Friday at school...

Spencer's. POV...

I sit down at the lunch table with Marissa, Hanna, Aria and Skylar. Marissa and Skylar have taken to eatting lunch with us since Emily no longer does. It's been two days since I told Ben that I kissed Emily and in those two days, I haven't heard from Emily once. Hanna says she wants to come see me but Ben freaks out when she says something to him about it. I thought by promising that I'll never kiss Emily again, he'd at least let her hang out with me if someone is with us. I didnt know he was so controling.

I push my food around on my plate as I listen to the girls talk about what they are going to wear tonight. "It's a pj party so I'm just going to wear my favorite thing to sleep in."Aria says. "What about you Spencey?"Hanna ask. All four of them call me Spencey now, they said it's only fair for them to have a nickname for me since I like to shorten all their names.

"Just one of my lacrosse shirts and some shorts I guess."I say shrugging. I really don't want to go to this party anymore. I cant drink because of the pain pills I'm on for my arm, so I get to drive my friend's drunk asses over to my parent's lake house, where we'd be staying for the night. Yay me.

They start talking about going to see a movie tomorrow night but I just tune them out. I've been depressed the past two days and it has nothing to do with Alex or the fact that I can't play at the lacrosse game tonight. I miss my best friend, I miss eatting lunch with her every day, I miss talking to her, I miss being around her, I miss seeing her smile, I miss hearing her laugh, I just plain miss her.

I look up to see Ben and Emily walking up to our table. Emily gives me a small smile and Ben just ignores me. They sit down across from me, with Hanna and Aria. Skylar holds my hand and turns me towards her. She grins at me then bites her lip. She looks so hot right now. Her blonde hair is pulled into a ponytail, she has smokey eye shadow on that brings out her bright blue eyes. She has a black skirt, a green tank top and the tie she took from me this morning.

She runs her fingers through my hair before grabbing the back of my neck and pulling me in for a kiss. I'm only human, so I kiss her back. it's a great kiss but it does not compare to kissing the beautiful brunette sitting across from me. Skylar's tongue runs across my bottom lip then her teeth comes into contact with them, before bitting down on my bottom lip and tugging on it, pulling me closer to her.

Someone clears their thoart causing Skylar to pull away. She blushes and ducks her head in my neck. I smirk at my friends as they roll their eyes at me. I look over to where Emily is sitting,to find that she's not there anymore but Ben is. I get up and make my way towards the pool, where I know she will be. I shouldn't have kissed Sky in front of her. Her ignoring me hurts but she didn't deserve that.

I find her in the locker room, leaning on her locker, her eyes are closed and she's upset. What have I done? Why did I have to kiss Skylar and hurt Emily? I'm such a horrible person. What kind of person does that to their best friend?."Em?"

Her eyes snap open and she stares at me for a minute without saying anything. I move closer to her and she moves away. "Em, please don't do that."I whisper unable to hide the hurt in my voice.

"Is she back?"She ask moving a little closer to me. "Who?" I ask confused. She gives a bitter laugh and shakes her head at me. I'm really lost, I have no idea who she is talking about and why she is laughing. "Love em and leave em Hastings."She says her voice full of hatred. I step back shocked at her words. I know that I upset her but did I really deserve that? And why all the hate in her voice?

Regret crosses her face and she trys to grab my hand but I pull away. "I'm sorry Spence I didn't mean that."She says. "Don't." I say shaking my head and moving away from her. She steps towards me again and grabs me before I can move away. The next thing i know her lips are crashing into mine and she pushes me into the lockers behind me. I can't help the moan that escapes me lips as her tongue makes it's way into my mouth. This kiss is hotter than the kiss I shared with Skylar.

Is it wrong that I don't care about how Ben or Skylar would feel if they came in here and saw us? I don't even care if it is, all I care about is Emily's lips on mine and the way her body feels against mine. Which feels amazing by the way.

I flip us around and press her up against the lockers, she bites down on my lip and her legs go around my waist. Pain flares in my left arm at the weight put on it but I don't care. I find it hard to care about anything but the girl I'm falling hard for. Her hands make their way under my shirt and she digs her nails into my back as we contuine to kiss. She going to leave marks but I cant find it in me to care. They will show that I am her's even if she isn't mine.

I'm in love with my not so straight best friend, who has feelings for me too but is trying to fight them, and she also has a boyfriend. I am so screwed, I can only hold my feelings inside for so long.

Emily's POV...

