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As always: lyrics – flashbacks – present day.

A/N: This is a big chapter, one you guys have all been waiting for, we are finally going to learn just what happened in Maura's past that made her run. It's the beginning of the end, I'm afraid, but I know you are all anxious to know what happened! And to Ts, No, no no! Richard was before Jane. WAY before Jane. There is one thing I firmly believe in and that's the fact that neither would ever cheat on the other. Don't forget these chapters aren't necessarily in order. Any time they are together and are happy, that's a "flashback" chapter. The "present day" chapters are the ones where Maura is in New York (any dated 2011 or later). Sorry it's kind of confusing, it didn't seem nearly as confusing when I thought of the story originally. But if you watch How I Met Your Mother, think of it being told kind of like that, where they jump around a bit and don't always tell the stories in order.

Oh, and this chapter gets a little…spicy. I'm not one for writing smut, but I really pushed myself with this chapter and there is a bit of a graphic scene, so if you're not into that, this is your warning to skip the second section!

Chapter Seven
"Our Song"
April 2009

I was riding shot gun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
He's got a one hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart

Spring was my favorite season. It always had been. There was something about the way the air smelled after the first spring rain, the grass looked a little greener, the trees a little fuller, flowers began popping up in the yard. You couldn't help but feel hopeful in the springtime, like everything could get better, like all your problems could melt away with the snow.

Every year, the day after that first rain, I would walk down the street to the park and watch the kids play on the playground for the first time in months, couples would walk hand in hand around the walking path, dogs would be splashing in the mud as their owners tried to keep them clean. This year was no exception; it was nice to have that time to just reflect on life, taking the good with the bad.

"What's a beautiful lady like you doing out here all by herself?"

I smiled as I felt her strong arms circle around me from behind and I leaned into her feeling her rest her head on my shoulder.

"Just waiting for my knight in shining armor to come save me from the loneliness."

I took the cup of coffee from her hand and brought it to my lips, instantly feeling a couple degrees warmer. Even though it was April, there was still a lingering chill in the air and I had been optimistic to not grab a jacket when we left the house. Luckily, between the coffee and Jane's arms, I didn't really notice the cold.

She lifted her head to place a kiss to my neck and I took that chance to turn in her arms and locked my fingers together around her neck. I couldn't help but smile at her. Here she was, hair flowing wild in the slight wind, cheeks rosy from the chill, a simple tshirt and jeans on with her favorite boots, and I would swear that there was no more beautiful sight in the world.

Before I could make a move her lips were on mine and I felt myself let out a moan from the contact. Now I was definitely starting to warm up. I broke from her long enough to toss the empty cup in the trashcan, then was back in her arms, my lips moving to cover hers instantly. After a few moments, I was forced to break away again to catch my breath and when I did, she pulled me into the tightest hug she could manage and I felt her lips on my neck once again.

"Jane?" I whispered, my voice huskier than normal, I was barely able to hide my arousal.

"Maura?" she whispered back in the same tone, then it was back to kissing my neck.

"Take me home."

I look around, turn the radio down
He says, baby, is something wrong?
I say nothing, I was just thinking
How we don't have a song

I was just putting the finishing touches on dinner when I heard the key turn in the lock on the front door. Instantly I heard the pattering of tiny toenails on the floor and it was mere seconds before the tiny dog was at my feet, laying on the floor on her back, begging for a belly rub. I wasted no time in giving the canine what she desired.

"Is that how it is now? Four months together and the dog already gets dibs on your attention?"

She feigned annoyance, crossing her arms and letting out a deep sigh, she leaned down to look Jo in the eye. "She's mine, buddy. Go play with Bass."

"Jane, you know very well that Bass doesn't play, he's a –"

But that was once sentence I would never get to finish, not that I ever minded too much when Jane used her favorite way of silencing me.

"Now, would you rather pet the dog or kiss me?"

"Do you really need to ask?"

Before she could respond, I was kissing her again, all thoughts of dinner were forgotten. I felt her back me into the counter behind me and, with her hands on my hips she lifted me up. Once I was securely on the counter, I wrapped my legs around her waist and my head rolled back as she attacked my neck with kisses.

Before I knew it, she has removed my shirt with one quick movement and began to move lower, hands roaming my back, lips roaming my front. I felt a moan escape and could feel her smile against my chest in response. With one more flick of the wrist, my bra was off and I felt her hands take its place.

"Maur, you're so beautiful."

It was barely more than a whisper, but it made my heart melt. Before Jane, I was never one for making love. Even with Ian and Garrett, it was never much more than sex. But with Jane, it was so much different. She always took the time to make me feel safe and loved, like I was the only woman in the world, and that meant everything to me.

Jane continued to pepper my stomach with kisses as she moved lower and lower. I felt her lift me up again and she pulled on my skirt and panties and they fell to the floor beneath us. She slowly lowered herself to her knees and began kissing the inside of my thighs, teasing me before finally landing on my center.

I knew it wouldn't take long, I was already past the point of being aroused, quite certain that I was nearly as wet as I had ever been. Something about having her take me anywhere but the bedroom was just so sexy.

Just as I thought, it only took a few minutes of Jane's tongue flicking in and out of me and I could feel myself go over the edge. My legs locked around her shoulders as I felt my body shake with tremors. When I finally came down from my high, she unwrapped herself from me and stood, kissing my neck once more. I felt her say something against my skin that sounded a lot like "How's that for getting your attention?"

