Hello my fellow Liars :) I'm sorry this chapter is posted so late, I wanted to post it this morning but it's been a busy day. I hope everyone had a great weekend. I'm going to start posting once a week most likely on Saturday or Sunday. Thank you for reading and reviewing the last chapter, all your reviews made me smile and helps me write more so thank you again :). Sorry for any mistakes. Anyways I hope you Enjoy this chapter. Have a good night

Spencer's POV…

"Spencer!"Someone yells from behind us again. I ignore them and try to kiss Emily but she pushes me away. I have to admit it hurt. "This is wrong, I have a boyfriend and you just broke up with Alex, we can't do this Spencer."She says turning away from me and walks to her clothes. I watch as she puts her shirt and shorts over her bikini and leaves. I'm unable to move or say anything to her. She's right, this is wrong but that doesn't stop me from still wanting to kiss her. I turn around to see who called me, seeing Melissa standing beside Aria and Hanna. "What?"I ask avoiding their stares. Melissa walks towards me and pulls me into a hug. "I'm sorry I ruined the moment, mom and dad wanted me to get you so we could go out to dinner."She whispers into my ear. "I screwed up. I let my heart over rule my head and ruined our friendship."I cry into her chest. She hugs me tighter and rubs my back, trying to calm me. It doesn't help, it only makes me cry more. I'm losing a friend because I'm unintelligent and can't keep my emotions in check. Paige was right I'm not a real Hastings, a real Hastings wouldn't cry and would be able to keep her emotions from over powering her brain. I really screwed up and I don't even know how to fix it.

"Go after her, she wanted to kiss you too."Aria says. Melissa pulls away and nods agreeing with her. "Go I'll tell mom and dad you aren't feeling well."Melissa says pushing my towards the driveway. Could I really fix things? Can I really stand next to her and resist the urge to kiss her? I have to fix things, I can't let 7 years of friendship go down the drain like this. But I don't know to say to her or how to fix it. I'm at a lost for this first time in my life. For the first time I don't have a plan and I can't think of one. "Stop over thinking it, just tell her how you feel."Hanna says. I don't say anything and I don't move, I'm too deep in thought.

"Dammit Spencer."Hanna says grabbing me by the hand and dragging me to my car. "Woman up Hastings and get the girl before I kick your ass." She opens my door and pushes me inside. I take me keys from my pocket and put the key to my mustang in the ignition. Hanna gives me a smile as my mustang roars to life. She shuts the door and I pull out the driveway, heading to Emily's. What if she's not there? Or her mom is there? We can't talk if Pam is there, she's not exactly Yay Gay. The only reason Emily and I are still allowed to hang out, is cause Mr. Fields loves me to death. Emily wouldn't go home, she wouldn't want her mom asking questions. She'd go somewhere she can think and feels at home. I turn my car around and head to the school. What do I even say to her when I find her? Do I apologize for trying to kiss her? I'm not sorry though, I still want to kiss her. I still long to feel her lips on mine, to hold her in a embrace as we kiss.

I pull into the school's parking lot, looking for Emily's car, but it's empty, there's no one here. Where could she be? The pool is her home away from home, she always comes here to swim when she needs to get things off her mind or just be alone with her thoughts. Where would she go to hide from me? The creek maybe? Where I told my best friends I was gay, where I sat for hours to think or clear my head. I haven't been there in two years. I back out the school's parking lot and head to the Rosewood's camp grounds.

I park my car next to Emily's and begin the short hike through the woods to the bridge that runs over the creek. We used to come out here everyday when we were younger . Emily and I used to jump off the bridge into the creek below, while Hanna and Aria tanned on the bridge. It was always such a rush to jump, you'd just let everything go, your mind would become blank as you fell into the water. You'd be at peace with the world and yourself. I stop at a huge oak tree and look at the carving I made when I was fourteen. I made a simple carving in the tree for everyone to see, 'Gay and Proud, Spencer Hastings.' I trace my fingers over the letters and smile. I brush away some of the vines that have grown over the carving and see other names carved into the tree under my name. My smile becomes bigger as I run my fingers over the other names. I inspired others to come out and be themselves.

I turn away from the tree and continue the walk to the bridge. I spot Emily sitting on the railing of the bridge, feet hanging over and eyes glued on the water, deep in thought. I wonder what she's thinking out? Is it me? Ben? Or our ruined friendship? I move to stand behind her but she looks up at me and moves away. She doesn't even want to be near me, can it get any worse? "I shouldn't have tried to kiss you, it was wrong and I'm sorry." I say moving closer to her. "Can we just pretend it never happened?"She ask. Can I really just pretend it didn't happen to save our friendship? I know I can but the real question is do I want to? "Tell me you didn't want to kiss me too and I'll pretend it never happened." I demand making her look at me. Tears form in her brown eyes as she stares into mine and it pains me to know that I made her cry. "I didn't want to kiss you."She says with a weak voice. I pull her into me and wrap my arms around her. "You're a horrible liar Fields but I'll pretend it never happened for you." I whisper.

