A/N- :). - because I can.

Shaun's POV

I woke up to the sound of my alarm going off. I turned around and with my eyes closed feeling for the button to turn it off. Why couldn't I find it?

"Morning sunshine." I heard a voice say and the alarm stopped. I opened my eyes and saw Andy standing above me. I forgot I was at Andy's and the events of last night until I saw his beautiful face smiling down at me.

"Good morning." I said smiling and stretched.

I got up and got ready as did Andy.

"Come on! Or we are going to be late!" We heard Bradie call from downstairs.

We looked at each other competitivly and raced down the stairs both jumping from the second last step.

"Finally. You gay guys take forever!" Bradie said going out to the car. Andy's Mum already in the drivers seat. Bradie got into the front and I got into the back with Andy.

"So what is it going to be like at school?" I asked Andy cautiously , scared of his answer.

"Um.. would it be alright if we kept it a secret for a few days. That way I can start to talk about you to my friends and they might not be as surprised." He answered.

"Yeah..that's fine." I said smiling. It wasn't fine. I don't think I could survive a day seeing him and not being able to hug him or cuddle him. And seeing all the girls flirt with him. But oh well if that's what he wants.

We pulled up at the school and Bradie kissed Mrs Webb goodbye and got out of the car walking towards his and Andy's group of friends in a big group at one of the tables.

Andy lent towards me and kissed me before getting out. A small but sweet kiss.

" I love you, Shaun. I'll see you in Science, baby." He said to me.

"I love you too." I answered. "By Mrs Webb Thanks for letting me stay and taking me to school."

"Anytime honey." She answered smiling at me.

"Bye Mum." Andy said getting out of the car. I got out and smiled at Andy and walked off in the opposite direction then him. Off towards the music block. I love playing guitar and Amber told me I'm a great singer. I don't believe her though. But I have written a few songs though.

Andy's POV

I stepped out of the car looking at Shaun. He shot me a small smile and walked off in the opposite direction of where my friends where. I started walking over to them looking back over at Shaun's dissapearing figure.

I lied to Shaun. I wanted to act like everything was the same as before because I was scared. Scared that I would loose all my friends. Even though most of them arn't really 'friends'. Only people I would really count as 'friends' would be Bradie, April, Braydon and now Shaun. So I know it is pretty pathetic of me to be worrying about wrecking my reputation and loosing all these people that think they count as a 'friend' to me but I don't know I guess I just don't want to be sitting alone on a bench.

"Hey Andy." April greeted me smiling. as I approached them.

"Hey." I mumbled back.

"What did you get up to last night?" Darren asked me.

"Oh, um. Shaun Diviney came over to work on an assignment we have for science and we got put together with Bradie." I said looking over at Bradie who smiled at me.

"Oh really..That would have been interesting." Chris said curiosly.

By saying that small sentance I had gained everyone in the groups attention.

"What was he like?" Micheal asked. "Was he being the gay flamboient homo he is? Bet he was super boring to hang out with."

"No actually. He is pretty cool. And hurt. And lost." I said looking down at my hands that where neverously interwining together and then pulling apart over and over again.

"Ha. Yeah that's why he would split himself open." Micheal laughed.

"Shut up Mike. You don't know anything about him. You just make him worse." I said in Shaun's defence.

"And I care why? He is fun!" He said laughing and getting high fives from Darren and Chris.

"He is not a toy." I said threw gritted teeth.

"He is probably gay because no girls like him so he turned to guys." Chris said making the whole group, besides me and Bradie, laugh. Now they were pissing me off. How dare they talk about Shaun like that!

I was just about to punch Micheal when the bell rang for first period. I had my hands both balled into fists and was steeming with anger and annoyance. Bradie could tell.

"Come on bro. Let's go to class." He said grabbing my arm and pulling me away.

We went off towards the science room and sat in our usual seats. We were really early and bearly anyone was in class yet. Including Shaun. I kept a close eye on the door waiting for him to walk in. He was one of the last few people in and he kept his head down as he walked to the back of the room sitting in the back corner by himself. I felt so bad.

Class flew by quickly and soon enough it was time for the next period. Bradie and i had maths next. We went to our maths class and toke our seats doing our work quitely.

Shaun's POV

The bell for the end of the period went off and I quickly walked out of the room, without even glancing at Andy, and to my next class. I had Geography with Micheal Chris and Darren.

I walked in and sat on the second last row of tables right at the end of the row. I usually sit on the last row but Chris was sitting in my seat. Occumpinied by Micheal and Darren. Wonder why.

I sat down acting like I didn't know they were there. I pulled my books out as the teacher walked in and started talking about some shit about maps.

