(A/N) I'ts the chapter you've all been waiting for! :D

I was Up 'till 2 in the morning writing this! I was sooo tired, but I did it just for you guys :D

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(If you didn't, it means who tops and who bottoms, Hikaru usually being on top, which is why he was surprised Kaoru was cast as the Pitcher since he always bottoms :) This is also why they didn't explain any of this to Haruhi^^)

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And with that, on with the story!

*Chapter 17*

*Just Keep Singing Those Lullabies*

-Tuesday night (Hitachiin Mansion)-

I got stuck washing Hikaru's burnt dishes...again.

Either he was going to learn how to cook or we were all going to die of carbon poisoning...

Wait...

Was that really possible?!

I shook my head, placing another dish on the rack "Why do we still let him cook?"

I heard voice next to me "How else is he gonna get better?"

"HOLY SHIT...DAD?! Stop sneaking up on me!"

"I've been here this whole time..."

"You...have?"

"Who do you think was rinsing and handing you the dishes?!"

"WHAT!?"

He retreated from kitchen crying "I'm never appreciated in this house!"

"I know your faking Dad!"

"So!"

I laughed and turned back to the sink.

I'm gonna miss these guys...

"You missed a spot."

I didn't even have to turn around to know who it was "No I didn't. You just forgot to burn the area next to it." I chuckled.

I could feel the daggers...

"Need any help?"

"Only if you feel like it." I replied, scooting over a bit so he could have some room to work, "I thought you were going on another date tonight?"

He poured more dishsoap into the water "Canceled it."

"WHA- Why?"

He turned towards me, grinning "I couldn't find an outfit that didn't have glass in it."

He was lying, but I understood what he meant.

He was finally moving on from us, taking his first few steps into the world around him, and I've found another way to stop him.

"Hikaru you don't have to stay here and watch over me. Go! Shoo! Have fun!"

I flicked him with water and he, in turn, dipped a bowl into the water and splashed me with it...

I stepped back from the sink and wrung out the front of my shirt.

Oh, it was on!

2 hours later and our kitchen looked like Aqualad had a showdown with two Waterbenders. (A/N Teen Titans and Avatar references :3 )

I raised my hand to move the dripping hair out of my face before turning to my brother "Rock Paper Scissors to see who cleans this up?"

"See ya Kao I'm late for my date!"

"Hikaru!"

"Oh John!~"

A few seconds past before our Butler entered the Kitchen, taking up a rather regal posture, looking around "You called Master Hitachiin?"

"You see this mess?" He grinned

"Yes."

"Good. Now find us a change of clothes, I'm leaving in 20 minutes and I'm helping Kaoru clean up."

He breathed a sigh of relief "Very well Master Hitachiin."

He left the room and Hikaru burst out laughing "Kaoru did you see the look on his face? Priceless!" He wiped a tear away "That's why I love messing with him so much!"

"Wait...so your really leaving?"

"Huh? Yeah, might as well...Come on let's clean this up."

-Wednesday (Hitachiin Mansion) 6:49am-

Today was the day, but...

What do I tell them?

I adjusted my tie in the mirror of the guest bedroom we have to sleep in while ours was being cleaned.

Huh...I never noticed before, but my reflection looks just like Kaoru.

I wonder if his looks like me...

I looked into this Kaoru's eyes, remembering a time when they use to be this bright.

Kaoru. Please...

...please don't fall asleep...

Stay with me...

-After School (5 Minutes Before Host Club)-

"Mommy...Do I really have to go shirtless in front of the princesses?"

"You did it for the Tuscan theme..."

"But mommy thats different! All I'm saying is-ACK-Hikaru watch were your going! Your getting feathers everywhere!"

"Sorry boss! Hey where's Kaoru?"

"Right here! Um...where's my apple?"

"Uh...I know it's here some- ah! Catch!"

"Thanks, is Haruhi dressed yet?"

"I think Haru-chan's still in the back room..."

"Here I am! How do I look?"

"Surprisingly...sexy."

"You shady twin, that's my DAUGHTER your gawking at!"

