Spencer's POV...

"Dance with me Spence?"Emily asks when she comes back from the bathroom. We've been playing air hockey for half an hour now and she's starting to get bored. I take her hand in mine and lead her through the sea of people, to the middle of the dance floor. "We're going to slow things down a bit, everyone grab partner and enjoy this song."The DJ says playing Avril Lavigne's 4 Real. I love this song, it's a great song. Emily smiles at me and wraps her arms my neck, my hands comes to rest on her hips pulling her close to me. We start to sway to the sound of the music, like all the people around us.

"If I show you, get to know you, if I hold you just for today, I'm not gonna wanna let you go, I'm not gonna wanna go home, Tell me you feel the same." I sing softly along with the song, in Emily's ear. She sighs and pulls me closer to her body. She rest her head in the crook of my neck and sighs contently. Does she feel the same way I do? Is she falling in love with me, like I am with her? I shouldn't go down this road, If she doesn't feel the same I'll just get my heart broken again, and I won't survive this time.

"Cause I'm 4 real, are you 4 real? I cant help myself, it's the way I feel, When you look me in the eyes, like you did last night, I can't stand to hear you say goodbye. Well, it feels so right cause it feels so right. Just to have you standing by my side, So dont let me go, cause you have my soul. and I just wanted you to know."I spin her around in my arms and pull her close to me again, still singing to her. Shes smiling at me as we dance. This would be the perfect moment if she was mine and I was able to kiss her without having to worry about Ben. whether she's mine or not, I'll never forget this night. I'll never forget the way she makes me feel.

Even when my heart is broken, She keeps me believing in love, She makes me feel whole again. I know it's only been a few days since Alex and I broke up, but I can already feel myself falling for her. She's my best friend and falling for her is wrong and one of us will most likely get hurt but being with her right now, just feels so right.

When the song ends, she let's go of my neck and walks off the dance floor, leaving me standing in the middle of a sea of people staring after her. Did I do something wrong? Was singing to her wrong? Another song starts to play and some girl starts grinding into me. If I wasn't here with Emily and I still had one night stands with random girls, I would stay and dance with her, then drag her into the bathroom and well have sex with her then leave her there. Horrible I know but that was the person I used to be. But tonight I'm here with Emily and she's the only thing on my mind, and it's not about sex, I just want to hold her and I want her to be mine.

I leave the girl standing there and I run to find Emily. I go to the table we were eatting at, finding her there talking to Jo and Jo's wife Madison. Madison smiles at me as I walk over and sit next to Emily. She doesn't look at me' she just keeps talking with Jo. "So Spencey if this isn't your girlfriend than who is?"Madison ask, using my nickname from when I was five. Emily looks at me and grins at the name. At least she's looking at me now. "We broke up"I say looking away from them. "What?why? I thought y'all were in love?"Jo ask. Here we go, I hate telling people that Alex cheated on me, always makes me feel like some how it was my fault.

"She was cheating on me, so I broke up with her."I say. "I'm sorry but at least one good thing came out of it."Jo says smiling at me. "And what would that be?"Madison ask her wife. Jo loves to pick on me and tease me, much like Hanna. Madison always gets onto her and keeps her in line. they remind me of Hanna and Aria. "She changed 'love em and leave em Hastings."Jo states earning a slap on the arm from her wife. "She might have changed Spencer but that doesn't make her cheating okay."Maddy says like i'm not here.

Emily's POV...

I lay my head on Spencer's shoulder, hugging her arm to my body. I yawn and she smiles down at me. It's only 11:30 or so but I'm really tired. It's been a long day. "Guys we're gonna go, Em's tired."Spencer says wrapping an arm around my hip and helping up. Jo and Madison stand up with us. Madison steps forward and pulls Spencer into a hug. "Come back soon Spencey, we miss having you around." She says pulling away from Spencer. Spencer rolls her eyes at the use of the nickname. "Speak for yourself."Jo laughs. Spencer doesn't hug her but punches her in the arm. "Jerk, you know you miss me, how could you not? I'm awsome." Spencer states. She's so full of herself and so freakin' cocky, it's one of the things I love about her.

