(A/N) Hey guys! Im back with the longest chapter yet! Took me 2 days to write and edit it, did you guys miss me?
Also congragulations to Lillix-lolita, tiger2213, and Adorable Reader for guessing the song on Hunnys MP3. It was Confrontation by OTEP *as everyone goes back and rereads that part after listening to the song on youtube* (Adorable actually said "Contempation" but close enough :P)
Theres a special prize waiting for the three of you in the middle of this chapter. I hope you enjoy it!
-Review Corner-
sadhunnybunny36 I was actually going to start the chapter off like that but then I erased it, just didnt flow right.
Lillix-lolita You were actually the first person to guess the song right, I didnt think anyone would!
Misato92 (^. - )
As White As Snow He realizes hurting him would also hurt his brother but the ideas and justifications are still clouding his judgement. Oh and the Hello Kitty mp3 was just too adorable to not write in there! :D
tiger2213 Its sad, yes but it might get better! We just gotta stay positive! Glad to know I can write a believable suicide, I wonder how that will play out later in the story... also congrats again on guessing the song :)
Adorable Reader He's deluded himself into believing his very existence is a sin and hes trying to run away from it, but the thing is...how do you escape from life itself?
Anyways, on with the story...
*Chapter 11*
*How Do You Help Someone Who Doesn't Want to be Saved?*
-Hikaru's POV-
"Uh huh...yeah I'm picking him up right...don't be a moron, How would I know whats happening if I've been over here the whole-...TONO I JUST SAID HOW WOULD I- STOP CUTTING ME OFF... Oh...that's what you meant? I'm sorry! Geez stop crying, ok? I'm worried too. Kaoru's been pretty restless lately, he's all antsy and jumpy and to be honest it's kinda starting to...what?! NO YOUR NOT FOLLOWING US! I swear if I see you there I will...WHAT DO YOU MEAN I WON'T SEE YOU IF YOU WEAR A DRESS?! Well now I know what to look out for, thanks Tono! Oh wait, hold on someone's on the other line. Oh, it Kaoru! I gotta go, see you later! NO NOT AT THE PARK! GOOD BYE TONO!"
I switched to the other line "Hello? Yeah I'm on my way now...Yeah, stop worrying I grabbed the tickets of the dresser like five minutes ago...the name on the back? Oh uh, hold on...Neon Amusement Park. What? Yeah. I'll be over when I'm down fixing my hair...Why? Because I have to look sexy, Duh!...Haha stop complaining, I'm actually pulling into the driveway as we speak...well duh! Of course I lied about getting the tickets five minutes ago, what did I teleport here? Oh no don't get me wrong, my hair is STILL sexy! Alright alright bye!"
I laughed and hung up my cellphone. My mind drifting off to thoughts of Kaoru. What I had told Tono was true. To the rest of the world, Kaoru probably seemed like his regular, calm, albiet mischievous self. But I knew better. He's been restless and anxious lately. Almost like the world was going to end but he didn't want anyone else to know...
When my Limo finally parked and the driver let me out, I walked up the stairs to the front door. The door opened and I was met by two rather eccentric maids.
They were VERY happy to say the least.
Well...that is, until they looked at me and started glaring.
What did I do? I looked down to make sure my fly wasn't down.
Nope, that's not it. I looked back up at the maids "What's...wrong? Is there something in my teeth?"
They looked me up and down, disgusted "No."
I started rubbing the back of my neck, confidence draining fast "So uh...Can I speak to Hunny?"
"Hunny and Usa-chan are busy entertaining...'company'." One said, saying the word as if it left a bad taste in her mouth, while the other one shuddered.
What the Hell was their problem? And I KNOW they weren't talking about Kaoru!
"Well I'm hear to pick up that company! Move it!" I pushed past them walking into the house, but then they tackled me!
I think they even had me in a wrestling move!
"KAORU! HUNNY-SENPAI! HELP ME!"
I tried to get them off but one held my legs down and the other had me in a choke hold! Can EVERYONE fight in this household?!
I heard someone running down the stairs "Oh hi Hika-chan! Your early, I wasn't expecting you here for another 10 minutes!"
"Senpai, call off your hounds!" I choked. My rudeness only making them hold me tighter.
"Hounds? We don't have any dogs. Although I've always wanted one!"
"SENPAI!" My vision was fading. Goodbye world!
