(A/N) HI guys! Sorry I was a little late with this one, I didnt like it so I spent the day rewriting it, which was really hard because I only ever feel like writing at night :) Oh and Special Thanks to all my new followers!

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Adorable Reader Now if only Kaoru could see that...

I think we've ALL had those moments! Also in the state of mind Kaoru is in, spending MORE time with Hikaru might actually be a bad thing, but who knows? Something wonderful might happen...

And now on with the story. I really hope you guys like this chapter, like I said it changed so it might not have the effect I was going for...

*Chapter 9*

*Even if they never tell you what's wrong, they always give you hints...*

-Friday (Hitachiin Mansion)-

-Kaoru's POV-

"Hikaru look at me...No, no you gotta look...see...first you pick up a bowl. A nice, round, clean bowl. This one is orange. I'm in an 'orange bowl' kinda mood today...no Hikaru, you gotta keep watching! ...You put the bowl on the counter...like so. Then you see this box? We add the contents to the bowl like such...Not too much, just enough, NO HIKARU THAT'S TOO MUCH! Now you see this jug? Same thing as before; we can't add to much- HIKARU WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! Ok...here comes the hard part...you see this mystical piece of metal that I'm holding? It lets us transfer what we just made to our mouths! See you put it into the bowl and make sort of a scooping motion before-"

"Kaoru, I know how to make a bowl of cereal!"

"Then how in Gods name did you BURN mine?!"

"I was curious..."

"ABOUT WHAT?!"

"I wanted to know what it would taste like if I heated it up so I put it in the oven and-"

"STOP PUTTING THINGS IN OUR OVEN!"

"Oh would you look at the time! We gotta get ready for school, Kaoru!"

"Where do you think your going? We are NOT done with this discussion!"

I laughed and watched him run through the kitchen door. I waited until I heard him reach the top of the stairs before going over to the sink and pouring the bowl of cereal I had just made down the garbage disposal. I didn't even bother to turn it on before walking back to the kitchen table and taking a seat. I started playing with the flower vase that was in the middle of the table.

I'm not happy.

Not at all.

I realise this.

I haven't been truly happy in a long time.

I thought I was happy when Haruhi gave me and Hikaru those amusement park tickets yesterday, the thought of Hikaru and I spending a whole day just goofing off with the 'commoners' made me happy at first...

Hikaru and I should be growing further apart not closer together.

But I just couldn't do that. I love being with him. He brings so much joy to my life. He's my twin! He's the other half of me; the other half of my life! And since I'm the other half of his life, shouldn't that mean he feels the exact same way about me?

But then again...that's also the problem. If I'm the other half of Hikaru's life, that means he's only living half of his life.

I'm taking up too much space...

But I also don't want to give back the other half. I know its selfish but...it's mine. Half of his life is MY life.

I hurled the vase at the wall, tears in my eyes as I watched it shatter into pieces.

I heard someone yelling something upstairs but I was too angry to pay then any attention.

I'm not a twin. I'm just a parasite. Selfishly feeding of the cheer and bliss and alleviation that my half of HIS life gives me. I find solace in keeping him to myself and away from everyone else. Keeping his mind locked away in our little world. He doesn't want to reach out to anyone else because I won't let him. I'm obsessed and addicted and...and...

Something started shaking me, something loud...what was it?

"KAORU! Answer me! What happened?!"

I was staring into a mirror...

"KAORU WHAT HAPPENED?!"

My reflection was...frightened...why? I wasn't scared...I was angry...

Reality caught up to me like a slap to the face.

"Hikaru...did you just slap me?"

"YES I DID! Now tell me what happened."

I looked back down at the shattered remains of a very expensive vase. Why the Hell did I just do that?

I wiped the tears from my eyes "I got mad and I threw it, ok? Come on let's just get to school-"

He cut me off "We're not leaving until you tell me why you were angry."

I looked him straight in the eyes, tears flowing freely down my face "I had a dream last night that you were going to leave me! Not just you, everyone! I was alone...all alone. I tried to convince you to stay but you just kept saying this was for the best, that it had to be this way, that-"

I was cut off again by a sudden embrace "Shh, its ok, alright? it's going to be ok, Kaoru."

He rocked me back and forth as I cried into his shoulder "It's ok, Kaoru. It was just a dream...I'll never leave you...I promise."

So this was it. He would always be with me, following me around, no way of trying to convince him to live a separate life from me.

This was a test...
His actions today only serving to further my conviction...

-After school (Host Club)-

-Kaoru's POV-

"TOO MUCH SEXY!"

There were more fangirls on the floor than left standing. Who knew crossdressing would be such a big hit...

I watched Tono fist-pump in success as they landed head first on the pillows that were randomly strewn across the floor. He then pulled out a tiny pink pocket mirror, smiling to himself as he touch up his make-up, obviously enjoying the new look.

