Author's Note: I know I may not be using the EXACT dialogue that Stephenie Meyer used in both Midnight Sun and Twilight but it's the same situations.

Chapter 3

Wrong Side Up

The cafeteria was rather quiet than usual when everyone held their breath as they saw Edward was back. I was still busy trying to pick out the spitballs out of my hair from when Scott Fried spit them out of a straw and into my hair.

"No Hazel you're doing it all wrong." Alice said and I scowled letting her comb her hands through my hair.

"One second I'll be right back." I said running out of the cafeteria and outside for a split second.

"What are you doing?" Alice asked sounding suspicious.

Edward smirked and that pretty much gave it away but I beat her to figuring it out. I threw the snowball right at her hair and she pretty much flipped out.

"HAZEL! I'm going to fucking murder you!"

"What?" I asked innocently.

"You know what you did dwarf." Emmett said.

"Emmett, leave Alice alone you have no idea what the importance of hair is to us girls." Rosalie said.

I just rolled my eyes and then Emmett said "Well I think dwarf here is a hermaphrodite."

I gritted my teeth and tried to hold back my anger before I felt a wave of calmness and jokingly glared at Jasper who stared back. Edward just ruffled my hair.

"STOP! You're messing up my hair" I whined imitating Alice and my brothers laughed.

"First you mess up my hair then you make fun of me?" Alice asked.

"Just using my dwarfness." I said and Alice glared at Emmett.

As we sat down at the table I followed Edward's gaze at Bella who was staring back at us in the lunch line with Jessica Stanley. I noticed how she had barely taken anything to eat…she looked sick, like she was about to have a nervous breakdown or something.

"Girl, are you OK you look sick?" Jessica asked.

"Yeah I don't feel very well." Bella said.

"Spill." Jessica said.

Bella just shrugged and followed her gaze back to Edward who stared at Jessica.

"Edward" I said waving my hand in front of his face.

"Sorry" he said.

"Dude do you need to get sedated?" Emmett asked.

"I'm fine" Edward muttered.

No you're not I thought

"Well how did you know?" Edward said jokingly and getting me in a headlock trying to make it look like he was busy.

Eddie! Stop trying to avoid your problems!

Edward just groaned in response.

"Come on Edward you'll be fine." Alice said and Edward could only sigh.

"Thanks for the support but don't be surprised if the school has to be evacuated because a monster attacked the building."

I smacked him "stop it! You're not a fucking monster and stop saying how terrible you are its getting tough to listen to you want to see someone who is terrible look at that thing over there." I said pointing to Emmett.

Edward could only smirk but then whispered "and what if you're wrong? What if I lose control and kill Bella Swan and the whole class? What if she's suspicious? I have no fucking way of knowing!"

"Dude calm the fuck down" Emmett said and Edward just glared at him. Jasper sent a wave of calmness over everyone and things seemed to be OK…for now. I guessed I would be hearing the report after the hour period.

The lunch bell rang and Edward stiffened and refused to get up until Emmett and I had to force him to.

"Can you please walk to class with me?" Edward asked.

"Yeah…sure" I said.

His expression calmed and I felt kind of relieved knowing that he wasn't going to attack someone if I was around.

"So what's up Hayz?"

"Um, the sky" I said and he chuckled before ruffling my hair. I just smirked and looked up at him.

And of course at that moment we had to get to room 212 (Mr. Banner's room) I saw the expression on my brother's face go from calm to completely uneasy with fear.

"You know come to think of it…" but I cut him off and pushed him forward.

"Go…you'll be fine." I said and looked him in the eyes. The last thing I saw was him walking into the classroom before looking back at me.

I walked again to Home and Careers, nervous for both my brother and Bella Swan but I had faith in him…I knew he could do it…control himself. He had to, just had to.

Walking to class wasn't much of a struggle. I was about five seconds late but Mrs. Zorro didn't really care.

"OK class today we're going to be making our own Spinach and Broccoli Lasagna I'm going to divide you all into kitchen groups OK. So for kitchen one we'll have Desiree Johnson, Nick Tyrnes, Scott Fried, and Hazel Cullen."