"Hey can you two go see if Kao-chan is ready yet? He's been in the bathroom for over 20 minutes now..."
They released me and ran upstairs. Well more like dropped me, but who cares? IM ALIVE!
Kaoru came down the stairs with his duffle bag on his shoulder. When he saw me on the floor he just shook his head "I'm not even gonna ask..."
I got up taking deep breaths, rubbing my neck "I am! Why did those maids try to kill me?!"
"Hunny-Senpai told them about our act...turns out their not too trilled about twinscest."
"Oh really?" I hinted, Kaoru returning my mischievous smile.
I looked at Hunny "The park is 2 hours away from here, can we have something to eat?"
"Sure." He called back the MMA fighters, who were still glaring at us "Can you lead them to the kitchen? I need to go wake Chika-chan."
Kaoru looked confused "Your brother was here the entire time?"
"Yeah! He usually avoids me at home, though...anyway I'll be back!" He added as he raced up the stairs.
The maids were leading us to the kitchen when we heards loud bumping and thuds coming from the ceiling. I watched as one of the chandeliers started to shake. I guess the 'fight upon meeting' rule also applied INSIDE the house as well. I glanced at Kaoru and gave him a little nod. Taking the hint he took two more steps and pretended to fall.
I ran over to him and helped him up, being as dramatic as possible "Kaoru? Are you ok? Speak to me!"
He looked me in the eyes and blushed "It hurts a little, but not as much as it did having to spend the night away from you. I'll be fine as long as I can stay in your arms like this."
I pulled him closer "Of course, my sweet Kaoru."
"Hikaru..." He whimpered.
I glanced at the maids. Fury didn't even begin to describe what I saw. They were so mad it actually became funny!
Kaoru and I dropped our embrace and fell to the floor, holding our sides in laughter.
Upon retrospect...it probably wasn't a good idea to piss of the people making your food...
We were sitting at the kitchen table, an innocent plate of pancakes sitting in front of us. Hunny was sitting across the table, happily eating cake as usual. He had received service with a smile while our plates had practically been thrown at us.
I looked back down at my pancakes and narrowed my eyes. They looked perfectly fine. I'd even go as far as to say they were the best looking pancakes I'd ever seen in my life. And that's what scared me...they were too perfect...
I pushed the plate away "So Kaoru, how was your stay?"
He leaned over and started cupped my ear, whispering "When I came in yesterday, the servants had made a plate of cookies just for Usa-chan! Hunny set him on a desk upstairs and put the plate in front of him!"
"...so?"
He started shaking a little "Well when I woke up this morning the cookies were gone and there were cookie crumbs on Usa-chan's mouth!"
"So what, you think that stuffed bunny ate them? Hunny or another servant probably ate them when you weren't looking."
He sat back in his chair. "I guess so..."
Hunny looked up at the Kitchen door "Oh there you are Usa-chan! Do you want some cake?"
I looked at the doorway and almost screamed! Usa-chan was sitting on the floor, leaning against the frame!
"I knew that thing was alive!" Kaoru screamed.
Hunny waited for a response. When he didn't he one he said "Oh well! More for me!"
I couldn't take my eyes off of it. I swear its staring at me!
I was waiting for it to move...
But it never did...
"What time is it Senpai?" I asked, my eyes never leaving Usa-chan's.
I heard him say "7:58." Have we really been here that long?
"C-come on Kaoru. We should l-leave now."
"But it's blocking the door! We're trapped!"
"We've got no choice. We have to make a run for it!"
"Hikaru no! I can't make it!"
"No! We have to try! Are you ready? Three...two...ONE!"
We made a break for it. As soon as we made it to the doorway we leapt over the cursed plush toy. Thats I made the mistake of looking back...
I think maybe one of us might have kicked it because now it was lying on its stomach, eyes boring into my very soul!
"What are you narcissists doing now?"
I turned back and saw Hunny's attack servants "We were just leaving!"
They started pushing us to the door "Well hurry up and go!"
I just barly heard Hunny yelling from the kitchen "Bye! Don't forget my funnel cake!" before we were quite literally thrown out the door. Before we could stand, one of the maids hurled Kaoru's bag at my head before slamming and audibly locking the door.
I started to run back to the door, intent on kicking it down when Kaoru said "What's that on your back?"
I stopped and reached around. There was a price of paper tapped to my back.