Oh, she had my attention.

Our song is the way you laugh
The first date, man, I didn't kiss her
And I should have

It had been a slow week at work, with only two autopsies in the last six days. It seemed like some sort of miracle. Unfortunately, that also meant that there was nothing to do except paperwork and finish up a few articles for a couple medical journals. Not that it was boring, but it definitely wasn't as interesting as actually cutting into a body.

I walked into my office at eight sharp and sat at my desk, staring at the pile of folders siting next to me. No time like the present, I thought, and grabbed the one from the top.

Apparently I lost track of time because the next thing I knew, Jane was walking in carrying two bags and two fresh coffees.

"Hey Doc, thought you could use some lunch," she said as she smiled at me, leaning down to give me a quick kiss.

"Now that you mention it, I am getting a little hungry."

"I figured. You always forget to eat when you're working on paperwork."

She knows me so well. I looked up and gave her a smile, taking the salad from her.

"Has your day been just as exciting as mine?"

"Oh, even more exciting. Already got six emails from Korsak containing 'cute' animals doing human things," she replied, using air quotes and all.

"I bet you enjoyed that."

Our lunch continued in a comfortable silence and it struck me again just how amazing it was to be so happy just being in the same room with her. We didn't have to be doing anything special, just two people enjoying time together. That was something I had never experienced before and I had a feeling it was something I would never get tired of.

I was walking up the front porch steps

After everything that day

Had gone all wrong, I'd been trampled on
Been lost and thrown away

"Jane! Jane! Come back! Please! At least slow down, I'm in heels!"

"I'm sorry. I really am. I just didn't tell you because it wasn't a big deal. I went to see my parents in New York. I just had a little business to take care of. Honestly, it's nothing. Jane, I love you. I wouldn't lie to you."

And I wouldn't. I didn't lie to her. I had gone to see my parents today. But she was right; I am excellent at bending the truth. Leaving out key facts. But what good would it do? The whole truth would only hurt her. And not just upset her. The whole truth would put her in danger.

"Promise?"

"Promise."

My parents were the only ones who knew about the terrible mistake I had made in college, and that's exactly how I would like to keep it. It wasn't even because I didn't want Jane to know, but if she did, she would certainly go after him.

I know Jane and I know she wouldn't rest until she had found him and made sure he was at least thrown in jail, Richard had done more than enough over the years to land him in a cell for most of the rest of his life. But it was too risky. He knew too many people, had too many allies, ones who wouldn't hesitate to hurt her, and I can't let that happen. Not like with Ian.

I thought we had been safe, spending time over in Africa, but as soon as we came back, Richard was at my door. And just like every other time I had seen him over the last ten years, the first thing out of my mouth was "Are you ready to divorce me now?"

And as always, he just smiled and laughed.

"I heard you were seeing someone new. I don't know how many times I have to tell you this Maura, I don't appreciate my wife sleeping with other people."

"I may be married to you, but I am not, nor will I ever be, your wife."

More laughter. It's that mechanical laughter, the kind that gives you a bit of a chill and makes you wonder if, at some point, the person might have escaped from a mental institution.

"You might want to give your boyfriend a call. He might be feeling…a little under the weather."

My body turned to ice. In that moment, I had never hated an individual more than I hated this man right now. "What did you do?"

"Oh nothing, we just had a little chat. He needed to know he couldn't just take what is mine."

"I. Am. Not. Yours."

"I have a marriage license that says otherwise, dear. One day, you'll come around. One day you'll love me as much as I love you."

"You don't love me! You love my money! You have never loved me, it was all some sick game from the start. All you ever cared about was getting a piece of my fortune."

"Don't be silly, Maura, of course I love you. I'll be seeing you soon."

As soon as he left, I called Ian. He sounded awful. The bastard kidnapped him, threatened him, beat him, I'm honestly surprised he didn't just kill him. But I guess that would be too easy for Richard. He always did like a challenge.

But that's the real reason Ian never stuck around. It wasn't that he didn't love me, or that he loved his work more, when we came back to the States, he planned to stay. But then Richard happened and as always, Richard scared him off. Not that I could blame him.

But the truth is, Ian did love me. That's why he continued to come around every once in a while. I know he misses me, but he would never let himself be with me again, not after what happened. That's why I never see him for more than three days at a time.

Not that it matters anymore, now that I have Jane.

Oh, Jane. What am I going to do? I can't let him hurt you like he's hurt everyone else in my life. I thought it broke me when he hurt Ian, but it would shatter me; kill me, if anything ever happened to you.

I've heard every album
Listened to the radio
Waiting for something to come along
That was as good as our song

As we lay in bed that night, Jane curled around me; I couldn't help but smile. She has been through so much in her life, she carries so much of that with her everyday, but when she's asleep like this, I love to just watch her. I love to see the tension fade from her face, a soft smile playing on her lips, the steady rise and fall of her chest.

She is my comfort. My home.

She is the most important thing, and I will do anything to keep her safe.

I'm asking God if he could play it again

A/N: Don't forget, this chapter is set before the break up, not after! Sorry again if this is a confusing set up for anyone! Just pay close attention to the dates at the top of the chapters, anything set before 2011 is before Maura left Boston. Next up, how Jane is dealing with life after Maura left. Please don't forget to review! Especially let me know what you think of the sex scene, it's my first time writing anything like that and I'm really unsure about it!