Chapter 8

Drifting

I walked through the front door pretty much like nothing happened. The house was silent and I caught Alice's scent lingering around the front door when she decided to appear out of nowhere.

"Did you think you could scare me?" I said pretending to be scared.

"No" Alice said and I rolled my eyes.

"Where's Edward?" Esme asked coming out of the living room.

"He's with Bella" I said quickly so Emmett wouldn't hear it since he would tease Edward afterwards.

"Oh my gosh seriously!" Alice squealed with excitement.

"Yeah" I said.

"What are they doing…track them!" Alice said.

I rolled my eyes and concentrated on Edward before seeing what they were doing…the waitress was flirting with him (not a surprise there). But he was…TELLING BELLA! No not really accidentally. She…she figured it out.

"She knows" I muttered.

"WHAT!" Esme shouted.

"It's true" I said and looked at them sheepishly.

Alice just stood there and she was having a vision I could tell by the expression on her face. I ran to the garage with my inhuman speed and got a pen and a piece of paper so Alice could draw her vision.

It was a girl…it looked like Bella. Alice was using the colored pencils now…her hair and eyes were being filled in. Her skin looked paler and her eyes were…CRIMSON! The type that a newborn vampire was. I stared at Alice then at her drawing.

"She…she's going to be one of us" I said and Alice nodded.

"I guess that's a good thing then…you know since Edward can be with her forever?" I said and Alice just looked blank.

"Alice?" I asked and I suddenly knew why she was worried.

Bella was a human…now she knew…there was a law forbidding this. If the law was broken it meant...DEATH! But they wouldn't kill Edward would they? He didn't tell her she figured it out.

I tracked Edward and he was coming home so I went out on the porch to wait for him Alice whispered to me. "He's pondering about how to punish those men…he's going to ask for Carlisle…track him and tell him where he is." I just nodded.

I went to sit outside and took my IPod Mini with me. I put on some rock music and tried not to think about the events of tonight until they were brought up.

Just as one of my favorite songs "Wake Up" by Three Days Grace was starting Edward pulled in. Not that I minded I would rather hang out with my brother anyway.

Edward got out of the car and smirked when he saw me.

"Hey Hayz" he said sitting next to me on the steps.

"How was it?" I asked nudging him.

"Good" Edward said picking me up and putting me in his lap.

"She figured it out" I muttered.

Edward closed his eyes "yeah, but we all knew that this was coming."

"What are you going to do now?" I asked.

Edward sighed for a second and said "I don't know but right now I'm worried about those men who tried to hurt Bella."

I raised my eyebrows "yes well I would be too." I said seriously and with that Edward got up and swung me over his shoulder so I was upside down.

"PUT ME DOWN!" I shouted.

"Nah I'm good" Edward said and I kicked him then he pretended to cry "Hazel, that's bullying and that's not nice."

"Oh like your one to talk Eddie!" I said and he just ruffled my hair before putting me down.

"Come on let's go talk to Carlisle." Edward said taking my hand.

"Are you going to tell the others that she knows? I asked him in my head and he nodded.

"Esme and Alice already know" I thought again and Edward muttered "I know."

He pulled me closer to him and sighed as I could tell he was in one of those inner conflicts with himself.

"I don't think I've wanted to kill anyone so much other than the time that Mrs. Baudelaire was bullying you when you were in third grade." Edward said and I shuddered at the thought.

"Maybe he's descended from her" I said and Edward chuckled before rolling his eyes and ruffling my hair again.

When we got to Carlisle's office he was waiting his eyes were on the door rather than the book on his desk.

"I heard you say you wanted to talk to me" he said smirking.

"I need help." Edward said and I looked at him since he never really said those words…not around me at least.

"Anything" Carlisle said.

"Did you hear about what almost happened to Bella tonight?" Edward asked.

Carlisle furrowed his eyebrows and said "no…what she wasn't hurt was she?"

"Hayz…please explain" Edward said.

"Bella was almost…put in one of those situations that we often hear about on Dateline NBC with women. Luckily superboy over here was in the area so she wasn't" I said.