"SHUT UP TONO!"

"..."

"Ready Takashi?"

"Yeah...where's my spear?"

"Over by the couch. No the other one...yeah! Ok places people! The princesses will arrive at any moment!"

"Aye Aye Boss!"

And with that, the doors to the Host Club finally open, their guests walking into a world of Angels and Demons.

-Kaoru's POV-

Even though I was looking down at the apple in my hands I knew Hikaru was watching me, gazing at me as though he had found true love. It was part of the new script Kyoya and I wrote for today's theme. I was dressed in a lacquer black suit while Hikaru was dressed as an Angel in white.

Our guests had taken it apon themselves to pour their own tea, pleasently content with the looks of bliss and serenity on our faces, not wanting to distract us from our 'brotherly love', otherwise known as trying not to cockblock.

Eventually one just had to ask "Hikaru, why do your wings look so sickly and tattered? Did something happen to them?"

He looked away from me and smiled rather solomnly "It is forbidden by God for an angel to fall in love with a human. The deeper I fall in love the more feathers that fall."

I quickly turned to him pretending to be thoroughly concerned "I told you you have to leave me Hikaru! Without you wings, how will you ever fly back to heaven?"

"I can never go back. Your my greatest sin. I've fallen to earth for you, Kaoru. I love you so much I couldn't give a damn about these wings. They could be ripped from my back just so long as I can stay on Earth, with you Kaoru."

I clutched the apple tighter, "If what you say is true than this is our only hope. The forbidden fruit. Take a bite with me Hikaru, so we can be together in our sins."

He placed a hand over the apple in my hand and shook his head, "Kaoru, I can't let you taint a soul as pure as yours. I've already lost mine, the moment I gazed into your eyes."

I moved his hand and wrapped my arms around him, allowing him to return the embrace "Please! I know if I bite this apple I can never go to Heaven, but I don't want to spend eternity in a place your not allowed to go! I'll gladly cast my soul to Hell if it means I can be with you. If only for just a little longer..."

His face moved closer to mine as more feathers fell "Together..."

I brought the apple to our mouths "Forever..."

"THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL!"

We stopped and gave a side glance towards the girls before looking back at each other, smirking.

Too easy.

-Tamaki's POV-

Im cold...

We were doing an angels and demons theme today and I was a demon. My costume consisted of just a pair of wings and a pair of pants.

Mommy had turned the heat down so the adhesive on Hikaru's wings wouldn't melt. I don't know why! They were gonna fall out anyway!

I looked around the room, trying to get my mind off the cold, my eyes landing on Hikaru and Kaoru's table. They were doing a rendition of an old story about a female angel falling in love with a female human. Desperate to find a way to be together, they came across the forbidden fruit and each took a bite. The Angel became a human male and they were together for years until they were finally discovered by God and the woman was killed by his wraith. The angel than gave his life to save her, leaving behind nothing but a single, white feather.

Thus was the curse of the forbidden fruit, giving them the hope that they could be together for the rest of their lives before seperating them forever...hope, that caused them more pain than if the apple had just killed them to begin with.

Such a sad story...

I looked over to Hunny- and Mori-Senpai's table. Hunny was dressed as a little kid, eating a slice of cake while Mori stood over him dressed as an Angel. A Principality to be exact.

"Why are you carrying a spear? I thought angels were suppose to be non-violent?" A girl from their table asked Mori.

Hunny looked up from his cake and looked around "Who are you talking to?" He asked cutely, pretending not to see the giant man holding a spear behind him.

Mori looked at the confused girl and raised a finger to his lips "Shhh." He said quietly, "I'm his Guardian Angel."

The girl next to her turned to her friend and cupped a hand to her mouth, whispering "Oh I get it! They say your not suppose to be able to see your guardian angel until you truly need their help."

Hunny cocked his head to the side and smiled "Whats that about an Angel?"

I then looked at my lovely daughter Haruhi who was talking to Kyoya about who knows what.

They were also dressed as demons. Each wore an identical black suit and Ram horns, Haruhi's being smaller than Kyoya's.

