I want to say thank you for reviewing and reading the last chapter, and I hope y'all all enjoyed Spencer punching Paige :) I know I did.. I'm changing the story from third person to first person but I'm not going to rewrite the first 3 chapters.. I'm sorry for any mistakes and for it being short. I'll have chapter 5 up soon. Now I hope you enjoy this chapter…

Spencer's POV

My arm comes back and I punch Paige in the jaw. I punch her again this time in the stomach, knocking the breath out of her and sending her to the ground. With each punch, I can feel my anger slip away. This is what I needed, I needed to let everything out, the anger and the pain. It's the only way I'm going to heal. I stand over Paige, her eyes full of fear. "Please stop, I'm sorry Spencer." Paige begs looking down. Someone behind me grabs my shoulder and turns me around. I'm face to face with the girl that broke my heart, even though she cheated on me and left me broken, I still want to kiss her, to taste her lips on mine again. My love for her is and might always be there, but I'll never forgive her and she'll never love me.

"I hope you fall in love with her, and I hope she makes you think she fell for you too, and while your planning your life together, I hope she gets up and walks right out your front door, I hope you never see her again and she breaks your heart, just like you fucking broke mine."

I press my lips to hers in one last kiss. She doesn't push me away or anything, she kisses me back. My hands find her face as my eyes slid close. Her hands rest on the small of my back and she pulls me closer. My heart aches knowing this will be the last time I ever kiss the girl I love. I pull back and press my lips to her forehead. "Goodbye Alex."I whisper before turning around grabbing my backpack and walk into school, with my friends right behind me.

I make my way to my class but before I can walk in, I'm once again grabbed on the shoulder and turned around to face my friends. I know they're mad at me, what I don't know is if they're mad about the kiss or the fight. "What the hell were you thinking?"The 5'2 girl's brown eyes boring into mine demanding answers. Answers I'm not sure I had. "What made you kiss her?"Hanna questions, crossing her arms over her chest and a scowl planted on her face. What made me kiss her? I'm not sure, It could have been many things like, the way she made my broken heart race at the sight of her or, maybe it was her pink pouty lips that were oh so inviting that I couldn't resist. "It was a goodbye kiss."I finally tell them after a long pause. Aria's face softens and she touches my arm, giving me a sad smile, Hanna keeps the scowl on her face but leans into hug me.

Emily stays quiet, looking down at her track shoes. "Em." I whisper, hoping to get her to look at me. Is she disappointed in me for being weak and kissing Alex? "Emily please look at me."I beg stepping closer and lifting her chin so I can look into her beautiful brown eyes. She Still doesn't say a word, she just stares into my eyes. I can't read her, like I usually can, I can't tell what's wrong and it's starting to worry me.

Emily's POV

Spencer's soft fingers tilt my chin do I'm looking into her concern filled eyes. How can I tell her that when she was kissing Alex, I wished it was me? How can I tell her that I was jealous that Alex got to kiss her and I didn't? I don't even know why I was jealous, I have a boyfriend and I'm straight. I shouldn't be thinking about girls like that and definitely not my best friend. "Em."She whispers again. Her other hand comes to rest on the side of my face, her thumb rubbing small circles on my cheek, sending a chill down my spine and causing my heart to beat faster against my chest. Get a hold of yourself Emily, you love Ben and your straight, stop letting her do this to you!

"I was worried about you getting hurt or in trouble." I didn't lie, I just didn't tell the whole truth. I pull away from her and give her a small smile, which she returns before the bell rings and she walks into her class room. "What was that Emily?"Hanna ask as we make our way to first period English. "I just spaced out."I answer entering the classroom before she can ask anymore questions. She rolls her eyes at me and takes a seat at the back of the class.

Classes went by slow as I waited for lunch. I couldn't keep Spencer off my mind, I thought about what happened between us this morning. When I was buttoning her shirt and my hand brushed her abs, her breath hitched, her heart raced and her eyes had darken. When I brushed her hair out of her face, I felt the urge to kiss her. I don't know where it came from, all I know is that I really want to kiss her soft and luscious lips. I longed to feel them on mine, it was all I could think about.

The bell signaling lunch ran, I stand to gather my books and search for Ben. I find him outside the lunch room, talking to some of the guys on the swim team. "Can I talk to you?"I ask as I approach him. He nods and says goodbye to his friends, before following me down the hall away from everyone. "Is everything okay Emi-." I cut him off, pressing my lips to his in a rough kiss. His lips weren't soft and the kiss was sloppy on his part. He was never a great kisser. I run my fingers through his short black hair, tugging at it before resting my hands on the back of his neck.

Ben's hands rest on my butt, pulling me into him more. I bite his bottom lip, earning a moan from him as I slip my tongue into his mouth. The kiss doesn't feel right, usually when I kiss him, my heart races, my whole body tingles and I feel a spark but not now. I pull away and he starts to kiss my neck. "Ben stop."I say pushing him away. "What's wrong?"he ask moving closer, putting his hands on mine hips, pulling me into him again.

"Ben stop."I say again moving away from him. He grabs my hand and makes me look at him. "What is wrong with you?"He demands. "Just a bad morning, I have to get to lunch."I say giving him one last kiss on the cheek before running off.

Hanna's POV

"Hanna, are you and you're friends coming to my party at the lake house this weekend?"Noel Kahn ask as I take a seat at the usual table. "Wouldn't miss it."I say smiling at him. He smiles back and goes off to his friends. Emily comes over and slumps down in the seat across from me. She's been acting really weird today, ever since her encounter with Spencer this morning. It was an extremely cute moment between the two of them, so I don't understand what she's freaking out about. Should I be worried about Emily too? "What's wrong with you?"I ask making her sit up and look at me. She stares at me for a few minutes before looking back down and sighing. "The spark I had when I kiss Ben is gone."Emily says looking around, for what I don't know. "That's it?"I ask laughing a little.

She rolls her eyes at me then puts her head in her hands. "That's it? Ha, I don't feel anything when I kiss the boy I love."She says stressing every word. She looks up at me with tears brimming her eyes. "Emily, your 17, you're not going to find the person your going to spend the rest of your life with right now."I say taking her hand and giving her a small smile. Now not only do I have to worry about Spencer, I have to keep an eye on Emily.

Spencer and Aria join us a second later, Aria takes a seat next to me and Spencer takes the one next to Emily. "Em what's wrong?"Spencer questions picking up instantly on Emily's mood. That's what we all loved about Spencer, she knew when something was wrong with us and when we were lying about it. "Boy troubles, you wouldn't understand."Emily jokes, getting a genuine laugh from Spencer. The laugh brought a smile to our faces, it was the first real laugh we've gotten from her and it was great to hear. Spencer has the kind of laugh that makes you smile and laugh with her. "I might not understand boy troubles but I do understand my friends troubles."Spencer says brushing hair out of Emily's face.

I turn to Aria and raise my eyebrow at her, she shrugs her shoulders and turns back to Spencer and Emily. They're in their own little world like this morning. "Talk to me, Em please."Spencer whispers. Emily moves closer to Spencer, leaning into Spencer's hand on her cheek. Emily lays her head on Spencer's shoulder and Spencer wraps her arms around Emily. "Later."Emily says and Spencer nods.

Aria clears her throat and they turn to us, a blush spreads across Emily's face and she hides her face in Spencer's shoulder. Spencer giggles at Emily and sips her drink. They are too cute, they would be great together if Emily was gay.

A tall blonde girl walks up to our table and taps Spencer on the shoulder. "Spencer , I heard you and Alex broke up, I'm so sorry but would you like to go out on a date with me?"The unknown girl ask. Emily lifts her head off of Spencer's shoulder and glares at the girl. What is that about? Since when did Emily care that girls ask Spencer out? Spencer turns to the girl and gives her a small smile..

Hope you enjoyed it, I didn't like writing the Emily/Ben scene but it had to be done. Please review and let me know what you think :) I know it's short but chapter 5 will be longer. Chapter 5 will be up in a few days. Thank you for reading. Oh and please let me know if you like the first person or third person better. Xoxo SarahLynn