They didn't hassle me until the teacher was writing on the board stuff we had to copy down towards the end of the lesson. I did as the teacher said and copied what she was writing.

"So supposadly Shaun went over to Andy's last night. Probably trying to hit on him." Micheal said talking to Darren and Chris. I just ignored them. It was none of their bisnuess what happeneds between me and Andy anyway.

Chris and Darren quitly laughed at Micheal's choice of words trying not to gain attention from the teacher.

"Yo Shaun you man-whore stay away from our mate. Okay?" Chris said throwing a paper airoplane at my back. Meh. I just kept on ignoring them and coppying notes from the board.

"He isn't answering you because he is scared." Darren laughed.

I wasn't scared! I just didn't want to cause trouble when I knew it would end with me getting hurt by them and going to my toilets to cut myself up.

"Yeah he doesn't want to say something to flamboient for us to laugh at. Stupid emo piece of shit who's trying to hit on our best friend." Micheal said throwing a sharpener at me. "Why don't you take the blade out of that and go cut yourself Shaun?"

I had enough. I had to say something.

"Because I don't want to waste my time and energy getting fucking upset over you. Andy is your best friend? The way he was talking it seemed like he hated your fucking guts so much he hated the path you fucking walked on and wished you internal life in hell! And it is none of your fucking bisnuess what goes on between me and Andrew so shut the fuck up! I bet you are all secretly having threesomes together! Orgy!" I couldn't believe I had just said that. Where the fuck did all that courage come from? Wow. I had really surprised myself.

Thankfully the bell rang for recess before they could say anything further. I got up and left three very surprised looking guys behind me.

I sat alone at my bench under the big old oak tree listening to music from my iPod all recess looking over to where Andy was with his friends every now and then watching him with his friends and all the girls flirting with him like usual.

Andy's POV

I was sitting in Maths with April. Finally a class with one of my real friends.

"So.." April said. I knew she had something to say.

"What is it?" I said looking over at her instead of my work.

"What was Shaun Diviney really like?" She asked looking quite interested.

"April.." I said looking at her cautiously.

"Yeah...?"

"I think I'm in love.. No.. I know I'm in love." I whispered to her.

"What? With Shaun?" She asked surprised.

"Yes. He is so amazing April! I don't understand how anyone can act like they do towards him! He has the best personality and he is absaloutly fucking beautiful!" I said smiling.

April's POV

I was so surprised. Andy talked to highly of Shaun while everyone else in the school disses him and hates him. I've never had a problem with him though.

I had nothing to say. I was in shoke. I just stared at Andy with me mouth open.

"April.." He said bringing me out of my trance.

"OH MY GOD! Andy! That is so good to hear!" I said a bit to loudly hugging him and gaining a bit of attention from other students.

He hugged me back smiling. "I knew you'd understand and not bag me for it."

"Never! Do you know if he is really gay? Oh my god does he like you too?" I said smiling. I couldn't believe it! It was so cute! Andy looked so happy right now and he had a slight blush that is very rare to see!

"Yeah. He is gay too. And he does love me back. We spent last night talking and stuff instead of doing the assignment." He blushed.

AAAWWW!

"I'm so happy for you both." I really was. Shaun looked as if he could use someone to talk to and comfort him. And Andy... It's just good to see the idiot so happy.

Andy's POV

It was so hard to get threw the day without speaking to Shaun. Without hugging him and kissing his beautiful face. specially at lunch when he was sitting all by himself glancing my way every few minutes. Thank god the day was over.

I was so eager to get home so I could text or call Shaun and talk to him.

"Eager to go talk to your boyfriend?" Bradie asked as I was walking really fastly home.

"Yes." I answered. What's the point of lying?

"Oh, I'm good." He said smiling at himself. Huh?

"Why? How?" I asked eyeing him sespiciously.

"You wouldn't be with him if it weren't for me you know?" He said smiling at me.

"Why is that?"

"Because I wasn't really tired and not wanting to do the assignment, I could just tell you loved him and wanted to talk to him."

I threw my arms around his neck in a huge hug. He really is the best brother even though he can get annoying at times.

"Thank you Bradie." I said huging him.

"It's ok." He said pulling away. "Now let's get home so you can talk to him."

"Good idea." I said as we continued walking.

I ran inside and into my room shouting "Hi Mum, Hi Chris, Hi Ash." To everyone on the way up. I closed my door and jumped on my bed pulling out my phone and getting up his number and pressing 'call'.

Ring ring.

"Hello." Said a small sweet voice on the other end.

"Shaun! Hey baby!" I screamed into the phone a bit to excitedly. He is probably scared of me now.

"Hey Andy." He laughed.

"How was your daaaay?" I asked laying back on my bed.

