CHAPTER 8

SHAUN'S POV

The smell of pancakes filled my nose waking me up. I slowly opened my eyes and looked up from Andy's chest and into his already open, beautiful, blue eyes.

"Morning baby." Andy said smiling and kissing the top of my head.

"Good morning Andy." I said back smiling.

"Did you sleep well?" He asked smiling back.

"Yes very well. Only because I was in your arms." I said even though I know he left sometime during the night. Probably to go toilet I suspect. I just fell right back to sleep once I woke up and he wasn't there.

"Naw baby." He said and pecked my lips softly.

"What about you? You sleep well?" I asked him after softly pecking his lips back.

"Extremlly well. Got something done last night that I've wanted to get down for a while." He said smiling proudly. Now I was confused.

"What? Sleep?" I asked him confused.

He just laughed and held onto me tighter. "No silly! You'll soon found out." He said with a wink. "Mmm I smell pancakes." He said just before Mum called out to us.

"BOYS WAKE UP BREAKFAST IS READY!" She called from downstairs like she expected us to hear her.

"Oh yum! Let's go!" Andy said jumping up out of bed and pulling the blanket off me.

"HEY! It's cold!" I grumbled getting out of bed crossing my arms.

"Aw baby come here I'll keep you warm." He said walking over to me and wrapping his arms around me tightly.

"Let's go eat." I said pulling away. I walked to the door and opened it and started to walk downstairs to the kitchen. I felt Andy grab my hand holding it in his own and I pulled my hand away giving him the 'no-we-can't-do-that-are-you-crazy?!' look. I turned my head back to where I was looking and heard him chuckle behind me.

ANDY'S POV

As we were walking downstairs into the kitchen to eat I grabbed Shaun's hand holding it tightly in my own. He quickly pulled his hand away and gave me a weird look and I just chuckled behind him. When we arrived in the kitchen Liam was sitting at the table eating pancakes and Mrs Diviney was putting ice cream on top of two plates of pancakes.

"Good morning boys. Sleep well?" She said smiling at us as she set the plates on the table next to Liam.

"Yes. Great sleep." I said smiling and sitting down. Shaun followed me and sat in between me and Liam.

"Well you did look pretty comfy." Mrs Diviney said winking at me, making me laugh and getting a weird look from Shaun.

"Very comfy." I smiled and squeezed Shaun's hand under the table.

"What's going on between you two?" Shaun said looking back and forth between his boyfriend and his mother.

That's when Mrs Diviney's expression changed to one of joking around to one of seriousness and she went and sat on the table across from Shaun, Liam and I.

"I don't know how to say it..." She said looking at me for help.

"Just start from the begginging and work your way through. But first..." I said looking over at Shaun and looking into his beautiful eyes. "Shaun Donald Patrick Diviney, do not get angry at me. I did what I had to do. I did what was right." I told him starting to panic at his reaction.

"Wh-what did you do...?" He asked his voice sounding shaky and unsure if he should of asked that question.

"Just listen to your Mum. And promise you won't run out." I looked towards Mrs Diviney. "Go on..." I said encouragingher to speak.

"Um. Well. Last night after you had fallen asleep Andy came out to talk to me. He told me everything Shaun. From you being gay to you being bullied to you being depressed and self harming. And Shaun I want you to know that I love you no matter what. I don't care if you are gay. You are still my son and I gave birth to you and I love you. Shaun it was hell while being in labour for you. But as soon as I heard the nurse say 'It's a boy' and place you in my arms all the pain slipped away and was replaced by so much happiness and joy. I wouldn't care if you were straight, bi, gay, decided to have a sex change, decided to be a drag queen or whatever it is you do. It's the way you were born and there is nothing wrong with it. You're still my baby boy and you mean the world to me." By the time she had finished talking Shaun was leaning on my shoulder crying, I had my arms around him slightly crying, Liam had a tear rolling down his cheek and Mrs Diviney was crying too.

"Now.. Firstly... Liam.. Do you have anything you're hiding from me?" She asked turning her attention onto Liam.

"N-no." Liam said stuttering a little. I could tell he was lying.

"Better not." Mrs Diviney said turning her attention back onto Shaun.

"Now.. As for those cuts.. Lift your sleeves up please." She said looking at Shaun's arms.

Shaun tensed up and held his arms closer to his body and moved his body in closer to me, seeming like he wanted me to protect him. He shook his head.

"Shaun. Show me your arms. Now please." Mrs Diviney said, her voice a little more stern.

A tear slowly rolled down Shaun's cheek and he hid his face in my chest. I sighed and pushed my chair back and pulled him into my lap.

"Shaun. Just show her. What are you scared of? She isn't going to go crazy at you. She cares. She just wants to see them." I said stroking his cheek softly wiping away the tear.

"F-fine." He said lifting up his sleeves and reaving the "gay emo" cut along one arm and other old cuts and scars around the other one and underneath and around the "gay emo" and a bunch of new looking ones around the "gay emo" that weren't there last time I looked.

I heard Mrs Diviney gasp, Liam sigh and myself speak saying, " Shaun... Why are there new ones..?" I gently grabbed his hand and counted the new ones. 17 deep red cuts.

"Um.. Because I... Um... I got attacked by a lion." He said slowly nodding.

"No you didn't. When did you do them Shaun?" I asked him looking into his eyes, knowing that he finds it difficult to lie to me.

"Last night. When I went toilet." He said looking down away from my eyes, ashamed.

I sighed and hugged him close.

"Finished eating?" Mrs Diviney asked getting up.

"I am." Liam said getting up with her and picking up his plate as Mrs Diviney picked up hers.

"So am I. What about you Shaun?" I said and Mrs Diviney took my plate and waited for Shaun to answer.

"Yeah. I'm full. Thanks Mum." He smiled.

"Thanks Mrs Diviney." I smiled holding tighter onto Shaun as he pulled his sleeve down.

"Mum I'm going to go down to Alex my friend's house."Liam said as he kissed his Mother's cheek.

"Okay honey, tell me when you're coming home." Mrs Diviney smiled and started running the water to wash the dishes.

"I will!" Liam called walking out of the house.

"What are you two going to do today?" Mrs Diviney asked us while washing the plates.

"Um... I might take Shaun shopping." I said smiling at Shaun. "Sound fun baby?"

"Yes. Sounds like a lot of fun." Shaun said smiling up at me.

"Well why don't you two love birds go get ready?" Mrs Diviney smiled.

"Sounds like a good idea." I said getting up, picking up Shaun in the process.

"Thank you Mum." Shaun said before we left.

I took Shaun upstairs and he picked out a pair of skinny jeans, an All Time Low top and a pair of black and purple converses and he walked to the bathroom to get changed. While he was gone I raided his cupboard looking for something to wear but it was all too skinny for me because Shaun's really skinny and I'm fatter then he is. I closed his cupboard and walked into Liam's room and opened his cupboard and picked out some of his clothes to wear. I quickly put them on then walked back into Shaun's room. Seconds later Shaun walked back in.

"My brothers clothes...?" He said looking at my questioningly.

"Yeah, you're to skinny for me to fit in yours." I said with a little laugh.

"Oh. Okay." He said smiling. "Lets go?"

"Yes. Lets go."