The next morning...
Emily's POV...
I wake to the sound of a guitar and singing, along with the smell of breakfast. I roll over to find Spencer isn't in the bed anymore but in her place is a note and my favorite flower, a white stargazer lily. I can't help but smile as I pick up the lily and smell it. I set the lily on the nightstand by the bed and pick up the note.
'Making breakfast for everyone, come out whenever your ready, no rush. I had an amazing night with you, and I thought you should know that waking up with you in my arms is the best feeling in the world. - xoxo Spence'
I love how she leaves me a note, when she's just down the hall. I love how sweet she is to me, I love how she protects me and is always there for me and the people she loves. I love her smile, her laugh, the way her eyes light up when she play lacrosse or guitar. I love how smart she is and how intense she is about school, I love how cocky she is and how passionate she is about everything she does. I just love her, more than I've ever loved anyone else, and that scares me to death.
I make my way out of the room and into the kitchen, where Maissa is sitting on the counter playing a black acoustic guitar, while Spencer is flipping something in a pan on the stove, singing along to the song Marissa is playing.
"That's when you can build a bridge of light, That's what turns the wrong so right, That's when you can't give up the fight." Marissa strums the gutiar and smiles at me, seeing me standing in the doorway watching the two of them. I return her smile and move further into the room.
"And that's when love turns night-time into day, That's when loneliness goes away, That's why you gotta be strong tonight, 'cause only love can build us a bridge of light, Only love can build us a bridge of light."Spencer finishes singing as Marissa plays the last chord to the song. Marissa sets the guitar aside and grabs some bacon off a plate, earning a punch in the arm from Spencer.
I walk up behind Spencer and wrap my arms around her waist, leaning over she slightly shorter frame. "Good morning."I whispered, placing kisses over exposed neck. She turns in my arms and smiles at me. "Morning beautiful."She said placing a soft kiss on my lips before turning back to the pancakes on the stove.
"Good morning to you too Emily."Marissa joked rolling her eyes at me. I move to Marissa and smirk at her. "Do you want a kiss too?"I asked trying not to laugh at the shock on her face. "Mine." Spencer said bitting into my neck lightly. I try to surpress a moan but it slips out anyways. "Don't start that in here, go to the bedroom."Marissa said rolling her eyes once again.
Spencer laughs and moves to pour three cups of coffee, after adding cream and sugar in two of them, she hands Marissa and I a cup before taking a drink from the still black cup of coffee. "Here."Hanna said coming into the kitchen handing my ringing phone to me. I look to see that I have 10 missed calls and 15 texts all from Ben. I ignore his latest call and delete all his text.
This is where he trys to get me back. I've seen him do it with other girls before we started dating. It starts with text and phone calls, then he starts showing up at my house or where ever I am at, begging for me to talk to him. He'll follow me around school , making up reasons to take him back and for why he acted the way he did. He'll do all that and more until I give in.
Strong but soft arms wrap around me and a head comes to rest on my shoulder. "Don't worry ,we'll get through this together I promise." Spencer whispered into my ear then kisses right behind said ear. I lean back into her arms and she hugs me tighter. I'm safe in her arms, I'm protected in her arms and I am loved in her arms, and that is most amazing feeling in the world.
Marissa's POV...
Hanna and I watch as two of are best friends, find hope and comfort in each others arms. Spencer is scared to death of losing Emily, she's already fell in love with her. She knows the second they tell Pam Fields, she will do everything in her power to keep Spencer away from Emily. Spencer doesn't know if Emily will fight her parents or give in to what they want, and that my friends is what really scares Spencer, not knowing who Emily will choose.
Spencer and I talked most of the morning about her feelings for Emily and what she was going to do about Pam. She never came up with an answer, never came up with a plan and I know that is killing her. Spencer Hastings has to know the answers to everything and always has to have a plan, if something should go wrong.
