I got home that day and told Ben what had happened. He said that it was the stupidest thing he had ever heard.

"Yeah I also got asked if I have a boyfriend."

"What? By who? I will rip them apart."

"Oh shut up Ben. It's no big deal. It was just some boy that thought if he had a werewolf for a girlfriend people would be too afraid to pick on him anymore. It was kind of sweet."

"I would not call it sweet."

"Are you jealous Ben?"

"Damn right I am. You are mine."

"Well no shit sherlock. What gave you the first clue?"

"That is it you little smart ass."

He picked me up and threw me on the couch and started tickling me. I laughed until I thought I was going to pee my pants. That's when I threw my arms around him and kissed him. He stopped and put his arms around me.

"I love you. Only you for the rest of my life. Think you can handle that?"

"Of course I can. I love you Phee."

"Will you two get a room?"

"We are in a room Jesse."

"Well how about getting one were no one can walk in and see that."

"We aren't doing anything. We have all our clothes on."

"Yeah only because of an order from my dad."

"No that's not the only reason. That doesn't even cross my mind."

Jesse looked at Ben and so did I. I could see the hurt in his eyes.

"I have to go."

"Ben wait."

I tried to stop him but he was gone. I came back in with tears in my eyes

"Fuck. I just royally fucked up."

"No you didn't Phee. Everything is going to be fine."

"Jesse you saw the hurt in his eyes and I don't know how to fix it."

"He understands Phee."

"DOES HE REALLY JESSE! I BASICALLY JUST TOLD HIM I LOVE YOU BUT THE THOUGHT OF HAVING SEX WITH YOU MAKES MY SICK."

"Does the thought make you sick?"

"No it doesn't make me sick. It's just. I don't know they took something from me that I can never get back. They took the one part of me that I could give to someone else. You know."

"You mean you were a virgin?"

"Yes I was. I'm not any more."

"Have you talked to Ben about any of this?"

"No and I'm pretty sure that he's not going to want to talk about it now."

"Try me."

"Ben."

"I told you I wasn't going anywhere. That no matter what I would be here. Plus Jesse called me."

"I'm going to go. Anywhere but here."

"So you heard?"

"Every word. Believe me I understand."

"How could you understand?"

"Phee not a lot of people know this about me but I was abused as a child. My mother would sell me to the highest bidder for a night. I know what it's like to feel helpless. In fact only Adam and Mercy know."

"Yeah that is the worst feeling in the world. I thought since I was a werewolf I would never feel like that. And when I said that the thought had never crossed my mind, I didn't mean it like it sounded. It's just since the rape I feel like why bother the one thing I wanted to give you they took."

"Phee I don't care about that."

"Really because I do want you. Believe me I do."

"I know you do. I can smell it."

"Fuck you Ben!"

"We can't you aren't eighteen. See I knew I could get you to smile."

"And that is one of the things I love about you."