Edward smirked but shook his head at the "superboy" joke. "I've got a dilemma now. I want to kill him so much. But I know that would be wrong; because it wouldn't be justice. All anger. Still it isn't right to leave a serial rapist and killer out on the streets in Port Angeles! I don't know the humans there, but I can't let someone else take Bella's place as his victim. Someone must feel that way about one of the future victims the way I do about Bella. Might suffer what I would've suffered if she'd been harmed. It's not-"but Edward stopped, he must've been reading Carlisle's thoughts.

"I'm not looking for compliments Carlisle" Edward said.

"What?" I thought in my head since it was total gibberish to me.

"Of course not but I can't help my thoughts. I'll take care of it no one will be harmed in Bella's place."

"Let's go" Edward said seeing his plan I guessed "come on Hayz, we need you to show us where he is."

We walked out the door and Carlisle grabbed his black bag on the way. Edward's car was still parked outside so we took that one.

"Can I drive?" I asked with a smirk on my face.

"Well I would say no but what the hell" Edward said tossing me the keys.

"Score!" I said.

"Don't crash the car Hazel" Carlisle joked.

"Don't worry this is only my second time driving" I said and Carlisle and Edward laughed.

The trip was short as I kept the image of Lonnie focused in my brain. He was still out roaming the streets and he kept muttering "I'm coming for you" of course he didn't know he was being watched but I couldn't help but thinking it was like he was saying it to me. I flinched each time he would say it and Edward just growled at Lonnie.

I drove straight to where he was and Edward started hyperventilating it looked like. "Hazel, this is a bit disturbing to watch. I don't want you to have to see it…take your brother home and go with him OK" Carlisle told me gently and I nodded.

"Come on Eddie" I said taking his hand. Edward put me on his back and ran since he was faster than me.

"I'm going to Bella's OK…you stay here" Edward said motioning for me to stay and I just sighed…of course he needed to go stalk Bella but whatever.

I walked up the stairs to my room and tracked Carlisle. He was taking care of Lonnie I was happy that another monster was getting put off of the streets. I had had a monster of a teacher that tried to murder her husband once.

However, my anger was somewhat building up much like it did when I let things run through my mind. I mean yes, I was happy for my brother that he finally found someone but I almost felt as if we were drifting apart somewhat.

It seemed like once Bella was brought up Edward would drop everything important to him just for her. It amazed me that he loved her so much but I was almost angered by it. Maybe I was jealous that he had finally found someone while I was doomed forever alone.

Chances were I would have to wait another nine hundred years to meet someone. That is if I am alive after nine hundred years. Maybe the world will end in 2012 just like that superstition. Great! So that means we have seven years left. I would be alone for the rest of them anyway.

But maybe I wasn't and maybe the waiting was just going to make me stronger…tougher just like the experiences I had had in my life so far. I put on my Three Days Grace CD in my room and went on my laptop I was researching for vampires. Something I often did for amusement.

After getting through all the ridiculous pages I found a website called vampires A-Z. I clicked the link and saw two quotes on the homepage.

Throughout the shadowy world of ghosts and demons there is no figure so terrible, no figure so dreaded and abhorred, yet dight with such fearful fascination, as the vampire, who is himself neither ghost nor demon, but yet who partakes the dark natures and and possesses the mysterious and terrible qualities of both.

-Rev. Montague Summers

If there is in this world a well-attested account, it is that of vampires. Nothing is lacking: official reports, affidavits of well-known people, of surgeons, of priests, of magistrates; the judicial proof is most complete. And with all that, who is there who believes in vampires?

- Rousseau

I was horrified yet amazed so I continued reading. I clicked on the link that said "Covens" and instantly saw something that caught my attention.

Olympic Coven

- resides near the Olympic Mountain range (hence the name).

- one of the youngest vampires ever created resides in this coven.

- One of the largest covens (eight members).

- leader is Stregoni Benefici (see vampire index)

I looked at it still horrified at the slightest bit and realized Bella must've used this when she said "I cruised around on the internet."

Edward didn't get home until this morning and he just came in to silently turn on the TV and flip through news channels. I guess to see what they were going to say about the whole "Lonnie incident."

