(A/N) Hi guys! Im back :3
Review Corner:
Darling Neko Hmm... Interesting theory...
As White As Snow Thank you so much! (T^T) I actually want to become a psychologist when im older so to know i understand emotion this well is so encouraging! You stay awesome too^^
Adorable Reader When I first read your pen name I thought it said Adobe Reader XD That was a good laugh! Im so glad you like my story! I uploaded 2 chapters today since chapter 8 was so short.
K, Just a couple things here: I'm doing one chapter to represent each day of the week the Host Club is monitoring Kaoru. Happy reading...
*Chapter 7*
*Always Be Careful When Trying to Help Someone... *
-Kaoru POV-
If there was a button that end all of existence, would you press it?
It was just a stupid thought that came into my head during the Limo ride back home. The thought of such a button even existing was stupid in itself. Yet...I couldn't stop thinking about it.
Would I press it?
With the single press of a button I could end everything; wars, hunger, sadness...happiness, ambition, everything! No more worry, no more angst, no more enjoyment or excitement because in the end it will all be forgotten anyway. No more having to think, no more having to make decisions, just everything gone! Not even nothingness itself would exist anymore. It might actually be better that way. If we were all meant to die than what was the point in being born in the first place? If I was religious I probably would have said we were here to help and influence others; and have them do the same for us. If I were a scientist I probably would have said to continue on with evolution. If I were Hikaru I probably would have said it doesn't matter, its fun and since we're here we might as well enjoy it.
But I'm not any of those things.
So if by some random, twisted occurrence of fate, I was faced with that button and the choices of continuing to live or fading away...
Would I be able to do it?
My mind wants to die but my body wont let me. I wouldn't be able to press it even if I wanted to. My body would probably freeze up, memories of happiness and pleasure flooding my mind; desprately trying to stop me, but in all honesty I would probably force myself to trip and fall on it.
Since memories never last...
I wonder what it would be like if it was someone else's decision? I'd be sitting at home, probably eating breakfast with Hikaru and sudden what? Blackness? Or will it be that same feeling as waking up? Your dream slowly shifting into another life; your real life.
Only this time your life won't be there anymore...
...and you'll simply fade into nothingness.
"Kaoru wake up, we're here."
I felt someone shaking my shoulder and I opened my eyes. Was I really asleep? Am I still asleep? Lately its becoming difficult to tell dreams from reality...
I looked up and saw that Hikaru and I were still in the Limo. I unbuckled my seatbelt as the driver came around to let us out "Why did you wake me? I was having the greatest dream ever!"
Hikaru followed my out of the car "Really? What was it about?"
I yawned and walked through the front door of our mansion "You were a pretty pretty Princess, waiting on me hand and foot!"
He shoved me "Oh so I'm a servant in your dreams? No wonder your always sleeping!" he bowed and gestured towards the stairs "Right this way, Young Master Kaoru."
I smiled approvingly and started up the stairs "Thank you Sebastian, That will be all."
He followed after me "Sebastian?!"
"Yeah! Isn't that every Butler's name?"
"We don't have a Butler named Sebastian!"
"Ok, every Butler from The States, then."
"OUR Butler is from The States! His name is John!"
When we reached our bedroom we threw our bookbags in the usual spot to be forgotten. I took two steps toward the dresser and stopped...
I was just about to do something...wasn't I? What the hell was it...
"Kaoru, you ok?"
I looked up at Hikaru who had already grabbed a change of clothes and was peeking out of the ensuite bathroom. Was I really standing here that long? "Uh yeah...I forgot what I was suppose to be doing..."
"Uh, how about HOMEWORK, Kaoru?"
I sighed, picking my bag back up and tossed it and myself onto the bed "Yes, Sensei..."
-Wednesday (20 minutes before Host Club)-
"Oh Kaoru~"
Oh no...
I looked up. Straight into the Amethyst eyes of that blond idiot that sent me on a wild Goose chase yesterday.
"Hi Kaoru! I was...please, stop glaring at me...I was just thinking that you don't spend enough time with your father!"
Reluctantly, I stop glaring "What are you talking about Tono? Hikaru and I had Dinner with him just last night."
"No! I mean your Host Club Father!"
"Tono get away from me-"
"Don't be like that! Host Club is family!"
"Kyoya, get him away before I decide to shave his head in his sleep!"
Kyoya looked up from one of the tables he was setting and just stared at Tamaki who was now clutching the top of his head in fear "There's nothing I can do, he is the King after all." Maybe he WANTED him to loose all his hair.
Nah. That would be bad for business now wouldnt it?
Tamaki recovers at the word 'King' "Yes and the King bares gifts!"
Haruhi sweat-drops "Shouldn't that be the other way around?"
Ignoring her, Tamaki runs to the Baby Grand Piano in the corner of the room and pulls a gigantic canvas bag from underneath, placing it on a nearby table.
Haruhi cocked her head "How long has that Piano been there?"
"Haru-chan, this IS a music room after all"
"I realize that Hunny-senpai but I still don't..."
