Sup guys :) How is everyone? Good I hope. So my sister Marissa helped a lot in this chapter so a big thanks to her. Thank you to everyone who read and reviewed the last chapter, means a lot to me. Sorry for any mistakes, I do everything on my tablet, so it doesn't come out perfect. Just a warning there is a lot of cussing in this chapter, but I think it makes it funny, sorry if you don't see it that way, I do cuss a lot so there is going to be cussing in the story, if you don't like I think you should stop reading now, I would hate to lose some of you guys because of that but this is how I write and I write to make me happy. I'm sorry if you don't klike that. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this chapter.
Flash backs are in Italic...
One week later...
Spencer's POV...
I stare up at Emily's house. I'm nervous I haven't been here in a week, I haven't seen or heard from my girlfriend in a week, or her mother who threw me out the house by my hair. Which wasn't fun. I sigh and look down at my now broken arm. This past week has been hell.
Last week...
"What in the hell are you doing Emily!" Ben and Pam Fields yelled, causing Emily and I to pull apart. I push Emily behind me and turn to a very pissed Ben and Pam. Emily started to shake behind me and as much as I wanted to hold her, I knew I couldn't. I had to protect her. And if that meant going toe to toe with both Pam and Ben then I would.
"I knew she broke up with me because of you!"Ben yelled running at me. Before I could move there was a sharp pain in my jaw and nose. If I thought getting slapped by Ben hurt, getting punched by him was a thousand times worse. If felt like I was hit by a truck. I get into a lot of fights, well I did but never with any guys, they never wanted to hit a girl. No amount of fighting could have prepared me for that pain. Blood was pouring out of my nose and onto the floor.
"Ben stop!"Emily yelled.
"Shut up Emily, she had this coming."he said. Anger rushed through my body. No one tells MY Emily to shut up, not even her own parents. I chagre towards Ben and tackle him into the wall behind him. Which was a bad idea, my left arm is trapped between him and the wall. My arm felt numb for a few seconds before the pain set in.
"Get off her, mom do something."Emily said pushing Ben off of me and kicking him in the stomach then turned to help me up. "Emily go to your room, Spencer get the hell out my house."Pam said calmly helping Ben to the couch. How could she be on his side? I get that she just found that her only daughter is gay, but letting her ex hit her girlfriend is how she deals with it?
"No, I'm taking Spencer to get her arm looked at."Emily much as I wanted her to come with me, I know it will only make things worse. "Baby, I'll be okay, do what your mom says."I said taking her hand in mine. Her eyes filled with tears as she looked into mine. I pulled her into a hug and kissed her neck. "Leave your window unlocked, I'll come by after 10."I whsipered so she was the only one to hear me.
She pulled out of the hug and wiped the blood off my face. She leaned in and kissed me, putting all her love into that one kiss. Before I could repond to the kiss, Pam grabs me by my hair and drags me to the door. Does everyone feel the need to hurt me? I look to Emily and my heart breaks at the tears running down her beautiful face. I open my mouth to say something to her but Pam shuts the door in my face.
I walked into the yard and looked up to Emily's window. She's looking down at me, from here I can still the tears running down her cheeks. My heart was breaking all over again, for her, for not being able to hold her while she crys, for not being there when she needs me the most. She opens her window and leans out. "Don't give up on us Em, I swear I will get us through this, I'll fix this."I called up to her. She nods and gives me a sad smile before closing the window and walking away from it.
Later that night...
Climbing up to Emily's window with a cast on my arm wasn't easy and it hurt like hell but I wasn't going to let that stop me. I had to see her, I had to make sure she was okay. Her window is cracked and I slip through quietly. Emily is on her bed asleep, hugging her knees to her chest, Tears dried on her face. I feel tears slide down my own cheeks as I take in the heart breaking sight before me. How could ones mother do this to their child? How could Pam be so heartless? Did she not see how much this is hurting her baby girl?
I climb into the bed next to her and wrap my arms around her. "I'm so sorry Emily, I shouldn't have stayed, I should have stopped and then we wouldn't be in this mess, you shouldn't have to cry yourself to sleep, I should have saved you from all this pain, God Em, you have no idea how truly sorry I am."I whispered as the tears fell from my eyes faster. The heart break I felt when Sam and Alex broke my heart, doesn't even come close to compare to the shattering pain I feel now.
