This chapter was really hard to write for me, but I hope it turned out well XD.
Chapter 10 - Conversation
I was walking through the forest originally planning to go back to my friends, but sometimes things don't go as you plan. I was thinking about a lot of things.
About Mai. It must be really hard for her to not be able to speak, but she seemed fine. The people in her village gave me very positive impression and I am sure that they care a lot about each other. She is lucky for living in such village. She could be easily bullied for being different but I don't think that it is her case.
I was thinking about myself. It's not so long ago when I was just an ordinary girl. Then I started to travel back to feudal era and became part of very extraordinary group. I was thrown into the world where demons weren't just part of fairy tales, but where they were real. That was hard to accept on it's own and at that time I didn't even know about the most shocking fact about my life.
Not only that I was forced to believe that demons are real, I had to fight against them. And when I finally got accustomed to this, I've practically became part of them. Not only part of the world where demons lived, but part of the demons themselves. How much can one single human girl take before she'll get mad?
I know that I am no longer just a human girl. I never was, but I didn't know about that. I'm a half-demon. And the most confusing thing about it is that my father is the older brother of my best friend. When did my life start to be so complicated?
When I was born? When I fell to the well for the first time? Or was it when Sesshoumaru from my era told me that I am his daughter? I sighed and for the first time after I left that village I checked my surroundings. I didn't have the slightest idea about where am I, but what caught my attention was the group walking on the way towards me.
Three demons and one little girl. Another extraordinary group of this era. The more that the leader of the group Sesshoumaru can't stand any other human except for Rin. I always wondered why is that, but I doubt he would answer me. I waited in the middle of the way and when they came closer, Sesshoumaru stopped in front of me and the rest did as well. All sets of eyes focused at me.
"Hi." I said nervously, not sure about how will he react and looked in his eyes.
'What does she think she's doing. And why does she must look like this.' He thought and it remained me of my appearance and my newly got power.
"What do you want?" He asked instead and I smiled.
"I kind of got lost and when I saw you I thought I could join you for a while. At least until we meet with Inuyasha." I said hopefully. "You know, I am not quite used to my powers yet, so I need to focus to use them properly and I thought about anything else and then found myself to be lost." I added a little of explanation and waited for his answer.
"That's not my problem." He snapped and I sighed.
"I know it's not your problem." 'At least not yet.' I added to myself. "But please, let me stay with you. It's just for a while. I promise I won't bother you." I pleaded.
'Just your presence is bothering enough, but I doubt you would listen if I said no.'
"Do as you wish." He answered aloud and I had a hard time not to laugh. Surprisingly, I didn't have problem to say what are thoughts and what is said aloud, but I had problem not to react at the thoughts. I didn't want to look insane again so I had to keep myself under control. I stepped beside Rin and we started to walk.
"Kagome? What happened to you, you look like Lord Sesshoumaru." Rin asked and I was sure that Sesshoumaru just snorted, though no one else could notice it. Of course, she and Jaken weren't with him when I told him about our relationship and I was sure he wouldn't talk about it with them.
"It's a little complicated, maybe I'll explain it to you later." I told her and she nodded. She was such a nice child and I wondered how did she end up on Sesshoumaru's side.
"How did you join Sesshoumaru?" I asked and she looked at me.
'No one ever asked me about anything from my past.' I noticed her uncertainty on her face and even in her thoughts and I wasn't sure if she will want to talk about it with me, but then she smiled widely. 'That's great!' I smiled but turned my gaze away from her and instead watched the way in front of me. I didn't want to hear her thoughts, I didn't need to anyway and so I listened to her and just sometimes glanced at her.
"I met him for the first time when I was in the forest to pick up some flowers." She started happily, but then her smile faded a little. "I didn't have anyone at that time so I wanted to help him, but he refused my help." She said sadly.
"Yeah, that sounds like him." I said and we both chuckled. I knew he heard it too, but he didn't do or say anything. It surprised me, but I didn't have much time to think about it.
