezed it. "I'm happy for you two. If anyone is going to make it, it's you guys."
Finn heavily sighed as I felt his shoulders sink lower. "She didn't give me an answer yet," he mumbled.
I smirked as I remembered the conversation I had with Rachel when I was in the hospital after waking up.
Flashback:
"I don't know what to do," she cried, hiding her face into my bed sheets.
I felt around for her head until I reached it and placed my hand on top, trying to comfort her. "Do you love him?" I asked. I felt her head nod.
"Will that ever change?" She shook her head.
"Then what are you waiting for?" I asked, calmly.
"What if we're too young? What if we're the percentage of young couples that won't make it and divorce?" she panicked.
I sat and thought for a second. I snapped my fingers when I thought of a great plan to make her see her answer. "Ok what I'm going to do is flip a coin."
"What?" she asked confused.
I rolled my eyes. "Look just go with it until I can explain at the end ok?"
"Ok," she whispered as she passed me a quarter. "Heads means you're going to marry Finn and tails means you're not going to marry Finn." I flipped it up and we watched as it shot in the air then came back down into my hand. I covered it so she wouldn't see if it was heads or tails.
"What is it?" she asked impatiently. I glanced at the coin. George Washington's head was shining at me.
I frowned. "Tails," I lied, observing her face. She frowned deeply. "Aren't you happy that you have you're answer?" I asked.
She shook her head. "Honestly I was hoping it was heads."
I playfully slapped her shoulder. "And there's your true answer." She looked at me oddly. "First the coin was really heads and two it didn't matter whether if it was heads or tails because you had the answer inside of you the whole time," I explained.
Her face broke out in a bright million-dollar smile. "You're right!" She jumped up and hugged me. "Thank you Cat! I don't know what I would've done without you," she praised.
End of Flashback
"Don't worry too much about it. You know why?" There was silence so I figured he either nodded or shook his head, forgetting that I couldn't see his action. My smile widened. "Finn I can't see you're answer."
"Oh sorry…no why?"
"Because you guys are legit, forever, infinite. Something like what you guys have can never be broken."
"Thanks." I felt him touch my hand that was on his shoulder. "Have you talked to Sam?" he asked, changing the subject.
My smile disappeared as I fought to not frown. "I tried calling him…but he never answers and if we ever passed each other in the halls I would never know."
"He'll come around," Finn offered.
I looked in the direction of his voice, giving him a small smile, looking away from him and back to the front. "Thanks…Not only for now but for being the only one, well besides Blaine, that stuck up for me and stood by my side," I paused. "Kinda like the brother I've never had."
I felt his hands touching my cheeks, causing me to turn and face him. "You are family to me and I can't help but feel protective of you." A smile spreads across my face as I feel my eyes tearing up. "It's going to get better Cat," he promises, bringing me into one of his famous bear hugs. We stay like that until I hear the loud school bell ringing. "Why don't I walk you to class?" he suggested as he pulled me up and helped me down the stairs.
GLEE!
I walked carefully against the lockers with my walking stick in one hand and a binder in another. School was over and I officially survived my first day back. I breathed a sigh of relief before a guy knocked into me with fully force. I heard him and a few of his friends laughing as the sound of their heavy footsteps disappeared. I lost my grip on my binder and dropped it, hearing some of the papers spilling out of it. "Hey! Watch where you're going!" I yelled to no one in particular. I huffed in annoyance as I crouched down feeling around the floor for my stuff. I jumped when I felt someone grip my hand and placed my binder and papers in my hand. Wait I knew the feel of those hands before.
"Sam," I stated more than questioned. I waited for him to say something…anything but it was quite as he helped me up. "Thank you," I expressed but he still didn't say anything as I heard him walk away.
I deeply frowned, staring at the direction he left. "Having trouble moving around school?" I heard Quinn ask while rolling up next to me.
"Terrible isn't even the right word to describe today," I said emotionless.