I ran over and threw my arms around her, she just looked so cute!

"Get off me Senpai!"

"But you look so adorable!"

"Your gonna knock off my horns- hey sto- HELP ME!"

I just barely noticed Kyoya walk over to the music rooms double doors "Everyone, may I have your attention." He called out to the room, "I regret to inform you all that the Host Club will be closing early today." He finished, opening one of the doors and politely gesturing outside.

One by one the princesses filed out of the room, heartbroken. It hurt me to see them like that but it had to be done.

Now...How do we get Kaoru to follow them?

Just as the last one left Kyoya closed the door behind her and walked past me, headed back to his table. As he past I whispered "What about Kaoru?"

"Taken care of." He replied, never breaking stride.

I followed him to his table before looking back at the twins couch, watching Hikaru stand up to stretch, leaving a very confused Kaoru "Why are we ending club early?" Kaoru asked him.

Hikaru looked back down at his brother "No clue, but good thing too, I was running out of stuff to say!"

Just then there was a knock at the double doors.

Kyoya looked up from his laptop "Kaoru, could you get the door." He said in more of a telling tone than an asking one.

"What? Can't we have Haruhi do it?"

I could practically feel the evil aura emanating from Kyoya as he adjusted his glasses "Could you repeat that? I couldn't here you from all the way back here."

"I said sure thing Kyoya!"

Kaoru leapt off the couch and threw open the door "Hello and welcome to th-"

"I knew I'd find you here!"

"Sensei? What are you doing here?"

"I'm here to talk to you about your grades Mr. Hitachiin. Did you know your failing my class?"

"I am?! Wait I can exp-"

"There will be plenty of time for explanations AFTER we go see the principle."

"THE WHAT?!"

The last thing I saw was Kaoru being dragged off by his ear before Kyoya got back up to close the door again. His hand was still on the doorknob as he put the other one in his pocket and gave me a sideways glance "Taken care of."

I nodded, removing my costume wings and throwing on a shirt before running over to the whiteboard, moving it to the front of the room and grabbing a marker "Gentleman and Haruhi, Operation Spy-on-Kaoru-Until-We-Finally-Find-Out-Whats-Wrong-With-Him-And-Make-Him-Feel-Better-So-We-Can-All-Be-One-Big-Happy-Family-Again has drawn to a close. Now, who would like to go first?"

-Hikaru's POV-

Hunny and I walked over to our bags and pulled out our notebooks. Haruhi just pulled a simple piece of paper from her suit pocket while Kyoya pulled up something on his laptop.

I hadn't written anything about Kaoru since our trip to the amusement park, but none the less I decided to go first. I took off my wings, which barely had any feathers left and placed them on the nearest table, walking up to the board as Tono handed me the marker:

-Sleeps an average of 12 hours a day

-Feels like he's not 'there'

"12 hour? Are you serious?!" Haruhi exclaimed.

Tamaki raised a hand to his chin, thinking "What do you mean by not 'there'?"

I lowered the marker and looked down at the floor "I'm not sure. It just feels like he's not really there, like he's...a dream..."

I took a deep breath and continued to write:

-Constant stomach and back pain

I let out a sigh and gave the marker back to Tamaki "Thats everything."

No, it wasn't...

Tono looked over to Hunny "Would you like to go next Senpai?"

Hunny bounced up to the board and accepted the marker before shifting Usa-Chan under his left arm so he could flip through his stickered covered notebook before writing:

-Psychomotor Retardation

-Decreased Situational Awareness

This time it was Kyoya's turn to ask "Care to elaborate the second bullet, Senpai?"

"When Kao-chan was over my house last Friday he spaced out a lot, to the point of not even noticing when someone left or entered a room."

"I see."

He handed the marker back and took a seat next to his cousin.

"Your turn Mommy!" Tamaki beamed.

Kyoya pinched the bridge of his nose before taking the marker, scrolling his laptop one final time and walking up to the board:

-Random acts of Agression

I watched him toss the marker back. So I'm not the only one whose noticed how hostile Kaoru was becoming.

