Hey guys...Guess what? I updated super fast this time(: I was so excited for this chapter, i was still deciding what to do, whether to give you guys a treat or not, well you'll have to read to figure out;)

wellllll thanks for sticking with me as always my lovely's3 (any mispellings or errors i apologize my computer is a doof)

I won't give up- Jason Mraz (acoustic cover) by calovely

TOMMY POV

It seemed like Adam was leading me to nowhere, we turned down dirt roads and went down alleys, but I trusted him so I let him give directions. Then suddenly I stopped questioning where we were going because he told me to stop in front of possibly the most beautiful green pathway ever. It looked like something you would see in Lord of the Rings when they were in that enchanted forest, it was amazing.

That was when Adam jumped out and started walking down the trail, slightly disappointed when we wouldn't stay here, I followed.

Though my disappointment didn't last long, it was soon replaced with awe at the big field we stopped at, it was vibrant green grass with flower patches everywhere, and it was amazing.

How did this place even exist, it felt like a movie, or a dream.

"I don't…" He paused, clearing his throat before continuing, "Remember how I found this place, but I come here when I need to think, and I wanted to show it to you…" he drifted off, and he almost had this sad air about him, but I wasn't quite sure.

"It's beautiful…" I was honestly speechless, and that was the only thing I could think of that wouldn't even remotely begin to describe this place. I felt so at peace as I followed Adam to a patch of clear grass by a small pound, wow this place is seriously fucking perfect.

I never would have thought he would have a place like this, he just seemed so dark, so moody, I never thought I would be here with him, OF ALL PEOPLE.

This just seems way too much like a date, like a place so private, so meant for a loved one, for someone more trusted. This was too romantic, though I wish I could say I was uncomfortable, or that this was kind of awkward, but I was completely content. I felt like I could sit here forever with him and just talk, and never feel that I would have to leave or even want to.

We had been sitting for a while; I had actually lain down and was drifting to sleep. I was in that haze, where your still awake but your so close to sleep you don't know if anything around you is real or fake, and that was when I heard soft humming.

It was a lullaby, the soft melody floated to my ears and I was instantly awake, breathing in the beautiful sound. Was this Adam? No, there's no way he can sing this good, this couldn't be him.

It was a sound so sweet, so flowy, i felt like i could sing along too, and sound just as beautiful, but i know i couldn't.

When I opened my eyes, I saw Adam with distant eyes, he was softly swaying to the tune but he looked pained, it was hard to see him so disconnected to the world. I felt like I was invading a private moment of his, and that I should evade my eyes, but I couldn't.

I tried to sit up quietly, but I had ruined it when my hand slipped and hit a twig, ultimately breaking it in half and waking Adam from his daze. He snapped back to reality within seconds and looked at me with surprise filling his eyes; obviously he'd forgotten I was here.

"Uhm…sorry," I apologized half-heartedly, dropping my gaze, why was I getting so shy?

"No, don't apologize-"He paused, looking at the sunset before saying something that would change my perspective of him completely.

"Actually, I lied earlier; I do remember how I found this place, my mom-" He cleared his throat then continued, "She showed me this place when I was younger, she said it would be my safe haven, though I don't think she ever realized how tru-" He cut off then laughed dryly and dropped his head.

He sounded uncomfortable with sharing, his first attempt at it no doubt.

He had finished, but once again, I had no idea how to reply; so I decided to share a piece of myself with him too.

"My mom...always tries to make everyone feel better, by miraculously taking the weight off their shoulders, by just talking to them, and giving them her special tea, it may not be something as beautiful as this field…but its unique to her, and it's something special…." I drifted off, no sure what to say next.

"That sounds so nice…To have someone to care for you with such love and affection," I don't even think he meant for me to hear that, it was so quiet, almost a whisper, though there was no jealously emitted from his tone. That was something I usually heard when I told that story, though I wasn't completely sure why, it was just something sweet she did, and that seemed to evoke envy from others.

When I had actually thought about the words he had uttered, I started wondering what his life at home was like, what did he mean by have someone care, did he not have anyone like that at home?

I know it was slightly too soon for me to ask such a personal question, but I couldn't resist, I wanted to know more about him, "Hey Adam, what do you mean by have someone care?" apparently my question had made him realize he even said anything because he sucked in a breath before telling me it was nothing and not to think about it.

I was only willing to let it go easily this time because I would wait for him to tell me, wait for him to trust me enough to share, because that's what I wanted. To be trusted by him, that is.

Having not looked away from him since this awkward conversation ended, I waited for him to do something. Anything.

That was when he gently tilted his head up, so his baby blues were inches from my chocolate browns and in that moment I realized how close we were. His actions were probably only meant to look at me or even continue the ended conversation, but it came off as something else entirely.

though I knew this, and i still didn't want to back away.

His eyes held uncertainty in them as our heads pulled together like strings being tied together. Like the moon and the sun. I felt his breath brush across my skin, leaving a burning trail where ever it glided, and his hair grazed my cheek as our lips, finally met. A spark lit within me, the hairs on my neck stood on end, and my hands softly tugged at his neck, pulling him closer, deepening the kiss. Tangling my fingers in his hair, I felt electrified, and his arms wrapped around my waist, touching out chests together, moaning low I kissed harder, needing more.

I felt blood start to flow to my lower region and that was when I realized, I was kissing a guy, I was being aroused by a man, and I was getting hard because of a dick.

I liked girls, I didn't discriminate, but I liked their small waists, their soft skin, their long hair, their soft boobs, and everything else about a female that made her a woman, her lower regions intended.

Roughly, I shoved Adam away from he, yanking out of his grip, and watched as he fell backwards onto his back; I could have sworn I saw him wince, but that wasn't the problem now. The problem was I had just kissed Adam. A GUY. I. AM. STRAIGHT.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!" I didn't wait for him to answer; my anger was to uncontrollable, and I was on a role, "I'M FUCKING STRAIGHT, I LIKE FUCKING BIG TITS AND FUCKING VAGINA!" I was screaming at him, and it may not have seemed fair, but we just fucking kissed, HE HAS A DICK.

I saw the emotions swirl in his eyes, there was so much pain and sadness, but within seconds it was gone; replaced with bleak, slate gray. He no longer looked close to tears, he had just locked away all feelings from me. turned the key and broke it inside the lock.

"ANSWER ME!" I knew I still wasn't being fair, but I guess I just needed a reason myself; to maybe comprehend why I had liked that kiss so much. Maybe just to have some answers, we've only known each other for about a month and a half, so why did I have so much emotion already?

Completely BIZARRE.

"I'm s-sorry," Although his face was blank, his feelings were coming out through his speech, so i could tell he was nowhere near calm and collected. "I-I'm s-s-so Sorry…" He hung his head in shame and I swear I saw a tear drop from his eyes, but I was too far gone to even think of his feelings. I should have been the one ashamed, I was yelling at him for something that was both our faults.

"Fuck you Adam, fuck you. " I got up, not even waiting for him to chase after me like i expected him too, i was his ride after all, and left him sitting in the beautiful meadow, that would now remind him of a horrid memory, of our fight, probably leave him a mess, or not.

I didn't care, that kiss hadn't shaken me, I didn't care.

I still liked tits.

I am straight.

I am straight.

I am straight.

I kept repeating those words as I hoped into the car and speed away, leaving pain and misery in my wake, and throwing away my desperation, that so honestly desire Adam.

I'M SORRY! I'm horribly evil arent I? Heh heh heh. Well REVIEW PLEASE AND THANK YOU. I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT. Until next time, adieu(: