I don't own the vampire diaries and I don't own the characters.
I don't own the song. Not every chapter will have one but some might.
This takes place after they find the cure and do the spell on Elena. I'm not sure if I'll continue it but I've had it stuck in my head for a while so why not give it a shot?
The main POV's will be Damon, Elena, and Stefan. You might get it from Jeremy or Caroline every now and then.
Enjoy.
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-Everything's not lost-
Stefan's POV

"He's gone Stefan. I can't find Damon." He should have been there. I didn't spend the last months searching for the cure for her, I did it for him. He deserved to have what he wanted, he's overcome so much and it was all because of her. He did so much to find her the cure so that he could give her what she deserved, to be human and grow up, so why did he just leave? Except now it had been for nothing, she wasn't human, just un-sired. I should have been happy but seeing the broken hearted look on her face as I told her what Jeremy had told me, it wrecked me. For the first time I realized that she does love my brother just as fiercely as he loves her.

If you ever feel neglected
If you think all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons
Hoping everything's not lost
When you thought that it was over
You could feel it all around
Everybody's out to get you
Don't you let it drag you down
Cause if you ever feel neglected
If you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons
Hoping everything's not lost

It wasn't the sire bond, he has to know. I call him over and over trying to get a hold of him, nothing. I check everywhere that he has lived in the past, not a sign of him. Every day I see her and she looks worse. Things are tense between us, it's because he's not here. I know that now, he was always the connection between us after Elena and I broke up.

"Stefan, when you left with Klaus he was worried about you. Now you sit here like nothing is wrong. Damon is gone and you aren't even trying to bring him back. What kind of brother are you?" Those six words are what made me do what I never wanted to.

I grabbed her and threw her at the wall, and let the monster in me come out. "I'm Damon's brother! We hurt each other! Over and over! He'll come back eventually. Let him go Elena! He doesn't want you or me anymore!" I was sent flying towards the fireplace.

"No! Excuses Stefan, that's all that is!" She was growling at me as she picked me up and tossed me across the room. "I know you want to find him, why not let yourself admit it!"

"Because, I don't want to find him Elena!" I ran to her and held her throat against the floor. "I'm tired of being the good brother! Let. Him. Go. Stop looking for him! He doesn't love you, he left you! He doesn't want you Elena anymore than he wanted Caroline, or Andie, or Rose! You were just a toy to Damon!" She was crying, I should have hated to make her cry but I didn't.

Pain. I grab my head and Elena coughs to catch her breath. "I will take you out Stefan if you hurt Elena again. Do I make myself clear?" Bonnie. I should have known. I forgot we weren't alone. I looked at Elena once the aneurysm healed and saw Jeremy and Caroline standing protectively in front of her.

"Crystal, Bonnie. Get out of my house. All of you." I turn and at vampire speed run up to my room. I hear them all leave and then I lose it.

When I'm counting up my demons
Saw there was one for every day
With the good ones on my shoulder
I drove the other ones away

Everything within reaching distance is either thrown or torn. I curse Damon for leaving. Elena is right, he is my brother and I should want to find him. What she can't know, what I can't tell her, is that I have no clue how. Damon was always the one to find me. I was never able to find him, unless he wanted me to. I should enlist help but from who? I don't know of anyone, human or vampire or even werewolf, who would be able to find Damon. Katherine. Part of me almost calls her to help, but I decide against it. Of course I know she'd know right where to find Damon, but I know that in the end he and Elena would both hate me for involving Katherine.

The days pass slow as I watch Elena tear the boarding house apart looking for some clue as to where Damon would go. We don't talk. Talking only leads to fighting and I really don't want Bonnie to kill me if I hurt Elena, and part of me doesn't want to hurt her because I know Damon would kill me. After nearly 3 months of silence we talk again. She asks for my help and I respond the only way I know how, fighting. I throw the sire bond in her face in hopes that she will just leave, leave me to miss my brother by myself. It's hard enough to know that I miss him but to see her broken face day after day is another kind of hurt entirely. Just like I knew she would she fights back with her words and I know she's not going to leave until I deliver the lowest blow I can.

I gather all my strength, physically and emotionally, and throw her back towards the hallway. "I don't want him home Elena! I don't want to see you with him! I don't want to see him touch the woman I still love!" I said it. I admitted it. I still love Elena Gilbert, that's why it hurts to much to see her broken. My brother broke her and I can't fix her. That's the only part that isn't a lie. I'd gladly watch my brother with Elena, watch him hold her and kiss her and make her happy if it meant that she wouldn't be broken. Yet, with my nearly 150 years of practice I lie perfectly to her and she believes it.

I'm thrown into the chair I've taken to sulking in and she yells back at me just as fiercely. "Then make a choice Stefan! Don't walk around here and hold out hope that I'll come back to you because I'm sorry but I won't. If you don't want to see me with Damon when he comes home; and yes I will find him and bring him home, then make the choice to leave." I watch her as she walks out of my home. I know she won't be back, at least not today. I wait until I hear her car pull onto the road and out of hearing range before I answer her.

"I won't leave Elena. I don't want you back. The only hope I'm holding onto is that my brother might come to his senses sooner rather than later and come back to you. I'm choosing to wait for that day to come and when it does maybe both of us can be friends and move past everything." I pour myself a strong drink and head for my room. When I get there I can feel that something is different. Someone was in here and it wasn't Elena. I quickly scan the room and find a piece of paper on my desk.

STEFAN-
I FOUND DAMON.
I'M GOING TO BRING HIM HOME.
LOOK OUT FOR ELENA.
I'M TRUSTING YOU.
-JEREMY

Found Damon?
Jeremy found Damon?
How?
Of course, I'd look out for Elena.
I don't realize I'm smiling until I finally sit down.
For the first time in months I let myself have hope that Jeremy will succeed in bringing Damon home. Hope that maybe the next time I see Elena she won't look broken, she'll look happy, and Damon will be with her. Hope that maybe everything will be okay now.

If you ever feel neglected
If you think all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons
Hoping everything's not lost