Emily's POV…

"you're a horrible liar Fields but I'll pretend it never happened for you."Spencer whispers in my ear hugging my tighter. I wanted to kiss her so bad and I still do but I'm not gay and I will not cheat on Ben, I'm not that kind of person. "Do you remember coming out here everyday?"She ask pulling away and leaning on the railing. I already missed her arms around me. "Yes, why don't we come out here anymore?"I ask leaning next to her. "I don't know but I do miss jumping into the creek."She says smiling. She slides her shoes off and takes her socks and tie off, placing them in a pile. "What are you doing?"I asking watching her get on the railing. "Going for a swim, want to join me?"She ask looking down at the water then at me. I pull my shirt over my head and slip my shorts off along with my flip flops. Good thing I didn't take my bikini off. "When was the last time we did this?"I ask stepping onto the railing next to her. "Noel's new years party three years ago."She answers taking my hand in hers. She's making it hard to just forget about my feelings for her and us almost kissing. "Ready?" I nod and we jump off at the same time laughing.

Usually jumping clears my head but not this time. This time all I think about it Spencer's hand in mine. The warmth of it and the way it fits perfectly with mine. Seconds later we hit the water, it forces our hands apart but Spencer quickly grabs mine again. "God, I forgot how much fun that is." She says grinning like a idiot. I laugh and start to swim around her, keeping my eyes on her. "Want to race? Bank to bank?"She ask smirking at me. She knows she can't beat me but she loves to try. It's a Hastings thing to try to be the best at everything. I nod and we swim to the shore line. "1…2….3."She yells jumping into the water. I dive in after her, easily taking the lead but she stays right on me. She could easily be one of the best on the swim team if she gave up lacrosse. I reach the other side before her, quickly turning around and diving under the water.

The water feels amazing, I feel like I'm gliding under the water. I'm at home in the water, it's the only place I'm confident about myself, the only place I can let everything go at and not worry about a thing. Swimming is and will always be my first love. I make it back to the shore beating Spencer by about 30 seconds. We both get out the water and sit on a nearby rock. "You win again Fields."She laughs pulling at her soaked shirt . It clings to her body, showing her toned arms from lacrosse and her 4 pack. Spencer's hot and sexy but most of all Spencer's beautiful, no one can compare to her.

"I have to get out of these clothes, their sticking to my body."She says standing up, then reaches her hand out to me. I take her hand and let her pull me up. She doesn't let go of my hand as we walk up to the bridge. My phone starts to go off as we make our way over to our clothes. I grab my shorts and pull my phone out. Crap it's my mom, I was supposed to home 30 minutes ago. I answer the call and put my phone up to my ear. "Yes mom?"I ask. "Where are you? You were supposed to be home after you got done study at Spencer's."She says, anger lining her voice. "I'm leaving now, study took longer than I thought."I lie. If she find out I lied, I'll be grounded. "Hurry up and get home, your helping me cook tonight."She says hanging up before I have a chance to answer her.

I sigh and look over at Spencer, she rolling up her soaked jeans and then slips her socks and shoes on. She picks up her tie and walk over to me, holding her hand out waiting for me to take it. She smiles at me as I put my clothes and flip flops on. I then take her hand as we start walking down the path to our cars. We reach our cars and break apart, walking to our own cars.

"I had fun Em, we should do this more often."She says unlocking her car and popping her trunk. "Me too, I'd love that Spence."I say unlocking my car as well. I watch as she pulls out three towels, wrapping one around her body and carry the other two to the driver seat of her car, placing them on the seat. "How is it you have 3 towels in your trunk but no clothes?"I ask opening my car door. "I usually have some in my gym bag but I didn't have practice so it's at home."She says sitting in the driver seat of her mustang.

"I gotta go, want to get coffee after practice tomorrow?"I ask. We always have practice on the same day and try to have coffee afterwards at least once a week, just the two of us at the Rear Window Brew. "Sounds like a plan Em, I'll see you tomorrow."She says smiling at me and shutting her car door before pulling out of her parking spot. I get in my car and slowly make my way home. Today has been pretty good. I just wish I could let go of my fear and tell Spencer how I feel. I just don't want there to be a chance that we don't work out and ruin our friendship. We've known each other since we were seven, we became fast friends along with Aria and Hanna, we were all inseparable much like today. We've been best friends since then and Spencer and I have been through a lot together and I can't must throw that away. I need her….

