KATNISS
It seems like rain is a fickle friend.
We never had a chance to walk in the rain again, sharing an umbrella.
Rainy days have gone and our stolen moments are slowly dwindling.
I feel guilty everyday hearing my friend talk about him, how much she likes him.
"Katniss, I really like Peeta. What should I do? He is my bestfriend" Madge asked me in confidence one day.
"Why don't you tell him then" I said.
Why is she bothering me with such questions. Can she not decide for herself? She already has the upper hand being his bestfriend and all. My jealous heart was acting up.
"You really think I should?" she asked again.
Why bother asking then? But despite of my jealousy, I decided to be a friend to her.
"Well, it depends on how you look at the situation. It would be great if he feels the same way about you but could you risk losing him as your bestfriend if things don't go well with your confession?"
"But not saying anything at all is cowardly right? I could not live with myself knowing I did not try everything I could for the person I like. I'd feel better saying what I feel even if I come out empty handed" she said.
"There now, you have your answer then" I said.
"Thanks Katniss, for listening and for the advice. You are such a good friend" she said and hugged me.
I hugged her and patted her back. "Goodluck" I said.
Am I a good friend? I don't know. Friends don't stab each others back. And so I decided to back down.
I admired her courage. Maybe she deserves him more than me. Because I am a coward and because I can live with my life not speaking up for the person I like.
What is with me and troubled souls? I seem to attract them like bee to honey. I could probably open up shop for people with love dilemmas and make a fortune.
Peeta came to me one day asking for advice.
"Katniss, can I ask you something?"
Shoot! What does he want? "What about?" I asked curious of what he wants to say.
"Well, you seemed like someone I could talk to. I have a problem, it's about a girl." He said shyly.
Oh! a girl. It figures. "Why? What's wrong?"
"You see I like a girl and I don't know if she likes me back" he said.
He already likes a girl, I didn't know. "Is this girl close to you?"
"Yes. But I don't know how to tell her. I'm afraid that if I tell her I might ruin our friendship" he said.
So he likes her back. I felt something plummet in my tummy. "Then maybe you shouldn't" I said, jealousy is rearing its ugly head again. Thinking of the two of them together, I tried to fight back the tears.
"But what if we were meant to be?" he said.
"Then wait for her to tell you she likes you" I said. Because she will.
"Isn't confessing a man's job?" he said.
"In this instance, when you are afraid to risk your friendship with her then wait for her to give you a sign that your feelings are reciprocated."
"You think so?" he asked uncertainly.
"Yeah, it's the best way to save face in case she doesn't" I said trying to kid around.
"Hey! I'm being serious here" he said.
"When you're meant to be, you're meant to be. Love always finds a way" I said.
"Thank you. I'll trust your words" he said.
"Sure. What are friends for?" I said.
What are friends for? I am stepping back for the two of them, wishing them all the happiness, forsaking mine.
PEETA
I was so confused with her hot and cold demeanor. I decided to seek her to figure her out in the guise of asking for advice.
"Katniss, can I ask you something?" I said.
"What about?" she asked with curiousity written all over her face.
I felt embarrassed to tell her "Well, you seemed like someone I could talk to. I have a problem, it's about a girl."
"Why? What's wrong?"
"You see I like a girl and I don't know if she likes me back" I said, but what I actually meant was I like you but I don't know if you like me too.
"Is this girl close to you?" she asked.
Has she guessed it? "Yes. But I don't know how to tell her. I'm afraid that if I tell her I might ruin our friendship" I said.
"Then maybe you shouldn't" she said.
Is she serious? Is she testing me? "But what if we were meant to be?" I said, anticipating her answer.
"Then wait for her to tell you she likes you" she said.
Is she really planning on making things difficult for me? "Isn't confessing a man's job?" I said.
"In this instance, when you are afraid to risk your friendship with her then wait for her to give you a sign that your feelings are reciprocated." She said
"You think so?" I asked uncertainly. Would she really?
"Yeah, it's the best way to save face in case she doesn't" she said trying to kid around.
"Yah! I'm being serious here" I said, frustrated of her denseness.
"When you're meant to be, you're meant to be. Love always finds a way" she said.
"Thank you. I'll trust your words" I said, hoping she is right.
"Sure. What are friends for?" she said.
I winced. She didn't know she hurt me already.
KATNISS
I saw them again about a week later, they looked happy together. I decided to avoid them, to make the pain easier to bear. That day I lost 2 friends and the boy I like.
It looks like the time for rain is over. Another friend has ditched me.
Love is running a dry spell.