Ben takes my hand as we make our way from the lunch line, he leads us towards Spencer and the others. My heart starts to race, I can't handle sitting there with her and not being able to kiss her or hold her hand. She been the only thing on my mind for the past two days. I'm trying to fight my feelings for her and just be with Ben but it's a losing battle. No matter what I do, something always seems to remind me of her.

I give Spencer a small smile as Ben and I sit down in front of her. I greet the rest of my friends and even Skylar, who is sitting a little too close to Spencer for my liking. What can I do though? I made my choice, I choose Ben even when he's not the one I want.

I watch Skylar turn Spencer to face her. She smiles at Spencer and bites her lip. She runs her fingers through Spencer's hair before pulling her in for a kiss. I can't stay and watch the girl that I'm falling for kiss someone else. It hurt and made me mad. I stand from the table, ignoring the looks from everyone else. I walk away from the two girls kissing and head towards the locker rooms.

Once i'm safe inside and I knew no one had followed me in, I lean on my locker and close my eyes sighing. I had no right to get mad, to walk off like I did. I've ignored her for the past two days, because I didn't trust myself around her, I didn't trust myself to not grab her and kiss her.

What made me start to fall in love with her? Why did I have to start to falling in love with her? It doesn't really matter why I started to fall for her, the only thing that matters is what i'm going to do about it. At this moment I have no idea what I'm going to do. If it wasnt Spencer I was falling for, I could go to her for help. She'd tell me what to do, she always knew the right thing to do.

I hear the locker room door open and close but I don't open my eyes, it's most likely one of the girls from the swim team. It's slinet till I hear a voice say my name softly. I know who's voice that is, it belongs to the girl who haunts my dreams, the girl who takes over my mind, the girl that drives me crazy with a smile, the girl who makes my heart skip beats when she says my name.

I open my eyes and stare at her beauty, the way her brown hair falls down in curls, framing her face, the way her beautiful brown eyes are filled with sadness and regret, the way her full pink lips are turned down in a frown.

When I don't say anything she moves closer to me and I move away from her. If she touches me or gets any closer I won't be able to control myself or my feelings. "Em, please don't do that."She whispers hurt lining every word. I want to pull her into me and kiss away the hurt but I can't.

"Is she back?"I ask unable to keep myself from moving closer to her. "who?" She ask confusion writen on her face. I give a bitter laugh and shake my head. I have to push her away even if it will kill me to do so. She has to forget about me and be happy with someone else. I can't give her what she deserves, why even try?

"Love em and leave em Hastings." I say, my voice full of hatred. She steps away from me, her eyes full of pain as tears begin to form there. What have I done? I can't do this to her, she's my best friend. I'm such a horrible fucking person. "I'm sorry Spence I didn't mean that." I say trying to grab her hand. "Don't" She says shaking her head and moving away from me. Yeah I really screwed up.

I step forward and grab her arm before she could move away again. Her skin is so soft under my fingers. Before I know it, my lips are on her's and my pushing her into the lockers behind her. She moans against my mouth as my tongue makes it's way into her awaiting mouth. I try to put all my feelings into the kiss but I'm not sure if she noticed.

She quickly flips us around, without breaking our kiss. I bite her bottom lip and wrap my legs around her waist as my back hits the cold metal of the lockers. My hands find their way under her shirt and my nails dig into her back as our lips move as one. Have I said how much I missed this girl? No? Well I missed her more than I miss my dad, wrong I know but it's true. I don't know if I've told you that my dad is in the Army. He's been gone for a little over a year and I've hardly talked to him in that time, yet I miss Spencer more in two days than I have in a year for my dad.

She pulls back and rest her forehead on mine, staring into my eyes. "This is wrong."She whispers running her lips over my neck. I groan as she lightly bites down on my neck. "I don't care."I say bringing her lips back to mine. And I didn't care how wrong this was, I just knew I wanted her and not just in a sexual way. I want and need to be with her and I would when I find a way to break up with Ben and if she still wanted to be, by the way she's kissing I know she did.

Spencer pulls away from my lips and sets me on the ground when the warning bell signalng our next class rings. I sigh and wrap my arms around her neck. I dont want to leave this room, leave her. "Stay at the lake house with us tonight Em, please I miss my best friend."She begs and brings my hand up to her lips, kissing each knuckles. God I missed her too. "I would let Ben come but Ezra is coming to surprise Aria." She says when I don't answer her.

"I'll be there Spence." I give her one last kiss and turn to leave the locker room. Spencer grabs my arm and turns me around to face her. I look into her brown eyes and see tears forming in them again. "Don't ignore me again Emily please, I can't handle it if you do."She begs as tears fall from her eyes.

Seeing her crying over me and knowing I hurt her so much, is breaking my heart. I take her into my arms and hold her tight while she crys. "I'll never do that to you again Spencer I promise." I whisper into her ear. After a few mintues she stops crying and pulls back to look at me. I give her a sad smile and wipe away the tears that linger on her cheeks. We kiss one more time before making our way to our classes.

I am so screwed, I have a boyfriend who I don't love and I don't want to be with and I love kissing my best friend, who is a girl and i'm falling for her. Falling for hard and fast I might add. What am I going to do?

I've become something I hate, a cheater but when I'm with Spencer, when I'm kissing her it doesn't feel like cheating, it feels right. I feel like I'm cheating when I'm with Ben, every kiss, every touch, every smile feels wrong because I know its hurting Spencer.

At Noel's party...

Spencer's POV...

I pull into Noel's driveway and park my black jeep behind Ben's crappy, beat up truck. I get out the car and run to the other side to open the door for Skylar. I might not want to date her but I can still treat her right. I plan on telling her that I don't want to be anything more than friends tonight. Skylar is a great person and a great friend, hopefully she'll want to stay friends.

When Skylar gets out, Hanna, Aria and Marissa all get out the jeep as well. Skylar takes my hand and we start walking towards the house, where the party is in full swing. Music is blasting, People are dancing, drinking and talking everywhere. Everyone is dressed in their PJ's, meaning most of the girls here are half naked, and all the guys are walking around shirtless.

I'm thankful my friends arnt half naked. Han and Ari stole two of my lacrosse jerseys and are wearing them with some night pants they also stole out of my closet. Missa (Marissa.) is wearing her boyfriend's Football jersey and a pair of silk night pants. Sky is well she's half naked, wearing shorts that her ass hangs out of and a shirt that is a size too small. Don't get me wrong she looks hot but I know what she's trying to do.

She knows I have a thing for Emily, so she's been wearing barely anything the past few days so I will look at her and not Emily. I can't help but to look at Emily, even fully dressed she looks better than, Skylar half naked.

I lead the way to the drink table to grab a soda, while everyone else gets some kind of alcoholic drink."Don't drink too much, I'm not carrying your drunk asses to the jeep, I'll leave you here."I warn. They just laugh at me, knowing I wouldn't leave them. Skylar grabs my hand and leads me to the make shift dance floor.

I place one hand on her hip, pulling her close to me as we grind to the music. We dance in silence to a few songs before she speaks up. "Spencer."She whispers into my ear. I pull back a little to look at her face. "Yeah Sky?"

She gives me a small smile and leads me off the dance floor and up stairs. She leads me into the first unlocked door she finds and let's go of my hand once the door is shut. I take a seat on the bed and she sits next to me.

Oh God, please don't try to have sex with me, please. She doesn't say anything, just stares off into space. "Skylar, whats wrong?"I ask making her look at me. She sighs and starts to pace in front of me. At least I know she doesn't want to have sex, I just wish I knew what was wrong. "Spencer I think we should just be frinds, even though that's not what I want, you don't want me, you want Emily and that's okay."She says kneeling in front of me.

Does everyone know that I want to be with Emily. Do I have a sign hanging some where on me that says 'I want to date Emily' that I'm not aware of? If so can someone please take it off? I don't know what to say to her. "Do you love her?"She ask catching me off guard. "She's my best friend, of course I love her."I reply, not looking her in the eyes. "You know that's not how I mean." She answers making me look her in the eyes. "I.. I do love her."

This is the first time I've said it out loud, I've beening thinking it since our first kiss. I thought if I never said it out loud, then it would just go away but holding it in just hurt.

"How can I be falling for her when I just got my heart broken?"I ask. She grins at me and sits next to me again. "That's the beauty of love Spencer, you can love when you heart is broken and true love always finds you when your not looking for it and it's unwanted."She states, staring into space again, with a far way look on her face. A smile tugs at her lips and she turns to me.

"Come on, let's go make her jealous, She likes you, she just needs a little push."She says standing and taking my hand. "Why are you helping me get her, if you want to be with me?I question.

"You deserve to be with the one you love."

Emily's POV...