Spencer's POV….

Some parts of today were bad, other good. I know Emily was lying when she said she didn't want to kiss me. It was her voice and the look in her eyes that gave her way. If she wants to just be friends that's what we'll be. I can't lose her, I need my Emily.

I pull into my driveway noticing Aria's and Hanna's car stillhere. It's about 6:30 now, I've been gone for almost 45 minutes, I'm surprised they haven't left yet. I park my car, get out and make my way to the back yard, where I find them in the swimming pool with Melissa. Melissa and I haven't always had the best relationship but that changed when she lost Taylor six months ago. She's also been a lot better with my friends, which is amazing they used to hate each other. "Why are you soaking wet?"Melissa ask as I sit on the edge of the pool. "Em and I dove into the creek."I say. Aria grins at me and Hanna gives a small laugh. "What happened Spencer? Did you fix things or what?"Hanna ask. I give them a sad smile and look down.

"She want to pretend it never happened and wants to be friends, but she wanted to kiss me I know she did."I say trying to keep my emotions in check this time. I've never been this emotional, what's wrong with me? Aria gets out the pool and hugs me. "What are you going to do?"She ask. "I won't and can't lose her so I have to settle with just being friends."I say as tears form and fall from my eyes. Why do are my feelings for her so strong? Why right after I broke up with Alex? Why did she have to lie to me? Why couldn't she just kiss me like we both wanted? This is just too much right now, I need a drink.

The next day after school….

Marissa and I make our to the girl's locker room, to get ready for practice. I honestly thought today was going to be awkward between Emily and I but she stayed true to wanting to be just friends. I don't know if I should be happy about that or not. "Are you ready for practice with Alex?"Marissa asking putting her multi color hair into a pony tail. Marissa Thompson is one of my best friends, she's also part of the 'perfect pair' as we're called on the lacrosse field. When we play we always seem to know what the other is thinking and play to each others strengths. My sped mixed with her strength makes unstoppable. We're first homes, meaning we do most of the scoring.

"Can't be that bad, can it?"I ask throwing on my practice jersey. She raises her eye brows at me and laughs. "You beat the shit out of her new girlfriend, I'm sure the slut will try to get back at you on the field but don't worry, I got your back Hastings."She says patting me on the back and smirking at me. She always has my back, even when I'm wrong. "thanks Thompson, let go the team is waiting on us."I say leaving the locker room and heading to where the team and coach Smith are standing. "Alright girls, our first game is Friday, so we're going to have a practice game and then run two miles."Coach says spiting us up into two teams. Thank God she put Alex and I on different teams. Marissa and I put on our safety goggles, put our mouth guard in and pick up our sticks before heading to the goal cage.

I watch as Coach drops the ball in between the two centers and they fight for it. Our side gets the ball and the whole team starts to move around the field, blocking each other and trying to get the ball from Sammy. I make my way through the other players and next to Sammy, who looks at me and throws the ball my way, I easily catch in ball in my net and start running towards the other side's goal. Kim steps in front of me, trying to block and check me, I use my sped to run past her and over to Marissa. She nods her head at me Signaling she's open and ready for me to throw her the ball. I bring my stick back and shoot the ball over to her, which she catches before Kim checks her in the shoulder. Marissa doesn't drop the ball and runs to the goal and shoots the ball towards the goal. The goalie dives trying to stop the ball but fails. Marissa and I high five as we make our was back to our positions.

With two minutes left in the game, we're all wore out and tied at 5 to 5. I have possession of the ball and I'm running down the middle of the field, barely dodging a check from Alex. Right as I pull my stick back and throw the ball towards to goal, a metal lacrosse stick comes into contact with my left arm. I cry out in pain and fall to the ground, the pain in my arm coming unbearable in a matter of seconds. The whole team drops what their doing and runs over to me. "What in the hell was that Alex?"Marissa yells getting into Alex's face, Marissa's arm comes back and her fist slams into Alex's stomach. "You're the one who cheated on her you slut, you don't get to fucking treat her like she's the one who cheated." Marissa starts yelling , punching Alex in the face, then in the stomach again. "Thompson, stop I'll take care of her."Coach yells coming over to me, kneeling on the ground in front of me, looking over my now bruised and swollen arm. "Go to the hospital and get an x-ray Hastings."She says helping me up then walking over to where Marissa had Alex pinned to the ground.

