Hello sweeties ;)

Any Doctor Who Fans? ANyone else suffering from Post Pond Depression?

well here is the next chap!

Anyone excited? This is a very 'eventful' chap in which we learn alot about Lily...

Mwahahahahahaha... Enjoy!

James ate his dinner. Something didn't feel right. He hadn't seen Lily since the end of Potions, and he was beginning to worry.

"Relax, mate, she's probably just thinking." Sirius said. Dorcas ran into the Great Hall and sprinted to James.

"Have you seen Lily? We can't find her!" Dorcas cried. James stood up abruptly. Sirius, along with Remus, stood up as well.

"What?!" James shouted. Peter tried to stand, but was pulled down by Sarah.

Sarah spoke up.

"I saw Lily near Moaning Myrtle's toilet. Maybe she's there?" Sarah said. "Petie and I can help!" she said. James didn't care who helped, he just needed to find Lily.

"Okay, we'll split up," James ran out of the Great Hall, his stag in tow. James had a gut feeling something was not good. James looked everywhere, but there was still no sign of her.

"Shit, Evans, where are you," James whispered to himself. James' attention was pulled to his stag, which had run off in the direction of the Astronomy Tower.

James barged through the door. He saw Lily, sitting on the edge of the Astronomy Tower. James looked around, but he only saw his stag next to a dead doe.

"She's dead, James. It's quite sad. I was growing fond of her," Lily said. Her voice was dreamy, her mind on the stars.

"To think, I now have no happy thoughts in my mind. How sad is that." Lily turned around and stared at James. Lily looked different. Her eyes weren't focused and her usually neat hair was messy.

"James, have you ever wondered what it would feel like to die. To become oblivion?" Lily asked. James took a few steps closer, cautious. Lily continued to talk as she stood.

"I have. The Astronomy Tower is the perfect place to think. About troubles, about family," Lily was standing up right, her feet taking tiny steps closer to the edge. "About death."

Lily looked down. James could not afford to see what happened next. He rushed to Lily. Lily turned around with lightning speed, but as she did so, she began to fall.

"Lily!" he screamed. He pushed his body over the edge and just grasped Lily's hand. James didn't know what he would do if he lost Lily. James pulled Lily up with ease.

Lily giggled. "That was fun, Jamie boy! Let's do it again," Lily leaned close to James. Their chest press together.

"You have beautiful eyes, Jamie. I love them. I love you, in fact! I didn't want to tell you, but I'm going to die anyway!" Lily began to fall back, but once again, James caught her.

"Lily, what is wrong with you!" James hissed. He didn't want to sound harsh, but this was serious. Lily was trying tokill herself.

Lily stood close to James, her face hardening and her eyes becoming dark.

"I don't feel happy. Every happy orgood memory is gone. I feel like a dark shell that doesn't deserve to live. James, why do you like me?" Lily cried. Her eyes filled with tears and she dug her head in James' chest.

"Lils, I love you. Because of your perfections and your flaws. I love you for everything you are. And believe me, you're not an empty shell, and you are not going to die," James whispered. Lily looked up.

"That's a lie! I'm worthless! That's why my sister hates me! I'm a freak! I'm a freak! I have to die," Lily pushed James away from her. She tried to jump off again, but James grasped her wrists.

"Let go of me, Potter!" she screamed. James ignored her and brought her in close to him. Despite Lily's cries and screams, James picked her up and took her off the edge. When James let Lily go, she tried to run off the edge. James grabbed her again, but this time, held her. She screamed and struggled, but James still held onto her.

"I hate you, Potter! Let me die! I hate you! I hate you!" Lily screamed. Burning tears ran down her face.

"Please James, let me end my misery," Lily's voice sounded so sincere, it killed James to shake his head. James pulled out his wand and whispered into it. Lily fell asleep immediately.

James picked up Lily and snuggled her closer to him. Inside him felt like a raging battle. His heart ached and he wanted it to stop. He exited the Astronomy Tower and went to the Hospital Wing.

"What do you mean she was poisoned?!" James yelled. Sirius and Remus were holding him back. James wanted to rip someone's throat out. After taking Lily to Madam Pomfrey, she had informed the group, who had arrived soon after he and Lily did, that Lily ate cursed food that compelled her to kill herself.

Sarah Lockhart was crying as James screamed at her. Sarah had confessed that she was the one who had given Lily the chocolates, but she did not mean to. James did not listen to reason, though.