I pulled it of and read it "Twincest. Verb. Definition: The act of masturbating from a 3rd person point of view... IM GONNA KILL THEM!"
He walked away from me "Just let it go, Hikaru."
"Wait! You've got one too!" I ripped it of his back and handed it to him.
He took it and read it "Let's get one thing straight...I'm not."
He stood there. Perfectly still.
Then his eyebrow twitched and he ripped up the paper before stomping off the the Limo, muttering to himself.
I followed after him "Yeah it doesn't feel too good when it happens to you, does it?"
"Just let it go..." he repeated, more to himself than to me.
During the two hour limo ride to Neon Amusement Park, Kaoru kept holding his left wrist, staring straight ahead, deep in thought.
"What's wrong, Kaoru? Hurt yourself?"
"...Huh? What?"
"I said did you hurt yourself?"
"When?"
"Why are you rubbing your wrist?"
"When was I...?" he looked down and quickly separated his hands.
"Kaoru...we need to talk."
"...about what?"
"About you. What's wrong?"
"I don't know what your talking about-"
"Don't even start that! Your going to tell me what's-"
He cut me off, staring into the distance "Hikaru stop talking..."
"What? No I'm not-"
"Hikaru... Stop talking..." his eye twitched a little
"Kaoru, I'm worried about you-"
I hesitated when he started bouncing his leg obviously irritated before continuing "-I really think we need to-"
His leg bounced faster and he started clenching and unclenching his hands "Hikaru, I'm extremely agitated right now and I don't wanna take it out on you so PLEASE just shut the FUCK up!" he stopped bouncing and clapped his hands over his mouth "I'm...so sorry, Hikaru! I was just suddenly so confused...I couldn't tell what was going on or what was happening and I couldn't think straight and you just kept talking and talking and making it worse!" tears started to appear in the corners of his eyes when I wrapped my arms around him.
"Calm down, Kaoru."
He started crying into my chest "P-please d-don't be mad at me."
"I'm not mad. It's ok." I gently rocked him back and forth.
Whatever was wrong with him, was getting worse...
I just wish he would talk to me; tell me what was happening to him...
By the time we reached the park Kaoru was smiling again and my shirt had completely dried. I was still worried but I didn't press any further, I didn't want him to cry again.
When we parked and the driver let us out, Kaoru grabbed my arm and started pulling me towards the Ticket gate "Come on, Hika!"
We showed the guy at the booth our tickets and went up to the main entrance. There was a giant clock just above the entrance and I read the time.
9:58
When we were officially inside of the park Kaoru beamed "So where do you wanna go first?"
I remembered the Pancakes I didn't eat "Let's go somewhere that has food."
Kaoru started looking around "Ok how about...hey wait...isn't that Kyoya?" he was pointing towards a Directory at a raven haired kid wearing jeans and a black track jacket, a pair of headphones around his neck.
We walked a little closer and sure enough there he was, standing with most of his weight on one leg and one of his hands in his jacket pocket. He had a rather bored look on his face.
I speed walked towards him, irritated "Kyoya!"
He looked up with limited interest "Hey."
"I thought told Tono not to bring you guys here!"
"Tamaki? He's sitting in on a business meeting at the Suou Corp main building today."
"Then why are you here? And why are you wearing that jacket? It's like 80 degrees out here!"
He just laughed "I won't be out here much longer. My family actually owns this amusement park. I'm here to make sure it's employees are all doing their jobs."
He turned towards the Directory and pulled out a brochure, handing it to us "Here, have a map. Have fun at the park." and then he walked away.
I didn't like the way he said 'have fun at the park'. It sounded like he was foreshadowing something...
I ignored my paranoia and unfolded the map, holding one side as Kaoru held the other. "Hm...oh there's a Karaoke Club here called, Starlight? I'm sure theres food there."
"Karaoke? Really, you couldn't find anything else?"
"Come on Kaoru it's really close to here and it'll be fun! Please?"
"...fine."
"Yes!"
He laughed and followed me to Club Starlight.
When we walked in my first impression was that the club looked like a bar with colorful tables and a stage lit up in neon lights.
We found a table were we could sit by ourselves and took a seat. When a waitress came over I ordered a Turkey club sandwich and a Coka-Cola. Kaoru said he wasn't hungry.
We sat in silence, listening to the performances. When I was halfway through my sandwich I finally decided to break the silence "So...what are we going to sing?"