"Alonzo Calderas Wallace, a suspected serial rapist and murderer wanted in the states of Texas and Oklahoma was apprehended last night in Portland, Oregon thanks to an anonymous tip. Wallace was found unconscious in an alley early this morning just a few yards from a police station. Officials are unable to tell us at the time whether he will be extradited to Houston or Oklahoma city to stand trial." The news lady said.

Edward ran into the next room and asked Alice if she wanted to drive but Alice insisted that Rosalie wanted to drive.

Edward was rushing out the door when he said to me "see you at school Hayz." I just waved a little since he was already gone.

The car ride was far from quiet as everyone voiced their opinions on the whole "Bella thing." Mostly Rosalie and Jasper were against it since Jasper didn't want to accidently slip up and hurt her and Edward and Rosalie…well Rosalie was just jealous that Edward was choosing Bella (a human). She was jealous of Bella's humanity period.

We pulled into the parking lot and saw Edward wasn't there yet. I trudged to my first period class like a ghost. I was still depressed about the whole situation. I felt kind of well…ditched a little I guess.

Before this whole experience it was kind of like Edward and I were the 'mateless ones.' We had grown up together…were turned into vampires together and told each other everything and now it was like Bella was the only thing that mattered to him now.

I remembered sometimes I used to get annoyed by the fact that he was so overprotective but now that he was all about Bella now I guess I could use this to be reckless…right…nah, probably not because I would end up taking some kind of fall for it since that's how it always ends up for me.

I had AP algebra first period and endured Cassie Cook and her annoying stalking questions about Jasper. Of course she didn't ask me she just took my work and copied it.

During gym everyone was bullying a girl named Lisa Terrance (lead by Jenna Bright and her clique).

"Alright guys leave her alone." I had said.

"Oh it figures one freak standing up for another…how cute" Jenna mocked.

"Haha you're so funny Jenna" I said sarcastically.

"You think you're so cool just because you're a Cullen…ooh" Jenna mocked again.

"Why would I think that just because of my last name" I said.

"Well duh! I mean your sisters are both smoking!" a boy named Ty yelled.

"And your brothers are super-hot" Candi Corm (from my Health class) said.

Jenna elbowed her and said "yeah and you're just forever alone…isn't that right everyone."

"Yes Jenna" everyone repeated (except Lisa).

That did it. I stood angrily trying to control myself but Jenna leaped at me so I had no choice but to defend myself. Since I was a vampire I kicked that bitches ass but then Coach Clapp came in and said "Hazel Cullen! I'm very shocked at you!"

"I know Coach Clapp she was bullying Lisa over here and I stood up to her and she just attacked me" Jenna pretended to sniff.

"JUST SAVE IT JENNA!" Lisa shouted.

"Go to the office Miss Cullen I'm sure Principal Greene would like to discuss how we tolerate bullying at our school." Coach Clapp said.

"But…" I protested.

"GO!" Coach Clapp ordered me.

"Stupid conformists" I muttered in a voice too low for humans to hear.

When I walked to Principal Greene's office I just so happened to pass Alice on the way "don't worry you won't be in trouble…since you're a Cullen he'll let you off the hook" she smirked.

"Thanks for the assurance" I said and she shook her head (obviously in a good mood).

I walked into the main office and saw Ms. Cope already sitting there.

"Hello…what is your name and what can I do for you?" she asked.

"First & last name?" I asked stalling.

"Yes" Ms. Cope said impatiently.

"Hazel Cullen, I was sent here by Coach Clapp to see Principal Greene." I said.

"Edward's sister?" Ms. Cope asked.

"Yes" I said (figuring she would ask that).

"I've never seen you before are you new?" she asked.

"No" I said.

"Oh well now that I think about it you two do look a bit alike anyhow Coach Clapp called the office and Principal Greene is available to see you go in" Ms. Cope said and I rolled my eyes. Every time I spoke to a female who knew my brother(s) it always ended up being about them. It was the same way with males except that was for my sisters.

I knocked on the door and Principal Greene said "come in" in his stern voice. I opened the door and he put his glasses on so he could see better. I could see the paint slightly coming off the walls. A sight that no pair of human eyes could detect.