Tamaki turned to Haruhi "Have you noticed anything?"

Haruhi took her turn, coming to the board with her tiny piece of paper and writing:

-Indesicion

-Difficulty Concentrating

"Next is Mori-Senpai and then you, right Senpai?"

Tamaki nodded as Haruhi handed Mori the marker. Mori let out a sigh and stood up, laying his spear across the table before walking over and writing:

-Anxiety

-Keeps holding his wrist

-Keeps watching Hikaru

Hunny nodded his head "Now that you mention it, I've seen all that stuff too, Takashi."

I was too busy staring at the board to listen to what Hunny was saying "Keeps watching...me?"

I heard Hunny speak again "Yeah. Whenever he sneaks glances at you he always looks like he's about to cry. I wonder why? Hey isn't it your turn Tama-chan?"

Tono held out his hand as Mori handed him the marker. He then put the marker behind his ear and started flipping through his notebook.

He was the last one, you'd think he'd be ready by now!

FInally he found the page before reaching for the marker again:

-Irritability

-Doesn't have that same sparkle in his eyes

-Weight loss

-Hair is losing its sheen

-Just looks so sad all the time

He went on to write at least 7 more bullets on his posture alone before Kyoya went wide-eyed "That...can't be!"

Tono turned around "Oh it is! I keep telling him he needs to pull his shoulders back and walk with confidence instead o-"

"No you idiot...Look at his symptoms!" He said before going back over to his laptop and typing quicker than usual.

I looked over the bullet points again "It looks like...clinical depression."

Kyoya stopped typing, scrolling through whatever information he had pulled up "No, if I'm right, its not just depression. I thi-" he stopped talking, apparently he had found what he was looking for.

He kept alternating his gaze from the board to his laptop and back at the board again, comparing. Kyoya shook his head "I was right." He looked up at us "There are actually different forms of clinical depression. What Kaoru has...is know as psychotic depression."

The room stood still at the word psychotic, Kyoya looked back at his laptop screen and continued, "It's a special form of severe depression in which the individual experiences psychotic symptoms. Psychotic depression is characterized by not only depressive symptoms, but also by delusions, a break from reality...irrational thoughts and fears, an entire breakdown in their thought process."

"Delusions..." I whispered, more to myself than anyone else.

"It's getting harder and harder to tell whats real anymore..."

"I need help..."

"Paranoid delusions or delusions of guilt may be the most common psychotic symptom. Patients who experience delusional guilt may believe that they are being punished for past misdeeds or are responsible for problems they couldn't possibly be responsible

"Dont you ever get tired of always being around me?"

"Because I'm too big a part, Hikaru. A little time away from me will do you some good, you cou-"

"Whenever he sneaks glances at you he always looks like he's about to cry."

"Don't pretend like you don't know whats going on!"

"Together forever, IS THAT IT?! Seperate from the rest of the world? 'Us' and 'them'?! Locked in our on little world?"

"People with psychotic depression may be humiliated or ashamed of the thoughts and try to hide them. Doing so makes this type of depression very difficult to diagnose. Diagnosis is extremely important because one episode of psychotic depression increases the chance of bipolar disorder, recurring episodes of psychotic depression, mania, and even...suicide..."

"I just wanna go to sleep and forget everything..."

Kaoru...

Why were you lying to me?

The entire room turned towards me, staring at me as if I had already lost him.

"Hikaru." Kyoya spoke, "Are you telling us everything you know?"

I bit my lip and took a step back.

Kyoya took this as my answer "Hikaru, please. I know there are things that you two would only share with each other, things you would take to your graves, but please, you have to tell us what he told you! His life could be act stake!"

"I can't! I can't just throw away his trust like that..."

I covered my face with my hands and sat in the nearest chair, rubbing my face, still unsure of what to do. Kyoya fell silent again, giving me time to think.

Why was this so DIFFICULT?

I drew in another deep breath.

Kaoru...

...I'm so sorry...

(A/N) Did I write a cliffhanger again? Im being a butt again, lol

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