I failed the girl I love, I promised I would protect her and I failed. How could I fail her? How could I let her down? How could I let the most amazing person I know get hurt like this? I feel so worthless for failing her, I feel like I desever ever broken heart I've had. I desver to be alone and broken for the rest of my life, for hurting her. The tears kept falling as I laid there, holding Emily.
"Don't cry Spence, please we have to stay strong, we'll get through this baby I promise, I'm not going anywhere."She whispered rolling over and kissing me softly on the lips. I should be comforting her, I should be strong enough for the both of us. We stayed in each others arm till the sun started to rise.
"You have to go Spencer, my mom will be up in an hour."
I got out the bed, pulling Emily with me. I kiss her one last time and slip out the window and down the latter. I ran the latter back to the side of the house and walked in front of Emily's window again.
"I'll come by after school, I'll do whatever it takes to see you."I yelled, loud enough for her to hear but no one else.
I went back to her house everyday but always got the door slammed in my face. Some times Ben would be the one to slam it in my face. I quickly wipe the tears from my cheek and make my way to the front door. I raise my hand to knock but before I can the door swings open and I'm pulled into someone's arms.
"Spen, I didn't think you were going to come up to the door, you were standing out there for awhile."A deep male voice said. Even if I didn't know that voice, i'd know who it is just by the nickname he used. "Mr. Fields, its good to see you home."I said hugging him back. Emily's dad is one of my rocks, he was the first person I told I was gay. He's the only Dad i've really ever known. He's always been there for me, no matter what.
"Wayne I dont want her here, she's done enough, she turned our daughter gay."Pam said from behind Mr.F. "Pam stop, we've been Spencer's second parents for ten years, and I'm not going to turn my back on her because you don't like that Emily is gay and you want to blame Spencer for it. Spencer didn't turn Emily gay, Emily was born gay, you can't turn someone gay."He said taking my hand and walking me to the living room.
We sat down on the couch and Pam sat in front of us. "Why do you hate me?"I whispered. She doesn't say anything, just stares at me.
"I get that you don't like that I'm gay, but why does it matter who I love? Love is supposed to be this amazing thing that bring everyone together but how can it, if people hate you for who you love? Three years ago I was emotionally, mentally and physically abused by someone I thought loved me, and I came to you for help to get out of that relationship, for love, for a shoulder to cry on, for anything and you just shut the door in my face, you turned your back on me when I needed you most."
Yes Sam abused me in every way possible. At 14 I was lost, Sam made me feel loved for awhile, then she started to abused me. I was too scared to leave, for six months she abused me till she finally got tired of me and dropped me like I was nothing. She was two years older than me, she was the first person to make me feel loved and wanted, and at 14 thats all I ever wanted. I wasn't heart broken because she left me but because I let things get so bad, because I was so weak.
I didn't realize what love really was till Alex. She helped me start to heal, regardless of the fact that she broke my heart too. She helped me in a lot of ways, she made me see that the person I was, wasn't who I was meant to be. I was meant to be strong, to give myself to that one person that would love me no matter what. While that person wasn't her, I think she was meant to help me heal and love again, so I could be strong enough for heart breaks, made me who I am and made me the person I need to be for Emily.
Pam didn't say anything, she just wiped the tears from her face and left the room. Mr. F wipes my tears away, ones I didn't know had fallen and helps me stand up. "Go see Emmy, I'll take care of Pam."He said pushing me towards the stairs. I slowly make my way up the stairs and to Emily's room. I push her bedroom door open to find her sitting by her window, staring out into the street.
"Em."
She turns at the sound of my voice and rushed into my arms. Her tears start to soak the collar of my shirt as I hold her to me. "I'm here baby, I'm here."I whispered as I moved us to her bed. She leaned up and pressed her lips to mine. "I missed you so much Spence." She whispered into my lips. I missed her more than she'll ever know, not talking to her or seeing her for a week was killing me. All week I felt like a part of me was missing, I wasn't whole without Emily. She truly was my other half, She completed me, made me feel whole and like I was worth something, and meant for something in the world.
"I missed you too Baby, more than you'll ever know."I whispered burying my face in her neck. She pulled back, smiled at me and lightly kissed my bruised nose. "Your nose looks a little better, and your jaw isn't as bruised."She said running her fingers down the side of my jaw. Ben almost broke my nose, had he hit me any harder, he would have. Lucky for me it's only bruised.
"I'm so sorry he hit you Spence, it's all my fault."She said pulling away from me and walking to the other side of the room. "Em, it's not your fault, please don't blame yourself baby. I'd take much worse beatings then that for you."I said getting up from her bed and walking over to her. She looks up at me as fresh tears fall from her eyes. "Don't cry love, I'm okay really."