"Yes, Miss Cullen it came to my attention that you were bullying a student?" Principal Greene said.

"No sir…I swear I was not. I would never bully anyone." I said.

"I know that Miss Cullen but what makes me confused is that the accusation came from a student who is known for her exceptional caring skills so why would she lie?"

"It beats me" I said even though I wanted to say that Jenna was a dumb and ignorant bitch but I kept my mouth shut.

Principal Greene let me off of the hook and I was dismissed to go to lunch.

I walked swiftly and tried to get there before the lunch bell rang (of course I did) even without using my vampire speed. I waited at the table for my siblings and saw the way some kids filed in.

The cafeteria was crowded today but after a few people walked in I saw Edward I saw the way he looked like…happy it was different since he was always so sullen. I also noticed the way he barely glanced over at the table we had been sitting at together for the past year (since I had been in middle school while they were in high school for the first two years.)

I saw the way he sat down at the same table he had sat at yesterday with Bella. My stomach felt like it had just been punched. He didn't even glance over to say hi to me or anything.

"You're not sitting with us today are you?" I asked in my head and Edward turned around before shaking his head no.

"Is this going to become a normal routine?" I asked in my head again and saw Edward's expression look sad a bit and I felt bad but he just shrugged and turned back around.

I tried listing reasons in my head why I was a terrible sister and why Edward was supposedly ignoring me but I stopped. Honestly, I was just tired of it. I was tired of trying to think of reasons why I wasn't good enough for anything I was tired of trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I just came to the conclusion that I was incurable and everything was wrong with me…done.

I wasn't paying attention to anything anymore. Alice and Rosalie walked into the lunch room and put their stuff down before getting up to go to the lunch line and I silently followed them trying to look like I was completely fine.

I saw how Jenna was sitting just inches away from Edward's table (she was sitting at the table next to it).

I purposely walked passed her "why aren't you still in Principal Greene's office you dumb dwarf? Did you tell them 'oh no I'm innocent because I'm a Cullen and I'm so fucking perfect oh, oh, oh" she mocked me.

I heard Edward growl in a voice too low for anyone to hear I glanced at him quickly and saw how he just turned and continued talking to Bella.

"Looks like your brother's moved on…you should too." Jenna whispered and I just ran away to the table. I sat in the corner and began stabbing my pizza with a knife.

"Fucking conformists…I don't give a shit about any of you anymore" I said to myself and Alice and Rosalie looked at me like I was insane.

Of course at that moment it had to be when Emmett came over "do you need to go to counseling again for your anger management?" he asked.

"Shut up" I said and Emmett looked at Jasper who knew how I was feeling.

"I'm not going to calm you down because I think you have a right to be angry but if I let you will you promise you'll control yourself." Jasper whispered and I nodded.

I looked down at the floor and wished I could cry. I felt as if I was drowning and I couldn't get back up. I was being kicked down with my face down in the dirt. When was my time going to come? I was nothing…nothing and now it was clearly shown.

I tried not to listen to the things Bella was saying to my brother and I heard her saying "Well except for the bad things like all the near death experiences and being so clumsy that I'm almost disabled…" but I wasn't listening instead I looked at my siblings.

"Did you hear what she just said?" I asked them and they nodded.

"I know I might be taking this too literally but is she making fun of disabled people I'm sorry but this is where I draw my line…she says that she's disabled damn it! She'd like to know what it was like for real disabled people!" I almost shouted.

"Calm down Hazel" Jasper said.

"What if I don't want to calm down!" I shouted and the whole cafeteria went dead silent.

Next thing I know I'm doing something I never would've thought I'd have done in a million years. I shout "HI MY NAME is DWARF AND MY LAST NAME IS NOTHING! SO NOW YOU CAN ALL SIT BACK AND BE CONFORMISTS BECAUSE HONESTLY I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE!" and with that I run out of the cafeteria (while being laughed at by Jenna and her clique.)

"What a loser" they said and this time I don't hear it mentally only physically. It seems that I no longer matter in the world anyway.

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