I just finished season two(I know I'm really late but I just started watching it.) so I haven't seen how Spencer takes care of Emily after Maya's death. I just gone by what I would and have done for my best friends.. It really does pain Spencer to show so much weakness, we all know she let to be strong and not show when she's hurt or upset, so this is definitely OOC for her .. Thank you for reading and reviewing the last chapter, glad y'all are liking it so far. I'm sorry for the wait on the chapter it took longer than I thought to write it. Again sorry for any mistakes. Hope you enjoy :) xoxo
Emily's phone rings causing the two girls to pull apart. "It'll just take a minute."Emily says pulling her phone out and walking out the room. "Hello." Emily answers not bothering to look at who it is."Hey baby are we still on for tonight?"Ben asked on the other end sounding hopeful. Emily frowned, she had forgot she made plans with Ben. "Ben, I'm sorry but something came up and I can't make it tonight." Emily says earning a sigh from Ben. "whatever." And with that he hung up on her. Emily sighs and shuts her phone, looking up to see Spencer standing in the doorway to her room. "You could have went Emily I'm okay."Spencer says throwing in a smile to make it more believable.
Spencer wasn't okay but she wanted to be strong. She hated herself for being so weak in front of them. Emily walked towards Spencer and placed a hand on her shoulder. "You don't have to act strong Spence it's just me" Emily whispers. "I have to be strong I'm a Hastings it's who I am." "Dammit Spencer, Hastings is just your last name, it doesn't define who you are, crying and breaking down isn't weakness it means you've been strong for far too long." Emily says making Spencer look her in the eyes. Spencer turned around and walked back into the bedroom. Emily sighs again and rubs her temples before going after Spencer.
"You don't understand Emily, we were raised different, in your family its okay to cry but its not in mine, my parents look down on that, in the Hastings family it's all about reputation, to have a good reputation you can't show weakness." Spencer says staring at a picture of her and her parents. "Your not like your parents or your sister, you don't care what people think about you, your better than them, your only human Spence you can't be strong all the time."Emily says standing next to Spencer.
"I care what my best friends think."Spencer says taking Emily's hand in hers. "We don't think your weak Spencer, If anyone of us were in your place, we wouldn't get out of bed, we wouldn't find reasons to smile or laugh but you have, even on your worse day your stronger than us on are best."Hanna says from behind them. Spencer wipe a tear away and turned to smile at Hanna. "Thank you Ha."Spencer says hugging Hanna. "Come on Aria is done with lunch."Hanna says smiling at Spencer and walking out the room. Spencer and Emily follow her into the kitchen, where Aria was setting plates on the bar. The whole barn smelled of spaghetti, Spencer's favorite. "Aria this smells and looks amazing."Spencer says taking at the bar with the girls. "Thank you."Aria saying taking a bite of the food, the other three girls did the same. "God I haven't had spaghetti this good in a long time."Emily says taking another bite. The other girls hummed their agreements.
They ate in silence, all of them wrapped up in their own thoughts. Hanna was wondering what she would do if she was in Spencer's place. Aria was thinking about Ezra, would he ever do something like this to her? They felt bad for thinking of themselves instead of Spencer but they couldn't help it. Emily was thinking of ways to help Spencer get through this and ways to make her believe in love again. Spencer was wondering how she was going to face Alex at school tomorrow and the rest of the school year. Spencer's heart started to race and ache when she thought about having to face Alex. They had every class together, and they were both on the Lacrosse team. Spencer pushed her plate away when she felt she might get sick. She got off the stool and ran to the bathroom. The girls stared after her for a second before following. Hanna tried opening the bathroom door but Spencer had locked it. The girls shared an uneasy glace then knock on the door. "Spencer are you okay?"Aria ask. They could hear the sounds of Spencer throwing up, which was causing Hanna to feel sick herself. "Take her in the other room, I got Spencer."Emily says knocking on the door again. Aria leads Hanna into the living room making her sit on the couch while Aria got her some water.