"..."
"Kaoru!"
"What?!"
"What are we going to sing?"
"...I don't know. Got any ideas?"
I took a sip of my Coke, thinking "Um...Oh! Remember our Aunts dinner party last year?"
He thought back for a moment "Yeah. We didn't want to be there so we made that big uproar by standing on a table and singing-" He stopped and a grin appearing on his face that would have made even the Cheshire Cate suspicious of his motives "You really sure the crowd can handle that one?"
"Do we honestly care?"
We waited for the girl onstage to finish her performance, me taking this time to finish my sandwich. We got up from our table just as the MC said "and that was Ayaka with 'Monster' by Paramore! Give her a hand! Alright, who else wants a shot up here?"
I lead my twin to the stage "We do."
He covered his mic with his hand "Alright then! Just pick a song from that book over there."
We flipped through it, scrolling down until we found the one we wanted. When we told the MC, he just said "Interesting choice" before handing us our mics and announcing us on stage.
As we walked on stage I saw that Kaoru was a little nervous.
"Don't worry about them, just focus on me ok?"
(A/N) Im dedicating this performance to Lillix-lolita, tiger2213, and Adorable Reader for their correct guesses. Enjoy your prize!
Song: Lying is the Most Fun
Artist: Panic! At the Disco
"Bold" = Hikaru
'Bold Italics' = Kaoru
Bold Underlined = Both
( ) = What they are doing as they are singing. Though the descriptions might seem long, they are still keeping up with the song.
-The Twins Performance (Third person POV)-
(Kaoru walked with Hikaru to the middle of the stage and wrapped his arms around his brothers waist as his twin, looking him in the eyes as his twin smirked and started singing in a low, husky, rather seductive voice.)
"Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?"
(Kaoru started to lower his body down his brothers front, running his fingers down Hikaru's hips, eyes never leaving his face and singing with just as much lust as his brother)
'When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?'
(Before he got too low Hikaru put a finger under Kaoru's chin guiding him back up)
"Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it."
(When he was back at eye level, Kaoru started to run his hands up Hikaru's chest)
'When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin.'
(Hikaru wrapped an arm around Kaoru's waist, starring straight into his eyes)
"I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me"
'Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?'
"No, no, no, you know it will always just be me"
(They finally turned towards the crowd)
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
'So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?'
(Hikaru turns back to Kaoru and starts seductively tracing a finger down his chest)
"Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick."
(Kaoru stops his hand and smirks)
'I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I'd let you kill this chorus?'
(Back to the crowd)
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster
(They switch roles, still flirting with each other, the crowd squealing like crazy)'
'I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me'
"Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?"
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
(They smirk back at the crowd)
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
(They smile and begin to encircle each other, looking each other up and down with eyes full of wanting and lust)
"So testosterone boys and harlequin girls"
'Dance to this beat'
"So testosterone boys and harlequin girls"
'Dance to this beat'
(They embrace, melting into each others arms)
And hold a lover close!
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster
The crowd was cheering like mad, save for a few guys who were shaking their heads with...anger? Disgust?
Who cares? I was having fun!
When we walked past the MC to get off the stage, he winked at me and I smirked back. It kinda boosts your confidence to knowing both Women AND Men wanted you.
"Hey Hikaru..."
"Yeah?"
"Are you gay?"
I did NOT expect that "What? Because of what just happened? Just having a little fun thats all."
He simply smiled and shook his head at me.
I just shrugged "Say what you want, I'm secure! Are YOU gay?"
"What if I told you I was Bi?"
I stopped walking "You are? Seriously? If I knew that I would have had you flirt with the guy at the ticket gate so we could get in for free!"
"Hikaru."
"Oh man this is great! This could take our pranks to a whole new level!"
"Hikaru-"
"Kaoru how come you've waited until now to tell me-"
"HIKARU!"
"What?"
"I was just kidding. I'm not gay."
"Dammit! Are you sure? Not a single thought of Tono and Kyoya with fuzzy handcuffs and whip cream-"
"HIKARU!"
I held up my hands laughing "OK! I quit!"
When we left Starlight we went on as many rides and roller coasters as we could find. Most had music playing while you waited. While we were in line for a ride called the Sky Hawk, I was listening to the rock music blasting through the speakers:
I'm sitting in a room
Made up of only big white walls and in the
There are people looking through
The window in the door
they know exactly what we're here for.
