Melissa looked over at me, opened her mouth then closed it again and looked back at the road. She's been doing this for the past hour and its really starting to aggravate me. "Just spill it Melissa."

She looks over at me again with a half smile on her face. "Why do you want to wait to have sex with Emily? You've never waited with any other girl before."She asked looking back over at the road.

She's right, I've never waited with any girl before. Hell Alex and I had sex on our first date. I've slept with a lot of girls, half of them I dont remember. It was all about sex for me for awhile, and I was okay with that because I wasn't getting hurt. I was having fun and living life, with a different girl in my bed every week, some times a different girl every night.

Call me a slut if you like, that's who I was back then and that's someone I'll never be again. I used girls and hurt them but it didn't bother me at the time. I was just sleeping with them to feel something other than pain. I wanted to feel loved, to be happy but we don't always get what we want and I only felt worse afterwards.

"I want to show her that it isn't about sex for me, I want her to know that I'm with her because I love her not because I want to just have sex with her."I said turning away from Melissa and looking out the window.

I don't want her to question why I'm with her, or question my love. I just want her to know that I truly do love her. If that means holding off on sex then I can do that, i'd do anything for her. Every relationship I've had started out with sex, then became just about sex not love and I don't want that for Emily and me. I just want to love her, to treat her the way she deserves, to give her everything she wants in life, to make her dreams come true and to make her happy, I can do those things without sex.

"Spencer I'm sure she knows you're not with her for the sex. Anyone can see that you love her Sis, I'm surprised it took you this long to figure out that you're in love with her, I've seen it for years so has everyone else."

"If everyone knew I loved her then why not tell me and save me from getting my heart broken?"I asked.

"We couldn't tell you, that was something you had to figure out on your own. Besides if we told you wouldn't have listened."

Again she was right. If anyone had told me I was in love with Emily a year ago, I would have called them crazy and denied it. I would have gone out of my way to prove I wasn't in love with her, just because I always thought it was never a good thing to fall for your best friend.

"You've changed a lot Spencer, I'm not sure who made you want to change but I'm glad you did, I didn't like the person you were. I know we didn't get along then but I still didn't like the cold, closed off person you were."She whispered reaching over and squeezing my hand.

"I'm proud of you Spencer and I love you, you don't hear that enough from me or anyone else, we're all proud of the person you've become, yeah we didn't like how you were after Sam but you changed and that's all that matters now."

A smile tugged at my mouth and turned into a full blown grin. She's never told me she's proud of me and I can't even remember the last time she told me she loved me. I've missed this, us being able to hang out and talk without fighting. We've been fighting ever since I could remember, some times I can't even remember why we started fighting in the first place. I'm happy I have my sister back.

"Spencer, one more thing."She said. "Try to get along with Dad please, Mom hates that you two don't talk and hate each other."

Of course, it's always my fault that we don't get along and that we always fight.

"I try Lissy, I really do but all he does is ignores me or makes some comment about me being gay. He doesnt like that I'm gay and that's fine but I don't understand why, his best friends, or former best friends are gay and he never had a problem with them, so why hate me?"

I can feel the tears start to fill my eyes but I refuse to cry. I've spent too many nights crying over the fact that my own father hates me because of who I love. I put up these walls so no one sees the pain he caused me, I don't want him to know he still has the power to hurt me and to cut me down in seconds.

I used to look up to my father, used to want to be just like him when I was little. Be strong like him, be fearless, driven to work hard and accomplish the things I wanted in life but then I grew up and seen him for who he really is. A man who turns his back on his own daughter because he doesn't accept who I am, a man who cares more about his job then his family.

I learned along time ago that I could never be the person he wanted me to be. I learned that no matter what I do, he'll never accept me and he'll never love me like he used too but that doesn't stop me from trying. Doesn't stop me from trying to be the best for him, doesn't stop me from trying to fix things between us, doesn't stop me from setting myself up to fail with him.

Why do I even try when I know that no matter what I do, things will never change...

-oOo-

"Here they come, ready to face Dad?"Melissa asked bumping shoulders with me. "Yes."I said giving her a small smile. If I'm being honest I'm not ready, I'll never be ready to face him.

I watch as my parents walk towards us, hand in hand smiling. When they spot us, my mom smiles brighter and gives us a small wave. My dad on the other hand frowns when his eyes fall on me. Do I really disappoint him that much?

"Relax Spencer, don't let him get to you."Melissa said as our parents got closer. She placed her hands on my tensed shoulders and gave them a squeeze.

"Mom, Dad how was your trip?"Melissa asked as our parents stopped in front of us. "It was great honey."Mom said hugging the both of us. Dad stepped foward and hugs Melissa then stepped back beside mom. "I missed you baby girl."He said smiling at her. He looks over at me, rolls his eyes and walks pass me.

"I'm sorry Spencer."Mom said linking arms with Melissa and I and heading towards the exit. "Melissa told me you have a new girlfriend, when do I get to meet her?"She asked looking down at me. "I was going to see if you would have dinner with us before we went to Mikey's for the night."

"Sounds good, I can't wait to meet her."She said smiling at me.

Mom didn't always accept me, it took so time but she finally got over me being gay. I'm just glad I have one parent on my side again.

-oOo-

I stood over the stove, stiring the noddles around the pot as Mom prepared her home made sauce. It's almost five O'clock and Emily should be here soon. Mom kept asking me about her, hopeing I would give something away that would tell her who I'm dating.