I fixed my choker a little and looked over at Hikaru who was wiping something off of his red plaid miniskirt. He looked up at Tono and muttered something along the lines of 'Metrosexual'

Tono, who was just within ear shot of Hikaru, looked up and blinked in confusion, brush still in hand "I'm sorry?"

I just laughed and sat down next to Hikaru "No wonder you wanted us to crossdress for Club today, your a little TOO good at being a girl Tono!"

Tono snapped the mirror shut and walked over to us, glaring "Your one to talk! What are THESE?" he grabbed at each of their chests.

We comically covered our 'boobs' and turned around in mock fright, like we had just been caught naked "How dare you!" We cried "We should have you arrested!"

He dropped his hands and frantically tried to defend himself "No don't do that! I'm a girl too see!"

When we pretended to cry he quickly turned away from us and yelled "MOMMY!" desparatly looking around the room for Kyoya.

Kyoya was still changing in the back. When he finally emerged from the back room I swear I could feel the Earth stand still "You called?"

He had long brunette hair swept over one shoulder and a long, silky, black dress with a split running up the side of his stockinged leg to his thigh and matching black stiletto heels. His glasses were gone so I assumed he was also wearing contacts.

I'm not gonna lie...he was sexy as hell!

He seductively slinked over to Tamaki and slowly ran his fingers up Tono's chest, wrapping them around the back of his neck, their lips only centimeters apart "Was there something you wanted, Daddy?"

We lost all the fangirls...all of them.

We also lost Tamaki...

The rest of us could only gawk at what just happened. Well, all except Kyoya who simply turned his head to the side and smirked at Hikaru and me. I could feel the heat building in my face.

"Looks like I just beat your record. Oh and here's your disk back." He tossed it at our feet, obviously unaffected by what had just done, while I could only stare stupidly at the round, flat object on the floor. Even Hikaru looked flushed.

I looked up back up at Kyoya, watching him smirk to himself before walking over to a table and crossing his legs, looking around and admiring his work.

Haruhi sweatdropped, standing up to adjust her skirt "Don't you think that was a bit much, Senpai?"

He looked at her a smiled "Just showing you all how it's done."

She sat back down and looked around "Guess this means Host Club is done for the day, huh?"

I shrugged and looked at Hikaru. Hikaru just shrugged and looked back.

"Hey Kao-chan!"

I looked behind me and saw Hunny-Senpai sitting at his table holding a pink bunny shaped mirror, admiring his puffy pink Lolita dress and blond Shirley Temple curls. He looked up at me, smiling and waving me over.

I lifted my dress, carefully stepping over our still unconscious guests and walked over to him "Did you call me, Senpai?"

He placed the mirror on the table nodding with excitement "Yes. Doesn't this outfit make me look even cuter?"

"Uh...sure? Was that all you wanted?"

"Nope!" He beamed "Your going to spend the night at my house tonight!"

"What?! Why?"

"So we can hang out! Duh!"

I glanced back at Hikaru who had found his way over to Haruhi, saying something about how nice it was to see her dressed like a girl for once "What about Hikaru? Is he coming?"

"Nope, i'm inviting just you!"

"Why?"

"Why not? You two aren't a package deal. It's not like its either both of you or neither of you. Your individuals and I wanna hang out with you today!"

Individuals? How I wish that were true...

I looked back at Hikaru again. What was I thinking? Of course we're individuals!

Aren't we?

I turned back towards Hunny-Senpai and saw him writing something down in a notebook covered in bunny stickers "What are you writing?"

He closed the book and hugged it tightly, grinning at me. That, combined with the dress he was wearing, was kinda starting to freak me out...also...why did it seem like someone was always writing something whenever I was around? I'm starting to feel like I'm being spied on.

"This? It's just a list of things we can do! Item number 1: Bake a Cake!"

I cringed and held my stomach. It, along with my back, had been hurting almost constantly this week and the thought of eating cake was making it worse "But I don't want any cake..."

"You don't have to eat it! You just have to help me make it!"

Didn't have to eat it? I didn't even want to SMELL it "Can't Mori help you do it? I'm not in a 'cake baking' kind of mood."

"Takashi? He's busy at the Dojo this weekend." he looked back at his cross dressing cousin "Right Takashi?"

Mori looked over and flipped his hair over his shoulder with his hand, nodding.

"See? Busy!"

"...fine. I'll help you bake your cake..."

"Yay!" he squeezed me tightly. It really hurt my back. I ignore the pain and smile down at the blond.

Baking a cake...how bad can it be?

(A/N) So yeah, this chapter was longer than I expected, so the beginning of the next chapter will be a continuation of this one. Im not sure im COMPLETELY happy with this chapter, but I still like the way it turned out :)

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