Chapter 10

Confessions

I couldn't help but wonder what exactly Edward was doing with Bella right now although I couldn't help but being worried that he was going to expose us.

I was confused though. All my life Edward never really cared about what others thought of him or anyone else so why did he care about what Rosalie thought about Bella? It wasn't like the two ever interacted or anything.

I trudged upstairs and saw Rosalie in her room posting some new things on a blog she had recently created. Alice was in her room drawing some new fashion designs. Emmett and Jasper were outside practicing fighting. Carlisle was at the hospital and Esme was doing some work in the office.

I knocked on the door since I knew how we hated it when the boys especially just came into our room.

"Come in" she said without looking up.

"Hey" I said.

"Oh, hey Hazel…what's up?" she said turning to face me.

"Nothing much can I just talk to you for a second?"

"Let me guess…did Edward send you to talk to me?"

"No" I lied although technically not because I wanted to figure this out just as much as he did.

"Well what do you want to talk to me about then?"

I bit my lip and tried to think of a good way to put it without making it too obvious that I was sort of sent by Edward.

"So you know Bella…right? I can't help but see that you don't seem to like her…did she do something?"

"As much as I don't want to talk about it I'll give you some stuff here. You know how I want to be human still…right? Well I guess I'm just jealous I mean she's still human she has everything. Remember how when I was first created Edward showed zero interest in me. It's kind of frustrating I mean he didn't even care that I was there. He just thought I was an ignorant bitch. Now Bella is like sort of just coming in and stealing him away from all of us. I think she's making a mistake for falling for a vampire. She could live a life and have children and BE HAPPY but she's just being stupid…I hate to sound that way but it's complicated for me. I don't like being so hostile to her but I don't exactly know how to talk to her especially because Edward is probably making it like I'm a bad guy or something like that. I don't hate her I don't like her but I don't hate her. Is it possible that I'm jealous I know it's a feeling for everyone why does he have to make it like I'm out to get her just…UGH?"

I looked at my sister and said "I see your view but is it possible that she becomes one of us what if that happens?"

"Then I will be even angrier…that would mean she would chose it!"

"Maybe it's just that I'm too young to get it or I don't really know what it's like to be a human at the age you were but isn't it possible that there are some goods to being a vampire just as good to being human. Like for instance you've gotten to see the different fashion trends over the years?"

Rosalie slightly laughed and said "I guess but maybe it's just me that's the cause of my misery I mean not completely but I'm just really confused it's like being a little kid being thrown into a swimming pool for the first time and not knowing what to do."

"So how come you don't just think that in front of Edward?" I asked.

"Because I don't want him thinking that I'm going to become bffs with Bella. I think it's more of the image I need to maintain."

"Have you spoken to Emmett at all?" I asked.

"He would just tease me probably. Watch how he ends up loving Bella and then I'm deserted?"

"I think you're just being paranoid."

"This is going to sound very older sister like of me but sometimes there are things that you won't get because you're twelve…you'll get it one day. I'm not going to expose you to the miserable world that we live in today."

"You are starting to sound like Edward" I muttered.

"With the misery? I know it's painful" Rosalie said.

"Alright well I'm going to leave you alone now...later" I said hopping off of the counter in her room and she rolled her eyes before turning back to me.

"Hazel?"

"Yeah" I said turning around.

"Thanks."

"For doing what?" I asked and then I didn't wait to hear an answer it was part of a new thing for me. I liked waiting for people to say something and then disappeared. It was pretty weird but I liked the mysterious of it. Usually I only did it on my siblings and they would just roll their eyes.

Mostly I just hung out in my own bedroom today. I was bored and since Edward and the rest of my siblings weren't really around I didn't have anyone.

Sometimes I felt like I was treated like a little kid by a lot of people. Maybe it was because everyone around me was older. I couldn't remember the last time I had a conversation I had with someone who was my actual real age (twelve).

When my siblings were "in ninth and tenth grades (eleventh for Emmett, Jasper, and Rosalie)" we maintained the cover story that I was at a boarding school in England since I had "gotten kicked out" of elementary school in Alaska.

Emmett had a lot of fun with that story and at the beginning of the school year started calling me "rebel" eventually though he didn't like addressing me as something superior and went back to calling me dwarf (after Jenna Bright started calling me that).

I realized I had spent several hours thinking and I tracked Edward who was still with Bella. He had exposed himself in the sunlight to her earlier and now they were just lying down in the grass.

I tracked my brothers who were hunting since Emmett was trying to teach Jasper some of the best ways to catch prey and not lose control completely.

I suddenly thought of an idea…I race outside and find a piece of wood and use my teeth to carve it into a spear. Then I use my new spear to carve a target into a tree and start throwing it onto the target.

It's pretty fun up until Emmett comes back and says "What are you doing dwarf?"

"Pretending this is your face" I said without looking at him and throw the spear at the tree again (it hits the center target).

Jasper laughs and Emmett glares at him.

"Well you're still a stupid dwarf."

"Thanks for the information." I said.

"Ooh so now you're Mr. Tough guy huh?" Emmett asked.

"Did I say that…no so quit making up rumors in your head just so you can feel more superior about yourself."

"Yeah you go Hazel" Jasper said.

"Nice…real nice I thought we were friends and now dwarf is becoming the dictator...I have officially lost faith in society."

I turn to Jasper "what the fuck is wrong with him?"

"I have no idea" he replies.

