Chapter 20

Darry and Johnny

A month later…

Pony had been home with everyone for about two weeks and things were finally starting to get back to normal. Steve and Pony were tired but Steve had been completely exhausted for a few days due to the baby but they were all getting along well. Everyone had chipped in to help with the baby who seemed to not want to sleep when everyone else did. Darry was also worried about Johnny he had been extra quiet lately and wasn't quite sure how to handle it.

"Hey baby are you ok?" Johnny asked the extremely quite Darry that had been staring at him for like five minutes.

"Yea I could ask ya the same thing." Darry said cocking his head to the side.

"Nah I'm fine Dar, really I promise." Johnny said at the look Darry had given him. In truth he was really worried. With all the drama of Pony, Johnny had yet to be able to tell Darry that he was pregnant. Unfortunately he was afraid that Darry won't want it with everything that had been going on and on top of that he was didn't know how to tell his other half.

"Actually Darry can we talk…privately?" Darry gave him a side glance but nodded. He was clearly worried about what the other wanted to talk about. They both made their way to Darry's room and Johnny closed the door.

"There is something I need to tell you and I'm not sure how well you're going to take it. The best way for me is for you just to let me get this out so please don't say anything." Darry closed his mouth and just nodded. "Thank you, look Darry I love you with everything I have but telling you this scares me. I'm..oh god, I'm pregnant."

Johnny stood there waiting for some kind of reaction from the older greaser. He studied Darry's face waiting for something to give away his thoughts but nothing did. His eyes were closed off and as it sunk in Darry closed his eyes and put his head in his hands.

"I don't want you take this wrong but I don't want you pregnant." Darry said after moments of silence.

"Darry I've already gone to see the doctor I'm fine and so is the baby. I'm having it." Johnny stood tall knowing that he was going to have to fight for this.

"No, Johnny I don't want this. I don't want a baby. Neither of us are ready for that. I don't want to bring a baby into a world of turmoil." Darry said standing up and making his way towards Johnny. Johnny took a step back and put his hand up.

"No, you don't get to choose this for me. I want this baby. I love it and I love you, but I won't let you take this away from me. I want a family in which I know everyone loves me and I thought that we had that but if you can't accept us both then I won't stay. This is not something that you can decide. I know your scared and so am I but everything happens for a reason." Johnny explained. He tried to keep his cool. He knew Darry was scared but he had to stand tall against the man or he would falter and Darry would get his way.

"Johnny of course I'm scared I almost lost my brother to a child! I'm not going to lose you! I don't want this baby and you're not giving me a choice. It's not fair! I don't want to be a dad!" Darry lost it and started screaming.

"You're not the only one in this relationship Darry! I want this baby! If you don't want it then you don't want me! Don't worry we won't be a problem too you!" Johnny said opening the door and heading down stairs. He looked at everyone sitting in the living room but instead of saying anything he just walked out the main door. Pony sighed and made to get up but Dally put his hand on Pony's arm.

"No I got it. He can stay with us." Dally said looking at Two-Bit and he nodded.

"Thanks Dal, are you guys leaving?" Dally nodded and helped Two-Bit up and they both went after Johnny. The door shut as Darry came downstairs.

"I don't want to talk about it." Pony nodded at Darry knowing he would have to work through it on his own.

"Well Dally said he could stay with them. So at least he's safe." Darry nodded and walked into the kitchen and came back with a beer. Serenity let out a wail and Pony got up and got his beautiful little girl. He cooed and swayed trying to get her to calm back down as he made his way to the kitchen to make a bottle. Darry's eyes were on him the entire way. He loved Serenity but it wasn't his to fuck up, wasn't his to deal with daily, wasn't his lover.

**A few weeks later**

Every time Johnny and Darry were in the same house an all-out war would happen. As Johnny started to show more and more symptoms and his belly grew the fights got worse. The two would be fine until someone would ask about the baby and then Johnny would start talking about preparations and feelings and Darry would just go off on him. Shortly after the first fight Johnny had called it quits with Darry and refused to even acknowledge his presence half the time. Everyone knew that the reason why they fought was because they loved each other but the fight that was currently happening was one of the worst everyone had seen.

"Darry leave me the hell alone!" Johnny screamed at the older boy in the kitchen.

"No! DAMN IT JOHNNY IT'S MINE TOO I WANT A SAY IN THIS!" Darry billowed at Johnny.

"NO CAUSE YOUR SAY IS TO GET RID OF IT! YOUR JUST A SCARED LITTLE BOY AND I'M TIRED OF IT. STOP SCREAMING AT ME I'M NOT YOUR TOY ANYMORE!" Johnny yelled back. See in the past few weeks Johnny had come to believe that Darry had only used him because the other man was treating him so badly. The fight seemed to be peaked at that point.

"A toy that's what you think! Your acting like a child Johnny. GROW UP!" Johnny chucked his bottle at Darry and he moved just in time for it to smash.