A tear falls from Emily's eye and Spencer is quick to kiss it away, causing Emily to give her a weak smile. "Everything will be okay."Spencer repeated pulling Emily closer to her. "I'll protect you Em I swear I will."She whispered. Emily seems to relax some and slips out of Spencer's embrass, turning to the pancakes still on the stove. "You burned it."Emily laughed throwing the pancake in the trash.
"That's okay, if was just Marissa's."Spencer joked and I glared at her, making her laugh. She starts on another pancake as Hanna and I steal some bacon when she's not looking. Emily rolls her eyes at us and starts to make us a plate of food. Once Spencer is done cooking everything, Ezra and Aria come back inside from their walk around the lake.
"Spencer this smells amazing."Aria said sitting down at the table with the rest of us. "Taste better than amazing."Hanna said with a full mouth of pancakes. "Talking with your mouth full is so attractive Han."Spencer replied sarcastically. Hanna just flips her off andd continues to eat.
Spencer's POV...
Breakfast went by fast, with laughs, small talk and ignoring Ben calls. Right now we're all swimming in the lake, Emily and I forgeting about having to face her parents, when she's ready to come out. I'll admit I'm scared that Emily won't want to stay with me after her mom freaks out. Emily has always done everything in her power to make her parents happy, that's why she started dating Ben, because they love him. If they don't like that Emily and I are together, will she leave me to make them happy?
God I hope not, I can't live without her, best friend or girlfriend, it doesn't matter I just need her in my life, I need her to make it through all the crap I've had thrown at me over the past three years.
A lot can happen in three years. At the age of 14 I knew I was gay, I never looked at boys the way every other 14 year old did, I only looked at girls. I got my heart broken for the first time when I was 14 and then I turned into 'love em and leave em Hastings' as people called me, but thats a story for another time.
At 15, I found Alex and she changed everything about me. She made me see that I could love again and that love always found a way. She helped me find who I am and turned me into the person I am today. We all know how that story ends. In three years I've had my heart broken twice and I know that if I fall completely in love with Emily and she breaks my heart, I'll never recover from it. I will give up on love if my heart gets broken again.
"What are you thinking about?"Emily asked, pulling me out of my thoughts. I smile at her when she wraps her arms around my neck and kisses my cheek. "The past."I said kissing her forehead.
She raises her eyebrow at me, waiting for a better answer. She let's go of my neck and swims over to the dock and gets out the water. I follow her like the love sick puppy I am and sit down on the dock next to her, our feet hanging in the water.
"The past three years."I finally said after a few minutes of us not saying anything, only staring into the water. "I hate the person I used to be, I used a lot of girls because I was lost and was trying to fill the hole in my heart, I hurt so many girls because I was hurt as well, I used them because I was used, I was a horrible person Emily and I don't desever you, you desever better than me."
I felt tears fall from my eyes and made no move to wipe them away. I desever to cry,to hurt, to be alone for the rest of my life, for all the things I did to those girls. "Spencer look at me."Emily demanded. When I don't look at her, she straddles my legs and makes me look her in the eyes. This would be hot if I wasnt upset and crying.
"Spencer Jill Hastings! You are not a horrible person, you were beyond heart broken and did what was done to you, cause you thought that was what love was. You've changed Spence, you've become a better person, not that you weren't great before. The fact that you hurt from all the things you've done means you've really changed. I like the person you are and the person you were. You may have done some things that you arnt proud of but those things done define who you are."
"You're an amazing person Spencer, don't ever let anyone tell you that you arnt." She said finishing her little speech. I wrap my arms around her waist and hug her to me, burying my face in her neck. I continue to cry into her neck as she wraps me up in her arms, slowly rubbing my back and kissing my hair. I hardly think about the things I did in the past but when I do, it hits me like a ton of bricks and always sends me into a break down...