I groan since Nick Tyrnes and Scott Fried just goof around all the time and Desiree Johnson is Jenna Bright's best friend (a conformist).

"Hey R tard" Nick said coming over to put his arm around my shoulder.

"Oh puh lease Nick" Desiree said.

"UH KITCHEN ONE, START WORKING NOW!" Mrs. Zorro shouted at us and Desiree widened her eyes.

"Dumb bitch" she muttered.

"I'm not touching this disgusting shit" Nick said.

"Amen!" Scott Fried said.

"Such assholes, come on Hazel looks like we have to work or can you not reach the counter?" Desiree mocked me.

I just stared at her my mouth half open and my eyes wide probably showing the anger and hurt I was feeling at that moment.

"What are you going to cwy?" Desiree mocked again.

"Come on Des just leave her alone" Nick said.

"Why? This is funny" Scott said and I just glared at him.

"Let's just make the fucking recipe already." I muttered.

"What was that little dwarf I didn't quite hear you?" Scott said following Desiree's lead.

"SHE SAID LET'S JUST MAKE THE FUCKING RECIPE!" Nick shouted at them and Scott and Desiree looked on shocked.

"Alright fine" they both said.

Overall I think I may have scored a win today in Home Ec…no fights equals a victory as Esme would say. Since I had the tendency to be bullied in practically every single school we attended and I got into fights with people a lot that was why she said it.

After Fifth period I tracked Edward and Bella…they were walking in the hallway together and Edward was asking her about her previous life in Phoenix. I smiled to myself and thought to him, told you, you could do it!

I headed off to Building three for English class where I would have to endure stupid Jenna Bright and her slutty ways…I could not stand that girl. She wasn't really anything that special just the stupid average conformist bitch who thought she was Gd's gift to the world.

In English we had to watch this movie called Flipped it was about a boy and a girl and their different perspectives in life. The girl wasn't ordinary and the boy liked it and he ended up falling for her just as she stops having a crush on him.

It was pretty good and made me think why couldn't anyone just see Jenna for what she really was? Nada everyone didn't really care.

Jenna sat on John Nustack's lap the entire time and kept trying to touch him. He didn't seem to be enjoying it but like most boys he was fine with having the "hottest" girl in school sitting with him.

After English I had to go to AP health with Mr. Sceeval, Mr. Sceeval's a perv and there's no question about it. Maybe it's because there are a lot of dumb sluts in my class. For example, he ONLY favorites Taylor Bermudez, Shelby Leaf, and Candi Corm, who are the main sluts in my grade and are part of het whole "Jenna" clique.

Honestly I don't even know how they are in AP because they don't know jack shit about anything we ever learned.

Mr. Sceeval also hates me…although I have no knowledge as to why he just does. "Hazel, I asked you why some people don't know they have HIV even if they do." He asked me while I was deep in my thoughts.

"Um Well, people with HIV don't know they have it because…" I began but then he cut me off.

"Oh you don't know the answer OK well how about Shelby why don't you tell the class why."

I sunk lower into my seat and began to think all over again asshole.

Eighth and ninth period weren't that much better, but I was about confident that at the end of the day I would probably just end up in the same situation anyway.

I walked out of the school to my sibling's waiting car, Edward, Emmett, and Jasper are waiting there already so now we just have to wait for my sisters.

I don't say much…I just observe my brother as he stares at Bella's car waiting for her to walk out of school.

"Edward!" Emmett slams his fist on the car and waits for Edward's reaction…nothing.

Jasper just stares at him since he knows how he's feeling and me…well I just stare at the trees trying to find the slightest bit of a distraction. I know exactly what's going on and my mind is having a hard time adjusting to the fact.

The only time I had ever seen my brother stare at a girl like that was in our human years when he was about thirteen years old and he met his first girlfriend, Casey. At that moment Bella comes out of the building and Edward is still staring at her.

"Dude, she's going to think you're like a stalker or something." I said and he ignored me so I just exchanged a look with Emmett and Jasper who now knew that Edward was officially…flipped, like that movie in English class.