I couldn't believe Edward wasn't back yet. I checked my watch and saw it was ten fifty three at night. He was probably spending the night at Bella's I missed him though. I really did even though I was now used to not seeing Edward as much I couldn't help but feeling like there was something missing.

I was happy for him though now that he found Bella but then again I felt bad for him because she was human and he was probably struggling. I found it strange sometimes how well I knew my brother and vice versa.

I went inside and found Emmett watching South Park which was showing reruns. One of the best episodes was on it was the one where Cartman thinks that he can fly and ends up getting hurt and everyone thinks he has psychic powers and they use him to "catch" the 'left hand killer' and then a copycat killer comes. Kyle knows who the killer really is since Cartman didn't really get the first one. No one believes Kyle. It was really funny at one of the scenes was where the detectives were at the killer's house and they ask him his name and he says "Gd" in a very serious voice then they think his name was Mr. Gd.

Rosalie and Alice of course had to come to scold Emmett and tell him that my "innocent brain" was being exposed to crap like this.

Emmett responded by "What's the difference Hazel was already a guilty devil anyway."

I just smirked and my sisters rolled their eyes.

After watching South Park I went upstairs to listen to music from the fifties (don't ask why). I felt like looking at the evolution of music. Sometimes I can be very strange.

It was several hours that went by and Edward still wasn't home yet. He probably was still with Bella and I was beginning to feel…uneasy again. What if before he was just using me so I would feel compelled to talk to Rosalie for him?

I heard a loud noise that sounded like something hitting the floor. It came from Edward's bedroom.

Immediately I got up and ran there. His door was closed and I knocked on the door.

"One second" he called.

I waited about five seconds and the door opened.

"Hey Hayz" Edward said.

"Hey…what have you been doing all day" I asked.

"No tracking?" Edward asked.

"Nah" I said and he ruffled my hair.

"It was interesting. I definitely tested my own self-control."

I raised my eyebrows and said "how's Bella?"

Edward smirked and said "she's good…sleeping right now probably. She asked me if I would stay the whole night but I had to come home and change. I'm not really missing that much right now."

"Stalker" I pretended to cough and Edward elbowed me.

"What?" I asked pretending to be innocent.

"You know what" he said.

"Hey want to hear something funny?" I asked.

"Yeah I know usually it's the other way around I'm the one pretending to be innocent and you're the one who always says 'you know what.'"

"You're a genius!" I said sarcastically.

"Never think the answers to questions around me" Edward said in a serious tone.

"I'll remember that next time" I said and Edward kissed my hair before saying goodbye and jumping out the window again.

I went on my laptop again and checked my e-mail. I saw an e-mail that was from

WHHHQ

I probably shouldn't have but I clicked on it anyway I was lead to a website where there was a guestbook and it said

"Hazel is so annoying"

"Hazel is a dumb dwarf"

"Hazel is a LOSER!"

"I hate her!"

Staring at that screen was probably the worst thing in my life. Jenna probably thought I was a moron and wouldn't figure out she was behind it. Although I wasn't positive so I used the posts to trace the IP addresses and linked it to the location of the computer.

I printed out the pages though and saved them to my computer. Every single page of that website and I read every single thing that was on it. There was the video of me standing up to Jenna in gym and later her mocking me (to the camera).

In my opinion she was a sorry being who probably had no life and thought that by making others miserable she was feeling better about herself.

I didn't care about her or what she thought because she was a bitch anyway so why should I care.

I went outside and tucked the pages in my drawer. I went to each and every one of their houses that had the IP addresses linked to it.

I looked through some of the pages first and saw that Cassie Cook had something to add.

"Hazel probably has the best fucking life ever! We could do a little but make it a little miserable for her right?" to which Jenna replied.

"Agreed but stop trying to be so cool Cassie you're a loser."

Cassie replied with "I know."

The people who else's IP addresses were from the comments on the website were none other than Desiree Johnson, Taylor Bermudez, Candi Corm, and Shelby Leaf, even Scott Fried and Julianne Locke had something to add.

Even though karma was a bitch to me most of the time I knew they were going to get theirs one day…they had to I mean people like them shouldn't be allowed to just do stuff like this and have nice lives.

After that I spent several hours reading a new book I had gotten and cruised around on the internet trying to find out more about my family from the past. I didn't really know my extended family since most of them were in England. I learned that mama was born in Lancaster and Papa was born in an undisclosed area. I tried to find out more but not much was available.

I got a text message from Edward that read

Bringing Bella over l8er to introduce her to everyone

"Well this should be interesting" I thought and went to go find Alice.

She was in her room with a huge smile on her face.

"Did you see it?" I asked.

"Yes! I'm so excited you have no idea."

"OK well just don't freak her out. She probably knows you're a precog but you never know" I said.

Alice glared at me.

"What tell me that's not what you would say…right?" I said looking at her "right."

"Alright fine" Alice grimaced and I smirked.

"Am I supposed to go get ready now?" I said mockingly.

"Oh get out!" Alice said sounding very much like an older sister that was annoyed by her little sister's very presence.

I walked out of my sister's room (after being pushed out) with the same smirk on my face. I was actually looking forward to this.

Although something hit me…something that I remembered that was going to be very different.

I knew we probably would all be good but what if Bella didn't like us? What if any one of us couldn't control our thirst? What if something went wrong? I had to get those thoughts out of my head. I had to because there were no what ifs with vampires. You couldn't take risks like that.

And I knew if Edward trusted us enough to be around Bella then everything was probably going to go OK.

Except for maybe one thing…Rosalie.