"Grow up…Grow up, you want me to grow up. I NEVER GOT A DAMN CHILDHOOD CONSTNATLY RUNNING FROM A MAN THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY FATHER BUT WOULD RATHER SEE MY BLEEDING AND BROKEN! YOU WEREN'T THERE GROWING UP TO WATCH HIS EYES CHANGE, I ALWAYS KNEW WHEN I WAS THE TARGET! HE LOVED SEEING ME RUN, LOVED TO SEE THE LOOK OF TERROR IN MY EYES. HE WAS A PREDATOR; IT WAS ALL A GAME TO HIM! A DRUNKEN GAME THAT HE COULD PLAY TO HURT ME, IF THIS IS HOW YOUR GOING TO ACT I WILL REFUSE TO LET YOU NEAR YOUR CHILD I WON'T LET IT HAPPEN TO HER TOO. I WON'T LET YOU TERRORISE OUR BABY'S LIFE BECAUSE YOU CAN'T DEAL WITH LIFE! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO REFUSES TO GROW UP! THIS CHILD ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE AND YOU CAN'T EXCEPT THAT IT IS YOUR PROBLEM, BUT DON'T TELL ME I'M IMMATURE!" Darry was pissed he hated fighting with Johnny but even he knew he shouldn't have gone there.

"Johnny, I'm.." Darry started.

"No you don't get to apologize. GO FUCK YOUR SELF DARREL CURTIS! I'M DONE WITH YOU!" Johnny said turning around and making it out the door. Pony seen the tears pouring down the boy's face. He couldn't let this go on any longer. He knew the stress was putting him and the baby at risk and it could not go on any longer. He got up and made his way into the kitchen, and when Darry went to say something he cut him off.

"No, Darry it's time you listen. For the last two months you two have been at each other's throat. I am tired of dealing with this. I know you two love each other but I think you need a wake up call. You are going to lose him not only in a relationship but in life. You are going to be the reason he loses his life in labor, if he even makes it that long. I won't let my brother kill my best friend. So here's the thing. Johnny is stressed out with all the fighting, he feels alone, and he is now on his own, because your being a dumbass. I was stressed with everything that went on with Steve at the beginning and I was freaking out about having the baby. I had a problem in my delivery that was all. Yes it was a big problem but that doesn't mean that Johnny will have the same problems but you are pushing him into a dark corner in which I don't think he will ever come out of it without you. You're going to be the reason he loses the baby or loses his life. You're the one stressing him out, nobody else so I suggest you get your head out of your ass and realize it before it's too late!" Darry had tears going down his face when Pony finished ranting at him. He knew it was true but he didn't want to believe it. He loved Johnny and he was treating him like crap but he would rather have the man out of his life now then to love him and lose him to a child. He knew he couldn't love a child that took his life away from him so there was no way he wanted anything to do with this child.

"Pony just leave it alone, please." Pony sighed and through his hands up.

"Darry you're an idiot your leaving the man you love because you're scared shitless. Get over yourself and see that Johnny is just as scared." Pony bit out and walked out of the room. He was so irritated with his brother and couldn't stand to see his best friend hurt like this.

Darry sat at the table and didn't move for what seemed like days to him, but wasn't more than three or four hours. He knew that he had to make a decision, either he accepted Johnny and the baby or he just cut them out of his life. Either way he needed to make the decision now. He couldn't have it on his conscious if anything happened to Johnny in delievery because he had stressed himself out. Darry had no idea what he should do, but he vowed to himself to stop fighting with Johnny. That if he started talking about the baby he would just sit there and not say a word. He knew he couldn't get up and leave because that would only upset Johnny and he couldn't fight with him to get rid of the baby because that stressed him out so he would just choose the middle road and not say a thing. He knew he was being childish but he didn't want a child, at least not yet. He just got down raising his brothers, he wanted some time before him and Johnny started a family to be a young adult and have some fun. In retrospect he knew that he couldn't blow off work to get drunk like Two-Bit had done but he also knew he just wasn't ready for a child.

"Hey Dar, look I know your upset about the Johnny thing and that Pony is siding with him but maybe I can be of some help." Steve said walking in with Serenity in his arms. Darry nodded and Steve sat down at the table with him.

"I'm not ready for a child, Steve. I'll just fuck it up. I don't want that type of responsibility just yet. I mean I raised my brothers so that we would be together but now Pony has you and the baby and I wanted to have a little fun before having a family. Not only that I'm scared something will happen to Johnny but I will still have the baby. I don't want to resent a child because I lost the father. It's not right and I don't know how you dealt with it all." Darry said resting his head on his arms.

"I don't know either. The entire time Pony was pregnant I just kept worrying I would end up like my old man. I knew I never wanted to go through that and I just told myself I won't become it. Then when Pony slipped into that coma I was scared shitless. Never once did I wonder about resenting the her it was how was I gonna handle this alone. Pony's the one with all the instincts not me. In the end though I didn't have to worry, it worked out but for some it doesn't and once you see your child it all changes. Something just clicks." Steve lightly bounced a gurgling Serenity. Darry looked up and seen his neice smiling at him while blowing bubbles with her saliva. She was so content and cute but he wasn't sure he could do the same.

"Ya know, Darry. I still wonder if I'm doing it right. That's what we got our boys for. They are our emotions." Steve said knowing the look on Darry's face. "Johnny will help you whenever you need it ya just have to ask."

Darry nodded at Steve finally making a decision about what he needed to do with Johnny and the baby. He just had no idea how to relay it to Johnny.

Okay guys this one's up now two more to go….lol. I hope everyone likes this and will Review for me. I know this one is a long time coming but I really thinking I'm going to finish it soon. I mean how much trouble can these boys get into! Lol.