"Spencer it's just me now, open the door please."Emily begs. She hears movement then the door swings open, Spencer moves back to the toilet just in time to throw up again. Emily rushes to her side, pulling her hair out of her face and into a ponytail. Emily grabbed a towel from under the sink and wet it with warm water before handing to Spencer when she was finished. Spencer wiped her mouth, stood and went about brushing her teeth. Emily watched her for a few minutes, worried about her best friend. "I'm fine." Spencer says meeting Emily's eyes in the mirror. 'How could she say she's fine when she justgot donepuking?' Emily thought to herself. "How is throwing up in any way fine."Emily asked leaning on the bathroom door, her eyes never leaving Spencer's. "I just got upset, I'm fine now, don't worry."Spencer say calmly, making Emily mad. "It's too late Spence I'm worried."Emily whispers. Spencer turned to her and gave her a sad smile.
"I'm sorry I made you worry, I just…I just."Spencer paused and looked away from Emily. Emily softly grabbed Spencer's chin and made Spencer look at her. "I got upset about having to face Alex and Paige tomorrow, really upset and I just got sick." Spencer finishes looking down. Emily knew it was hard for Spencer to be this vulnerable even when it's just her best friends. "I know this is hard for you but thank you for opening up."Emily says pulling Spencer into a hug. Spencer buried her face in the crook of Emily's neck and cried softly. "I'm broken Em, I'm in pieces."Spencer whispers. "I'll put you back together I promise, no matter what it takes."Emily says pulling away and looking into Spencer's beautiful brown eyes. Emily couldn't help but notice how beautiful Spencer was, even when hair was in a messy ponytail, eyes red from crying and dressed in just a t-shirt and a pair of boxers. Even when Spencer was broken she was still beautiful to Emily. "What would I do without you Fields?"Spencer asked leaving the bathroom. "Die?"Emily joked causing Spencer to roll her eyes.
Spencer walked into the kitchen and started cleaning up after lunch. Everyone had finished but Spencer. "Spencer?" Aria called from the living room. Spencer turned looking at her friend's worried faces, She sighs and walks to them. "Guy I'm going to be okay, just give me time."Spencer says. "We're just worried Spencer."Aria says getting up to help Spencer clean up the kitchen. "We're here for you Spencer."Hanna says
Hours past and night fell over Rosewood, the four friends sat on Spencer's king size bed, a glass of wine in their hand, as they watched Emily's favorite Zombie movie. "Ugh why do we have to watch a movie with so much gore?"Hanna asked setting her glass down and picking up a cold soda from the nightstand. "Hanna shut up."Emily says flicking popcorn at her. Hanna rolls her eyes and turns back to the t.v. as a zombie bites into a guy's cheek, then rips it off. Hanna never liked zombie movies but they were one of Emily's favorite and Spencer had pick it out. They had fought for a good movie over what movie to watch, Aria and Hanna both wanted to watch a romantic movie but Emily told them that was the last thing Spencer needed right now.
Spencer got off the bed, grabbing her wine glass from the nightstand and made her way out the door. Emily watched Spencer leave, wondering if she should follow. Spencer was never like this, she had her heart broken before but it was never this bad. Emily wondered if Spencer would ever recover from this.
Spencer walked into the kitchen, on a mission to get drunk and forget about her pain even if just for the night. She took the bottle of Tequila out the cabinet and headed out to the pool. She took a swig from the bottle, it burned her throat as it went down but she didn't care. Spencer grabbed her forgotten guitar from earlier that day, walking to the edge of the pool, she sat down. She put her feet in the cold water and stared at the stars, wondering if Alex was looking at them too. Spencer took another swig from the bottle, setting it down beside her afterwards. She positions her fingers on the frets of the guitar and starts to play 'A perfectly good heart' by Taylor Swift. She sang along as she played stopping every few second to drink from the tequila next to her.
Ten minutes past and Spencer hadn't returned to the bedroom and the girls were starting to worry again. "Should we go find her?"Emily asked. "She might need us." Emily looked at Aria and Hanna who just shrugged their shoulders and got up. "I'm sure she's fine but its wouldn't hurt to make sure."Aria says leaving the bedroom. Hanna and Emily follow her into the living room, they didn't see Spencer but the front door was open. They stepped out into the night. They heard the sounds of Spencer singing and playing the guitar. They follow the music to the pool. They didn't say anything or move when they reached the pool, they just watched and listened to Spencer. Aria spotted the now empty bottle of tequila laying next to Spencer on the ground, she quietly pointed it out to the girls and they just nodded. Even when drunk Spencer played and sung beautifully. The three girls were captivated by Spencer's singing, not moving or speaking for fear of disturbing Spencer. They've heard her sing and play countless of times but never with this much raw emotion.
"Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart? Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart, now? Why would you wanna make the very first scar? Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?" Spencer sang the last part of the song as tears ran down her face, falling in a small puddle on her guitar. She put her head down and cried harder, hugging the guitar to her body. Drinking didn't numb her pain, it only made it worse. Sobs racked through Spencer's chest as the girls moved to her side. Hanna sat down next to Spencer grabbing her hand and holding it tight trying to hold back tears. She wonder how anyone could be so cruel to another person, how they could say they love someone and then go and break their heart like it's nothing.
Aria sat on the other side of Spencer, she took the guitar out of Spencer's arms and laid it on the ground beside them. She took Spencer's other hand, thinking the same thing as Hanna, she wasn't holding back her tears, she cried along with Spencer. She cried for Spencer and for not knowing how to help her. Emily side behind Spencer, putting her legs on both sides of her. She wrapped her arms around Spencer's toned waist, hugging the smaller girl into her body. "We've got you Spence."Emily whispers into Spencer's ear.
Spencer cried harder while her friends held her, surrounding her with love. Spencer could feel the affects of the tequila start to take over her body. She could no longer hold herself upright, she let all of her weight into Emily. Had they not shown up she might have ended up in the pool head first. 'not your best plan Hastings' She thought to herself. Aria and Hanna laid their heads on Spencer's shoulders and hummed a soft tune to relax her. Emily rubbed soft circles on Spencer's stomach, whispering to her that everything would be okay.
Spencer's cries turned into ragged breaths. "I'm sorry." Spencer whispers. "Nothing to be sorry for honey."Aria says playing with Spencer's fingers. "I couldn't stay strong, I let y'all down."Spencer says slurring a few of her words. "You didn't let us down Spencer." Hanna says sitting up and making Spencer look her in the eyes. Spencer's eyes were glazed over from her tears and the tequila. Spencer didn't say anything, she just let her heavy eyelids close. "help me get her inside."Emily says getting up and bringing Spencer with her. Hanna being bigger than Aria, who was only 5'2, wrapped an arm around Spencer's waist, helping Emily get her inside. Aria grabbed the guitar and the empty bottle and walked inside after them.
They half carried. Half dragged Spencer to her room. "This would be so much easier if it wasn't dead weight."Hanna groans putting Spencer on the bed. Emily rolls her eyes and smacks Hanna upside the head. She tucks Spencer's into bed, kissing her forehead and whispering good night to her. Emily went to shower and head to bed with Spencer after. Aria and Hanna went into the guest bedroom, they climbed into the bed together facing each other. "What are we gonna do Aria?"Hanna asked. "we just have to be her for her and make her smile and laugh everyday and make sure she knows she's loved."Aria says turning onto her back. "That we can do, goodnight Ari." Hanna says closing her eyes and slowly drifting off to sleep, Aria following right behind her.
AT 6:00 A.M. the alarm in Spencer's room went off causing Spencer to stir. Spencer rolled over and reached blindly for the alarm clock. Her head was pounding and she couldn't remember a thing from last night. "Spence turn it off."Emily moans rolling over, pulling the blankets off Spencer as she did. "I'm trying Em."Spencer says getting out of bed. She swayed slighty and grabbed the nightstand for balance. She finally turned the alarm off and crawled back into bed next to Emily.
Emily threw the blankets over Spencer and pulled her close. "Ugh my head is killing me."Spencer groans pulling a pillow over her head trying to block out the sun light coming in from the window. Emily pulls her arms from around Spencer, sits up and laughs. "That's what happens when you drink a bottle of tequila by yourself."Emily says getting out of bed and walking into Spencer's master bathroom. She looked through the medicine cabinet for a bottle of aspirin, finding it a few seconds later. She opened the bottle and took two pills out, then filled a glass with water. She made her way back into the bedroom and handed the water and pills to Spencer.