I'm nervous about this dinner. I was hoping it would just be Mom, Melissa, Emily and I but no my Dad wants to join us. I'm worried he'll say something to upset Emily, he likes to make snide comments to anyone I bring home. He called Alex a gold digger when he met her for the first time.

Emily knows how my Dad is but now things are different, she's not just my best friend she's my girlfriend and I don't want him to ruin things for me. I really love Emily, she means everything to me and I'll never forgive my Dad if he upsets her or hurts her.

"Relax Honey, everything will be okay."Mom said hip checking me. She sends me the famous Hastings grin, I try to return the smile but it falls flat on my lips. She frowns at me before pulling me into a hug. "You really care for this girl huh?"She asked resting her chin on top of my head.

"More than you know Mom, she means a lot to me and I don't want Dad to be well himself, he's hurt and pissed off every girl I've brought home. I'm scared he'll hurt her."I whispered into her chest. It's been along time since I've let my guard down around my Mom or hell anyone in my family. I surprised myself by doing so.

"He won't Honey, I promise."

"I hope."

The door bell rings and Mom runs out the kitchen to answer it. I shake my head and turn back to the food on the stove. I drain the spaghetti noodles as I listen to Mom and Emily talk.

"Spencer is in the kitchen cooking, we're having dinner with her girlfriend. Is she good to Spencer?"Mom asked. "Oh yeah she is great to Spencer."Emily said. I can hear the laughter in her voice and I know she's trying not to laugh.

They walk into the kitchen and Emily grins at me. I walk over to them and pull Emily into a hug. Her arms quickly wrap around my waist pulling me into her more. "I missed you."She whispered. "It's only been a few hours Em but I missed you too."I laughed kissing the top of her head.

Mom looks over at us, realization crossing her features. "Oh...Emily is your girl friend?"She asked a small smile playing at her lips. We pull apart and I nod my head as Emily wraps one arm around my waist and cruls into my side, head resting on my shoulder.

"I knew you two would end up together."Mom said smiling at us then turning back to the sauce on the stove. "Did everyone see that I loved Emily?"I asked. "Yes."Dad said walking in to the kitchen. "You always had this loving look in your eyes when you looked at her, your eyes shined bright with love when you talked about her, you were happiest when she was around."

"It's nice to see you agin Emily." "You too Mr. Hastings."Emily said flashing him a smile.

I have to say I'm surprised he's being nice. Maybe things can be fixed between us but I'm going to get my hopes up, no point in setting myself up for disappointmeant.

"Spencer set the table please."Mom said pulling plates and sliverware out.

-oOo-

"How is the swim team doing this year Emily."My Dad asked slipping on his glassv of wine. We're half way through dinner and everything seems to going good. Dad hasn't been a dick, Melissa and Mom have been telling Emily stories about me from when I was little.

"Good, we haven't lost a meet yet and we have a meet on monday against the best swim team in state."

"That's good, Spencer how is the Lacrosse team?"Mom asked looking over at me. "Fine, they lost last weeks game."I said. "I think I'm going to quit the team."

"What!?"Dad yelled standing up from the table. "Why Spencer? You love Lacrosse."Melissa asked.

Yeah I love Lacrosse but I can't play for two month, maybe longer and it's just not fun anymore. Its all about winning now and I joined the team to have fun and let anger out.

"The basketball Coach asked me to join the team when my arm heals. I love Lacrosse but I want to try something different."I said. Emily takes my hand under the table and sends me a smile.

"You're not quiting the team."Dad said glaring at me.

"I don't see what the big deal is, you never came to my games anyway."

"It shows you're a quiter."

"Whatever Dad, I'm done with Lacrosse."I said getting up from the table and walking out the house towards the barn.

Of course he wants to jump down my throat in front of Emily. He can't for once be a real Father to me.

"Spence, are you okay?"Emily asked wrapping her arms around me from behind. I relax in her embrace and cover her hands with my own. "I'm okay, I'm sorry for ruining dinner."

"You didn't baby, why don't we pick the girls up and head to Mikey's?"She asked kissing my shoulder. I nod my head and we make our way to her car.

I was going to post thing a few days ago but I got lazy ;) haha. I hope you enjoyed this update. In most Spemily stories the Hastings don't care if Spencer gay, so I thought i'd make it where one of her parents don't accept her. I did Peter because I think he is an ass. Thank you to everyone who read and reviewed the last chapter I love you guys :) and thank you for reading this one as well.

Over the storm- I'm glad you loved the last chapter and I hope you liked this one as well. Just want to say I love your stories, haven't really had time to review but I will. I love cute romantic stuff so I try to add it as much as I can, happy you love the fluff.

Jamscottroc54- Melissa had to ruin their fun, I want to build a little more tension between the two but don't worry they will get to have their fun soon ;)

Craycrayforshay- Thanks for reviewing, glad you loved the fluff and thought the chapter way cute :)

Hunnybear108- I love how long your reviews are, always makes my day when you review(I think I've told you that before haha.) hopefully this chapter clears up why Spencer wants to wait. Spencer and Melissa have a better relationship in the story as shown in this chapter. I see Em as a romantic but even if she isn't, I wanted her to do something nice for Spencer. The girls are still with their guys and I will have more of them in the story soon. Alison is coming in n the next chapter. Your idea will also come into play in the next chapter as well.

Thanks again to everyone who reviewed, if I missed you I'm sorry and I'll get to you in the next chapter. Till next time.