I heard a sigh come from the other end. "It was ok I guess. I'm not home yet. I'm still walking. But I'm almost there maybe another minute and I can go hide away in my room."

Something wasn't right. He souded depressed. I didn't like it.

"Oh ok." I said running out of the house and standing out the front waiting for him.

"Yeah.."

I looked around to see if he was anywhere in site. He was approching our two houses. I hit behind a tree not saying anything making it seem just like an awkward silence on the phone.

He walked pass the tree I was standing behind and I walked behind him quitely hanging up the phone.

"Andy? Andy are you there? Baby?" He said into the phone.

I giggled as I wrapped my arms around his waist and kissed his neck. "Yes I am here Shauny."

He spun around to face me his face holding his magnificent smile.

"Oh hi there." He said leaning up to me.

"Hey beautiful." I lent down and softly kissed his lips.

He kissed me back for a brief second then pulled away.

"You ok Shaun?" I asked.

"Yeah, fine." For some odd reason I didn't believe him.

"Oh. Good. Do you want to come inside so we can work on our assignment?" I asked hoping for more time with him.

"Nah. I just want to go home." He said pulling away from me and looking down. Oh. Hmm. I have an idea

"How about me and Bradie come over and we can work on it there?" I said smiling.

"Uh, sure." He said just as his phone rung.

Shaun's POV

My phone starting ringing after I answered Andy. It was probably Liam wondering where I am.

"Hello." I answered.

"Shaun! Where are you? I'm out the front waiting!"

"I'm just next door relax bro. I'll be there in a second."

"Now! I have homework Shaun!" This dude needs to calm the fuck down or i'll hurt him. I'm not in the mood for his bullshit.

"Shut the fuck up Liam! I'm fucking coming!" I yelled into the phone.

"Calm down you stupid angry emo." And then he hung up.

"I'll go get Bradie and we'll come over ok?" Andy said resting his hand on my cheek.

"Mhm." I said pulling away trying not to cry then walked home. I can't believe Liam had said that. He is the only one who was ever nice to me and didn't tease me. I guess he finally joined the dark side. I knew it would happen over time and as he got older and grew to a teenager. I have been dreading this moment ever since my little brother was born.

"Finally" Liam said as I approched.

"Mmk." I said unlocking the door and walking inside. Liam walked in behind me closing the door and heading up to his room. I followed.

"What crawled up your ass and died?" I asked him.

"Nothing. What the fuck?" He said. Oh ok. He swore? I had never heard my little innocent sweet brother swear before.

"Are you ok Liam? You know you can talk to me." I told him sitting on his bed.

"I'm fine." He answered pretending like he was concentrating on his homework.

I knew he wasn't ok but I didn't want to force him to tell me I want him to come to me himself. He will come talk to me when he is ready. Now I'm sounding like his mother.

"Alright then Liam. I have a few friends coming over to work on an assignment ok?" I informed him.

"Ever since when have you had any friends?" He said. I had never heard him be so mean and hurtful. I felt like crying.

"Um." Was my creative response.

"I bet one is your boyfriend who you butt fuck every night."

"One of them is actually! He's name's Andy and he is the nicest person I have ever met and he seems to care about me unlike some people!" I said before storming out of his room and into mine closing my door. I plugged my iPod in it's iPod dock and played the playlist of my favourite songs loudly.

I pulled my phone out quickly to check if Andy had texted me. He had.

"Hey baby, Bradie is busy doing some other homework atm and he said that I should come over and we should start on the assignment without him. Is that ok? Love you xx"

I sighed as I started to reply. I wanted to be alone right now but we needed to do this assignment so I guess I won't get what I want.

"Yeah that's fine, come as soon as possible I miss you :3 Love you too xx" That didn't sound mean did it? No it sounded good. I sent the text and waited for his reply.

"Ok cool. Awww Baby I miss you too! I'll be there in about 5 minutes. Love you more xx" I love it how he calls me "baby" and how he does his little "xx" at the end of every text.

"Love you most xx" I sent the text then put my phone down on my desk. Five minutes. Enough time for a quick cry and cut.

I got my blade out as I let the tears that were trapped inside go. I cried softly not hearing myself over the loud music playing. I lifted my sleeve up inspecting my arm looking for a place to cut. I found somewhere that looked free and I put a few little cuts there and slowly and deeply slipped the blade threw my skin. I leaned back against the bedroom wall sitting on the floor enjoying the feeling. I repeated the cut again underneath the last one made, smiling at the pain it caused. The pain taking away all the emotional and mentle pain. I slit my arm again but stopped half way threw when I heard two different people screaming my name out at me. Andy and Liam. Shit!