Spencer downed the pills and water and laid back on the bed. "Remind me to never drink again." She says as Hanna bounces into the room, too cheerful for Spencer's liking. "Good morning Spencer!"Hanna sings in a high pitched voice causing Spencer to groan. Hanna laughs at Spencer and heads into Spencer's closet. "What are you doing?"Spencer asked sitting up. "Picking something sexy out for you to wear."Hanna says throwing a pair of black skinny jeans at Spencer. Hanna looked through Spencer's shirts landing on a black button up shirt, she also grab a neon green tie before she leaves the closet and re enters the bedroom. "This will make Alex regret losing someone as sexy as you for someone like Paige."Hanna says smirking, she hands Spencer the shirt and tie then takes a seat on the bed. Aria comes into the room, showered and dressed for school, carrying a tray with four coffee cups on it. "Here drink this and get in the shower, you smell like tequila and Emily."Aria says handing Spencer a cup of coffee. Spencer smelled her shirt and she did indeed smell like tequila and Emily. Emily always smelled of chlorine and lavender. It was a smell all her own and one that Spencer loved, it always made her feel safe. Spencer usually smelled of coffee, on the count of she's always drinking it. Emily swears that one day Spencer will bleed coffee.
Spencer drank her coffee, gathering the clothes Hanna picked out along with a black bra and black boy shorts. She went into the bathroom, shutting the door behind her. She slowly undressed, stopping to drink her coffee as she did. She ran her water and waited for it to warm up before stepping in. Spencer thoughts turned to Alex and a few tears slid down her face, mixing with the water.
Spencer got out the shower ten minutes later. She dried off and pulled her boy shorts, bra and jeans on. She slipped on her socks and her shirt but didn't button it. She started to brush and blow dry her hair before doing her make-up. As her hair finished drying on it's own it start to curl naturally. Spencer applied black liner, green eye shadow and black mascara before leaving the bathroom. Her shirt hung open with her tie loosely around her neck. She found her black van and slipped them on. She grabbed her empty coffee cup out the bathroom.
"Sexy! You should just go to school like that."Hanna says as Spencer walks into the kitchen, joining her friends. "Yeah cause our school would let me do that."Spencer laughs pouring herself another cup of coffee. Emily walked in front of Spencer and started to button the shirt for her. Spencer's heart started to race as Emily's hand brushed her stomach. She watched as Emily button her shirt, she couldn't help but to find Emily beautiful. Emily smiled up at Spencer as she fixed the shorter girl's tie, Emily brushed hair out of Spencer's face and grinned. "Beautiful." She whispers where only Spencer could her. A goofy grin spreads across Spencer's face. Emily went to move away but Spencer grabbed her hand. Spencer took in the warmth of Emily's hand, the smile that grazed her lips, the way her hair framed her beautiful face and the way her brown eyes shined with love. She was beautiful and she made Spencer's heart skip beats. Spencer wasn't sure why Emily made her heart race and skip beats. 'maybe it's cause she was there for me.' Spencer thought. "Your beautiful Em." Spencer whispers letting go of Emily. Aria and Hanna watched their best friend's exchange and raise an eyebrow at each other.
The girls left for school twenty minutes before it started. When they arrived at school, Spencer saw Paige chatting up the lacrosse team with Alex. Her heart ached when she looked at Alex, a tear ran down her face but she quickly wiped it away. 'stay strong Spencer, you can do this.' She said to herself stepping out the car along with Emily, Hanna and Aria. They walked up the front steps, heading for the doors, when Spencer was stopped by someone calling her name. 'please don't let it be Alex, God please don't let it be her' She thought to herself. She turned around, heart racing and getting looks of support from her friends.
"Spencer I was just telling the team here how I rocked Alex's world last night, and how she was saying I was better in bed than a Hastings."Paige says smirking. Spencer wasn't hurt by what Paige said, she was pissed, really pissed. Anyone who knows Spencer well enough knows she has a bad temper and is set off easily. Spencer turned around about to walk away and let it go when she heard. "Guess your not a real Hastings cause you lost this one."Paige laughs kissing Alex.
Spencer turned around, hitting her breaking point. All the anger she had towards both Paige and Alex came to the surface and spilled over. Spencer dropped her book bag and walked up to Paige. "Spencer don't."Aria and Emily say at the same time but it's was too late, Spencer's fist had already made contact with Paige's face…..
Hope you liked this update. Thank you for reading. I will update as soon as possible. This chapter goes to everyone who wanted to see Spencer beat the crap out of Paige ;). Spencer plays lacrosse instead of field hockey because I know more about it. In the next chapter the point of view is going to be changed to first person, rather than third ,so bare with me I'm not gonna rewrite the first three chapters unless you think I should..Hope y'all enjoyed the cute Spemily moments :) Until next time xoxo…