I've been at the party with Ben for 30 minutes now, and all I've done is watched Ben play pool with Sean. I'm bored out of my mind and I really want to see Spencer. I tell Ben i'm to get a drink, he only nods as I walk away from him and make my way to the drink table. I don't feel like getting drunk so I grab a coke and turn to watch everyone dance.

I spot Marissa and her boyfriend Blake, make their way towards me, Smiling and laughing at something. "Looks like everyone is stealing Spencer's jerseys." Marissa laughs giving me a hug.

I am indeed wearing one of Spencer's jerseys, she left it at my house a few weeks ago and I felt like wearing it, and yes it did piss Ben off. He didnt like the fact that I have Hastings across my boobs.

I raise an eyebrow at her and she points over to Aria and Hanna. They are playing beer pong with two other girls and it looks like their winning. They are both wearing Spencer's jerseys along with Spencer's black slik night pants. I wonder what Spencer's wearing, is she wearing that tight tank top that she loves to sleep in? Or maybe her old AC/DC shirt that's cut off just below her breast. I bite my lip to surpress a moan as I image her in that shirt, hovering over me, attaching my neck with her lips.

Blake bumps my shoulder with his, giving me a questioning look. "You okay Em?"He ask. No I'm not okay, I can't stop imaging her kissing me. I nod my head yes and smile at him. I look over the dance floor, catching Spencer's eyes as she grinds to the music with Skylar.

Anger and jealousy rip through my chest at seeing Skylar run her hands all over Spencer's body. I want to go over there and punch Skylar in the face then kiss Spencer in front of everyone showing them that she is mine, but I don't. I stay standing by Marissa and Blake watching them dance. Skylar's hands lift the back of Spencer's shirt up showing the marks my nails made earlier today.

"Damn, looks like Spencer had some fun earlier." Blake laughs showing Marissa the marks. She shakes her head at him and I can't help but to smirk at Skylar's confused face as her fingers trace my mark on Spencer. "What are you smirking about?"Marissa ask. I look at her then back over at the two girls dancing. "Nothing."I say shaking my head.

"Do you like her?"Marissa ask out of nowhere. I turn to face her quickly. "What? what makes you think that?"

She rolls her eyes and looks up at Blake. "We don't care if you do, she likes you a lot and we don't want to see her get hurt again."Marissa says. Could I open up to two people I hardly talk too? I know they won't say anything, Spencer trust them with her life.

"I think I'm falling in love with her, but my mom will freak and won't let me see Spencer if she finds out."I whisper holding back tears. Blake pulls me into a hug and Maissa joins in a second later. "My bother is gay, and my parents are very religious but they didnt care that he's gay, they told him that if God hated gays then he wouldn't have made them that way."He says pulling back and wiping the tears from my eyes.

"Follow your heart Emily, not what others want, make yourself happy not anyone else."Marissa says smiling at me.I smile at the both of them and give them another hug. "Thank you guys, it's nice to have someone other than Spencer to talk to, she's usually the one I go to when I have a problem and need help."I say. They smile and nod before heading off to the dance floor.

I look back over at Spencer and Skylar, to see Spencer walking towards me and Skylar dancing with some other girl. She smiles at me and takes my cup from my hand. She raises the cup to her pouty lips, taking a sip before handing me the cup back. "Nice shirt, I believe it's mine."She says smirking at me. I look her up and down, checking out her tone stomach under the white tank top she's wearing and her tone legs shown off by the shorts she's also wearing,

I take her hand and lead her outside the house, around the side where there's no one at. "What's wrong Em?"She ask, cupping my cheek with her hand. "I couldn't stand to see you dance with Skylar, it made me so jealous, jealous that I couldn't dance with you, jealous that I couldn't go up to you and kiss you to show her your mine."I say capturing her lips with mine.

She smirks into the kiss and pulls me closer to her. "I'm all yours Emily, just promise me that one day you'll be mine."She whispers against my lips, moving down to kiss my neck. "Spence."I moan as she bites into my neck then quickly running her tongue over the spot to soothe the pain away.

She pulls away and looks me in the eyes. "Promise me." She demands. "I promise Baby."I whipser. "Baby?" She ask, smiling at me. "Yeah."I say feeling my face turn red. "I like it."She says pulling me in for another kiss...

There's chapter 10, I hope you guys enjoyed it. Thank you for reading and for the reviews on the last chapter, They all made me smile. :) Favorite part or parts? Part or parts you hated? Let me know :) Until next time, Thank you again, Bye guys :)