(A/N Wow! 5 chapters already! Im so proud of myself :3 When I started this story I really didnt think I would get any readers, but now I have at least 4 or 5! When I got my first review yesterday I was so ecstatic I just HAD to post another chapter right away! I would put your name up here but all it said was 'Guest'...Thanks so much Guest! Oh! and I also realized I havent been posting a disclaimer...not that I would be here if i really DID own OHSHC:

Disclaimer: I dont own OHSHC. This applies to all previous and future chapters in this series.

There, that should do it! Well anyways back to the story...)

*Chapter 5*

*Even the Happiest of Memories Can Bring Pain...*

-Hikaru's POV-

I was wandering aimlessly through the mansion...again.

I looked up at the ceiling somewhere around where our room should be. Kaoru and I had only just got back from school and he was already asleep. It was so boring without Kaoru around. I wasn't going to bother him if he needed rest but it's been like this all week and it was starting to get irritating...

Still, Kaoru hasn't been himself lately. To put it in words, it's like he's...'muffled'. Such a weird word to describe someone, but it's true! He's the same old Kaoru, apart from the constant sleeping, but I don't know it's like there IS a problem but there also ISN'T a problem. I don't see anything wrong with him but there this nagging feeling in my mind that there IS something wrong; something seriously wrong.

Than again it's probably just the loneliness talking. Like I said before, with all the constant sleeping Kaoru's been doing I'm constantly left alone. I'm so use to being with him that when he's gone I don't even know what to do with myself. The only time I really get to talk to him is when Host Club is ending. While everyone else cleans up I make sure Kaoru stays on top of his homework, since by the time he gets home he only ever feels like changing his clothes and going to bed. Seriously, were dreams better company than me?!

I looked up from my thoughts, convinced I was going to go upstairs and wake Kaoru up when I realized I had absentmindedly walked into a storage room. I looked around noticing the various trinkets and boxes that cluttered the relatively small room. They looked like they hadn't been moved in years, yet it also looked like the Servants were doing a pretty good job keeping the cobwebs and dust at bay. Maybe I should stop putting salt in their toothbrushes...

Naah!

How else am I going to entertain myself? Especially since KAORU doesnt wanna hang out with me anymore!

I turned angrily towards the door "THATS IT! IM WAKING HIM UP - hey what's this?"

I picked up a small tray of DVDs that was laying on top of one of the boxes next to the door. The very first one was labeled 'Family Videos: Hikaru and Kaoru'.

Family videos...about us?

I took the DVD back up to our room. I slowly opened the door and saw Kaoru adorably curled up in the center of our King sized bed. I tip toed softly into the room and quietly closed the door, I didn't want to wake him...

"KAORU WAKE UP!"

"WHAT?! WHAT DO YOU WANT?!" he screamed, eyes wide, hand clenching his chest.

"I thought you were having a nightmare. Well since your up, look what I found!" I beamed, waving it in his clearly frightened face.

He snatched it and read the title out loud before cocking his head.

"I don't remember this..."

"Me neither. Come on, let's go watch it!" I started pulling his arm when his head fell back onto the pillow, yawning.

"...fine."

"Yes!" I pulled a little harder and watched in amusement as he slid of the bed, covers and all. He just laid there on the floor smiling at me as I sat on the edge of the bed.

"You are too cute sometimes, you know that?" I bounced a little in place watching Kaoru pick himself up, idly wondering what sort of charisma this bed had that I didn't, when my hand touched something cold and hard. I looked over and saw my hand had touched a pocket knife sitting where Kaoru's pillow was.

I picked it up and opened it "Why is there a switchblade under you pillow?"

Kaoru pulled the quilt up of the floor and wrapped it around himself before sitting on the carpet "Grandma gave those to us remember?"

"She did?...oh yeah, wasn't that like a week after we joined the Host Club, after she had read all those horror stories about psychotic obsessed fangirls?"

"Yeah. It was so stupid, but I kept it anyway. Where's yours?"