I love my best friend more than a friend, and I think i've always loved her, I just never noticed. I wish I didn't love her like this, I don't want to ruin our friendship and I don't want her to get hurt again, she deserves to be happy. You can't help but to love Spencer. She's one of the sweetest people you'll every meet, when she loves, she loves with everything in her. She's romantic, funny, outgoing, insane at times, smart. She's everything you'd want in a girl. She's everything I want but I can't have. My parents would never approve of us being together, even if they did she'd never want to be with someone like me. I'm just me, nothing special, and Spencer deserves someone as amazing as her.

"Where did ya go?"Spencer ask as we walk to her car. She's holding my hand in hers and warmth radiates from our hands spreading through out my whole body. Does she feel it too? How could she not? There's a spark every time we touch, I've never felt anything like it with anyone else. Everything I feel for Spencer and I feel when I'm around her, is so new to me. I don't know how to put into words, how she makes me feel.

"just lost in thought."I reply as we make it to her car. She opens my door but stops me from getting in. She pushes me up against the car and runs her fingers through my hair. "I can't take it any longer, I don't care what happens, I don't care if this screws everything up, I'll fix what ever goes wrong, I have to kiss you Emily, I have to feel your lips on mine."She says, staring into my eyes. She pulls me into her body, runs her fingers down my sides, till their resting on my hips. She looks into my eyes then down at my lips and back to my eyes again, She bitting her lip. Everything she's doing is driving me insane, I just want her to kiss me already.

She leans into me and presses her lips to mine. something inside me exploded and I kiss her back with a fire I didn't know I had within me. Kissing her is better than I ever imagined. it's truely Heaven. You haven't lived till you felt Spencer Hastings's kiss you. My hands tangle in her long soft hair, as her hands cup my face.

She pulls back before the kiss becomes to heated and I can't help the whimper that escapes my lips. I miss her lips on mine, I have to kiss her again. She leans her forehead on mine and stares lovingly into my eyes, brushing hair behind my ears. She smiles at me and quickly pecks my lips.

"You're an amzing kisser Spencer."I say truthfully, earning a beautiful smile from her. She opens her mouth to say something but I cut her off by kissing her. She sighs and kisses me back. After a minute or so she pulls away. Once again I miss her lips. "We should go, it's getting late."She says moving so I can get into the car. when I'm in the car, she leans down and kisses my cheek before shutting the door. I watch her walk around to the driver side. She's smiling to herself, deep in thought, then she frowns.

The ride to Spencer's house was quiet, a frown on Spencer's face the whole ride. Did she regret us kissing? I'm sitting on her bed waiting for her to get out the bathroom. She walks out the bathroom, wearing a lacrosse shirt and a pair of night shorts, with her hair in a messy bun. She looks gorgeous, dressed in pj's with no make-up on. She sits down next to me and sighs.

"What's wrong?"I ask turning to face her. She turns to me, her eyes are filled with sadness. "You're not mine Em, I can't kiss you without feeling like I'm making you cheat on Ben, but I still want to kiss you, I don't ever want to stop kissing you." She says, wipping a tear from her face.

This is the first time I thought of Ben since we left my house. Guilt washes over me and I can't stop the tears that form and roll down my cheeks. I cheated on Ben, how could I do that to him? I didn't mean to, when I'm with Spencer I forget about everyone but her. I can't keep doing this, I have to stop this and leave but a part of me doesn't want to, a part of me wants to kiss her and be everything she needs.

Spencer wraps her arms around me and pulls me close. i don't pull away, I want her to hold me, she makes me feel safe and like everything will be okay. "I'll fix this Emily, I promise I will, it's my fault, I kissed you."She says kissing the top of my head as I cry into her shoulder. She lays us back on the bed and pulls me closer to her.

"Spencer I wanted to kiss you too, I didn't want to stop kissing you."I whisper into the quiet room. She leans up to look at me and gives me a sad smile. "One more kiss?"She ask, her eyes shining with hope and need. What would one more kiss hurt? I nod and she leans in and presses her lips to mine softly.

There was that spark again, no not a spark it was more like a fire. One that started at my lips and ran through my whole body, making me feel more alive than I've ever felt. Could I go back to kissing Ben, after kissing her? I'm not sure I could, her lips are like a drug and I know I'm already addicted...

So what did you think? What did you think of the kiss? How is Spencer going to fix things? I was going to post this tomorrow but I felt like giving it to you guys today, not that y'all mind right? :) Anyways thank you for reading I hope you enjoyed this update, I loved writing their first kiss or kisses ;) haha. Please review and let me know what you think, Until next time my fellow lairs :)