Bella turns around and stares at him but then she hits into another car and falls down. That's when I see my brother smirk before laughing.

We wait for a little while until Alice and Rosalie come outside laughing about their French teacher and how he asked Rosalie if she was eighteen yet for personal reasons.

I could tell that there was tension on the ride home. Edward almost tried to drive past Bella's house on the route but Emmett figured him out.

"Edward! Stop! Right now it's not funny…she's not one of us." He said in a firm voice.

Edward just growled slightly like he was possessed and I just rolled my eyes.

Alice looked at Edward like they were sharing some kind of secret and I knew she had figured it out. She looked at me and I muttered "I know."

When we got home Edward went to his room and I just went to mine. Alice and Jasper were together and so were Emmett and Rosalie. Once again the forever alone thing really sunk in. I knew that I would never find someone…it was physically impossible. Not many people were turned into vampires and I doubted anyone would turn a 12 or so year old boy.

I knew that Alice had had a vision of some sort…she always did. That was Alice she always had the answer to everything I felt. I looked up to my siblings but now I just felt like dirt.

I always felt like I wasn't really a person to them…just half. A dwarf. That was how I seemed to be for everyone…just a dwarf who no one took seriously.

I was always the one who had to be the jokester…the one who always had to be there for everyone but then once things worked out for them it was like…"OK Hazel go back to the recycle bin where you belong and we'll call you when we need you." Basically as if they didn't need me.

My anger rose inside of me…I needed to hunt…now. I needed to kill something and if I didn't' I was positive I was going to kill someone.

I jumped out of my window without saying a word to anyone. I tried to make myself not think anything so if Edward tried to find me he couldn't…I just needed to be alone right now.

I ran…ran until I reached the Canadian border and ran past it into Canada. I must've killed at least 3 bears but only drank 1. I killed a mountain lion but only drank about half of it. I felt bad about killing to get my anger out.

I climbed a maple tree that I found and climbed as high as I could…that it wouldn't look suspicious. I admired everything I saw taking it in. I jumped out of it…landing on the cold hard floor. I lay there for a while…in the dirt with nothing in my possession.

Finally it was after midnight. I went home I didn't want to leave…it would kill Esme…or so I thought.

I got home by jumping through my window silently. I lay down in my closet and just thought of everything.

I could hear banging and frustrated sounds every now and then. I forced my mind to go blank…literally just thinking of a white background.

I wondered if anyone even realized I was gone…probably not like I said again I was the "replacement."

"Where is Hazel?" I heard Carlisle asking my siblings.

"I dunno" Emmett said.

"Probably in her room I guess." Rosalie said.

"Yeah I'd say in her room on her laptop." Alice said…Alice always knew me but that wasn't what I was doing.

"I don't know but all I know is that she's pissed off right now." Jasper said.

Edward just shrugged.

"Edward, go find your sister please!" Esme pleaded sounding worried.

"I can't hear anything." He replied simply.

"What do you mean?" Carlisle asked.

"I mean that she's literally just thinking of white so I can't really do anything." Edward said.

Now I had my answer but nonetheless I remained on the floor of my closet.

"Why is she mad?" Esme asked.

"No idea" my siblings except Alice replied.

"Alice?" Carlisle asked.

"If she thinks she's mad now she's going to be a lot madder later." Was all my sister said.

My sister! Alice! Alice always knew me. But now I knew I was so in a fight for myself.

I looked up at the sky and tried to think of what my mother would say. These were times that I missed her more than I usually did. I missed everyone from my human life.

I guess Edward forgot the promise he made to her…whatever I didn't give two shits about anyone anymore. I was just being me and no I'm not trying to sound like a complete asshole right now but I was just so damn sick of having to be the one there for everyone…faking how I really felt inside which was just dead.

Finally I couldn't just keep thinking of white the one thing that came to mind was

What's the point in caring?

Author's Note: Please Review! P.S. I have two other stories written about Hazel please check those out (The Secret Life of Hazel Cullen and the Human Life of Hazel Cullen).