God, I hope it's not broken. I have to play Friday, I have to! I finally got my dad to take off work to come see me play and if I can't play, he'll be mad he took off work for nothing. I sigh and make my way to the locker room to grab my gym back then I head to my car. "Spence."Skylar yells running up to me as I get to my car. I don't feel like dealing with her or anyone else right now, the pain in my arm is making my grumpy and I'm likely to take it out on someone. "You can't call me that, only Emily can."I say unlocking my car and throwing my bag in. I turn toward Skylar to see her frowning at me, I hold my left arm to my body. "Okay, I'm sorry, what happened to your arm?"She ask reaching out to touch it. I pull back before she can, knocking my arm into the side of my car.

"Dammit."I yell, cradling my arm. Could today get any worse? Days not over yet Hastings, it most likely can and will get worse. "I got hurt at practice, I have to go get an x-ray, I'll text you later."I say. I don't give her the time to answer, I just get in my car and make my way to the hospital. I hate being a bitch but I need to get to the hospital and get something for the pain.

The drive to the hospital was short and painful. Now I'm sitting in a room waiting to get my x-ray back. I've been here for an hour and I'm getting sick of staring at the white walls. I hate hospitals, ever since Melissa lost Taylor, we've stayed away from them, they only bring up the painful memories of losing her. I'm pulled out of my thoughts by my phone going off. Shit I forgot to call Emily and let her know where I was going, I hope she doesn't think I blew her off. "Hey Em, I'm sorry I didn't call."I say into my IPhone. "it's okay Spence, I just got out of practice." She answers back. I cant help but to smile when she calls me Spence. Even though she's been calling me that for years it still makes my heart skip a beat just like the first time she used the nickname. "I'm at the hospital waiting on an x-ray, meet at the café when I get out?"I ask. "Why are you getting an x-ray? Are you okay?"She ask concern filling her voice. I love how much she cares. "Took a hard hit at practice, hurt my arm pretty bad but I'm okay." Telling her that Alex hit me, would be good when she's still at school. She'll go off on Alex and I think what Marissa did was enough.

"I'll be there in ten."She says hanging up the phone. I grin and lay back on the uncomfortable bed, holding my arm to my chest, trying to stop the pain. Emily is amazing and I can't help but to like her. If anyone says they don't like her, their lying, you can't help but to love her caring nature, the way she puts other people before herself, even people she doesn't know.

True to her word, ten minutes later Emily walks into the room with two cups of coffee. "Coffee for my wounded Hastings."She laughs handing me a cup. "Your Hastings huh? I like the sound of that."I tease smiling at her. She laughs and punches my right shoulder then takes a seat next to me on the bed. I love her laugh, it always makes me smile and brightens up my mood.

A few seconds pass and the doctor comes in holding a brace in one hand and my file in the other. "Spencer how are you feeling?"He asks looking over my file. "Other than the pain in my arm, I'm doing great Wren."I say smiling over at Emily causing her to blush. Am I the only one who notices how cute she is? "Well Spencer you got a hairline fracture."He states sitting on a rolling stool in front of us. Well at least it's not broken. "How long will it take to heal? I have to get back to lacrosse ask. "4 to 6 weeks, maybe longer if you don't wear this brace and try to use your arm a lot."He says lightly taking my arm and slipping the brace on it. I cringe when he tightens it on my arm. "I'll make sure she keeps it on."Emily says. "Good, Spencer I know you , so don't do anything to hurt your arm anymore, come back and see me in 5 weeks , so I can see how it healed, have a good day girls."He says then leaves the room. A nurse comes in and hand me a bottle of pain pills. "Take these when the pain starts to occur, if you two will follow me I'll show you the way out."She says leaving the room with Emily and I following.

We walk out the hospital and head to our cars, when I stop and turn to Emily. "Thanks you for coming Em and thanks for the coffee."I say giving her a one arm hug. "Someone had to bring you, your caffeine Spence."She laughs carefully returning the hug. We stay in each others arms for a few minutes. I feel safe in her arms, it's a place I want to spend the rest of my life, if only she'd give me a chance.

Emily's POV….

I hate that she's hurt and I can't do anything to help her. When I find out who did them to her they're going to be sorry. Being in her arms feels right, I wish I was brave enough to risk our friendship. Being so close I can't help to breath in her scent, one I've come to love. The smell of coffee, mixed with her Tommy Girl perfume. Her smell is breathtaking. Will I ever be able to risk our friendship? Or will these feelings for her go away?

Hope you enjoyed this update. Thank you for reading :) I didn't go into a lot of detail on the lacrosse practice but I will next time. Marissa is based off my younger sister Marissa, she loves the fact that she's in my story. I hope this update was long enough for y'all. Again I'm sorry for any mistakes. Please review and let me know what you think :) until next Sunday..