Don't look up
Just let them think
There's no place else
You'd rather be.
You're always on display
For everyone to watch and learn from,
Don't you know by now,
You can't turn back
Because this road is all you'll ever have.
And it's obvious that you're dying, dying.
Just living proof that the camera's lying.
And oh oh open wide, 'cause this is your night.
So smile, 'cause you'll go out in style.
You'll go out in style.
I tapped Kaoru's arm "Hey Kaoru I know this son! It's Fences by Paramore...Kaoru?" He looked like he was having a silent panic attack. He was holding his wrist again, but he was shaking this time.
If you let me I could,
I'd show you how to build your fences,
Set restrictions, separate from the world.
The constant battle that you hate to fight,
Just blame the limelight.
Don't look up
Just let them think
There's no place else
You'd rather be.
And now you can't turn back
Because this road is all you'll ever have.
And it's obvious that you're dying, dying.
Just living proof that the camera's lying.
And oh oh open wide, 'cause this is your night.
So smile.
The entire time the music played I kept trying to get his attention "Kaoru your scaring me. What's wrong?"
Yeah, yeah you're asking for it
With every breath that you breathe in
Just breathe it in.
Yeah, yeah well you're just a mess
You do all this big talking
So now let's see you walk it.
I said let's see you walk it.
Yeah, yeah well you're just a mess
You do all this big talking
So now let's see you walk it.
I said let's see you walk it.
He didn't look at me. He was shaking and starting of into space. I'm not even sure if he knew I was still standing here. People past by us in line and I started shaking him, trying to pull him out of his daze.
And it's obvious that you're dying, dying.
Just living proof that the camera's lying.
And oh oh open wide, yeah oh oh open wide.
Yeah, oh oh open wide,
'Cause you'll go out in style.
You'll go out in style.
"Kaoru please! Answer me!"
He started shaking his head very slowly, still staring straight ahead muttering "I can't be here right now..."
"Kaoru, please let's just get out of line...please!"
He didn't move, he just kept shaking and staring "I can't be here right now...I shouldn't be...I can't..."
By now people were staring. I dragged him out of line and set him down on a bench.
"Kaoru. Please! What happened?"
"I...i can't...I...shouldn't..."
He started holding his stomach. He looked like he was in so much pain but there was nothing I could do.
Suddenly he looked up at me "I- I think I'm going to be sick!"
I walked him to a bathroom. As soon as it was in site he darted forward, me running after him. He ran into a stall and locked it.
We were alone in the bathroom and I could hear him throwing up. I just stood there, staring at the door, trying to figure out how to get him to talk to me.
When the retching sounds finally stopped I put my hand in the stall door, trying to support him from afar.
"Kaoru...let's just go home..."
"What? No I'm fine!"
"No your not...let's just-"
"No seriously! I don't wanna ruin your day! Please?"
"Your not ruining my day if I choose to go home. We can come back some other time, i just...I just need to make sure your ok-"
"Hikaru, stop worrying about me and do what make you happy for once."
"YOUR what makes me happy! You know I always put your needs above my own! Just..please, talk to me...tell me what's wrong!"
The door unlocked and opened slowly. Kaoru walked out holding his stomach. His eyes were red and tears were cascading down his cheeks.
It hurt so much to see him like this "Look, if you wont tell me what's wrong, at least tell me how I can make you feel better."
He walked over to the paper towel dispenser to wipe his eyes. He sniffed a couple time before turning back to me "...I wanna go home..."
"Ok."
"But first I want you to win me a Teddy Bear." he smiled weakly.
What the fuck? I think it was meant to be a joke to lighten the mood but still, if he wants a Teddy Bear I'll get him a Teddy Bear!
I smiled back and gave him a quick hug, leading him out of the bathroom.
"Ok, I'll get you that Teddy Bear."
(A/N) Did you three like your prize? Thank you all for playing!
Anyways this chapter was to show what Hikaru sees. He desparatly wants to help his brother, but he also believe making Kaoru relive all those emotions just to tell him whats wrong will cause his brother more pain than if he just waited for Kaoru to tell him on his own. Its conflicting to him because, either way, he doesn't want to see his brother cry.
Angst aside, Reviews are ALWAYS welcome and have a beautiful rest of your day...or night seeing as how I get most of my Reviews at night...weird.
Bye guys^^