It had taken Gordon days to tell his children about the death of their mother. He knew that really she wasn't Tom and Katie's mum but they loved her as if she was and she'd treated them as if they were her own. To start off with he'd told them that their mother was away for a few days but she loved them very much. He found it hard not to cry when talking about her, knowing that really she wasn't coming back at all. Shortly after his mother arrived to look after the three children, giving Gordon the space he so desperately needed to get his head around what had happened and time to organise things.
But he had questions spinning around his head; questions that would never be able to be answered. 'Why hadn't she told me about the pregnancy? Was she scared of me? Didn't she love me enough? Was she worried about what I'd say?' Questions that only Jill could ever have answered. But he wasn't angry at her, he was angry at himself. Gordon kept telling himself that he should have been a better husband, more caring and compassionate; all nonsense of course. He had been caring and loving. He'd sat with her for hours when she was pregnant with Jonathon; holding her hair as she'd suffered from morning sickness. He'd stood by her side whilst she gave birth to their son. He'd spent nights on end holding her as she slept, thankful for the amazing wife he had.
But now all that was gone. The one person he could trust, the one person that was always by his side, the one person he loved with all his heart; she was gone. Dr Jill Weatherill had lost her life in the most horrific of ways and had left her wonderful family behind. Gordon knew he'd never get over it but he had to focus on the future, her funeral; he wanted to give her the best send off he could because she deserved it.
And he was left with three children to raise, all under ten. He was a brilliant father but Jill was the best with coping with them when they wouldn't do as their told, when they had nightmares and when they needed a hug and somebody to hold them. He'd always said she was born to be a mother. But now he'd have to fill her role as well as grieve for his beloved wife.