"...I think i lost it somewhere...in a drawer? No...school? OH I REMEMBER! Remember when Milord fell asleep in the limo on the way to that commoner coffee shop? I think Haruhi called it a 'Starbucks' or something? Anyway I had I used it to cut holes in his shirt-"

"-and his nipples were showing the entire rest of the day!" Kaoru finished, " that was hilarious!"

"Yeah well when he finally found out he dropped it down a sewer hole screaming-"

"-'I will not allow my sons to play with such a dangerous weapon!'" We did our best Tamaki impersonation in unison. I laughed so hard I felt tear in my eyes.

It's moments like these that I treasure the most. I missed Kaoru so much this week. He was my other half; my better half. He was the most important thing in my life. I needed him. Some would say we were a little TOO dependent on each other, but that's not true. We arn't codependent on each other, we influence each other; we make each other better people, despite the pranks we always pull. It was because of him that I was able to reach out and make friends; to expand my world just a little. Not a lot, but just enough... so I've taken it upon myself to protect my most precious treasure, and if all this sleeping is because he's sick than its my job to make him feel better.

"Ne Kaoru, are you sick?"

"Huh? Well my stomach has been hurting a little lately, and I also have a back ache because SOMEONE pushed me out of bed last night!"

I smiled sheepishly, trying to change the subject "ANYWAY! To the Kitchen!"

"Why?"

"So I can make some soup to soothe your stomach!

"Aw that's so sweet, Hikaru! But I don't think a bowl of hot water and charcoal will help me much."

I reach over to the other side of the bed and threw my pillow at him.

He dodged laughing "Right then, let's go watch these supposed 'Home Videos'!"

As we walked downstairs I held back a laugh, wondering if the videos would be like those embarrassing home movies you see on TV. Maybe even something about Kaoru that I could share with the Princesses at the Host Club tomorrow...

-Kaoru's POV-

I was still wrapped snugly in the giant Duvet from our bed as we walked down the stairs towards the "TV and Family Room" as our Dad calls it. Staring down at the floor in front of me as I walked I began to space out into the void of my inner thoughts again. I really DID get the knife from Grandma but I was still glad Hikaru didn't ask me why it was under my pillow of all places.I didnt even know why even know why I had put it there. It just felt like instinct to do so; like it would be needed later. Needed for what though, I still wasn't sure.

I glanced back up at Hikaru who was grinning stupidly about who-knows-what. Maybe he was excited about family bonding? As we reached the TV room I plopped onto the couch, thoroughly enjoying the soft, down filled quilt I was now swimming in. I watched with limited interest as Hikaru inserted the disk into the DVD player, upside down I might add, before looking at the clock and trying to gauge how long it would take him to realize he needs to flip it over.

8:54pm...

As Hikaru proceeded to cuss out the DVD player I began to wonder what Hikaru would have been doing at this exact moment if I wasn't here. Maybe he would be over Haruhi's house? Than again it was our symmetry that got us into the host club so maybe he wouldn't have even known Haruhi. Nah, that can't be true, Hikaru is perfectly capable of making friends on his own. He IS the Seme in our brotherly love acts so one would assume he has more confidence than me. He probably thinks he doesn't need anyone else; that he's fine with it just being us to. He needs to see that I'm just holding him back.

Just more proof that we need to be apart...

"Oh, I see...it was upside down!"

9:06pm...

"Whatcha Guys Doing?"

AAAHH!

I jumped to my feet, Hikaru grabbing onto me with a furious expression, intent on protecting me from the intruder.

"Holy Fuck! Dad?! When did you get here?!" We yelled simultaneously.

"I've been here the whole time... all week in fact. The company is working on a new merger so I'm not exactly needed right now since I've already finished my part. I could have sealed the entire deal on my own but the company is into this "let-everyone-do-their-fair-share" kaizen bull crap." he air quoted, "Morons."

Our Dad is often referred to as the 'ghost' of the family. He always seems to just blend into the background unseen. Our mom said it was do to a lack of confidence or something like that.

"I see you guys found that DVD your mother made."

Hikaru and I sat down on the couch next to Dad "She made this?"

"Yep. But I wouldn't exactly call them 'Home Videos'. See whenever you guys harassed someone and they caught it on video they sent it to your mother hoping to get you in trouble. What they never knew was your mother thinks your pranks are hilarious so she put them all on a single DVD with your names on it."