"She could have died! Do you understand that?!" James roared as Dumbledore entered the room.

"It would have been far worse for Ms Lockhart. She does not know of her soul mate, and therefore she would have most likely succeeded in her suicide."

James bit down his tongue. How much he wanted to strangle the blonde, it scared him.

"I'm so, so, sorry! I didn't know! I just thought Lily would like the chocolate more than me!" Sarah cried.

"Leave!" he yelled. Sarah nodded weakly and ran out.

"Mate, she didn't know, she was-," Peter was cut off.

"Piss off, Wormtail! The love of my life nearly died because of that- that skank!" James hissed.

Peter's eyes filled with fury.

"Don't call my girlfriend a skank!"

"Girlfriend?Girlfriend? Pete, open your eyes! The only reason why she's interested in you is because a, you're a Marauder and that slut just wants to sleep with all of us, and b-because Donna Jerry likes you! You're so thick!" Peter backed away from them. Peter huffed then stormed out.

Remus looked away from James.

"James, that was too far," he whispered.

"He needed to hear it," James hissed. Dumbledore whistled.

"That was suffienctly awkward. Well, Madam Pomfrey and I will be leaving. Mr. Lupin, Mr. Black, I think it would be wise for the two of you to leave as well. Wouldn't you agree?"

Dumbledore left. Remus looked at James.

"I'll see you when I see you, I guess," Remus left.

Sirius put a hand on James' shoulder.

"Remember, she's been through shit. Just be a comforting shoulder," Sirius said wisely. James nodded his head, and watched as his best friend leave.

Lily woke up with a very heavy head resting on her leg. She looked down and her heart leapt at the sight of James Potter's scruffy hair. Lily looked to the side table and found his large circular glasses. How she loved them.

"He's been here all night. It's been driving me bonkers!" a voice from next to Lily said. Lily turned and saw the Raveclaw seventh year Prefect, Pierina Jones. Pierina, otherwise known as Pip, was in the bed next to her wearing her pajamas.

"I slipped on the Common Room stairs and I think I have a concussion. Nothing serious though," Pip smiled. Her black hair was puffy and everywhere. Lily smiled.

"Oh, and your friends came in just before. The half-blood, Jess I think, told me to tell you that they'll give you your homework when they visit you tonight," Lily nodded. Pip looked up into the sky. Pip was quite smart.

Unlike her sister, who was the youngest Ravenclaw to play for their Quidditch team, Pip was very dazed and intelligent.

"Oh, thanks Pip," Lily said. Pip smiled and went back to looking out a window.

Lily looked down at James. She pushed back his hair and kissed him on the forehead.

James had been woken up by Madam Pomfrey. She had scorned him for sleeping by her bedside all night, and insisted he get to class. Little did she know that class had already finished. James smiled.

He had liked spending the day near Lily without being scowled at.

James walked to the Great Hall. His mind buzzed about what Lily had said last night.

I love you, James bit his lip. James wanted what she said to be real, but he couldn't be too sure. Lily said a lot of things the night before that James knew she didn't mean.

"James!" a melodic voice called from behind. James swiveled around and saw a panting Lily, looking very tired.

"Lily pad! How're you going!" James smiled. Lily gave him a small smile.

"Good, thanks, really good. Um, James about last night. I didn't mean what I said," Lily rushed. James' heart sank and his smile faltered a little. Lily, who was staring at the ground, continued.

"I don't hate you at all. I actually rather," Lily looked up, her face scarlet, "..like you," James grinned and looked down at her with sparkling eyes. Lily frowned and shifted her gaze.

"Oh, shut up, Potter" Lily muttered

"If you like me, does that mean you want to go out with me?" James asked flirtatiously.

Lily looked back at James and smiled.

"Yes," but before James could rejoice, Lily continued, "but I want you to make it special," Lily moved past James and into opened the Great Hall's doors.

"And what does that mean?" James called out. Lily turned with a smile on her face.

"You're James Potter, think about it!" Lily laughed as she walked in.

James smiled at the doors. Not just any smile though, the goofy type that love-sick people usually where. He was utterly bewitched by Lily, and he wanted to keep it that way.

You like? Lily likes James, James likes Lily... Now all he has to do is 'make it special'

How fun!

reviews are most welcomed and also...

Could anyone recommend me some Jily fanfics?

I need to read!