I heard her heavily sigh, making me think she was frowning. "If I didn't text…" she started.
"Stop," I interrupted, looking down from where her voice was coming from. "I'm not blaming you Quinn. What happened was an accident that left us both with serious consequences. We will overcome them this. I promise. Just please stop apologizing," I begged.
There was silence before I felt her take hold of my hand. "You are truly amazing," she said breathlessly.
Yeah not everyone thinks that. I silently said to myself as I tried to smile the best I could and nodded, pushing thoughts of Sam aside. She brought me out of my thoughts when I felt her let go of my hand and heard her rolling away. I leaned against the set of lockers and closed my eyes, thinking of everything that happened between Sam and I.
Without you, the ground thaws,
the rain falls,
the grass grows.
I opened my eyes and my vision came back as I walked down the empty hallways.
Without you, the seeds root,
the flowers bloom,
the children play.
I walked into class walking pass everyone laughing or talking and spotted Sam in the back talking to Mike.
The stars gleam,
the poets dream,
the eagles fly.
I stopped in front of his desk, crouched down to his level and leaned one arm on the desk as I watched him laugh and playfully push Mike, unaware of me singing in front of him.
Without you.
I lightly touched his face, tracing the outline of his eyes, cheeks, lips and chin. When he stopped laughing, his face turned serious like he was thinking, as he looked right through me. The last time I've seen his face so grim was when he found out I lied to him and broke his heart.
The Earth turns,
the sun burns,
but I die, without you.
I got up and walked out of the class as the scene changed in front of me.
Without you, the breeze warms,
the girl smiles,
the cloud moves.
I was outside by the football field watching Rachel against the side of the metal bleachers with Finn leaning with one hand over her and on the rail. They both grinned as Finn passed her a daisy that was hidden behind his back, placing the daisy behind her ear.
Without you, the tides change,
the boys run,
the oceans crash.
I was back in school watching people past as if I didn't exist but only two people caught my eye. Santana and Brittney walked by while holding pinkies, talking animatedly. When they stopped in front of class, Santana stole a quick kiss, making Santana smile one of her genuine smiles.
Without you.
I sat and watched Mike and Tina, having their weekly picnic in the park. I smiled when they shared a kiss before Tina jumped on Mike and laid peacefully on top of him as Mike lightly combed through her hair.
The moon glows,
the river flows,
but I die without you.
I was at home but not in Lima. I was back to a time my mom was alive, watching as her and my father danced elegantly around the kitchen. Her laugh like chimes and his bright smile was all I noticed from the memory. They were happy. Something I've haven't seen in a long time.
Without you, the hand gropes,
the ear hears,
the pulse beats.
I stood across from Kurt and Blaine as they were talking on the staircase in school. Blaine flashed a gorgeous smile as Kurt passed him a bouquet of colorful flowers.
Without you, the eye gaze,
the legs walk,
the lungs breathe.
The last thing I saw was Sam and myself. It was the time we spent ice-skating on Christmas. The moment was purely innocent with us just laughing and having a good time. It remained me of a happier time that wasn't tainted by all the lies, anger and accidents.
The mind churns,
the heart yearns,
the tears dry without you.
I closed my eyes, holding in my tears then opened them, seeing only darkness. I was blind again, singing in front of everyone in glee club. I crossed my legs as I sang the last verse, putting all my emotions into it.
Life goes on,
but I'm gone
'cause I die, without you,
without you,
without you,
I felt a tear roll down my eye as closed my eyes again and finished the last words.
Without you….
Everyone started clapping which brought me to reality. A reality without Sam.
Rachel POV:
Finn, Kurt, Cat and I all sat in a booth at Breadstixs. If the mood in the air didn't give away how depressed everyone was, our faces and postures said it all. "This is so depressing," Kurt spoke up first, absentmindedly playing with his utensils. Him and I were worried that we wouldn't get an audition from NYADA since letters were sent out just last week. To say we're on the edge was an understatement.