Hikaru perks up "Really?"

"-she likes our pranks?" I finished.

"As long as they happen to someone else and not her. OR ME FOR THAT MATTER!"

We couldn't help but laugh. While Dad went to go grab the remote to press play, I let Hikaru into my gigantic quilt burrito.

"Its warm in here." He said, giving me a hug.

If I wasn't holding him back, maybe he would finally be able to share this affection with someone else. Like a Girlfriend maybe...or a boyfriend...I don't judge!

Maybe I should ask him about that...

"Hey Hikaru-"

"Shhh, it's starting!"

Ah well, maybe next time...

-Video Playback-

The camera zooms in and out on a pair of twin girls no older than 5 or 6, trying to find the right angle. One was wearing a pink dress with long pink hair, the other a blue dress with long blue hair. Weird. They have our same eye color but I don't remember another set of twins in the family...

"Aw you two look so cute! Your mother really outdid herself this time!"

"Why do we have to model for girls?" the blue one said rather dryly, "Hikaru and I are boys remember?"

"But Kaoru, your face is so cute! You look just like mommy's little girls!"

Hikaru smiles at the lady holding the camera "Yes, but you look like a Toad...see!" He pulled a frog from behind his back and held it to her face. She screamed when it jumped onto the camera.

-End Playback-

Me and Hikaru couldn't stop laughing "Was that really us?!"

Dad laughed and simply shook his head "I swear, your mother sometimes..."

"Oh, wait! Another ones starting!"

-Video Playback-

This one was from Middle School and a Teacher was yelling at us. It was a little shaky and looked like it was being recorded from another student's camera phone.

"Hitachiins! I'm very disappointed in you!" he chided.

"We didn't do anything, Sensei!"

"Don't play dumb with me! I know it was you two who replaced all the toilet paper in the girls bathrooms with duct tape!"

"Serves them right! They keep writing us love letters but they can't even tell us apart..." Hikaru furiously spat.

"I don't care! You have a weeks detention, both of you!

"Yes, Sensei..."

-End Playback-

Hikaru was gripping his sides in laughter "I remember that!"

Dad fell out of the chair "Seriously! Duct tape?! How did you guys even get in there?"

"Funny story about that, you see..."

Hikaru told him the story, leaving me to think again. I wish they would stop leaving me alone with my thoughts like this. My mind was slowly becoming a scary place.

This is my fault...

It's always been my fault. Hikaru hasn't been able to find anyone else because of me. Because everyone always mistakes me for him. If I hadn't been born, he wouldn't have dismissed so many girls back then. I was the youngest twin. My existance was a mere fluke! It was only suppose to be him in the world. He was the first one conceived and I just became a copy of him, holding him hostage from the rest of the world. I'm just an accident. If I wasn't here, Hikaru would have probably found someone back in middle school who could have filled his life with a happiness that I never could...

"Hey, Kaoru are you ok?"

"Huh? Oh, I'm still a little tired..."

"Wanna go back to bed?"

"No let's keep watching."

Just then Dads cell phone rings "Hold on boys I gotta take this...Hello? Yes. Huh? What the Hell do you mean you don't know what a merger is?!" he storms out of the room.

Hikaru looks at me "What the Hell IS a merger?"

I shrug "No clue..."

We keep watching but the more I see, the more I realized me and my brother are always together. Even now, wrapped in the same quilt, which only seemed to personify our way of keeping out the rest of the world; my way of keeping the rest of the world away from Hikaru...

"Y'know what? I think I will go back to sleep."

Hikaru unwraps himself from the Duvet and lets me go back upstairs. I glance at his solemn face before turning to leave, seeing the sadness in his eyes at being left alone again.

He'll be okay. After all it would be for the best in the end.

Oh how I wish I could stop these thoughts from flowing...

(A/N I think this was my longest chapter yet! Don't forget to review! I really need feedback on my story pacing, if my jokes are funny, if Im keeping everyone in character, and if my plot is believable.

Reviews inspire me to write faster! :D

See you all next time!)