Haruhi is cut of as Tamaki stands on a chair "Gather 'round children, Christmas has come early this year!"
He then shined that stupid grin in Haruhi's direction "But first things first!" He reaches into the bag and pulls out a small bottle of something and tosses it to her.
Haruhi catches it and reads the side "Extra-Strength Aspirin...I don't know whether to be grateful or smack you, Senpai."
Hikaru perks up "You should be grateful AND smack him! Right Kaoru?"
"Yeah! I was just thinking the same thing!"
Hikaru suddenly stopped laughing "Then how come you didn't say it with me...y'know what nevermind."
The Host Club exchanges looks and Tamaki quickly gets down and pulls a notebook out of his bag, scribbling something and handing it to Kyoya saying something along the lines of 'if you see something write it down' before jumping back into the chair. What just happened?
"What is that?" I finally asked.
Tamaki cocked his head "What? Oh, just something Honorable Grandmother asked me to do...anyway speaking of Grandmother, Suoh Corps. has started business relation in Beijing, China. A Chinese representative came to greet my Grandmother and I yesterday and brought gifts for my family and friends! I most say I was surprised how much he already knew about me!"
Kyoya stopped writing and closed the notebook "You ARE the company's Heir, don't forget."
"Oh...right. Anyway the first gifts go to Hunny-Senpai and Haruhi!"
They walked forward watching Tamaki pull out a giant plate of cupcake-looking things "These are called Mooncakes! They're made with Lotus Seed paste and are traditionally eaten during the Mid-Autumn Festival, one of the four most important festival in China!"
They each take one and take a bite. Haruhi's eyes light up with happiness and I swear I see tiny little flowers floating around Hunny-senpai's head...
"This is so good Senpai! There's even a Quail egg inside!"
Tamaki furrowed his eyebrows "Please be careful with those. They're around 1000 calories each."
She drops the tiny little cake back onto the plate.
Hunny beams at her "Your not going to finish that? More for me then!"
"Mitsukuni, be sure to brush your teeth when your done."
"Ok, Takashi!"
Tono reaches back into the bag "The next present is for Mori-senpai."
Mori walks up to the bag and watches Tamaki pull out a bamboo stick. Wait...No, its a sword in a bamboo sheath!
That is so cool!
Mori takes the sword and unsheathes it, admiring the details of the blade. He does a little trick with it, that reminded me of when I played 'Legend of Zelda' last week, before sheathing it again. He give Tamaki a nod of approval before taking his seat again.
"I'm glad you like it! The next gift is for...Mommy!"
"Me?" He walks over to the bag and tries to peek inside. Tamaki quickly closes it "No peeking!"
"...fine." he said, taking a step back and watching Tono pull out a... jade paintbrush?
"This solid Jade Calligraphy brush has been in their family for generations, or so they say. He told me to give this to you and also asked if he could have a word with the head of Ootori Medical?"
"Of course he did, but I accept the gift anyway."
Tono laughs than looks at me and Hikaru "Hikaru, Kaoru, this last gift is for the both of you!"
Hikaru and I take a step forward. I wonder what it could be...
Tamaki pulls out a relatively large, green statue. It was a translucent, green circle with two interlocking swirls in the middle "This is a Double Koru (A/N I changed the title cover to a picture of the statue if you can see it)."
"...Double-"
"-Koru? What is that like a pun off my name?"
Tono smiles and points at the statue "See these swirls? Their called Koru's. A single Koru is shaped like an opening frond of a fern leaf, depicting the meaning of 'New beginnings and growth'. This Double Koru, made of Nephrite Jade, represents two lives developing, growing in harmony within the circle of life. Just like you two! It also stands for a stable environment for new life."
Hikaru and I smile at Tono before each holding one end of the statue and moving it across the room to our table and setting it back down; our new centerpiece of brotherly love.
Tamaki looks at the clock "Oh! Places people! The Princesses will be arriving soon!"
As we're waiting for our guests Hikaru starts absentmindedly playing with a teacup while I just can't seem to get my mind off of what Tono said about that statue...
"Two lives developing, growing in harmony."
"Just like you two."
There was a swirl for each of us, trapped inside of that circle; trapped inside of our little world. As I stared at it, my mind replaying what he had said over and over again, I began to grow a deep seated hatred for it.
Two lives growing in harmony? There's no harmony between us! My very presence is ruining his life! As long as I'm here Hikaru will always be trapped inside that circle. As long as I'm here Hikaru will never look past what we have and find something more, something that isn't me, something that can truly balance his life.
As long as I'm here, blocking his way out, Hikaru will always be trapped in that detestable circle...
The doors open and Tono's voice brings me back to reality "Hello Princesses and welcome to the Host Club!"
(A/N) So how was it guys? Everything you hoped it would be? Lol
Anyways for those who can see the cover page, here is a picture of the statue:
boneart . co . nz / custom / Koru1 . jpg
Just copy and paste into your web browser and then remove all the spaces :P