Emily and I spent the whole day on the dock, wrapped in each others arms. We didn't talk about the past anymore, or Ben, or her parents. We talked about school, life, things we wanted to do in the future, places we wanted to see. It was a relaxing day spent with Emily, one I wouldn't change for anything.
We're all sitting by a fire that Ezra built, roasting marshmallows and talking about anything and everything that comes to mind."Spencer why don't you play us a song?"Marissa asked, handing me the black acoustic she was playing earlier. "Marissa I can't really play with my brace on." I said handing the guitar back to her. Hanna reaches over and lightly takes my brace off, grabbing the guitar from Marissa and handing it back to me. "Okay fine, this one goes to Em."
I slowly strum the first few chords to the song, working out the stiffness in my left hand.
'Stay for tonight
If you want to, I can show you
What my dreams are made of
As I'm dreaming of your face
I've been away for a long time
Such a long time And I miss you there
I cant imagine being anywhere else
I can't imagine being anywhere else
but here.'
I look to Emily as I play, she's smiling at me and I smile back. Marissa pulls her video camera out and starts to record me playing. I pick up the pace on my strumming when the stiffness in my arm is gone.
'How the hell did you ever pick me?
Honestly, 'cause I could sing you a song
But I don't think words can express your beauty
It's singing to me
How the hell did we end up like this?
You bring out the beast in me
I fell in love from the moment we kissed
Since then we've been history'
Emily moves to sit in front of me as I play. I stare into her beautiful brown eyes as I sing to her. Our friends might be here with us but to me, it's only the two of us.
'They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me
(If you want to, I can show you)
(If you want to, I can show you)'
'It goes to show, I hope that you know that you are
What my dreams are made of
And I cant fall asleep
I lay in my bed awake at night
And I'll fall in love, you'll fall in love
It could mean everything, everything to me
Ooh this could mean everything to me'
I stop playing and lean over to wipe a tear off of Emily's cheek. She pulls me into a quick kiss before sitting back. I grin and start to play again.
'They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever'
'The way that we are
Is the reason I stay
As long as you're here with me
I know I'll be okay'
'They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay, please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me'
'It goes to show, I hope that you know that you are, what my dreams are made of
It goes to show, I hope that you know that you are, what my dreams are made of
Please stay, please stay as long as you need
They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
They say that love is forever
Please stay forever with me'
As soon as I stop playing and set the guitar down, Emily is in my lap and her lips are on mine, in a heated kiss full of love. My hands tangle in her hair, as her hands grab my hips pulling closer to her, if that even possible. I put all my feelings into our kiss and she does the same. Her kiss tells me that she loves me too and she is just as scared as I am.
"Emily, be my girlfriend? secret of course until your ready." I whispered against her lips. "I'd love nothing more than to be your girlfriend."She said,capturing my lips in another kiss. This one is slower and sweeter than the last. Emily is mine and nothing can bring me down, nothing can ruin my good mood.
I stand with Emily in my arms and start to walk to the house. "Good night guys."Emily called out to our friends, before moving her lips to my neck. "Have fun! don't make to much noise, some of us want sleep." Hanna yelled after us. I carry Emily into my bed room and kick the door closed. I lay Emily down on the bed and hover over her. "Spence."She whispered. I lean down and kiss her forehead, her eye lids, nose, cheeks then finally her lips.
"Don't worry Em, I just want to lay with you."
She smiles up at me and brings our lips together in another kiss.
I hope you all enjoyed this update. Thank you for reading and for reviewing the last chapter. They mean a lot to me. There will be flashbacks of Alex and Spencer together, as long ones of Spencer's past before Alex. I'm sorry for any mistakes and if you don't like this chapter. Thank you for reading again and please dont forget to review :)
-HunnyBear108: I try to update once a week, some times more if I have time and I haven't writen any 'love' scenes ;) before but I will try in later chapters, no promises on it being good...
Songs used..
- bridge of light by Pink
- James dean and audrey Hepburn (acoustic) by Sleeping with Sirens
Until next time.