"But I didn't give up." Rin continued smiling again. "I tried everything what came to my mind. I even went to the fish preserve in our village to catch some fish for him, but the people from the village caught me and they did beat me up."
"You was beaten just because of a fish?" I asked. But I was more surprised that she was beaten because she was trying to help Sesshoumaru and she is still hanging around him. She is really amazing.
"I didn't mind that, I was just sad that I couldn't keep the fish for Lord Sesshoumaru. I returned to him in the morning after that. I brought him something else, but he refused it before I could even offer it to him. At that time I was really sad, but then he asked me about what happened to me."
"He did?" I asked in awe. I couldn't imagine this Sesshoumaru to be concerned about someone.
"Uh huh." She nodded happily. "After my family passed away, no one ever cared about my well-being so at that time I was really happy."
"It must have been hard to live without family." I said compassionately.
"Sometimes it was, but I knew how to take care of myself." She answered.
"And then you joined Sesshoumaru?" I returned to her story.
"No, after that I returned back to the village, I was really happy, but when I came to my hut, there was someone in there. Someone whom I never saw before. He ate up all my food and he was really scary." She shivered and paused for a while.
"What happened next?" I asked.
"Then that man was killed by some guy with wolfs and he then told the wolfs to attack the village." She paused again, but this time I didn't force her to continue. I had enough of my own thoughts this time. Was it Kouga who killed that man and attacked the village?
"The wolfs were attacking everyone in the village, so I ran to the forest." She started again. "I wanted to go to Lord Sesshoumaru because I knew he was the only one who could protect me, but I stumbled and fell on the ground. At that time I only managed to turn over and saw the wolfs running to me to attack me. I was sure I was going to die."
"And Sesshoumaru saved you?" I asked, but she shook her head.
"I don't know what exactly happened, but when I woke up Lord Sesshoumaru was beside me and when he then walked away, I just followed him. He didn't say anything to me but I didn't have anywhere else to go anyway, so I decided to go with him."
I paused. Rin wouldn't have a chance against the wolfs and if Sesshoumaru didn't save her at that time, then they must have killed her for sure. But that would also mean, that Sesshoumaru must have used the Tenseiga to bring her back to life. I ran to the front and stepped in front of him which made him stop once again.
'What does she want this time.' He thought and I took a deep breath.
"I am sorry, but may I ask you a question?" I started.
'You will ask anyway, so why do you need my permission?' I almost chuckled, but decided that it will be better to wait for what he will say and not just depend on what he thinks.
"Just one." He said shortly and I smiled.
"Did you actually bring Rin to life with the Tenseiga?" I was almost sure he won't answer me, but he didn't know that I can get my answers even without him saying it. There was quite a long pause before he answered and during that time I listened carefully to the flow of his thoughts.
'Is she really asking me if I revived Rin from the death or not? Why is she asking this? What use it would have for her to know that?'
"Why is that concern of yours?" He asked instead of the answer.
"I am just curious why would someone like you want to save a human girl like Rin."
'Is that all? Just why did I do that?' He glanced at Rin and then turned back at me again. '… I don't regret that decision.' I couldn't hear his thoughts when he was turned away, but the last thought I was able to catch before he spoke to me was the most interesting. He doesn't regret saving Rin. He doesn't regret saving human and that's definitely something.
"That's none of your business." He stated and something else hit me right away.
"May I ask another question? It's the last one." I asked again. I was sure that if he was capable of doing it, he would roll his eyes. But this time I didn't wait for his answer, said or not.
"Why didn't you stop us when we were talking with Rin? If you did so, I wouldn't bother you with my questions now." I smirked and waited for his response.
'I was curious about Rin's life too. She never talked about how she lived before and it never occurred to me to ask her.' I smiled unconsciously but quickly put on serious face again as he started to talk.
"That's enough, we have to go." He ordered and when he started to walk again, I instinctively stepped out of his way. I watched him as he was walking away and I smiled widely. This surely was very interesting conversation.