I look up to the two people I wished were my parents, the two people who were always there for me when my parents weren't. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. Here goes nothing. "I'm gay."I whispered.

I open my eyes to see smiling down at me. He pulls me into a hug. "I'll always love you no matter what Spen."He whispered, kissing the top of my head then moving back next to his Wife. Pam stares at me with a blank expression. My heart rate starts to pick up and I start to have a panic attack.

"Get out! Get out of my house and don't come back."She yelled opening the front door. "Pam stop, it took alot of guts for her to come out to us you're not just going to kick her out of here."Mr. Fields said shutting the front door. "I will not have a sinner in my house and around Emily." yelled grabbing my arm and throwing me out the house.

Tears ran down my cheeks at an uncontrollable rate as I watched Pam shut the door in my face. How could she throw me out like that? I thought she would understand, i thought she would love me no matter what. That's what she always told me, every time I'd come over upset because of my parents she would tell me she loved me and that I'd always have a place in her home. Why does that change because I like girls?

I forced my feet to move, even when I just wanted to lay down and cry. I ran down the driveway, I ran down the road, I ran till I couldn't run no more. I found myself staring down at the small of RoseWood. The place I've called home my whole life, the place where I met my best friends, the place I realized I'm different than everyone else.

"You're not going to jump are you?"A voice asked from behind me. I turn my head to look at the owner of said voice. Leaning on the RoseWood Overveiw sign was a tall blonde with a dazzling smile. "Cause I can't watch a beautiful girl like yourself jump to your death."She said moving closer to me.

My grip on the railing behind me tightened and I looked back out over the cliff. Was I going to jump? Isn't that why I climbed over the railing and now stood on the edge? I'm upset and heart broken but is it enough to leave my friends behind? "I'm not going to jump."I whispered.

"Then why are you up there?"She asked, now standing next to me, looking up at me with the darkest green eyes I've ever seen. "I needed to think." "Well how about we go think over a cup of coffee?"

"I don't even know you." "I'm Sam and you are?"She asked. "Spencer." "Well Spencer, we know each now come down from there and I'll take you home."She said holding her hand out for me to take. I grab ahold of her hand and she pulls me over the railing to her.

I don't know what it is about this girl but she makes me feel safe. I felt as if I could trust her. "Don't worry I'm not some killer who rides around looking for girls to kidnap then kill."She laughed as we walked to her car. "I wasn't worried." "I won't hurt you."She said helping me into her car.

That was the first lie Sam ever told me. I feel so stupid for ever trusting her. Sure she was beautiful, sweet and caring but all that hid what was underneath and what was underneath was ugly and horrible.

"Hey. where'd you go? You spaced out there for a second."Alex asked waving her hand in front of my face. "Just lost in thought."I said giving her a small smile. "About what?"She asked sitting on the hood of my car with me. When I don't say anything, she bumps me with her shoulder and makes me look at her. "You can tell me anything Hastings, We used to tell each other everything."

"Sam." " did you get over what she did to you?"She asked. "I didn't, that pain is still there."I replied looking down at my hands. It true, all the pain Sam caused me is still there, I just try to push it deep down so no one sees. I don't like for people to see any kind of weakness and to that's how I view the pain.

I may never get over what Sam did to me but I will never let it show, I'll keep it buried deep down inside to save myself anymore pain. Dealing with everything that happened to me will only cause more hurt before it starts to get better and go away. "You know you can talk to me about it."She said giving me a one arm hug.

"Yeah thanks anyways, here comes Paige" "And your girl is right behind her, she doesn't look too happy."Alex said pointing to Emily, who is walking behind Paige with Hanna and with a frown on her face. Even when she's frowning, I still find Emily to be the most beautiful person I've ever laid eyes on. "I'm gonna go."Alex said standing up.

"Stay, if you want to be friends again then you need to get on her good side."I said grabing her arm and pulling her back down next to me. "Uh Spencer, she almost broke my nose. Emily scares the hell out of me." "She's my killer, that's for sure."I said with a smile. "And I bet you love that huh?"She asked smirking at me. "That She's mine? yeah I love it."

Paige joined us a few seconds later, giving me a small smile and kissing Alex on the cheek. "It's nice to see you two being friends again."She said taking Alex's hand in her own and intertwining their fingers. "It's nice to be friends again."Alex said grinning at me.

"Hey Spencer, hello to you too Slut and Whore."Hanna said glaring at all three of us. "Hanna chill." "No, don't worry about it Spencer we deserve it."Paige said giving Hanna a bright smile. "Hey Baby."I said leaning up and giving Emily a quick kiss. "Did you need a ride home or want to get something to eat before your meet?"

"No, my Dad is picking me up he should be here soon."She said, her eyes darting between Alex and I. "Did y'all make up?"She asked a sadness flashing in her eyes. "I just wanted to clear the air with Spencer, maybe be friends again like we used to be."Alex answered before I had the chance. Something flashed in Emily's eyes but was gone before I could tell what it was.

I reach out and take her hand in mine, pulling her into a hug. She grabs ahold of my shirt as I wrap my arms around her. Her hold on my shirt grows tighter as she pulls me closer. "What's wrong Em?"I asked, leaning my head down to whisper in her ear.

I look up at Hanna, Alex and Paige, their looking anywhere but Emily and I. "So uh, we're gonna go, see you later Spencer, you too Emily."Alex said then pulled Paige away with her. Hanna stepped forward to give Emily and I a hug.

"See you at the meet Em."Hanna said kissing the top of Emily's head. Hanna walked to her car, got in and drove off with one last look our way. "When does he leave?"

"Tomorrow."She answered looking up at me with tear filled eyes. "What if something happens to him? What if he doesn't come back Spence?"She asked, the once unshed tears now falling from her eyes.

"He's the strongest man I know Em, He'll be back for you and your Mom, He knows you need him and he'll do everything in his power to come home to you."

"How can you be so sure?"She asked. "Because I know your Dad, he loves you and your Mother more than anything in this world."

"What if when he leaves, my Mom doesn't let us see eachother?" "Then we run away, we go somewhere she can't find us and we start a life together."I whispered stroking her cheek tenderly. "Would you really run away for me, Leave everyone you love behind just for me?"She asked looking up at me hopefully. "I would do anything for you."

Sorry this is late and short, work is kicking my ass. I'm on break so I don't have time to answer all your amazing reviews. I just want to say thank you so much for reading and reviewing, you guys are truly amazing :) I hope you enjoy this chapter and the small look into Spencer's and Sam's past together. There will be more to come soon, don't worry. Thanks again guys.