"I know I can't believe about my dad. No wonder I'm a Lima loser," Finn groaned and he sulked further into his hands that supported him up.
"At least you can see," Cataleya said dryly, staring down at the table with her unfocused eyes.
Finn glanced up at her with a guilty facial expression. "I'm sorry."
"Don't worry about it," she said with a small smile.
We all jumped when Kurt suddenly slammed the hand he was leaning on the table. "Screw this. If we're going to sit around mopping might as well order a huge bowl of ice cream with lots of chocolate syrup and whip cream," he demanded, snapping his fingers for the waiter.
Cataleya shook her head. "No thanks."
Kurt looked at me. "Vegan," I said in a self explanatory way.
He looked to Finn next, who shrugged. "I'm in might as well enjoy my high school hero title before I turn into real world zero after I graduate," he confessed with pain visibly across his face. "I mean why did my mom have to tell me about my dad…why couldn't I just have something in my life that's just…special," he finished. Kurt and I shared a look before I frowned. I knew Finn was dealing with the new information about his father but I thought he saw me as something special. I combed a hand through my hair as I stared at Finn.
I can't win, I can't reign,
I will never win this game,
without you, without you.
I continued to stare at Finn, as he talked to Kurt and I on how he felt about his father and his future.
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same,
without you, without you.
Remembering all the hard times we went through. The Quinn/ baby situation, Finn's rock star era, Finn's lie about being a virgin still, me cheating on Finn with Puck and the Fuinn era. None of that mattered anymore. All I saw was just Finn and I. We were going to be together forever, good, bad and everything in between.
I won't run, I won't fly,
I will never make it by,
without you, without you.
I was in the choir room with violin and drums playing beautifully behind me as I straightened on the stool I was sitting on. Everyone was quietly sitting in the chairs in front of me, swaying along to the music.
I can't rest, I can't fight,
all I need is you and I,
without you, without you...
Santana gazed at Brittney then looked to see Finn's facial expression. Blaine and Kurt smiled at each other briefly and I even caught Sam glancing at Cat.
Oh oh oh!
You! You! You!
Without you…
No one in the room mattered as I kept looking at Finn. His face contorted into so many emotions until he settle on a half smile.
I can't erase, so I'll take blame,
but I can't accept that we're estranged.
Without you, without you.
A spotlight softly shined on Finn as I got off the stool and walked up to his seat. Everyone else disappear in the background.
I won't soar, I won't climb.
If you're not here, I'm paralyzed.
Without you, without you...
As I sang, he lifted his hand to caress my cheek. I leaned into his touch, loving the feeling of his callus fingers. The look of pure love in his eyes almost made me weak in the knees.
Oh oh oh!
You! You! You!
Without you…
I was back in my stool and everyone reappeared as the light on Finn disappeared. A grin spread across Finn's face as my voice rang louder and louder, piercing through everyone's hearts until finally the music quieted down. I closed my eyes briefly, regaining some air then fluttered my eyes open, finding Finn's amber kind eyes gleaming back at me.
I am lost, I am vain.
I will never be the same.
Without you, without you,
Without you…
When I finished the song, everyone clapped and cheered as Finn got up from his seat, walking up to me. We stared a look before he leaned down and kissed me. Right then I knew that I was and always will be something special as long as he was with me because we are a two for one deal.
We broke apart when I heard Santana's usual trash talk and gripped onto Finn, smiling up at him. "Yes Finn," I answered, feeling that this was the perfect time to give my answer to his proposal. I giggled not being able to contain my happiness anymore as he looked at me confused. "My answer is yes," I stated more clearly.
Good? Bad? Please review! I'm trying to change up some of what you've watched on Glee with the way I've wanted things to go so please bare with me. Next chapter is Valentine's Day in McKinley ^_^ I'll try to get that chapter done before school starts back up for me again which is the beginning of September. Peace and love guys!