"It's not just that Spencer, it's my mother too, she doesn't love me anymore, she won't look at me or talk to me, it's like I'm not even here."
Her tears fell faster as she spoke and I was trying to keep from crying at how broken she was. I couldn't cry not in front of her anyways, I had to be strong in front of her, so she knew she could lean on me.
"She still loves you Emily, your her daughter, she'll always love you no matter what, she's just trying to find a way to deal with this, things will get better baby I promise, you won't be locked in this house forever and if she trys to keep you here, we'll run away, we'll run far from here and be together just you and me, I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy."
She smiled at me through her tears and moved into my waiting arms. I meant what I said, I would take her away from here if it came down to that. I will do whatever it takes to make her happy, even if that meant I had to walk away from her and never look back. I would rather be broken hearted than her be unhappy for a day.
"I love how much you care for Emmy, but please dont run away with her, that will make things a lot worse."Mr Fields said from the doorway. I kiss the top of Emily's head and turn to her father. He smiled at us and took a seat at Emily's desk. "Spencer I want you to take Emily out for the day, just till 8, she needs to have some fun and needs to forget about this for a little while, Pam doesn't like it, so please take the rest of the gang with you to make her happy."He said running his fingers through his short brown hair.
Emily grinned at her father before running into her closet. "We'll be down stairs honey, come down when your ready."Mr. fields said leading me out the room. He went into the kitchen and I went into the living room. Pam was sitting on the couch, with her head in her hands. I sat down across from her and cleared my throat. "I'm in love with her Pam, and I'm not going to hurt her, I'm not going to leave her and I will do everything in my power to make her happy, She thinks you don't love her anymore, she is so broken right now and all she needs is for you to tell her you love her, drop your pride and how you were raised and love your daughter for who she is, before you lose her."I said then walked outside before she had a chance to say anything.
I pulled my phone out and called the gang, A.K.A. Hanna, Aria, Marissa, Blake and Caleb. I told them to meet me at Emily's and that we are going to Philly for a few hours. They showed up before Emily was done getting ready. "How did you get pass her mom?"Hanna asked as they got Marissa's '69 black with two yellow pinstripes going down the hood, Camaro nicknamed 'Batman, She's in love with Batman, don't ask.
"Her dad is home and let me in."I answered when they joined me on the porch.
Emily walks out the door and is picked up in Blake's arms. He spins her around, causing her to laugh. God I missed the sound of her laugh, yes it's only been a week since I heard it last but it felt like a life being away from the person your in love with for a week and see how much you miss them. "Put me down BJ."Emily said in between laughs. BJ is Blake's nickname. Stands for Blake Jeffers, which would be his first and last name of course.
"Yeah Blow Job put her down."Hanna laughed, earning the finger from Blake. When we started calling him BJ, Hanna took to calling him Blow Job, which he hates with a passion. "Fuck you Han, just fuck you."He said setting Emily down. "Be nice baby, you know you love that name."Marissa said kissing Blake's cheek. Marissa also loved to tease him about his nickname. "You know what, fuck you too Baby."Blake said giving Marissa the finger as well.
"Aww come on baby, you know I was just playing."Marissa pouted. "No fuck you."Blake said not looking at Marissa. When he finally looks over at his girlfriend, his face soften at her puppy dog eyes. "Okay Okay, I forgive you."He said kissing her. "Dude, you are so whiped."Caleb laughed. "Fuck you, it's not my fault your aren't getting any."Blake said. "I'll have you know, Hanna and I-"
"Dont you even finish that sentence Caleb."Hanna said interrupting Caleb.
"Whos whiped now Caleb?"Blake teased. "Fuck you Blow Job."Caleb yelled. Oh my God, I love them both to death but they just don't know when to stop some times. Emily and Aria are laughing, watching the two guys fight with each other, and Hanna and Marissa are trying to get them to shut up. "Okay let's get out of here before comes out here and kicks y'alls asses for cussing so much."I said pushing the two boys towards the cars.
"So Spencer where are we going?"Marissa asked unlocking her car and letting Blake and Caleb get in the back. "Um I'm not sure, where do you wanna go baby?"I asked Emily opening the car door for her. "Can we go to the Arcade?"She asked, hope filling her sad eyes and voice. How could I say no to her? I wanted to keep it as our place but if that's what would make her happy right now, then I could live with sharing it with others. "That sounds good to me love."I said leaning down to kiss her before shutting the car door.
"Just follow me, Ari are you riding with us or them?"I asked walking to the driver side of my Mustang. God I love this car, yes I am one of those people who think of their car as their baby, don't like it? Get over it I don't care. "With you if that's okay."She said walking towards me. "That's fine with me, would you like to pick up Ezra? Blake won't tell anyone and no one from school, will be where we're going."I said opening my door for her and helping her into the back seat.
She nods her head yes when I start the car. I pull out the Fields driveway and make my way to Ezra's apartment, with Marissa's Camaro on my tail. I'll admit I was speeding to see if Marissa would keep up with me. And of course she did, she loved to race in Batman. I knew my Mustang, couldn't beat her Camaro but that didn't mean I didn't love to try. When Aria said we were worse than teenage boys, she wasn't lying, it gets ten time worse when it has to do with cars.
After picking Ezra up and going over Ezra and Aria dating with Blake, we made our way to Philly.
"So where are we going?"Ezra asked. I look at him and Aria through the rearview mirror and smiled at them. Aria is sitting in Ezra's lap and his arms are wrapped around her waist, with his head on her shoulder. Wasn't the safest way to sit but whatever, they looked really cute like that. Emily turned around in her seat and took a picture of the two.
"The Arcade."Emily said smiling at me. I smiled back at her and took her hand in mine. It's hard to steer with a cast on my hand but it was worth it to hold her hand. "A arcade? Spencer I never seen you as the type to be into arcades."Ezra said. "It's not just an arcade, it's also a club mainly for teenagers."I said turning down the road The Arcade is on.
Emily started to bounce with excitement and was smiling at me. It was a true smile, one that reached her pretty brown eyes. My heart swelled with love at the site of how happy she was. I wounder if this place meant as much to her as it meant to me. "Spencer, I love you and I trust you but this place looks really creepy."Aria said, staring at the building unsure. Emily and I laughed as we stepped out the car. "Just wait till you see the inside."Emily said taking my hand and dragging me inside.
As soon as we step inside, I'm hit with the sound of music blasting through the whole place and the smell of their famous pizza. "Spencer, Emily it's good to see you two back so soon, and you have more friends with you."Madison said coming over to hug Emily and I. "I hope that the fact that you two are holding hands means you're together?"Jo asked from behind her wife. "Yes Spencer and I are together."Emily said grinning at me. I loved seeing her this happy, I just hope it last once we leave here.
"Well I'm happy for you, Spencey what the hell happened to your arm?"Jo asked giving me a hug and tapping my case. "Fight with an asshole."I shrugged. Hanna cleared her throat behind us and steps forward. "Oh right, Jo, Madison, these are my best friends, Hanna, Aria, Marissa, Blake, Ezra and Caleb, guys this is Jo and Madison, they own Arcade."I said pointing everyone out when I said their name.
"That's not Blake, that Blow Job."Hanna laughed after shaking Jo's and Madison's hand. "Fuck you Hanna."He yelled. "Well nice to meet you Blow Job."Jo said laughing at Blake's face. "I fucking hate you Hanna."He yelled walking off. "Spencer are you here for karaoke night?"Madison asked leading us to a table. "Y'all have karaoke night? Spencer you should sing a song."Aria said smiling at me. "We'll do a song as a group."I said earning groans from everyone but Blake. He just high fived me when he came back over to us. The boy loves karaoke, even if he can't sing. I'm not being mean he's the one who says he can't sing.
"What song?"Jo asked. "Last night by Breathe Carolina?"Marissa asked taking a seat in Blake's lap. "I love that song, can we do that Spence?"Emily asked looking at me with hopeful eyes. Again how am I supposed to say no to her? "Anything you want baby."I whispered. "Whipped."Caleb said.
I sit down at the table and Emily quickly sits in my lap, wrapping her arms around my neck. I smiled at her and pressed my lips to her cheek. "You look amazing tonight."I whispered into her ear. She's wearing a pair of skin tight jeans, a tight hockey jersey and black boots. She looks more than amazing, she looks sexy as hell. Oh how I would love to take her back to my house and have my way with her...
So what did you think? Let me know? :) Them singing will be in the next chapter, which I hope to have up by Sunday. Thank you for reading and I really hoped you enjoyed it. Thanks again to my sister for her help on this chapter. Until Sunday guys and girls, have a great week :)